Raph's pov:

No… Stay awake! Don't want to sleep! Don't want to…

Everything felt numb. I couldn't think right, couldn't feel anything, then this sharp pain. Lights around me dimming. Everything blurry.

"Who or what am I? What am I doing?" Than a voice. dimmed by something inside. A faded silhouette of someone.

A turtle boy. I recognize him! Who was he? A blue bandage abound the head. I know him! I am a turtle as well! But why are we standing here?

I focused on the voices around me. He was talking to someone behind me. Who was standing there? Now the turtle in front of me is getting ready as if he is about to attack.

I want to block, it's only now that I realize I was moving. Moving towards him all the time. But why? I tried to stop, but all I could think of was battling the mutant turtle.

I was moving without thinking like something was making me do this. Who was he again? That mutant, I know him! I forgot what I was thinking. I could only hear this voice inside. Battle! Go for it! Kill him. I fought, not remembering the reason but I didn't care.

He was talking. What did he say? I couldn't hear it. I focused. He wasn't fighting anymore just dodging my hits. But I got him eventually.

And I could hear what he said. The muffled sounds were clearing. That turtle. My brother! It was Leo! Why was I fighting him?

Everything I remember is anger. I was raging. My body bagging to kill him. Kill my brother? Why am I thinking something like that?

But then again. I really do want to kill him. I had him where I wanted him to be. All this anger flushing towards me.

Begging me to end it. I felt his puls threw my tentacles. Why did I have those?

He said something. " Wasn't about me…"He looked into my eyes. Leo!

My pulse was high. My head to foggy to think about something else but rage.

I heard something about being a hero, being Responsable. And about understanding. He was apologizing!

But I can't forgive. I wanted it deep inside. But I didn't care, because my rage was burning. " Calm down…" I thought… I needed to calm down but the fury, it was begging me to release it by killing him.

All I heard was: "I'm sorry." Then I didn't see anything but red.

The pulse which I felt disappeared. It vanished and it's only now that I realize his life did too. I ended it.

That was the moment I woke up. Everything is normal. I am Raph. They are all alive! It was just a dream! I sat up, sweating. It could have ended differently.

I could have killed Leo. My brother. Being under control of the Krang is no excuse. Not at all! I heard Leo. Heard him apologize.

But still I was so close to killing him. I hate my self. He didn't know I heard him. I told them it was my power. My power that dragged me out of it, but it was him. I heard him and I fought against this rage, this instinct, this control.

But it was close. Too close and I hate myself for letting it come that far. Will Leo fully forgive me? He didn't talk to me in person after that and I am horrified he might be afraid of me after all.

I didn't realize I was sort of crying till someone knocked at the door. Yea? I whipped the tears away and straightened myself.

"Can I come in?" It was Leo. I nodded and he closed the door behind him. "Hey big brother. I heard you cry… What is it?" He looked concerned.

"Just a nightmare…" I answered not looking up.

"Having loads of them lately…" he said said siting next to me. "Hey? Do you want to talk about it?" He asked looking at me.

After a short silence I spoke. " I heard you back there. I head you apologize, but I barely could stop myself from…" I couldn't finish.

"I know big bro, I knew the whole time… I saw it in your eyes. And I gotta say you were so strong fighting that. I could never!" He answered and I looked him in the eyes.

"So you are not afraid of me?" I asked and he shook his head violently.

"I love you big bro, you would never hurt us!" With this he hugged me and I could finally leave that behind.

AN: Just a little fanfic of mine, it stayed in my head so I just wrote it down. Btw. I usually prefer Raphael's version in the 2012, but the story of Rottmnt just caught me. Btw. I'm planning on posting more of this little stuff in a bid, when I'm done with writing tests. Hope you liked it.