Track 1: Anywhere, Anytime Soon

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Track 5: It Was Always You

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Track 9: Not As Good As Cocaine

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Track 9: Not As Good As Cocaine

Daisy: After Teddy's heart attack, I think Billy was worried I was going to relapse.

Billy: She had been sober-ish for a little while, but I knew those early days could be the hardest–and I knew Teddy's heart attack was affecting her almost as much as it was affecting me.

We were so good together, especially when she wasn't getting high all the time. I just started to get worried that I was going to lose her to it again.

Daisy: Suddenly, I was Billy Dunne's new project, even though I didn't ask to be. I think he just needed something to occupy him so he wouldn't worry about Teddy.

Billy: Almost losing someone really makes you examine what's important to you. I thought it might be cathartic for both of us to write a song about addiction.

Daisy: He said journaling was something he had learned in rehab. He wanted to write the song almost like we were pen pals. He'd write a few lines, and then hand it off to me, and I'd write a few lines, and we'd play off of each other's thoughts.

Billy: I told her to dig deep and make it dark. I wanted to know every bad, destructive thought she was thinking, and I wanted her to know mine.

Daisy: The song starts out "Yeah my life is good / but not as good as cocaine." I wasn't just writing about drugs though. There are other addictions that can burn you just as bad. To an addict…any addiction can lead to destruction.

Billy: We were writing it on a piece of paper I had ripped out of my notepad. So she'd hand me the folded up piece of paper in passing. It'd already be on the table when I went to make coffee. I'd hand it back to her after lunch. She even slipped it into my pocket before a show.

Each time we handed it off, it felt a little like a drug deal–a discreet handoff. It was by far the darkest song we had ever written, and definitely the most raw.

Daisy: He wrote this line about just sometimes wanting to set his whole life on fire and I just…I felt that, you know? I didn't realize how much of what we were feeling was the same. I didn't know how he was able to be around it all the time and abstain.

Billy: Daisy added these lines for a bridge that kind of changed the whole song. Every verse had been about the chokehold that addiction has on you–how it forces your hand, messes up your mind. But then she wrote this line about…I don't really know what it was about but it put this crack in the narrative that lets in just a little bit of hope.

Daisy: I think it was something like, "Each time I fall brings me closer to the bottom / And that used to be fine / Smoke 'em if you got 'em / Familiar pain, familiar ache / A choice, a strength, a love, a break.

Billy: [sighs] When I relapsed, I knew that was it for me. I was done with the band. I could barely be around Daisy sober–be on tour sober. There was too much…temptation.

When I was sober, I had the strength to fight it off, but when I relapsed, a part of me thought 'finally, I can stop pretending I'm a good guy. I don't have to fight it anymore.' As soon as I took my first sip, I knew I would have to leave the band if I ever wanted a chance of getting my family back.

Camila: Billy always wanted things to be easy. He saw the world as black and white–good and bad. He was a good guy–a great guy–but he hated every bad part of himself–and we all have bad parts.

Billy: My sobriety was tied to Camila and Julia–my family. I was a good man because of them, and if I wanted to stay on the right path, the righteous path, I had to keep making every decision for them, keep making decisions that would lead me back to them.

Daisy: When I relapsed…you know hit the drugs harder than I said I was going to…one of my first thoughts was 'well, I'm definitely not ever singing that fucking song about cocaine with Billy.' [laughs]

The wheels really came off the whole thing pretty fast after that. I was in free fall before that show in Chicago, but, like I said in the song, that was a familiar feeling for me. I don't think I realized just how over everything was until I realized Billy was drinking again. Him giving up somehow made me realize I didn't want to, and I really didn't want him to either. And I just knew that meant the tour was over. The band was done.

Billy: You already know, I went to rehab immediately after I went to Camila. One bad decision and I nearly destroyed my whole life. All our lives. We all deserved better.

I think in a way, I knew I wasn't helping with Daisy's sobriety either. I think I knew that she wouldn't be able to get sober if we were still together…if the band was still together.

Daisy: When someone relapses after so many years of being sober, you wonder if there was anything you could have done to stop them. You wonder if there was any small part that you played in it–and if you think there was, you just hope to god you're wrong.

Billy: At the end of the day, we're each in charge of our own sobriety. Daisy didn't drive me to drink, Cami didn't either, neither did the band. I made that choice for myself–and while I regret it every day, I have to accept that it was all part of the journey.