Set up after "The Winer Takes It All (15x11) - After the death of Thatcher
None of the characters are mine. They are all belong to Shonda Rhimes.
It Is So Hard To Say Goodbye
Maggie, Amelia and Meredith were in the living room when Amelia said, "I'm worried about Lexie; she hasn't spoken to me since her father died."
Suddenly, Meredith's phone began to ring.
"It's mine," Meredith told them. "I'm going to get it."
"Hi Mark, how is Lexie doing?"
"Wait she is not with you?", Mark asked her as he held his one year old son.
"No, she doesn't."
"She doesn't answer my calls and I have no idea where she is."
Meanwhile, Amelia and Maggie heard a knock at the door, and went to open it. They found Lexie, her eyes full with tears.
"I am afraid that if I had stayed with Mark, I might have killed him. May I come in?"
"Of course you can״, Amelia told her.
"Have you seen Lexie?" , Meredith asked her sisters in panic.
Then Meredith saw her sister and breathed a sigh of relief.
"Oh god Lexie, Mark got worried."
"I am not a kid. I am fine״, Lexie replied.
"Lex, you are not fine. Your father just died", Maggie told her.
Lexie said, "This is the reason I couldn't be with Mark. Please stop worrying about me״ ,She sat on the couch.
"What are we going to do?" Meredith asked worriedly as the girls walked into the living room.
"Sorry Mer, I know how crappy dad he was to you."
"Lex, please just talk to us."
"When my dad died, I was only 5 years old. I was afraid, hurt and confused. I know that if it happened now, I would still feel the same way because that's how I felt when Derek died. You feel like a lost little 5 year old child."
"I have a five years old kid. I can't feel like one. I really appreciate it, but I don't want you to worry about me, I am going to be fine."
"I don't think it's possible. We would always worry about you. When Derek died, you never left me and Amelia for a second, even though his death was hard on you too״ , Meredith told her.
"It's just stupid."
"It doesn't matter, we are your sisters and we love you. You can complain about everything you want, and we will listen to you, and no matter how stupid it is." , Maggie told Lexie.
"Sofia and Zola baked for me peanut butter cups. That made me think of my mom. Once when my mom was sad, I baked her a cake. The cake was awful, but my mom cried of joy because I made it to her״, Lexie said smiling.
"I am a bad mother."
Amelia, Meredith, and Maggie all said in unison, "What?"
"I left my kids in the middle of the night just because my father died."
"You didn't leave them. They are with their father. Lexie, you are allowed to grieve. Mark gets it, he is just worried about you. We are worried all about you״, Amelia said.
Then, they saw Zola descending the stairs. Surprised to see her aunt, Zola quickly rushed up to hug her.
"Auntie Lexie, did you like the peanut butter cups we made for you?", Zola asked her aunt.
"Yes Zozo, they were the best I've ever eaten."
Zola went to the kitchen, and came back with a glass of water.
Zola said, "I love you so much Auntie Lexie," and then she hugged her again.
"I love you too, Zozo," Lexie said, as the girl walked up the stairs.
"You see ,Lex? You are a great mother and a great aunt. Zola, Bailey and Ellis adore you״, Amelia told her.
"Would you like to sleep here?" Meredith asked her.
"I would love that," Lexie responded, smiling.
"I know it's stupid, but I am afraid to sleep alone."
"You don't have to. You can sleep with anyone you want״, Meredith told her
"I love you so much.", Lexie said as she hugged her sisters.
"We love you too״, Maggie told her.
"I'm gonna call Mark. He is really worried״, Said Meredith.
"So let me talk to him. He won't leave us alone until I will talk to him."
That night, Lexie slept in Meredith's bed.
"Meredith?"
"Yes?"
"Thank you for visiting dad. I know it meant a lot to him, even if he didn't deserve this."
"Well, he gave me the best thing I could have asked for," Meredith said, smiling at her sister.