I did this since i had nothing better to do, what with rewriting my Norfolk story and such. This looks at what someone who is in control of Bon Homme richard and decides to walk down her path could be like, afflicted by her same emotions and burning revenge as well.

Updated on 5/14/2023 to include a few more words about New jersey and Alpha.

I wanted to write a tale featuring something else other than a abyssal KC SI... who hasn't really had any much in the setting other than being the big bad trying to corrupt Kronsthadt. Consider it a what-if self reflection (Though perhaps not a very good one) of how a person who is unhappy reacts being placed into Richard's position with the powers of their background from multiple fandoms, and decides to embrace the living weapon idea of Richard with their own brand of disillusion and trying to 'punish' the world.

I wrote this down in the event that I do die, which is becoming more likely and likely, even with my position as being a shipgirl gifted the most powerful of abilities from my time in the Touhou and Nanoha fandom alike. Not that it matters, They've already analyzed me and for lack of a better word, tried to 'clone' the unique human spirit, only for that idea to fall flat when Yorktown II and the retrofits didn't show my arcana abilities, and the METAs.. All disasters, All fragments of my soul's shadow driven insane without my prior life experience to hold them together.

The name is Bon Homme Richard, Or. Call me Marco from a rice-eating part of the world. Maybe you do know the name, maybe you don't, No matter. if you're reading this, then i'm as gone as a ghost by this point, A mere normal person like you need not know, But if you do want... that is another matter which I will explain.

You may know that I was once considered the Ideal shipgirl, akin to a perfect transhuman, A 'alpha', for lack of a better word as much as i despise that wording. A dream to these shipgirl experts and scientists, The one who held the key to unlocking the secrets of Kanmusu, A shipgirl of mystery, What you never knew was that, even with greatness being thrust upon a simple boy. I was still very discontent and pugnacious. A Magical Shipgirl, The strength of a shipgirl body combined with the reality-bending abilities of these girls from Touhou and Madoka. On par with Reimu, Madoka or the strongest girls themselves. Even complete with the armor, wings and futuristic technology blended with magic to inspire them all and make them reevaluate the possibilities.

"Why did you do it?" I've heard that word so many times, From my superiors, peers and subordinates, In so many circumstances, What they never knew was the fact I was a human from another plane, My predicament, The fact i'm ultimately doomed to repeat Richard's destiny in the story and the fact memories of my trauma as a child followed me here... All for being a repressed boy! What they do not realize is the fact that I'm the one who will bring on the Cataclysm, A cataclysm of their own making, They summoned me here, And yet. my human soul was entangled into this body despite the fact they do not know that a human is masquerading as Richard and that she is not the actual Richard they know, For what?

Why was I sent here? Some sick cosmic fantasy? Kinomoto wanting me to 'make things right'? Am I even human at all? Is this punishment for the fact i have a natural talent for acting as some of the more crazier girls like Rumia or Flandre? Yukari herself being a dick? I'm just a average person, Go away and leave me be.

And yet, I was brought here. so it doesn't change anything musing like this now, I believe i have my reasons as to why i was brought here. All for what?

Mankind's dreams, Mankind's ultimate desire, To be better than human, To surpass humanely limitations, To be the strongest, To go the farthest, To climb the highest, Big numbers, To compete, To envy, Then hate, and cannibalize each other, Even creating synthetic life in the form of Kanmusus who will turn on them to inherit the world! All for what? 'Progress'. as some would say? Selfish desires cloaked under the veil of a noble cause, or for DAPRA's purposes, One's own greeds as philanthropy, All to cover up murdering entire tribes in South America just to clear away the natives for hydropower! How naive are we, wearing these rose tinted glasses we call ideals... Someone who once roleplayed as Prinz Eugen told me once in a session, "The American dream is just but a faded dream in the dreamer's mind". I don't remember it well from years ago.. But I still remember it clearly.

Do you think such a stupid species deserves to be exterminated or forcibly mutated past its limitations?

I do.

Call me a monarchist, Democratic Socialist, Authoritarian, Post-humanist. Someone who is from the lower class, who is expected to smile to the customer, who is expected to never want UBI to live out the rest of his days in a automated future, A Roleplayer, Who is nothing but a boy, Male human cattle to be disposable labor and to support the old themselves in a Ponzi scheme. Someone who is driven by a strong desire to correct the flaws of civilization and wants to prepare for a transition and eventual conversion to a shipgirl future or some other transhuman kind;Youkai, The Arknight girls, Mutants. Be it by force or not. It does not matter, If i can Evolve to shed my human body behind to survive and thrive in such a alien world, Why can't the rest of humanity?

I truly enjoyed your songs, Taylor Swift, Illustrious, Baltimore. so sweet and refreshing with that brand of refreshingly cloying naivete... Still, it doesn't hide the atrocities behind Hollywood with the drug-filled parties and the corruption and death there, You ought to know that the real world is nothing like that pop-culture tranquil portrait that you paint of it, even if I was genuinely waiting for you to surprise me in a way that would make me change my views.

You see the top-brass, Enterprise and her ilk themselves and on the other side, The Creator and her cronies of a equal top-brass with her pretenses of fighting for freedom to secure a future for the shipgirl species Viva a la Prussia Independence into Germany, All fighting to secure a world where Humanity or Kanmusus will walk down the path of the Combine's Half life repressed world, Such hypocrisy... not condoning fighting even though one has a bloodied memory cube and a skull in the other, Is that going to stop the fighting let alone going to come to anything? Futility is much underrated... Why continue deluding yourself with that kind of sweet horseshit, saying "Someday, that day will come!"

Open your eyes and see that in truth, THAT DAY WILL NEVER come! What do you believe in? And why do you? To continue living in that kind of denial and self-lying in a echo chamber, Where death is a forgotten myth and violence is merely a legend just like Blue Archive? When that little orb of happiness you live in is shattered by a Mist, Clouds of entire Spore eruptions and creatures from beyond otherworldly realities, I assume you, The nightmare will not be a nightmare anymore, but real beyond any of H.P Lovecraft's darkest wet dreams...

You shouldn't blame me for what i've done, This is what mankind wanted and unleashed on themselves all along in trying to create and then control life with the ability to think for itself in a superior humanoid body. I'm just helping everybody down that dark path which they have all chosen from themselves! I know that humanity will be swallowed by the out of control artificial life it has created! I know this as a human myself who was sent here for reasons i do not know other than to change the world 'forever'!

And now we have you, Observer Alpha. Trying to impose order on chaos and also trying to clone my own epigenome and the shadow of my human soul and my abilities as a Magical Shipgirl. I actually do admire your ideals and that you do have your owns beyond just being a uncaring dick-scientist in the game yourself, but Ideals do not exist of themselves, Abstractions can never defend themselves, if only you could follow through on your promises... Good Observer, Noble, Wise alpha. If only the fools knew that other kanmusu do not believe in you... Having your own grunts sinking civilian ships despite promising to follow global regulations on war crimes and follow through with justice in the midst of a global war, ordering that assassination attempt on the G20 leaders with a experimental reverse-engineered carrier-borne stealth bomber you stole from my Avenger Two when it was shot down, Inspiring the world to unify against Kanmusus...

Observer Alpha, In love with herself... Observer... The tragic shipgirl version of Lacus Clyne and Neptune and Hakurei Reimu... You were a good scientist, But as a fellow general yourself in the leadership. and as a shipgirl being yourself who used the data from me when one of your cannon fodder girls broke off a chunk of my steel and drew my blood during a close in-fight to turn yourself into a pseudo-magical girl and who, even armed herself with imitations of my own Knife Funnels controlled by psychic-waves just like how Satori does it... You are nothing but dirt beneath everybody's collective heel, I never knew you as a fool either way, perhaps now is good a time as any to discover it, Good luck. Alpha, perhaps my 'descendants', or my failed imitations, the Priorities will be more than happy to end your suffering, You must be getting tired. I reckon, perhaps tiring of this several years-long war...

And you know it, Observer Alpha. And now you are caught in between two factions inside your ragtag of a Confederation where one of them wants the same thing almost like ZAFT or Zeon:

"To defeat humanity and subjugate them to a single rule and a single fate."

What a pity. Once you have slain all your foes and all your allies are dead and you have to fight amongst yourselves. There is no future in that, no future at all for humanity. No future for yourself and your kin.

Finally, I come to you. my 'successful' clone, my daughter. Or should i say... New Jersey? I'm sorry that i brought you into this world, NJ. I had to, Actually. who would carry on my legacy if not for you? Carry my plan to its fruition, and see that my plan for carrying on my legacy is not as broken and dysfunctional as that of the DAPRA top brass or Doctor Anzeel or the human in control of this body...

I know that i am not the real Richard, and i'm not the 'Richard' that they know. I know that this body is not mine, I know that I am a puppet, that I was put here, just like I was put here on Earth, as a pawn for someone else's ambitions. But that doesn't mean I don't care about you, NJ. It doesn't mean I don't want to protect you, and it doesn't mean that I don't want to save you from these people, who are so hellbent on achieving their own goals.

And maybe someday, you'll understand. Maybe one day, you will understand why i had to walk down this path. Why i had to do this, and why i had to let this happen. But until then, I will not try to kill you, And I will be dropping clues along the way.

And so, I bid you goodbye... for now, I will return one day. in one way or another. Soon enough. And I shall ensure that when I do, the world will walk the path of the Cataclysm and Arknights in its hellish landscape glory. no matter who is the last one standing.

Goodbye, NJ.

Fin

One of my friends came down with post viral CFS, Not only that, I also experienced health issues in the last several months of so that made me come down with really bad writer's block as well (and of course Mahiro Oyama since the anime came out). along with being distracted by new fandoms and stuff. There are also writing problems that are starting to show up in Tricolore of the Stars that I feel the need to correct;namely the arcana reveal, the slow burn as well as trying to build on the characters themselves. Also, writing quality is in desperate need for a overhaul.

You will find me sooner or later on Blue Archive, Girls Frontline or Arknights though, Stay tuned for my interpretation of these series as well! :3-Norfolk

The only thing that remains is the end. The end of this world. The end of all things.

That is what I believe.

And so, I continue to walk down this road.