Warning: Mature Content
After I had eaten all of the food on my plate I convinced Stef and Lena to let me go watch TV in the living room. They stayed in the kitchen but every 20 minutes they would go upstairs to grab something or one of them had to go to the bathroom. I know they are just spying on me and wanted an excuse to pass the living room. I am nervous for when everyone else comes home. Jude is going to be worried about me and Mariana is going to question me until I give her an answer. Although I am happy that I won't be alone in the house with Stef and Lena anymore. It may take some attention off of me.
I hear my phone beep and pull it out of my pocket seeing a text from Mariana. Stef and Lena forgot to make me give them my phone. Should I give it to them? I don't want to get into more trouble for keeping it. I decide to look at my phone really quickly and check the message and then I will go return it.
From Mari: What the hell happened? What did you do? I will be home in twenty minutes. Get ready to spill.
Great. I decide to respond just so that Mariana doesn't keep texting and say something that gets herself in trouble. Lena is super strict when it comes to words and hates when we say any swear word, including the word hell.
To Mariana: About to get my phone taken away, so don't text me because Mom's will be the ones looking at it.
I realize I just said Mom's and start to feel embarrassed.
To Mariana: Your Mom's.
I am about to delete the conversation when I hear someone clear their throat. I look up to see Lena staring at me.
"You might want to give me that before Mom sees you holding it. You knew we wanted it. When you realized you had it you should have come and given it to us."
"Actually, I didn't realize I had it until I heard it beep just now. Then I looked and saw I had a text. I was just about to return it. Can I just respond and let them know I wont have my phone?" Really I want to delete our conversation. I don't want them to see what Mariana said and I don't want them to see that I called them my mom's. We both hear Stef coming down the steps. I practically run to Lena and give her my phone. We both look at each other and start cracking up. I let out a real belly laugh and tears start to come to my eyes. Lena is laughing just as hard and clutching her stomach.
"Callie, the look on your face was priceless. I thought you were the only child that wasn't afraid of Stef." We try to contain our laughter before Stef gets in the room but we can't.
"Well this is one of the best things I have seen all day. What is so funny?" Stef says, smiling really big. I pull myself together and say, "nothing". Stef eyes me suspiciously and looks to Lena. Lena puts her hands up saying, "don't look at me."
I can't help but let another giggle escape me and I quickly put my hands up to cover my mouth. Stef is about to say something when all of my siblings walk through the door. Jude rushes up to me and latches onto my waist. His comfort is what I have needed all day.
"Callie, I have been so worried about you, are you ok? What happened?" I wrap my arms around him and embrace the reassurance he is giving me.
"It's okay baby, I was just not feeling well. Everything is fine now."
"Why did you walk to school by yourself?"
"Uhmm…" Surprisingly I look up to Lena for help. I didn't know what to say and didn't want to tell the real reason why. I think it just clicked in Lena's head that I heard her and Stef talking this morning.
"It is all taken care of Jude, why don't you go start on your homework, that way you won't have any to do all weekend." Jude looks up to me and I nod. I lean down to kiss him on the forehead and let him go up the stairs. All the siblings follow except Mariana.
"Here Cals, I brought your homework from the teachers, since Mama wasn't there to get it. I can explain to you what needs to be done." Mariana says obviously trying to give us some alone time. For that I am grateful.
"Okay, uhm why don't we go upstairs and do homework together." I smile as I start walking towards the steps grabbing Mariana's arm before Stef and Lena can object. Unfortunately, Lena intervenes.
"Mariana you go right on up and Callie will join you shortly." Mari looks at me and I sigh.
"It's okay Mari, I will be up in a second." I say reassuringly. "I think." I mumble under my breath.
"What was that love? Not something disrespectful I hope." I just shake my head at Stef. "Good, because you know how much I hate mumbling. But I will drop it just this once."
"Alright sweetheart we will let you go upstairs with Mariana, but you are not to lock any doors, remember? If you are tempted or need ANYTHING, come get us please?"
"I will." I mean it too. Only I know my mind will change when the time comes.
"We love you." Stef says. I just nod. "Okay well, you can stay up there as long as Mariana is with you. We won't say anything but we are trusting you."
I nod again and head upstairs. I get up the stairs and decide I need to act now. I don't plan to cut again but I need something just in case. I figured they hadn't taken any of the razors out yet so I quietly tip toe in the bathroom so they can't hear me downstairs. The floorboards always creek.
I reach around the shower curtain and they are all missing. I start getting upset and start looking through drawers and cabinets as quietly as possible. I can feel myself starting to get worked up and frustrated.
I finally lose it and shout "dammit!" very loudly and slam my hand on the sink out of discouragement. I hear two sets of footsteps begin to make their way quickly up the stairs. I run to my room and look at Mariana desperately.
"Mariana if you care about me at all you will back me up and say I stubbed my toe. PLEASE." I drop to the ground and hold my toe, pretending, and the next thing I know Stef and Lena run in the room. Stef is about to come to me and I put my hand up telling her that I am fine.
Stef ignores me and comes down to me and says, "what's wrong, what happened?" Stef is looking at me with worry and here breathing is elevating.
"I just stubbed my toe, it's fine," I say calmly. "It just hurt really bad. I am sorry I swore," I add looking up to Lena who is still standing in the doorway looking confused.
"What was the big bang noise then?" Lena says calmly.
"Goodness you guys, she stubbed her toe and then dropped to the ground because it hurt. Why are you guys so jumpy? Let the poor girl breathe." I can't help but smile for a second before Stef and Lena look back to me.
"Watch your attitude Miss Thing," Stef says sternly.
"Sorry, I didn't mean to scare you, it just hurt." I watch Lena walk up to Stef and pull her up, bringing her out of the room.
"It is okay sweetheart but try not to swear, you know how I feel about that. We are here if you need us." I just nod. I watch Mariana stand up and close the door.
"Okay, what the hell was that?" Mariana says bewildered.
"I am on an extremely short leash because I left the house this morning without permission and then they tried to call me and I ignored it. I also didn't go to Lena's office, I just went to class. I figured you can't get in trouble for going to class, but turns out I was wrong."
"So that is why Mama called you to her office." I could see her putting this together. "You know Cals, Moms HATE when we ignore their calls."
"Yeah, I noticed." I say dryly.
"There has to be more though, they are worried too, not just mad. What are you not telling me?"
"I know this may not seem fair right now. I want to tell you everything but I don't think I am ready. I haven't told your Mom's everything either. I don't want to make up a story and lie to you. They found some stuff out about my past that I didn't mean for them to and now they are worried. They have been following me everywhere and asking me if I am okay every second. Thanks so much for what you did back there. I got mad and swore and hit the sink in the bathroom. I was just overwhelmed but if I told them that they would want to know why I was angry or what caused it and in that moment I just wanted to be angry. I am sorry I am just not ready to talk about it." I look up across from her not sure how she is going to respond. She looks understanding but with Mari, you never know what is going to come out of her mouth.
"It is alright, I understand." She smiles a genuine smile.
"Seriously?"
"Yeah, I have some stuff I remember about my birth mom that I still haven't told Mom's because it hurts to talk about. Jesus knows because he was there but I understand not wanting people to know bits of your life before you got here. But if you ever change your mind, I am here for you."
"Thank you Mari, same goes for you." I look up at her and smile. She returns it and comes to sit over with me on the bed. "So, I may as well actually explain this homework to you now."
Stef's point of view:
Lena pulls me into our room and closes the door. I watch her walk over to the bed and fall onto it face first. I can't help but laugh at her reaction. She looks like a little kid with her face buried in the pillows.
"You are on my side you know?" I see her role over to her own side with a smirk. "I didn't say I was complaining," I said seductively.
I can't help it as I straddle Lena's lap. I locked the door as we came in, I am not sure she noticed. I have a feeling we won't get much alone time so a little won't hurt.
"What do you think you are doing Mrs. AdamsFoster?" She smiles suggestively.
"Just feeling up my wife," I say as I put my hands under her shirt and slowly slide them up her stomach, palming both breasts over her bra. Lena moans and I smile wider. I lean down to kiss her and she immediately opens her mouth letting my tongue have access. Our tongues twirl together and I can't help but grind into her. I move to her neck and start kissing her there. I make my way to her ear and lick behind it. I feel her shiver. She always has that reaction when I lick that spot. I love it.
"Stef baby, don't start something you can't finish. I am getting too worked up." I look her in the eye and say, "who says I can't finish it?"
Before she can say anything I stick my hand under her skirt and push her panties to the side.
"Oh baby, you are so wet." She moans rather loudly as I explore her.
"If you would like me to finish my love, you better be quiet." I know we don't have much time before we have to go check on Callie, but I can't help but want to make us both feel good. I love sharing this with her and I want us to be able to relax a bit. It is a good place to pour my energy into, making my wife feel good.
I quickly insert two fingers into her and put pressure on her clit with my thumb. She starts grinding against my hand as I move in and out harder. I know she is close, so I take my other hand, go back under her shirt and pinch her nipple. I crawl up her body and start kissing her hard on the mouth. I know with all of these sensations it won't be long. About thirty seconds later, I feel her clench around my fingers and she cums, turning her face into her pillow to prevent herself from being too loud.
I kiss her slowly and pull away. She looks at me and smiles. She starts giggling.
"What is so funny my Lena?"
"I just did NOT expect that." She giggles some more.
"Yeah well, sex is a great coping skill. Lena burst out laughing but pauses and gasps as I remove my fingers. I go to the bathroom and quickly wash my hands. Normally I would do something seductive like lick them or make her do it, but we can't get turned on more, we don't have time.
I crawled over to the bed and laid down next to her snuggling up into her side and laying my head on her chest.
"What about you baby?" She asks softly, playing with my hair.
"I am okay love, I enjoyed myself. You can always pay me back later. What a day, huh?" I say exhaustedly.
"Tell me about it. It is not even over yet. It's only four. I have never had my emotions played with so much in one day. I love Callie so much I hurt when she hurts." I can hear the pain in her voice.
"I know my love, me too. I think we need to take her to talk to someone. She needs someone who can help her figure this out that she is not emotionally attached too. Plus I am not sure if we are even handling this right."
"I was thinking the same thing. I am glad you agree because I want to make sure we are doing what is best for Callie." Lena says, relieved. I hear a beeping noise and look to see Lena pull Callie's phone out of her pocket. She goes to swipe the phone and it is a text from Wyatt asking if Callie wants to hang out later.
"Should we respond for her? So he doesn't think Callie is ignoring him?" Lena asks me. I smile; she has a heart of gold and never wants anyone to get hurt.
"Sure love." I watch as Lena pretends to be Callie and tells him that she is grounded and is getting her phone taken away and she will talk to him on Monday. Lena goes back to messages and is just messing around. I stop when I notice a text that says, Your Mom's, that she sent to Mariana.
"Lena click on Mariana's messages." I watch Lena click on Mariana as we read the texts from today. I start to sigh knowing that Lena is about to comment on Mariana's word choice when something catches my eye. Callie called us Mom's. I smile and look over to Lena. She was already looking at me.
"She called us her Mom's." Lena whispers. I smile at her and there are tears in her eyes.
"I am pretty sure this just gave me the strength I needed to make it through the rest of the day. She just naturally texted it to Mariana. It gives me hope that she will fully let us in someday." I say happily. "Love, I think she heard our conversation this morning which is why she left early this morning."
"I thought that's what you were thinking when Jude asked her. I was too. She looked up to me for help too, that is a good sign."
"You are right. I hope we are not pushing Callie too much. I know we need to give her some space which is why I let you drag me out of Callie's room when I began to panic. I think all of my emotions from today just started coming out at once. I know we will get through this because of our love. Even if we don't know what to do I know we will love each other through it." I realize how sensitive I have been today and can't help but smile. When it comes to my family I am a complete sap.
"I love you so much Stefanie."
"As I love you my dear Lena." I sit there and just let myself relax with my beautiful wife. We need these few moments with each other before we get back into reality.
Callie's Point of View:
I have been working on homework for what feels like hours. Mariana already finished but she stayed laying next to me and played on her phone. After she explained my homework she got her own and came to lay down on my bed with me. We have been getting really close lately and I think she could tell I needed the closeness but I think she needed it for herself as well.
"My brain hurts, but I am done. How long has it been?"
"Two hours." She says smirking.
"Feels like ten. I am surprised we haven't seen Stef and Lena yet."
"I was actually thinking the same thing but it is getting close to dinner so I wouldn't hold your breath. I have a feeling that will change."
"Do you think if I was asleep they wouldn't make me go downstairs?"
"I doubt it but we could try. I am tired anyways. I could use a nap."
"Are you alright?" She seems off.
"Yeah, I guess our conversation earlier got me thinking and now I can't stop thinking about my birth mom and when I was little. I remember a lot more than I thought I did. It is just starting to overwhelm me a little bit. I know Mom's will notice something is off too. They always notice." I smile at this.
"I know they do trust me." I look over to her and see pain on her face. I carefully link my fingers in hers and lean back against the pillows. She follows my lead and we lay there together.
"You are my best friend Mari. I would be so lost without you. I hope you know that."
"You are my best friend too, Cals. I am so glad I finally have a sister. I love you."
"Love you too." We stop talking and just lay there. We begin to drift into sleep. I hear the door open and my eyes start fluttering. I look up and Stef and Lena are holding hands looking at us adoringly. I look over to Mari and nudge her.
"Mari," I whisper. She groans and opens her eyes.
"Guess our plan didn't work." She said while looking at Stef and Lena. I just giggle.
"What plan?" Lena says confused
"Nothing, she is kidding." I say hoping they don't ask further questions.
"Dinner is ready loves, come downstairs please." Stef says leaving the room. She looks at me and I can see that the last part was directed at me specifically.
"Coming" I say.
We get downstairs and everyone has food on their plates, they are waiting for Mariana and I. Apparently they were calling for us and we didn't answer. I sit down and there is food on my plate already. Great. I look up to Stef. I am not sure if I should look at her angrily or thankfully. That way I don't have to dish myself. I hate doing that. I think my eyes were pained because I look up at her again and her eyes are soft and full of love. Before Mariana can sit down Stef walks over and sits next to me. Mariana kind of looks at her weirdly but doesn't push it because of our conversation from earlier. I watch Mariana go sit next to Lena. I think everyone else thought this was strange but they didn't say anything.
I look at Mariana and she motions for me to wipe my face. I wipe my face and find a tear that is half way down my cheek. I quickly wipe it away and sigh. I don't want to eat. I feel eyes on me so I look up to Stef. She quietly picks up her stool and moves close to me so our legs are touching. I think they have finally realized touch is my love language. She gently reaches for my hand under the table and holds it. I feel her mouth at my ear and she whispers, "I love you so much my sweet Callie girl. I am here with you. Feel my hand in yours. You are safe and loved. You can do this. I have got you." She lets go and casually begins to eat with her hand still tightly clasped in mine. I grip her hand tightly and move it close to my stomach for comfort. I can tell she sees what I am doing because she leans in closer to me so our upper bodies are touching. It gives me what I need. I pick up my fork and slowly begin to eat.
I haven't looked up. Everyone is in normal conversation. Stef is still really close to me and our hands are still clasped. I have almost eaten everything on my plate. I look at Lena who winks at me and blows me a kiss. I give her a small smile and put my fork down. I made progress tonight. It may not always be this easy but it felt so good to let Stef help me tonight.
After dinner I helped with dishes because I missed my turn last night. It is me, Brandon and Jesus. As I stand there quietly drying dishes I can't help but think about how so much has happened within that last 24 hours.
"Are you doing okay Callie?" It was Jesus.
"Oh yeah, I am sorry I am tired so I keep staring off into space."
"We noticed," Brandon said smiling.
"Thanks for helping Jude with this last night. It was really sweet. I know it was my turn. I can finish this if you want."
"Of course not. It was no problem Callie." Brandon says sincerely.
"Besides, we are almost done. We just want you to know that if you ever need anything we are here for you." Jesus says while playfully punching my arm. "Especially if you need me to beat someone up, I could always do that easily."
"Well thanks I will be sure to keep that in mind." I say before punching him back.
After we finish I head upstairs to my room. I walk into the room and plop on the bed face first groaning loudly.
"I swear these last twenty four hours have felt like an entire week. I am so exhausted." I tell Mariana.
"Well at least we will get to sleep in tomorrow."
"Thank Goodness." I go to change my pajamas and get frustrated that I still have to wear long sleeves. It is so hot but I don't want to explain my bandage to Mari. I decide to put on a tank top and then put a sweatshirt over it so I can take the sweatshirt off once I get into bed.
"I am tired, you don't care if I go to bed do you?"
"No honestly, I am tired too." She shuts the light off and we fall into our own little worlds starting to drift into sleep. About ten minutes later our door opens.
"Are you guys asleep?" It is Stef.
"Honey, be quiet." Lena is always so nice and considerate.
"Well, we are not asleep anymore", Mariana says irritated.
"Well my babies I am sorry I just came to say good night". I watch Stef walk over to Mariana and kiss her. Lena walks over to me and kisses me on the cheek. I think I surprise her when I wrap my arms around her and hold her close. I hold really tight and then let her go.
"I am here if you need me Callie," she whispers "Anytime even if it is the middle of the night." Stef had walked over and kissed me too. I did the same thing to her I did to Lena and held on tightly. She kisses me one last time.
"That goes for me too sweets."
"Goodnight loves," Stef says as her and Lena walk out.
I fall asleep actually smiling because of the new family I have found. The family that will officially be mine in two days.
I wake up suddenly gasping and clutching my chest. I just had a terrible nightmare. The only problem is my nightmare actually happened. I had a vivid dream of what Liam did to me. I am sweating terribly and start panicking. I need to cut. I need to cut now. I practically run out of bed quietly and open the door. I tiptoe down the steps and go to the knife drawer. I open the drawer where we keep all the sharp knives and it is empty. You have got to be kidding me. What the hell are they doing to me? I go to a junk drawer and start digging through it. I need something, anything.
I figure that they are all in Lena and Stef's room. I turn around to go upstairs and there is Jude. He is staring at me with wide eyes.
"Callie, what are you doing?" He looks frightened.
"Nothing, go back to sleep."
"You are all sweaty. Are you sick? We should go get Stef and Lena."
"No Jude, stay out of this." Why am I being so short with him? This is not like me.
"Baby, I am sorry just please don't tell anyone."
"No Callie, this is not okay, something is really wrong and you are scaring me. You are acting like you did when you were at Liam's. I am going to get them." He walks towards the steps.
"Jude wait. Please! I will go talk to them. I will go talk to them right now if you promise to go back to bed and not tell anyone."
"You promise you will go talk to them?"
"Yes I promise please, let's go." We start to walk up the stairs and I begin to panic. Now I have to go get them. What time is it? I walk to Jude's door but he shakes his head.
"No Callie, I am not going to bed until you walk in there and close the door. I know you are hurting yourself" He pulls my sleeve back and I gasp.
"Callie, please just let them help you. I don't want to lose you."
"You won't lose me Jude, I promise." How the heck did he know this? When did Jude get like this? I am so confused about what is happening but I am desperate for him to get back to bed so people don't wake up.
"Okay Jude but once I am in there you go to sleep and don't say anything."
"Deal." He waits. I slowly open Stef and Lena's door and peek in. They are both quietly sleeping.
"Go Callie, I am not messing around." I look at him shocked and terrified. Terrified because the one thing I fought everyday to protect knows I cut myself. He knows I take a blade to my skin and inflict pain. I can't believe it. I am on the verge of a mental breakdown.
I fully open the door and step inside. I look back at Jude one last time and shut the door. I stay there not sure what to do. I can feel the tears coming. The tears for wanting to cut so badly, Jude knowing I self harm, the dream I had about Liam that is actually reality, and the desperate need of help from the two women sleeping right in front of me.
I hear Stef stir. I am honestly surprised they haven't gotten up yet but I guess everyone is pretty tired from the emotional day. I am crying at this point and go to Stef's side. I choke back a sob and shake her slightly.
"Stef." I whisper, crying harder.
"Love, what is it?" She immediately sits up and grabs my arms and looks to see if there are fresh wounds. She doesn't see any so she pulls me onto the bed and wraps her arms around me while I cry.
"Sweetheart, what is wrong? Are you okay, did something happen?" I look at Lena who has moved closer to us.
"I just had a terrible dream and then I wanted to… I wanted to…" I start sobbing again. I can't even say the word right now. At this point I am flat out sobbing.
"Baby, what was the dream about?" Lena tries again.
"Please I am so tired I just want to sleep. I need to sleep. Please let me sleep."
Stef pulls back from me. Lena opens the covers up in between them and says. "Hop in". I look at her like she is crazy.
"Come on love, you are staying with us." Stef's tone was full of complete love but it was definitely a demand.
I slowly get under the blankets and start crying harder. I roll onto Stef's pillow and face her. She moves so our heads are touching and she wraps her arms around me. I feel Lena grab me from behind and wrap her arms around me as well. I am completely sandwiched between them but I feel so safe and protected. Like Liam could never touch me.
"Shh, you are okay Callie girl. Sleep. We are here and you are safe. We aren't going anywhere, it will be okay." I cry hard for about ten minutes. I finally look at the clock on Stef's nightstand. It read 3:27am. Oh Goodness. Tomorrow will be a long day too.
I look up to see Stef still staring at me. Our foreheads are still touching.
"Stef," I whisper.
"Yes my love?"
"I love you." Stef stops stroking my arm like she has been for the last ten minutes. She hugs me tighter and I see tears coming down her face.
"Oh my, baby. My baby girl, I love you too." I look at her and kiss her forehead. After that I roll over to Lena. She has tears in her eyes.
"Lena" I whisper.
"Yes Baby?"
"I love you." Lena is crying harder than Stef. I look into her eyes before rolling completely onto her pillow and burying my head into her neck and hair. I wrap my arms around her. I feel Stef come up from behind me and spoon me from the back. I lay there thinking about how lucky I am. I have two mothers that I love dearly and who love me back.
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