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So I did as you have all been telling me. I spoke with Rhiannon who rolled her eyes before smacking me upside of the head. She told me to stop being a bloody divvy and to get my ducks in a row.

Also, I have decided to use the viable embryos already there, why create when we already have. Besides… blood stays with blood and it's a horrible way to think about things but if we do ever breakup and my heart survives it, any children will be mine!

Cold. I know but I have to start thinking of me. You are all right there. Another weird thing, Jack's friend Johnty The Cunt-face Bastard has been hanging around and at first I thought it was the usual need for him to pull Jack into some gambling weekend in Vegas or something but I now think his mother has Johnty following me or something.

So I decided to confront him and got an answer I did not expect. Yes he was following me, but not for her. Jack. Jack thought I was going to run away, leave him and had John looking into any possibilities of me doing just that. He laughed as he said it, telling me he knew I would never leave, really he knew me better than I thought and we spent time talking, laughing and I finally saw that behind the bravado and bullshit, John was actually very alone.

I confided in John what had been happening, what my thoughts were and told him he was free to tell Jack. He shrugged and told me that he didn't like the way things were and had been telling Jack for years to cut ties with his mother. He did say not to go near Lucia or Jack would know. He watches her still too. What?

He left me sitting there with a now cold coffee and bland tasteless slice of cake I could only have one mouthful of before discarding.

What the hell is Jack playing at?

I will update once I get some sort of answers from Jack. I WILL confront him.

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UPDATE ONE

Jack tells me that Rose is not giving us eggs, apparently COW got stuck into her and said MY DNA is inferior so Jack needs to be the father, maybe SHE can help him find a nice girl for that and that Rose would just be 'enabling' us LOL.

I sat there silently staring at him.

I don't think he even heard himself talking, ya know? I sure as hell started hearing Mooo moo mooo mooooooooooo.

"We need to talk about John following me everywhere. I mean…. What do you think I am doing. Cheating on you? Eating forbidden chocolate cake when you want me to eat healthy? Or I have a mistress tucked away? Or … a toy boy?"

Jack looked confused, then said with a shrug "I was drunk when I asked him. Mama had just been going on about you being so quiet and sneaky and I sort of… forgot I even asked"

"So he's not reporting back?" now I was super pissed and I knew gas-lighting was about to happen, seems COW taught her little calf well.

"Oh come on love, I just… I love you so much that the thought of anything happening to you… it is more like a bodyguard sort of thing… ya know?"

"So you think he will dive in front of me if someone randomly start shooting up the library? Or… gasp… a drive by at the Laundromat?" I knew I was being sarcastic but he seemed to think it was a possibility. Bullshit.

"Jack… I don't know if we have to agree to anything right now. Let's just take a moment to enjoy ourselves, Jesus we are still newlyweds and …. What is that?" I finally noticed the box he had placed on the counter when he came home.

"I tracked down the people that Mama got to clear out things from the cottage and got back what I could. The dinner set, the glasses you live and that cute pepper and salt thing…. You know… a mama chicken with an egg under each wing that is the salt and pepper shakers… I loved that too." Jack said like this was wonderful.

"So… she didn't throw it all out, she put it somewhere?"

"Oh no… she sold it all to them for their second hand shop" Jack laughed, then sobered as I looked like I might stab him in the fucking eye. "She got fifty quid for it. Of course I had to get threatening for them to give it back, did you know that dinner set is worth at least five hundred?"

"Why they are the GOOD china. Yes" I snarled, my hackles up. She sold it. Part of my life, my past, my blood. WOW. Well… this means war.

And I know just where to hit the bitch below the belt.

"You know Cariad… your mother seems… tired. So much happening and I know she had a little health scare. Why not get her tickets for a lovely cruise? Hmmm? Maybe even for Gray too? She would love that, a week away on a luxury cruise with Gray… or her horrible best friend? Bertha? Is it? Or Mavis at the moment. I can't keep up."

Jack perked up as he praised me for being positive. He likes me opening doors to a reconciliation with Mama… blah…. Blah.

"And tell her we will mind the place, water the plants and feed the cat. No worries" I added almost like a throwaway thought.

Heh heh.

Game on!