Mayim

Mayim woke up with a sweet good morning text from Jim stating that he will be very busy at work and that he might not have the time to swing by her place later. She understands as he was on commission and already cashed a check so she just asked if she could visit him in his workstation later. He didn't see why not so she decided to just come to visit him while at work as she was initially planning to come to a cafe to have some work done. She decided to bake a batch of brownies to bring for him as Jim grew to be very fond of her baking, but this pastry is his favorite of all. Today will also be the date when her book will be published to the public. It's exciting to see her work will be put on shelves for people to see and purchase. And Jim is thrilled with everything about it.

While she was baking, she was also getting ready to see Jim at work. Before taking out the baked brownies from the oven, she received a text from Jim. It was a photo of a baby sloth smiling while eating a leaf. Mayim smiled as it was her favorite animal. Seconds after the photo was sent, a message popped up.

Look, it looks so much like you when you eat salad! the text read.

She giggled but sent him an angry face emoji to send her disagreement. I look like a sloth when I eat salad?! I'll never eat with you again!

Hey, I thought that you love sloths... I am just kidding. I take it back, you look like a baby bunny when you eat. He replied right after.

So, who's the simp now? she sent with a smirking emoji as she took out the brownies from the oven to allow them to cool off before placing them in a container. He replied with laughing emojis.

Only to you. he replied. Another text shots from him saying, Take care on your way here. I'll see you very soon, bunny.

She replied to his text and pocketed her phone as she sliced the brownies and placed them in a container. She grabbed her journal, a pen, and her laptop and placed them inside her laptop bag since her plan of going to a cafe is now changed to going to Jim's workplace. It is not her first time to come there but this is the first time that she'd be there while he will be working on an art piece. It would be interesting to see the process of how art pieces are professionally restored especially in the hands of her beloved.

As she was on her way to her car, her phone notification rang again. Once she placed her stuff inside the car, she opened the message and it was a text from Jenna.

Mayim, Congratulations! Her text reads and there was an attached article of a tweet about her comeback. The shelves in a bookstore needed an immediate restock as the people came on pouring inside to buy her book. It was an overwhelming amount of people says the clerk. They just opened an hour ago but people were pulling them off the shelves and purchasing them. She feels thrilled and excited about everything. They have really waited for my comeback... she said to her self emotionally.

She then went and sat in the driver seat of her car and placed her key on the car ignition and left her apartment complex. When she arrived at Jim's workplace building and stood up at their office/studio door, she knocked on the door hastily. When it opened, Jim was there and gave her an annoyed facial expression.

"Calm down, you'll knock the door off..." he reprimanded her. Mayim just giggled and wrapped an arm around him. "I saw and read the tweets. People are going bananas over your publication. Congratulations," he uttered behind her as he returned her warm hug. He pulled back and kissed her forehead, the tip of her nose, and pecked her lips.

"Thank you!" and kiss him again on the lips. Jim opened the door wider and lead her inside. "I made you and Kaley this!" she hand him the box of brownies to him.

"Oh, goody! But Kaley is not here today. She doesn't have any commissions and it's her cousin's wedding today. This is all mine," he said as he opened the container and smelled the brownies she just baked. "Thank you, lovey," he added and kissed her again as he lead her to the couch that is situated behind his work table. She placed her things on the couch and went to the table where he had already started on a painting. This project was a big one since the piece comes from a famous painter named, Dorothea Tanning.

"This looks oddly familiar..." Mayim said as she looked at the painting thoroughly. Jim walked came close to her and place an arm around her waist.

"Maybe. It's from Dorothea Tanning. This piece is called 'Eine Kleine Nachtmusik'," Jim replied as he went to grab his lab coat and gave one to Mayim. He also grabbed a couple of gloves and made her wear them.

"Dorothea Tanning?! As in the one who painted 'The Insomnias'?!" she exclaimed as she wore the glove Jim hand her.

He nodded and smiled at her," Yes, the very one." "You really have a keen eye for fine artwork just like you," he complimented as he stood behind heR and wrapped her hair in a ponytail.

She giggled at his compliment. "Are you going to teach me how you do this?" she asked excitedly as Jim gave her a chair to sit on.

"No, I just made you dress like this so we can be twinning," he quipped making Mayim laugh and playfully slap his arm. "But actually, we should take a picture together," he added and pulled his phone out. He placed one arm around her shoulder and pulled her closer and snapped a cute photo of them. Mayim's eyes were shut close but were smiling giddily and Jim looked at the camera with a soft smile. "Can I post this on Instagram?" he asked her after taking the photo.

She nodded, "Take another one!" she asked and Jim obliged and took another photo of them. Mayim kissed his cheek when he pressed the capture button which made Jim smile sweetly and was captured by the camera.

"You stole a kiss from me!" he whined facing her. "You should pay me!" and pecked her on the lips. They just giggled at each other as Jim posted a photo of him and Mayim on Instagram. He chose the 2nd photo with the caption, "At work, working on a piece of art with my very own Mona Lisa that likes to steal kisses."

After a few moments, Jim prepared his saline solution to begin the process of restoration. With a cotton swab, Jim showed Mayim the intricate process of removing the varnish of the art piece. Mayim was amazed at how a simple saline solution could change the color of the painting from dull to vibrant. Jim was just standing alongside her as she was very mesmerized by what she was doing.

"You only use a cotton swab to this and this portrait is at least 24 inches? This would take a while, huh?" she claimed her eyes glued to the art piece.

"It does. But this is delicate work so we need to use cotton swabs for it. If we use a bigger tool for an old painting like this one or the one that was you, it would chip some paint off. And it would make the process slower," he explained in kind. She just nodded at his response as it does makes sense. Suddenly Jim groaned in pain and took a step back from the portrait holding his head. Mayim immediately stood up and went closer to him.

"What's wrong?!" Mayim asked freaking out a little. "Is this one of your migraines again?" she asked again looking at him with pity as he crouched down still holding his head.

"Will you please be a lamb and get my meds, babe? It's in the side pocket of my bag," he barely uttered as he is still in pain. Mayim ran and look around to find where his bag was. When she found where it was, she ran in that direction and cope a feel at his side pockets to find his meds. Once she felt that she had touched a pill bottle, she immediately pulled it out and read the label. Oxydone the label reads.

"Oxydone..." she whispered and hurriedly went near the water dispenser to get water for him to take the medicine with. She stood next to him and he popped one pill and down it with water. Mayim then escorted him to the couch as he slowly recovers from pain after taking the medicine. She doesn't know if she should worry since this medicine is much stronger than Tylenol and Ibuprofen which are medicines that are usually taken for migraines. It was in a prescription bottle so it might be prescribed by his doctor. She doesn't recall any doctor visitation and she knows that this drug is not sold over the counter.

"Love, why are you taking this? This medication is strong. Should I worry?"

Jim

A few weeks ago, he went to a hospital to get himself checked. His headaches were coming more frequently than before and over-the-counter pain relievers were not helping at all. When he went to the hospital, he was recommended to take an MRI (magnetic resonance imaging) test so they could see what is happening inside his head. He is nervous and anxious as to what he will find out once he's done since he is not anticipating anything. He hopes and prays that there is nothing that will be too alarming and that nobody he knows especially Mayim will worry about anything.

Before the day of his MRI scan, he was informed that on the day that it will take place, he is not allowed to put on any deodorant or any perfume as it may contain metal that interferes with the magnetic field inside the room. When he arrived on that day, his clothes were changed into a medical gown, and made him remove all of his accessories. He was then laid flat on the patient table of the machine and he was carefully placed inside the machine. While he was inside, the technician outside the room was carefully analyzing the photos that the machine was manifesting and downloading them to a disk.

After it was done. Jim came back to his doctor to show him the results that were inside the disk. Once the doctor placed the disk on the CD player, it showed images of his scans. The doctor's aura was bright when he arrived but now became serious.

"How long have you been feeling these headaches, Mr. Parsons?" he asked scrolling down the images.

"A few months. Probably 2 or 3 months. I just didn't mind it since I have chronic migraine but this past weeks months, it happens very frequently," he answered.

"Do you notice any other symptoms besides the headaches?"

"Uhm, sometimes I would have double or blurry vision. But it may be because I am around my phone a lot and I have been meaning to get checked by an ophthalmologist. I would also feel nauseated which would cause me to vomit. And these past few weeks, I lose my appetite. I skipped meals," he explained as his doctor listened intently and was listing all of his symptoms. "Should I worry Dr. McAllen?" he asked anxiously.

"I will go straight to the point that something is growing inside your head Mr. Parsons," he calmly said as he turned his monitor to show him his results. "All of the symptoms you mentioned are symptoms of a glioblastoma. It is a type of cancer that starts as a growth of cells in the brain or spinal cord. It grows quickly and can invade and destroy healthy tissue. The glioblastoma is also manifested in your MRI test results," he added. Jim was too stunned to speak and just looked at his Dr. with widened eyes in shock and disbelief. "This is a normal MRI brain scan result and this on the right side is your result."

He wants to believe he was lying but there is a difference between the 2 results. "Doc, w-what should I do? Is this curable? Am I gonna die?!" he asked.

"This type of brain cancer can be treated by surgery. We will take the affected area since it had only affected a small portion of your brain. And thank God you have been checked right before it spread more. Right after that, you'll undergo radiation and chemotherapy to get rid of the cancer cells that may have spread across your body. It does not guarantee that once it is removed, it will all be gone. This type of cancer is aggressive so it could go back once it is removed," he replied in kind.

After he visits the doctor, he went home feeling numb. He doesn't know who to call first to tell them that he is sick. He is scared to make his girlfriend worry about his health. As long as I could, I will keep it from everybody. He has decided to get the surgery by the next month. He might make something up to Mayim to make her believe that he'd only be on vacation meanwhile, he'd actually be getting the surgery and healing his scars before "coming back home". He would not like to lie but he needs to. Mayim is such a sweet and sensitive person and she is currently blissful with how her career is doing. He wouldn't want to ruin that by telling her that he is sick.

"Love, why are you taking this? This medication is strong. Should I worry?" she asked looking at him while holding his pill bottle. Still recovering from a headache he opened his eyes a little bit to look at her.

"I went to the doctors and I mentioned that over-the-counter medicines were not working for me so he had prescribed me this one for my migraines," he lied. It seems like Mayim believed him so she placed the bottle back in his bag's side pocket and sat closer to him and wrapped her arms around him.

"I don't want to see you in pain, it hurts me too," she confessed as Jim placed his head on her chest.

"I am sorry. This is out of my control but you should not worry about me. This is nothing," he claimed as he carefully brushed his finger along her hair.

"Okay," she replied."But do you feel better now?" she asked as she pulled from their cuddle.

"Yeah, but I don't feel like moving," Jim said and wrapped his arms around her again and rested his head on her shoulder. No questions asked and Mayim just snuggled closer to him and sat comfortably cuddling him. She intertwined their finger and kissed his fingers.

"I am more than happy to hold you like this. I am more than willing to hold you like this as long as I can," she gently said. With his recent diagnosis and everything he is repressing right now, he feels very emotional. As much as he would love to tell her what's wrong with him, he'd rather keep it to save her tears. He just promises that once he'd come back, he'd be okay and act as if nothing happened. She loves her too much to see her in pain and crying about his illness. He cannot contain it and his eyes started to tear up.

Mayim raised her head and met his eyes that were looking directly at her as his eyes were streaming with tears. "What's with the tears?" she asked and wiped some of the tears from his cheeks. Jim just smiled and wiped his eyes and sniffed.

"Nothing, I just realize how much I do love you," he confessed. Mayim softened her gaze and kissed him on the lips.

"I love you too," and kissed him again. Her kisses were sweet at first and then suddenly their kisses started to become heated. Mayim pulled back from the kisses to breathe some air. "Have you ever fooled around at work?" she asked seductively running her finger at the side of his face. He shook his head no and grabbed her face gently to kiss her again. "Well, there's always a first for everything!" they both giggled.

Third Person's POV

A few weeks passed and Jim received the confirmation of his scheduled surgery. He was anxious about it and at the same time, he feels bad for keeping this from people. It's not that they don't deserve to know but he knows that the worry for his health after knowing this will weight on his friends and especially on Mayim. There were times were he was tempted to sit down and tell Mayim that he has this cancerous tumor that is slowly deteriorating his health but seeing how happy and soaring her career is, he cannot fathom to see the look on her face when he would tell her about it.

The migraines he has been feeling had become more frequent and had become more unbearable than it already does disable him from going to work. Some of the commissions he has to finish are done at his apartment. It is not ideal as some factors could affect the quality of his work but he needs to do what he needs to do. Mayim and Jim would only hang out at times when Jim wouldn't feel too sick. Mayim was busy writing for the next novel so he lets her go around their town to visit museums to take some ideas here and there, or to come to cafés where she could have a cup of freshly brewed coffee while writing. Sometimes he'd come with her, sometimes he'd be too nauseous and he needs to make excuses to get to stay at home and rest.

But his friend Kaley on the second hand has a different opinion about everything. She doesn't want to pry but ever since she asked Jim to get checked, he had become distant from her. Usually, they'd talk for some time when they are at work but their conversations had since become dry and it makes her suspect a lot. It has been a few days since Jim decided to work at home since it was her suggestion as well. She could see that Jim would suffer a lot from his headaches at work and she thinks that it would be acceptable to let him finish his commissions in a comfortable environment for him. Jim had closed weight. He would be frequently in the bathroom and would be there for some time. Jim doesn't tell her anything but she feels that he might be hiding something.

After finishing her work for the day, she quickly packed her things up and drove her way to Jim's apartment. When she arrived on his doorstep, she knocked and after a few minutes, Jim opened the door looking paler than he was, thinner and sickly. He looked at her with a weak smile. Kaley can't comprehend what she is seeing. She'd always see a lively and bright Jim and here he is who barely has the energy to even open the door.

Kaley can't help but cry and couldn't stand to look at her friend who has been like a brother to her. "Jim... what's happening to you?" she asked in between tears as she went inside behind him.

Jim sat on the couch and nodded slightly. "I don't have the heart to tell anybody about my illness. I just can't," he shrugged and smiled.

Kaley placed her palms on her face and wiped her tears. It's painful to see him in this state. "Jim, is it serious?" he nodded in response and showed her his MRI results. "W-what's this?" she stuttered.

"It's my MRI result. I had known for a few weeks now that I have a glioblastoma. It's a kind of tumor that is cancerous and could affect my organs. I am still in stage 1 and I am scheduled to have surgery within this week," he confessed giving her his diagnosis. It was a lot for Kaley to handle. She'd only known that it was just a migraine, how can she be foolish to not think earlier that it may be too serious since Jim can't even bare the pain of his headaches already?

" Does Mayim know?" she asked looking at him. He shook his head no and looked down.

"I don't want her to know. I don't want her to worry about me," he explained.

"But why didn't you tell me? At least I could've been with you during your checkups and whatnot. We don't hide things from each other right? And I think that if I didn't barge here, I wouldn't even hear about this," she told him. "I am not mad at you. I just wish that you have told me earlier."

"I know I should have but I really don't want to be a burden. I will get over this anyway so just pretend this never happened," he tried to lighten up the mood.

"No, we will not pretend that this didn't happen. Jim, we need to tell Mayim. It's unfair for her, she deserves to know."

"Kaley, it may seem like I am being selfish for keeping this all by myself but call me that and I don't care. All I care about is that I promised that woman that I will never make her cry. Even if my life will be threatened, I can't bear the look in her eyes if she'd know all about this. Please, keep this one between us.

Kaley nodded in respect to his wishes. But she really feels wrong for keeping this a secret from his girlfriend, she strongly believes that she has to know. They commit. Not a commitment from a wedding vow but their relationship is serious enough to handle this emotionally stressful situation. "So, when will the surgery happen? And where?" she asked after releasing a heavy sigh.

"In 2 to 4 days. If there's an available slot for me to have the surgery then I might get it earlier," he explained. "Kaley, I'm scared. I don't want to leave Mayim alone. Not now that we met in this lifetime. Not now that I am seeing a future with her. Not now that everything in our lives is great," he confessed as tears started forming in his eyes. Kaley doesn't know what to say so she just came close to him and cried in an embrace.

Mayim

Mayim had been pretty busy with her book and the overwhelming reaction of people to her recent publication. Some people had even recommended that it be turned into a movie or a television series. She is pumped at the idea and finds it thrilling but when her work is offered for this type of entertainment then she is down for it. Everything in her career is going smoothly and much more than what she was anticipating. But she's very invested in writing her book. All the more now that Jim had given her something that is a great help in adding some details to her story.

She was hanging out with Jim a few weeks prior at his apartment. She came over bringing her things as Jim was also working at home due to his health. He was nauseated all the time and his headaches were happening often. He reasoned out that the vomiting and nausea might be the side effects of this medication which she may believe that is. She had advised Jim to avoid food that triggers his migraine so she only bake goods for him without chocolates and she suggested that he should stop having coffee.

While she was there, she was picking his brain here and there as he was working on a commission. It was a very productive day for the 2 of them so they celebrated it in bed later that night.

"That was great! You're always been great," he said while catching his breath as Mayim lay naked beside him. Mayim doesn't tell him anything but she is starting to see and feel that he is losing weight. While encircling her finger on his chest, she noticed that his ribs were noticeable. She doesn't know if she should worry since the weight loss makes sense as he had some adjustments to his diet.

"Me or the book you helped me with writing?" she asked smiling and met his eyes.

"Everything. That's why I love you so damn much!" he said smiling and kissed the top of her head inhaling her scent. "You know what, wait for a second," he said as he broke off from the post-coital cuddle, sat up in the headboard, and opened the first drawer of his bedside table. Mayim curiously sat up and look at his actions. He pulled out a green journal and hand it to her. "Here."

"You have been journaling? I didn't know you do this..." she said smiling in disbelief. She doesn't know that her boyfriend of almost a year didn't tell her anything about this. He knows damn well that this is an essential hobby of an author. She had always told and showed him when they hang out that she brings a journal with her wherever she goes because she may be hit with an idea somewhere but she didn't have any idea that he is also doing the same thing. "What's written inside?" she asked.

"Open it," he said. She opened it and scanned through the pages. This seems to be a dream journal as every page has a date of when he wrote it and the mention of Sheldon and Amy through some of the paragraphs. "This is the dream journal I have kept and filled with my dreams since I had the crossover with Nana. She suggested it to me since it can help me understand what life I used to have as Sheldon and you as my Amy. I have been meaning to give this to you when you started writing but I kept on forgetting about it. You can have it now," he said.

"Thank you, this will help me a lot. But how about your dreams? Where will you write them now?" she asked as she closed the journal and snuggled closer to him.

"Well, I don't think that the past matters since I have the future here beside me. Besides, if ever I all dream about it again, I will just tell you since I always envision sleeping and waking up next to you for the rest of my life," he confessed making Mayim blush.

"That is so cheesy..." she laughed making Jim giggle. "But I do too. I hope that this never ends."

That was the last time they hang out together. He had been very busy at work and she had been very soaked up in doing her work as well. She was not as invested in writing in anything like her novels before. She is hyperfocused and would often forget to take breaks or when Jim sends her a message. Just like her recent days, she had spent the entire day just writing and deleting paragraphs for her new novels. She wants this to be perfect since this book entails her and her lover's past which is extremely bizarre but exhilarating.

Amidst her focus, she was then distracted by a phone call that comes from Jim. A distraction that is always welcome in her book. She quickly answered the call.

"Hey, how's my baby doing?" Jim asked rather enthusiastically.

"Great. I have been writing all day. I am sorry if I haven't been active in sending you a message, I am just really in the zone," she said making Jim giggle on the other line. "How about you? You have been feeling sick all this week, I should be the one asking you that?"

"Oh, I am fine thank you for asking. It's just a migraine. It's not like I can't kill the pain without my meds," he said making Mayim giggle. "Hey listen, I got to be invited to work in The Art Museum of Eastern Idaho on Capital Avenue. I will fly there in 2 days. It is a rush notice but I couldn't just decline since it is a big opportunity. I would love to bring you there with me but I don't want to bring you elsewhere to bore you out because I am working. I want to bring you somewhere where I could give you all my attention."

"Lovey, it's fine. I will miss you but I understand that this is work. It's not that I can't keep my hands to myself you know?" she quipped making Jim giggle on the other line. "How long will you be there? And would you want me to drive you to the airport?" she asked.

"No, thank you. I don't want to be an inconvenience. Just work on that book, okay? Don't mind me"

"Don't mind y- Do you know how sexy you are?! What if a chick there would seduce you?!" she jokingly reprimanded. "You're basically a walking sex on a stick!"

He scoffed on the other line and replied, "Are you sure you're talking about me? Or yourself? Have you seen your heinie that is-"

"Jim!" she exclaimed making Jim laugh. There was a long pause before he speak again.

"Mayim..."

"Hmm?"

"I love you," he said almost choking.

"I know that, and I love you too."

"Whatever may happen on this trip, please know that I love you," he said rather emotionally.

"I will..." she replied feeling a bit weird.

"I should leave you be as you need to continue writing. I know how that makes you feel alive so do that. I will call you right before bed, love you talk to you soon," he replied and ended the call right before she could even speak.

Lately, Jim has been very emotional around her. Whenever they will spend time together, Jim will just hold her hand even when they go to bed. He doesn't seem to want to let go of her. She doesn't mind since she loves the contact but whenever she tells him that he loves him or does something for him, he'd cry and embraces her in a hug. She'd ask him what was wrong but he would just tell her that everything is okay. He would stare at a blank space often which is something that he doesn't do before. He always seems to be deep in thought despite the fact she knows that whatever he may be thinking, he'd tell her. Like, if oranges were called like that because of their colors, then why are lemons not called yellows? Or that if a sex addict becomes a prostitute, are they automatically a workaholic? and so much more. He is very random and lately, he has not been that person anymore.

Of course, there is still the consistency of him being sweet and caring as a boyfriend but something just changed. It's as if he is hiding something from her. She'd ask a question about it but he dodges the questions like a bullet. But if it's something that may be harmless, she'd be okay with it. And she understands that he is not feeling well lately. She just hopes and prays that whatever it may be, she hopes that it is not something that her ex will do to her. She doesn't want to go through that trauma again. And not with Jim that made her feel all emotions a person should feel. She cannot imagine it.

Third Person's POV

After the call, Jim and Mayim continued to communicate online before his departure. He'd call from time to time and text her asking how she is. Mayim would visit cafés and museums to get ideas as she was writing. She had been finally doing what she used to do when she was younger. The only difference was just she has now come to an age where she'd get tired when she walks too much without sensible shoes. She's happier and livelier but her body is aging and it was frustrating. She shakes her head in her thoughts. All is well even though she misses hanging out with her man.

Today was supposed to be the day where he'll fly to Idaho and he said that once he landed, he will shoot her a text but wasn't a promise. It has been 3 hours after his flight and she hasn't received any texts from him. Although she was told that he'd be busy right away and can't promise to be keen on replying so she just shrugs it off. Earlier today, she just had this gnawing feeling in her pit that something is happening. She cannot point out what is it about but she feels that it may something about Jim. But she knows that she could trust him and she does. Shaking the feeling once again, she just continued to do her work.

Later in the afternoon, she walked through a park to take a break and just be outside to see the sunset. The pretty sunset of California. She took a photo of the sunset and quickly send it to Jim. I hope that you're sitting with me today on this bench, watching this sunset with you. I hope you won't tire yourself too much today. I love you her text read. Up until now, she hasn't received any texts from him and her text is not yet read. She doesn't want to worry but she is just not used to him being like this. Taking one last glance from her phone, she placed it in her purse and watched the skies in pretty shades of purple, orange, and blue.

Jim on the other hand went to the hospital on the day of his surgery. He was nervous but Kaley was there with him. They took the day off and didn't accept commissions for the next few days. Kaley was there trying to be strong for her friend but she can't avoid feeling anxious about the surgery. Jim just sat at his hospital bed thinking about Mayim. He hates that he has to hide this from her but he feels that he needs to. She doesn't deserve the emotional toll it would have on her.

"Hey, how are you?" Kaley asked walking near his bed. There were just preparing him since his surgery will be in half an hour.

"I'm fine," he replied with a timid smile. Kaley can't help herself but fidget out of anxiety. "Oh, calm down Kaley. I will be fine. I will be at the hands of the best neurosurgeon in the country," he told her to ease her a little. Kaley released a big sigh and tried to brush the hair off her face.

"Can't believe that I am a more nervous wreck than you are. You're the one who's getting the surgery not me," she anxiously said while covering her face with her hand. Jim just smiled and called her.

"Kaley, I am nervous and scared too, I'll be honest but fear won't get me anywhere," he said in kind.

"Would you want a hug?" Kaley asked as she raised her sight to look at him. Jim just spread his arms wide for the hug so Kaley got up and hugged him. A few minutes later some nurses went inside alongside his doctor to accompany him to the ER. Kaley held his hand and said "You're in great hands, Jim. I'll wait for you here and I'll see you in a bit," she said as tears are starting to form around her eyes.

"Oh, Kaley please stop crying. Maybe come with me with the Anesthesiologist so he can numb you too," he quipped making Kaley slap him on the arm and making the people in his room laugh. "Thank you for being with me here Kaley. I appreciate it. you're a good friend." Kaley just nodded as he was escorted from the room to the ER.

Kaley went outside to grab herself some tea to calm her nerves and quickly went back to the hospital. As she was sitting in the waiting area, her conscience doesn't seem to make her feel relaxed. She really feels the strong need to tell Mayim about this because she deserves to know. She promised Jim to keep this one between them but she's trying to put herself in her position and it makes her feel betrayed in some way. She knows that the purpose has good intentions but she keeps on fidgeting about Jim's surgery and the guilt she feels about Mayim. She doesn't know what to do. It had only been half an hour since Jim's surgery started and the doctor had told her that it may take 3-5 hours for the procedure to be done. She needs to kill some time at the same time ponder what to do next.

Finishing her cup of tea after a few moments, she stood up and made up her mind. She took her phone and dialed a number while trying to calm herself down.

"Hey, Mayim!" she greeted after she picked up after two rings as she tried to hide the shudder of her voice.

"Hi, Kaley. I am not expecting you to call. How are you?" she replied.

"I am okay," she lied. "Mayim, if you're not busy can I ask you to please meet me at a Starbucks here on the Freeway?" she added as her voice cracked.

Mayim gasped on the other line since she could feel that Kaley might be upset. "Sweetie, is everything okay?" she replied with concern evident in her voice.

"I'll tell you in person. Please meet me there," she sniffed and thanked her for picking up the call and ended it.

Mayim

After looking at the sunset in the park, she decided to end the day and walked her way home. It was a peaceful day. She got work done without any distractions besides the fact that she is kind of bothered that Jim hasn't contacted her since his departure. He might be busy and having a great time at work. Or he might be feeling sick again and is staying in his hotel. She doesn't really know. But her gut feeling is telling her something but doesn't know what is it.

When she arrived home, she quickly relaxed on her couch and placed her feet on top of her coffee table. She sighed and pulled out her phone to see if Jim had read her messages or texted her but there was none. She put her phone down and sighed and tried to close her eyes when her phone suddenly rang. It may be him she thought and quickly picked the phone back. She read the caller's ID and it was Kaley's name. As she picked up the call, she was greeted by her enthusiasm but amidst the call, she suddenly became melancholic and asked to meet her. Her sob took her by surprise as she was not expecting it. She doesn't know why she would become emotional all of a sudden but her sob really made her heart beat fast for some reason. After the call ended, she changed her clothes, fixed herself, and went inside her car.

When she arrived at the destination, she entered the coffee shop and saw Kaley at one of the tables inside staring out the window. It was already dark out and there were not a lot of people outside but she seems too deep in thought. She went close to her and her presence was immediately recognized. Kaley stood up to be near her and wrapped her arms around her as she started to sob again. She was speechless as to why she is upset and why does it need for her to be here.

"Sorry..." she uttered as she sobs still wrapped around her. Mayim hugged her back and gently caressed her back to calm herself for a little bit.

"Kaley, what's wrong please tell me..." she asked as Kaley broke from the hug and wiped the tears on her face.

"It's about Jim," she barely uttered but sternly. Her heartbeat becomes rapid as she anticipates her to continue talking but she couldn't stop herself from sobbing.

"W-what about Jim? Isn't he in Idaho right now?" she stuttered. Kaley shook her head no and smiled at her timidly and talked.

"He made me promise that this will just be between us because he doesn't want to upset you. But I feel really guilty because you deserve to know," she replied He's not cheating, isn't he? she thought to herself.

"What would make me upset? I don't understand, please just tell me what's going on," she pleaded not liking the suspense.

"Come with me," Kaley said as she stood up and gently gripped Mayim. Mayim just let her lead the way. They walked across the street, Kaley not letting go of her hand as they walked at a brisk pace. As they walked through the street she wandered her eyes around and saw the establishment that they seem to be going to. It was the 'Huntington Hospital' there in Pasadena. She is clueless as to why Kaley is bringing her here. But couldn't bring herself to talk since her thoughts are still wrapped around what she may or may not know about Jim.

When they went inside, Kaley brought her to the waiting area and sat with her. She took a deep breath in and exhaled and faced her.

"I know that you are completely clueless as to why I am bringing you here. As I have told you earlier, Jim doesn't wish for you to know about this but he is now in the emergency room getting his surgery," Kaley confessed holding both of her hands.

"Surgery for what?" Mayim tried to be calm even if she was screaming inside.

Kaley exhaled deeply again and said, "To remove his glioblastoma. From what I understand, it's an aggressive cancerous tumor that grows in your brain. He was suggested to have it removed since it is still early and right after that he'd be undergoing chemo and radiation therapy to kill the cancer cells that may spread in his body," she explained making Mayim cover her mouth in utter shock. "I am sorry that you need to hear it from me but he made it clear that this was just between us. Even his mom doesn't know. I only told you because I can't help the guilt I am feeling," she added as tears started to form at the corners of her eyes. Mayim can't but cry. How can she be so naive about the sudden decline of her lover's health and didn't bother to do more to find out? She should be the one who should know first. But she understands that Jim is just protecting her. Even if he was in pain, he was still thinking about her. She can't help but cry at how selfless he still was.

"Where is he now? Can I see him?" Mayim barely uttered as she sobs.

"I believe that the surgery might take 2-3 hours or more. But it has been an hour and a half since the surgery started so he may be out of the emergency room soon," Kaley told her. "Don't be worried Mayim. Jim will get through this." Mayim just nodded and sighed.

Jim is strong. He'll get through this. He should be.

As they were still waiting for Jim, they were quiet and were on their phones. Mayim was staring at the blank once in a while. while Kaley is exchanging messages with her boyfriend. Mayim recalled the times that they had together and their past that made her tear up again. Kaley looked at her and rubbed her arms up and down.

"It's okay..."Kaley said gently.

"You know, we promised each other as Amy and Sheldon that we'd see each other again," she started. Kaley just looked at her with melancholy in her eyes and gently nodded as she knows everything about the story of their past life. "And I am so scared that we will not continue our love in this lifetime either. How is fate so cruel? He is the only man I have ever loved like this. The only man I'd want to be with for the rest of my life. The only man that is meant for me and fate still tries so hard to break us apart..." she added amidst tears. "In what lifetime will I ever finally have him as my lifetime partner?"

"Mayim..." she whispered as she started to be emotional again. Her heart is aching for her. She can't help it. "Damn, PMSing and all of these can really make the water work," she tried to lighten the mood which made Mayim giggle. "Don't lose hope May, I know Jim's love for you is stronger than the tumor in his head. So he'll wake up after this surgery as if nothing happened. That's his plan actually," Kaley smiled that comforts Mayim a little bit.

A few moments passed and a doctor went out of the ER and was looking for Jim's family members or guardians. Mayim and Kaley hurriedly introduced themselves and the doctor informed them that during the surgery, Jim had a blood clot that made the surgery take longer but the surgery was successful making Mayim and Kaley relieved. But because of the blood clot, they medically induced him to heal it completely after the surgery to avoid any complications. He also mentioned that they were cleaning him up and that in a few, he will be transferred back to his room. They thanked the doctor and went to his hospital room to wait for him there.

Mayim had told Kaley that she should come home as she needs some rest and she will be in the hospital to stay with him. Mayim thanked her for everything she did for today and for telling her about this. Kaley bid her goodbye and told her to call if there was any problem. They hugged each other and then Kaley went out of her way to go home. Mayim sat on the spare bed in the hospital room. She sends a quick text to Jenna and Chad about what happened which largely surprised the two of them. They have offered Mayim if there is anything that she needs or if they are of help. Mayim told them that she was okay and that she will keep the group updated via their group chat.

After a few minutes, a few nurses arrived and pushed Jim that is in his hospital bed. He looks soundly asleep as his head is wrapped in gauze. She thanked the medical staff as they were on their way to go outside. The nurse had told Mayim that he might be in a coma for 2 or three days. If they might be any problems, she can always press the ring button for any medical assistance that the patient may need. She thanked him again as the nurse went outside. Mayim carefully walked near her boyfriend's hospital bed. He looks really pale and appears to have lost weight. His jaw is much more pronounced and his cheekbones got a bit deeper and so was the bags under his eyes. She can't help but feel bad for his state. She grabbed a chair and sat next to him and held his hand.

"You still look so handsome, my love," she whispered and kissed his knuckles and bought them nearer to her cheek. His hands belong to a person who is good at cooking, comforting, and expressing love. The hand that brushes her hair when she's upset, to make her sleepy, and after they make love. "I know why you didn't tell me. I am not mad at you. I am mad at myself. The signs were there but I was too soaked up at work that I chose to do that first before tending to you. If I was in your position you'd even resign just to take care of me. I am so selfish, I don't deserve you," she added as tears streamed down her face.

"Jim, I love you so much. Please fight this, I will be with you all throughout. Just don't leave me. You finally found me after death once kept us apart," she continued as she bawl he eyes out. Tired from crying she wrapped an arm around his torso and fell asleep next to him.

Just a few minutes of being in slumber, she was woken up by a violent shaking of her arms. She raised her head up and saw Jim's body shaking. She stood up freaking out about what to do, she tried to push him down to stop his seizure but it was still happening. She then pressed the emergency button a couple of times while calling out his name. His heart rate was raising rapidly and so was his oxygen level. A nurse came running by the door and Mayim told her what has happened as Jim is still violently shaking, she quickly went by the door and yelled "code blue" to her colleagues.

Doctors and a few more nurses came to his room and gently escorted Mayim by the door but she insisted to stay.

"I need to be with him! Please, let me stay," she begged as tears started to form in her eyes.

"We're sorry ma'am but you can't be inside..." she was informed in kind.

"No, please I want to be with my man. Jim!" she pleaded but she was escorted outside.

"Jim!"