BPOV
Edward was all I could think of during the last week.
I realized the initial surprise and shock that I had felt on hearing his reasoning behind marrying Tanya were slowly vanishing. He was an idiot, but apparently that wasn't enough for me to stay mad at him forever!
He hadn't tried to contact me again after I had told him last week that the best thing would be to stay away from each other, and not to pursue anything further.
We only talked during the meetings as usual. He would sometimes sneakily throw a smile toward me during the meeting, which would make me want to forget about everything and jump into his arms, remove his shirt, shower him with kisses, and...
I had no fucking idea what was fucking wrong with me!
I wanted him.
But I knew this was wrong!
Tanya was in Coma, for God's sake! Irrespective of whatever the fucking reason they had married, she was his wife, and we just... shouldn't betray her!
"Esme is really worried about Edward," Mom told me on the phone one evening.
"Oh, what happened?" I said.
"Tanya's condition is not getting any better," she said, "And Edward is just getting depressed it seems... He's not even interested in meeting them. He cancels all her dinner plans... Everyone is getting really worried!"
I rolled my eyes and sighed. If only they really knew the reason behind his... 'depression'!
"How is he at work?" she asked, "Is he doing okay there?"
"Ummm... yeah," I said, "I guess it's a good distraction for him."
"Yeah I guess," she said.
I sighed.
Such a messy situation this was!
And it was all because of him!
He shouldn't have gotten married to her in the first place!
Well, I continued to fight as hard as I could with myself, but finally gave up and decided to call him.
"Bella?" he said as he answered the call immediately.
"What are you doing?" I asked.
"Ummm... Nothing," he said, "Just drafting an email. Tell me."
"I can call you later if you're busy," I said.
"No... No, I'm free," he said.
"Ummm... I was thinking about everything..." I decided to go to the topic directly, "And you know, I still think... It's wrong!"
"I know," he said.
I never thought I'd ever consider starting a relationship with a married man, but here I was!
This was Edward! For some unknown reason, he had always held a special place in my heart, and I wanted to forget all my morals for him!
I didn't care about any rights and wrongs!
"I don't do the one night stands," I said.
"Ummm... I know?" he said.
"Well, but I don't have such restrictions for two nights, three nights, four nights stands..." I said.
Yeah, I had fucking lost it!
He didn't say anything for some time.
"Ummm..." He chuckled, "So I'm not really sure if you're implying what I think you are implying."
"Ummm... Do you want to come here... if you're free?" I asked.