This is the 1 part of a series of fics im writing lately, the order will be:
May I use your shower?
Volver a tener algo
Addicted to Chems
Traumas at the Commonwealth
And this one, Being awake
Since im in a rampage writing with this new ship I want to make some announcements
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Danse suddlenly wake up, lost and alarmed when the door of his private quarters open out of nothing in the middle of his sleep. Is not like he was a paranoid or anything but any good soldier was always ready for action and he had a laser gun hiding to the side of his night table…what? Isn't that normal? Jeez
He quickly sat on the bed pointing the laser gun to whatever it was with his vision getting used to the light of the corridors and…a blue and yellow tall dot…he sighted using his other hand to clean his eyes and clean the vision, sighting tired, oh my god not again…
-Soldier what the hell? –screamed Danse still with the gun pointing at him, the other man raise up his hands a bit looking to the other side.
-What? An stressfull day at the brotherhood again?
Yeah Nate you can come to take a shower to my quarters whenever you want…it would be fun Danse say…jeez then he took this lackfull of respect manner of coming at any hour to use his bathroom like it really was his! With absolutely no respect! Nate didn't understand ranks or manners in the brotherhood even if he was a USA veteran…or didn't care enough to pretend understand…or was playing dumb to do whatever in the brotherhood…still, what a very bad idea to suggest that like it was something small…the man have no boundaries to use the resources around him! No shame at all! No consideration to others! With such little shame he could be a cannibal any of this days
-Its 3am! -he screamed and see a smirk in the other man face, then tired he trow the weapon to the nightstand and make a sign with the hands to let him pass in, the knight closed the door behind him and Danse turn on the light next to his bed-we left at the cafeteria! You went to sleep! –he was frustrated, how dare the knight to interump his sleep so shamesly
-And I did, I went to bed early and started to look out things in my pip-boy…then I heard an alert in liberty radio about a supermutant attack in Country Crossing and went to help –Danse sighted, its not like he didn't care about his…friend job as General of the Minutemen but…I mean it wasn't the cause of the brotherhood in specific, like, if you are not in the brotherhood you are no one…It was a good cause but not like he cared that much…admirable? Yes but…
-And why the hell are you here? –its not like it was a surprise, he was covered in mud…and for the smell it seems like supermutant blood in someparts, it was a very recognizable and strong smell.
-Well when I heard the alert it was 22:30 and luckily it was close to go and help, since it was a bother to put them to work at this hours I did get some gifts for the pilots and took a vertibird to that place and arrived almost 23…took me more than I expected and ended with the orde almost at midnight…and then I was too…energic…lets end it like that and wanted to walk and feel the fresh night air…and walked here, to Boston Airport…from Country Crossing to here…
-Jet? –asked Danse sighthing again, tired, disappointed…
-Nono…not chems…-Nate looked at his GRA and moved it a bit, with a bitter smile-rush in action…I don't know how to express it…-the paladin didn't care too much right now, he would normally do and make a fuss about it but…he yawned and give the knight every information he needed-anyway can I use your…
-Yes! Whatever! Let me sleep! –the paladin trow himself to the bed and cover again, hearing the man walking to the bathroom.
It was funny because he only used the shower in his room, Nate was really serious about washing himself with soap and shampoo, he was so incensed about the fact that in the public showers never ever ever was a soap bar to be seen…less shampoo…to wash in only water he said he rather bath in Sanctuary rivers…when Danse told him that he would get sick in radiation Nate told him something weird about not getting affected after he level up or something he didn't understand and didn't get too deep in…
Anyway, closing his eyes, he found sleep again…
Not much because an hour later according to the digital red clock on the nightstand a really nice smell to perfume wake him up lightly…mmm was that the smell of the floor cleaner he used on his bathroom? His eyes slowly wake up, it was a strong smell to wake him up and make him stay awake but not bother too much, still, wasn't good to be interrupted again.
As his eyes slowly open, the light of the bathroom hit them, took a moment to be amused and clear his vision once again until he saw something…at least strange…
Door open with the light of the bathroom on, Nate naked looking himself at the mirror, arms against the mirror, face and eyes looking at his reflection with a really serious face…what the hell…
Danse had the privilege to have a body big mirror, and there it was the knight…looking at himself…naked…apparently…meditating about something…
Why Nate was so strange sometimes…apparently he didn't notice he was awake…the man was lost in his own thoughts…
Its not like he had a problem with nudity, less with other mans, as a soldier you learn how to share…and be around…and live with other partners to be prepared to extreme conditions but surely this wasn't normal!
Still, maybe it was because he thinked he wasn't aware of this, after all, Nate told him that the lack of privacy was something that really was on his nerves after waking up 200 years in the future…and the lack of proper showers…and cleaning in general…
The paladin was laying on his bed, covered like he was still sleeping, hiding his face and open eyes in the dark, controlling himself to not make a sound that would alert the knight…
Nate was a pretty decent man, normal, generic someone would say…relatable…he had one of those faces…not so tall…not so muscle…slim enough but not a stick…the man could walk, jump, climb, swim, fight, punch and whatever and be always the same, they meet a few months ago, do a lot of stuff together, travel to a lot of places just waking and hiking and never see a process or a downgrade on his physical state at all…it was weird to see big people…he saw them on pictures and records of the brotherhood, big people, fat, have so much food that their body changes around that fact…well that was…certainly hard to see, even he as a paladin never had a season of full stomach…hunger was a thing in the wasteland and of course Nate wouldn't get body fat specially if he refused to eat rad fresh food…but he never see the man go thinn neither so…
Something caught his attention looking at his body, and yawning he sit up in the bed and get up from it, the other man semeed to notice, at first, a bit scared because he wasn't really paying attention to his surroundings and out of nothing there was sounds again, then, a bit ashamed, cheeks blushing because he was with his guard low and all exposed, and then put a nerveous smile, better not say anything about the fact he was naked and the paladin may not notice…of course he noticed it but better play dumb…both mans wew after all and in the military it wasn't a big thing…right? Right…still, being around so displayed around the paladin make him a bit nerveous, it wasn't intentional, this didn't happened on purpose…
-After the shower I clean the floor a bit to take out the water and put some floor liquid, didn't spect to have any fragrance, that take me for surprise –Danse was clearly very sleepy, eyes almost closed and with a very woobly expression, maybe he noticed but it wasn't the big thing…
-This one looks ugly –the paladin posed a hand over a very actually very big bruise between his hip and waist on the side of his body, Nate jumped a bit with his cheeks going full red, not expecting that, but at seeing Danse face examinating only what he was looking at he sighted, better not have wrong ideas…
Gosh since a while Nate feeled like drooling around that big man, he once "flirted" fooling around and the paladin took it so seriously…that response make the knight wake up feelings on his chest he thought he buried…with Noras dead body on the vault 111.
But no, not right now, he was only cautivated because Danse was charming and make his thoughts go to places he never expect…but it wasn't intentional from him, Danse was Danse right now…it wasn't a courtship, he was just worried about his wounds like he did always like a very caring person…or his officer in command more specifically…
-It has a pair of days, I just bruise very violet –the man had a very serious face…inspecting his skin and colors, the hand closed his fingers around that place and Nate had to control himself to not gasp in surprise, its okay...he was just misleading things…Danse wasn't doing anything…the paladin pressed some fingers on the violet spot and then rise them, seeing the skin change colours from yellow to violet…
-Does it hurt? –the deep on his voice was totally playing on him, ah…he was so confused how he feeled around the paladin…
-Only if I spin in that direction or press it…is just a bruise…-unintentional, Nate looked for his eyes, for his very manly face, getting amazed by every detail of it…his scars, the look of his beard, how big his lips were, the colours of his entire face…he was in trance looking at him, still, ashamed of getting caught by the man who was only worried about his injuries…
They were too close, this feeled like a very intimate moment, he could even feel Danse warm breath so close…
-Check on knight Cade in the morning, he will help –Nate nooded at the command, and went strange when the man stayed in silence simply with the hand over his skin, moving slowly his fingers in little tips spots, I mean I was a very big stain but…
A heat pressed against his chest, making his head all hot…
Gosh he wanted that entire arm around his waist at least
-was I too loud? –Nate asked to think in another thing- sorry to wake you up
-No, it was the fragrance of the floor cleaner, recognized and wake up, don't worry- then, his face went up, Nate followed his eyes with his, feeling a bit intimidated for how tall he was…and how vulnerable he feeled like this under him…-what were you doing before? Posing in front of the mirror in silence…
-Ah…-Nate laughted a bit ashamed- thinking…just thinking…the word I was looking before it was adrenaline…it was on the tip on my tongue…-Danse looked at him confused- after beathing up 7 supermutants with the power fist in a rampage i…cannot stop…like…its 4am almost and I still feel so awake…wanting to do a lot stuff…cannot stop my body…I need to calm down a bit but I still don't feel the urge to rest…or do nothing…even after walking 3 hours on the road back here…just need to calm…
-Walk the road? On night? That's serious soldier, its dangerous not only because of raiders but imagine if a Deathclaw or anything else…
-yesyesyes I know but no one stopped me and I cant stop myself either…theres not much too loot around Country Crossing so I can neither put my overexited ass to work and help around so…I need to calm a bit…im breathing yeah? –he laughted a bit, Danse looked mad, disappointed again
-Are you done in the bathroom? Move, I want to pee –saying nothing Nate went away and moved to the bedroom, heard the paladin do stuff there and then got annoyed with himself, now he had to interrupt again…
-Sorry I forgot my clothes and…-he looked at Danse, sitting in the toilet- you pee sit?
-What? Theres a problem? I do the cleaning of my own room I refuse to clean pee if I lost control by being sleepy, its more smart this way–jeez he was dense today so early in the morning, the conversation cut the stream even.
Its not like Danse wasn't ashamed of being around the naked man, in fact it was getting on his nerves but it wasn't either a big deal…a bit annoying maybe
-No, I think is cute- Nate laughted a bit at him, making the paladin get frustrated.
-Stop fooling around and get some clothes from my drawer already-Nate slurped some saliva and went back to the room
-Yes sir…
After coming out Danse sighted at looking at him, using a white shirt an some joggers with wet hair sitting in bed…
-I know you said you cant sleep but…
-Hey! I want to do something! -the tone on Nates voice called the other man attention, looking at him-sit and wait a moment please? –again, Danse yawned tired, he really wanted to continue sleeping not have this...
He sat on the bed and after hearing the water running in the bathroom a bit Nate went into the bedroom with a…wet towel?
-What…-he mumble, pretty tired…
-I…since a while a noticed your face is very orange…-what the hell Nate how you dare to occupy my bathroom and then insult me- i want to know if its just a poor skin care hygiene…sunburns…redspots…or if is just the way your natural skin are…sometimes your lips even turn gray and its rare to see –Danse sighted, and make signs to let him know he was okay with it, Nate went forward and take the mans face by the chin, surprising Danse at how strange that was.
Ok this was…weird…at least…now his face will turn red no matter what…
-It's a towel with just soap? –his nose helped him a bit, still, he tried to act normal but his eyes moved and looked for Nate ones…
-Well skin care products for woman and the petit man doesn't exist anymore…its not about the product but how you wipe in the skin anyway…-Nate used to do this for Nora, he loved helping her by the end of the day, not like it was a necessary task to help other person but he liked the moment they spent together laughting, Nate often tickled her and he loved hearing her laught…
Nate sighted, noticing Danse eyes onto him, then blushed a bit and started to cares his face with the towel.
From the neck up and down to the jaw all the sides…then going up all the way from the cheeks to the forehead…
-Its feels nice-Danse said, it was clearly relaxing, even with his eyes open not wanting to loose a moment of that gaze it feeled nice on the skin, even with the beard on the way all up his ears.
It was funny to wipe and refresh his skin with the big beard, unlike him Danse didn't shaved, and it was okay, he had a cool beard, suited him well…make him more handsome…
-Im glad the water isn't too cold…
His hand was down his jaw, having him locked in place to work, sure, Danse can close his eyes and focus on the sensation but…Nate was so close now…he didn't want to loose nothing of this moment…
Without noticing, Danse made his way sitting better and more confortable onto the bed, opening his legs, and Nate, without noticing either, went forward and stand between them, to be more close, still, caressing his head and face around.
Danse feeled an urge to be more close, and he cant explain to himself why he felt that anxiety in the chest now…like when you want to eat but you are not hungry enougtht to eat…it was anxiety and need to be…more close…to have his chest on his neck and keep looking at his face…
Surely his skin feeled more fresh, his forehead was more colder, so whatever Nate was doing was effective…
-This is refreshing…-Nate smiled, moving the towel with the tip of his fingers onto his nose and cheeks, being carefull.
-I had a bit of suspicion that it was redness because of how grey your lips turned after a while…before the war we used to have skin care products to fix this kind of problems, sometimes they were long term threatments, sometimes products that will work one time but not everyday…some products will be scams so people will waste their money just because they looked modern and pretty but not do anything to fix any actual problem…
It was interesting hearing Nate talk about before the war, but as a brotherhood soldier he wasn't interested in data like that, he will only relay on information written by the scribes…not storytelling…
-Never heard about having redness with knight Cade…
-Yeah I don't think that having a nice skin is a real worry on the wastelands…
-Skin cancer is a real thing here you know? With all the radiation around
-And skin cancer was a thing before you were even planned youngling –Danse laughted, it really was funny the…age difference between them…-it was from the sun and not…atomic war radiation…still…redness in the face is not about skin cancer
Then the paladin felt Nates hand cupping on his cheek, making him jumping on surprise, not expecting that, still, he could see how he was "working" and paying attention on what he was doing.
-Sorry, a bit cold-said the paladin to excuse himself for jumping.
-You know who also has weird skin colors? Haylen, man whenever I look at her she looks yellow, her lips are so pale, like theres no bloodstream under her skin…
Well that was a strange coment?
-Scribe Haylen? Do you like her?-what? we were talking about a woman now?
-Im talking about your Haylen, the one from your squad –Danse raise an eyebrow, and at seeing that Nate stopped a bit not getting in what was wrong.
-Yeah…do you like her? –his Haylen? What the hell…he didn't understand…
-I don't think so? I don't know her that much
-You said something about her lips
-Its just a comment Danse
-Its weird to look at people lips if you are not interested…
-Well I looked at yours! –Nate realized what he said, and stopped for a sec…then the towel moved to the front of his nose and eyelids making Danse close the eyes of course in surprise…ah…he didn't want that…he wanted to look at him…what was that before…On their own, his hands went up, looking to hug his waist…but before letting them drop Nate went a few steps back, taking out the towel of his eyes, and didn't realize what the paladin was trying to do…
That's it, he embarrassed himself enough for this night, its enough, he should go.
-What? –it wasn't his intention to look so…rejected and lost but then open his eyes and look at him so far.
-Here you go, you look more pale now, definetly wasn't sunburns, pre-war my wife would recommend you some refreshing masks to avoid this but…that doesn't exist anymore…-a bittersweet taste came from the bottom of his throat at saying that, Nate trowed the towel on the bathroom at the distance and went to grab the stuff he left behind before getting in the shower- you definetly look better now…
-Are you going to sleep or…?
-Don't feel like it, im still rushing in adrenaline –Danse looked at him disappointed, touching his now cold face- I did leave you a little something, you act all thought here in the brotherhood but you like to drink, theres some whiskys I found around there and there for you...-Nate pointed at one of the drawers, there was two bottles of whisky there wasn't before…- ill give you this clothes back in the morning don't worry, thanks for receiving me Sir. Sorry to wake you up.
Danse didn't want him to leave, but in somepoint he did pressure Nate apparently and make him unconfortable…he see that…the man was grabbing all his things with no hands to keep holding more, the paladin stand up from the bed and helped him to make a little more space and balance so he can go with all his stuff…then open the door and Nate went out the room.
-Go with knight Cade in the morning! –said Danse before closing the door back at seeing the knight go in the corridors, he stand against the door and then touched his face with the palms of his hands, cold, fresh…and then look at his hand…the hand that touched Nate skin…he can still feel the texture and the curves of his manly body on it…
He just asked if he had any interest in Haylen as a beautifull woman…what the hell with yellow skin and no lip color…never put any attention in that…Since the man was a…recently widower never had to be seen interact like that with women…i mean he understanded why but he only wanted to know if she was a match.
Maybe if he was a match?...
When Nate asked him is he was going to be there to hold him I he ever need him…it blowed his head so bad…never had a parthner so…daring…
Danse went to the bathroom to take a last pee in the night and then crossed his face on the mirror. Damn, he did look different…sure the scars on his eyebrow, cheeks and eye were still there but is true he looked more pale…with less spots…less color…the three dots on his forehead were more white…what he always think it was just red cheeks it seemed to be soreness…bloodstream he said? He touched at his jaw, where Nate hand was holding him and reminded the feeling of being hold like that, just looking at his face…he was lost on that gaze…
He sighted against the mirror, making a little cloud on the glass.
The thought of them being hugged crossed his mind, one by the waist and the other by the jaw…then shook his head and take his pants down to sit and pee…he really had this fantasys lately whenever they were to close to each other and had a really good justification…
Then, a yawn…better go to sleep again, Nate may not sleep tonight but he will.