A/N: Thank you for the reviews! I really appreciate it and thank you for the positive feedback. Excuse this chapter because I did not know how I was going to go about the newborn battle, so I skipped it.

Disclaimer: All landscapes, plots, and characters belong to Stephanie Meyer

Jacob POV

My head was reeling. I couldn't believe the night me and Bella had it's all I think about, I knew I had to focus on the fight at hand, but I couldn't. Everything was a blur the world was moving fast around me; I was on autopilot and Bella was the only thing on my mind.

I snapped out of my train of thought by a searing pain that rippled through my body causing me to phase back, withering in pain, I looked up seeing everyone rush to me "Bella" I muttered before darkness consumed me.

"Jacob" I heard in my abyss of darkness "Jacob" the voice persisted; my senses kicked in filling my nose with the stench of death. My eyes shot open investigating my surroundings I tried to sit up causing a jolt of pain.

"Relax Jacob you are safe. You got injured in the newborn battle and the bones on your right side are shattered and healed improperly…unfortunately I must rebreak them so they can align" he stated.

"Is there any other option" I croaked already in agony.

"I'm afraid not… so let's begin" he stated before I could reply he snapped my arm setting it in the proper direction I let out a blood curdling scream it was even worst than the initial pain, with every bone he reset I faded in and out of consciousness.

The pain was excruciating, it seemed like a lifetime passed "Alright Jacob I am finished… I gave you morphine to help with the pain I will be back to check on you in a day or so" he said as he bandaged my arm, and ribs "thanks' doc" I murmured, while he was leaving I heard the familiar raddling of a clunky old truck followed by clumsy footsteps leading to me.

"Bella" I murmured as she came into view "Jake" she squeaked "I am sorry this happened to you" she said pulling up a chair to sit next to me. "I'm alright… besides there is things that have hurt worst" my thoughts trailing off to her agreeing to an eternity with him causing the clenching in my chest once more "Jake I don't mean to hurt you…you are my best friend and I hate seeing you like this" she stated shakily as if she was holding back tears

"I know, same old song I've heard time and time again."

"it's not like that Jacob…I am in love with you too" she huffed.

"You love him more."

"you're not just my best friend… you're an important part of my life" she sighed.

"Which is it? Do you love me like a best friend? or Am I important to you and that's why you're in love with me?... but not in love with me enough to be with me, you're planning an eternity with someone else when will you realize that we belong together, being with me can be as easy as breathing."

"Please Jacob…I don't want to have this debate tonight, and I don't want you to be upset with me…I just want to be sure you're ok" she countered.

"Well, I'm fine…considering the circumstances."

"I'm staying with you tonight; I want to make sure you're recovering properly…I can't have a crumpled up best friend" she stated making me lightly chuckle. The rest of the night she got me water and would call Carlisle asking what I could take for pain, we stayed up reminiscing about old times until we fell asleep. I woke up to a smiling Bella.

"I could get used to this" I smirked.

"Well enjoy it while it last" she said humor laced through her tone.

"I was waiting for you to wake up so I could give you a sponge bath and change your bandages" she said as she gently began unraveling my arm.

"A sponge bath huh?"

"Yes, you smell…don't make it a big thing" she said avoiding eye contact, I just knew she was blushing.

"No need to blush Bella…you have seen everything there is to see" I mused.

"jake" she warned.

"I'm just teasing… I really appreciate you."

"I appreciate you too" she beamed.

She washed me with slow, careful gestures not wanting to hurt me. I watched her as she would squeeze out the sponge bringing it back to my body gently patting away the excess water. I could not help my mind wandering to that night in the tent how beautiful she looked, how amazing she felt. She abruptly stops, bringing me out of my trance.

"Bells… I'm sorry, sometimes it has a mind of its own" very aware of my manhood straining against my shorts.

"No… it is fine… I need to clean that area anyway" she squeaked, still not making eye contact with me but she was blushing so hard her ears were pink.

"It's fine…I don't want to make you uncomfortable" I was afraid she would cut her visit short, and I craved her company.

"Jake its fine" she repeated.

Before I could protest, she began tugging my shorts down. I lifted slightly helping her. She paused for a long while taking me in with her gaze, making me feel self-conscious.

"Uhm. Bella" I questioned.

"Is this, ok?" she asked firmly grabbing my shaft washing around it.

"y-yes"

Trying to form a coherent thought will her touching me in any way always made me forget about everything else. I closed my eyes trying to regain control of my body.

"I-I'm not hurting you, am I?" she stammered releasing her grip slightly I just shook my head unable to form words. Moments later her mouth took my erect member in, her tongue making circular motion around the tip, it was long and soft it seemed to wrap itself around me, my body begin to tremble slightly using all the resolve I had to keep myself together.

Just as I was about to cum, she suddenly moved away, opening my eyes I realized she was undressing.

"Bella what are you doing?" I was still trying to focus, I didn't understand why she was doing this, not that I was complaining.

"Isn't it obvious?" she quipped.

"Why?" I questioned internally punching myself.

"Because I want to do this for you… for us."

"You don't have to."

She really didn't, I loved this time we were spending together without her feeling obligated to touch me.

"I want to… now please shut up before you ruin it" she said climbing onto of me straddling my hips. She positioned me at her entrance slowly lowering herself, she was still for a moment adjusting to my size in this new position.

She began lifting herself up slightly then sliding back down while rotating her hips.

"shit" I groaned relishing in the feel of her and the view before me, she picked up speed slightly.

"yesss" she whimpered resting her hands on my chest to steady herself, my hips involuntarily jerked causing me to thrust upward "Just like that" she moaned loudly. I wrapped my arm around her to grab her ass wincing at the dull ache and begin thrusting mine meeting hers it seemed rhythmic.

"Jake" she yelled throwing her head back, I felt her clench around me sending me over the edge. We set there for a moment coming down from our high

"That was amazing" was the only thing I could muster out in that moment.

"More than amazing" she said putting her clothes back on

"Are you ok" I asked.

"Why wouldn't I be?" she questioned.

"You didn't answer my question" something was plaguing her; I could feel it. I was surprised and hurt at how distant she became; it was almost instantaneous. Reapplying my bandages, she left stating Carlisle would be here soon and she couldn't let him see her in the state she was in, but I couldn't help but feel like I was being used.

Bella POV

What was wrong with me? It was like I couldn't control myself around him, like something clicked and I needed him like I needed oxygen, but I still love Edward. My mind continued to race the whole ride home. As I pulled up to Charlie's I noticed the cruiser was gone. Finally able to release the tears that were threatening to fall the whole ride home, the sobs racked my body. What was I doing? I love Jacob but I can't be with him because he might imprint and where would this leave me and Edward if he found out, I needed to be alone.

After showering I climbed into bed ready to doze off tired of overthinking everything when I heard a knock at the window it was Edward

"Hey love" he said opening the window.

"hey" I said as he climbed into my bed.

"How is Jacob? I know it was important for you to make sure he was ok" he said his voice sounding strained.

My heart begins to race. He is fine, I'm not for some reason I can't control myself around him I thought, feeling guilt wash over me.

"Bella are you ok?" he inquired pulling me into an embrace I flinched involuntarily at the cold that radiated off him he retracted his arm instantly as if he hurt me.

"Edward I am fine…he is fine… I'm tired" I mumbled even though I wasn't fine at all.

"Ok love gets some rest…I have a surprise for you tomorrow" he said placing a kiss on my forehead. I closed my eyes, but I didn't rest at all. I was making a list of why I was acting this way. The first thought being insanity, the second being I am falling in love with Jacob which scared me even more.

As soon as I awoke, I was dreading the day little to no sleep, and a probing Edward was not ideal, but I forced myself out of bed to shower and got ready for the day. Edward arrived right after I finished breakfast to take me to the meadow.

I loved this meadow surrounded by lavender gave me a sense of comfort "Are you feeling better today?" Edward asked as he brought my hand up to kiss it.

"I'm fine Edward really… I just wish I had more sleep" grumbled hoping my voice sounded more convincing than it felt.

"You are still just as beautiful with or without sleep "he said caressing my cheek, his touch still made my heart flutter, I loved him that much I was sure of but was I still in love with him.

"Thank you"

"Bella, I brought you here because I wanted to ask you something… Every waking moment before I met you seemed pointless a forever with no meaning, but when I met you my heart was full everything made since and you were my missing piece …..I want to spend my eternity with you if you'll have …will you marry me" he said pulling a ring out of his pocket

I was stunned he wanted to marry me. I loved Edward and he made me happy, but I couldn't help but feel like he deserves someone to love him fully but maybe I could grow to love him fully I deserved a shot at happiness and so did he.

"yes" I sobbed unable to control the tears, the emotional turmoil was eating away at me because I wanted to be all in, but Jacob was on my mind. He would imprint one day and be even happier, I couldn't choose him and end up like Leah.

It had two weeks since Edward proposed, Alice was buzzing around with wedding plans constantly bothering me, but the only thing I could think of was today was Jacob's birthday I hadn't heard from him, every time I called Billy would say he was busy or on patrol It ached not hearing from him.

I had to see him. I don't know what I did to him or why he wasn't speaking to me, but I was going to make it a point to see him today.

"Earth to Bella…. You never decided on a color scheme for the reception" Alice quipped.

"I'm sorry Alice… whatever you think would look best" I honestly had no interest in the details of the wedding, I wasn't even sure I still wanted a wedding.

"It's not what I decide its your special day but because I have great taste this wedding will be perfect "she said while taking my measurements.

"Where is Edward"

"He went into town with Jasper and Emmett to get their suits for the ceremony… I know you miss your friend Bella, but this is important it's you and Edward's wedding" she huffed I could tell she was slightly irritated by my lack of excitement.

"My best friend is important."

"Sorry bad choice of words, I know he is important to you so invite him to the wedding!" she exclaimed as if she found all the answers to my problems.

"no" I said quickly earning me an odd look from Alice. Edward came to the same conclusion, but I didn't want Jacob there because I didn't want to hurt him more than I already had. After Alice was finished going over wedding plans with me, I decided to go to La push, I knew they would have a bonfire for Jacob and everyone would be there I was hurt I didn't receive an invite, I just heard Charlie talking to Billy about it.

Pulling up to such a familiar place gave me a sense of comfort, I seen everyone sitting around the bonfire joking and having fun, honestly, I was happy to see them having fun, they deserved it after always having to patrol. When I finally got the willpower to leave my truck, walking up to where everyone was, I received glares from most of the wolves. Scanning the area for Jacob I seen he was manning the grill standing next to Billy.

"Happy Birthday!" I exclaimed walking to where he stood.

"Hey Bella…nice to see you" Billy said his eyes sad. Jacob never turned to look at me.

"Jacob, happy birthday" I repeated while reaching out to touch him.

"don't touch me" Jacob snipped still not facing me.

"Did I do something wrong?" I am genuinely confused.

"You never do" he said sarcasm laced in his tone.

"Jake, can I talk to you privately" I asked.

"There is nothing to talk about" he huffed turning to meet my gaze.

"Yes, there is…If I did something wrong, I want to fix it…please" I begged after a long moment he reluctantly followed me to the garage.

"What do you want to talk about? I was trying to enjoy my birthday."

"us" I whispered taken aback by his harsh tone.

"There is no us…that was made very clear when you agreed to marry the leech" he sneered I was stunned I didn't know anyone was there that day but us. I was going to tell him but wanted to wait, Edward heard him and said nothing.

"Jake I was going to tell you but Ed- "

"You tend to blame everyone but yourself, you have sex with me, you tell me you're in love with me, you act like you care about me, and somehow you want to blame everyone but yourself… you strung me along for what? Am I a joke to you?" he said his tone void of any emotion?

"No, Jake I wanted to tell you, but you found out the wrong way…and I don't think you're a joke I'm just a screw up" my voice barely above a whisper.

"you led me on to fulfill some sick fantasy you have just to not even look my way…I sacrificed everything for you even risked my life for nothing…honestly I'm happy for you and me, now you can go live your happy eternity and Leave me the hell alone" he said as he stormed of

I lost my best friend and I wish I could take it all back. I would rather have him than this whole I have left in place of my heart, why did it hurt so much?

A/N: I honestly am not a fan of this chapter so I might rewrite it.