This is my story for titanic month may titanic and her few rest for eternity and never be forgotten
Terra's/Titanic's POV
Coming here was a bad idea for many reasons not just because of the harsh rain and cold winds, but mainly it's been over 100 years since I've seen Olympic. After all I did was being great shame to our own class but also all of white stair. I still believe I was a good reason why white stair fell apart, all I had to do was do my job and help beat Cunard simple fucking task.
And yet on my very own maiden voyage I not only let everyone down 4 days later, I bring 1500 innocent lives with me all because I couldn't move fast enough to miss hitting that bloody iceberg. Those screams still haunt me even the simple touch of ice had me going into a total panic attack multiple times.
Pretty pathetic someone who's over 100 years old freaks out when something cold touches me, bringing all of my memories of that night back to me. I know In human terms I have a serious case of PTSD but than again phycology isn't my field of expertise. Sinking and killing innocent lives is apparently what I'm good at, with being a disgrace to my family and fleet as well.
So once again I ask why am I even doing this all I'll be doing is just opening old wounds for everyone? But a person can only handle being in self exile for so long, it's selfish of me but I can't help but want to be with my big sister again. To tell me how proud of me and to comfort, to tell me everything isn't my fault. All I want is my family back.
That's why I made the journey here to NY from my little cottage I have back in Ireland. I miss Olympic and have so many regrets about not being there for Britannic, some big sister I am huh. But I can't stand it anymore without even thinking about any of this I just packed my bag and left. Not even taking a moment to think things through in case I got cold feet and turned back around.
My entire time getting here I tried to rack my brain on how I can go about this. It's not like I can go up knocking on the door and be hey sorry for not coming sooner but I was a big ol chicken. Sad to say only thing that kept coming to me was I'll cross that bridge when I get to it.
Well now I'm on the bridge and the door is right in front of me and yet I can't seem to find the nerves to knock. Heck I don't even know is Olympic would even want to see me again I heard some rumors when I first came back that she became totally depressed for a while. Even getting into a fight with Oceanic who was basically Olympics mentor and mother figure, Only with still having Britannic I think she was able to heal somewhat.
Not wanting to be noticed or risk bringing any kind of bad luck I went into hiding, now not only did I make the trip to NY, I went straight here to the dormitory that white star had made before they collapsed. Even at one point I could have had my one room here or shared with my two sisters but instead I ran away.
Getting here by boat I didn't even really enjoy the trip just staying in my room I didn't want Queen Mary 2 to release exactly who I was. Getting to the dorms was easy it's a 15 minute walk from the docks but with the rain it took an extra 10 minutes. Thankfully the Clerk was pretty nice with letting me in probably due with the rain storm. The hard part was telling her who I was, having some stranger come in and ask for one of the tenants I understand why she wouldn't just let me walk inside.
Thankfully she she gave me Olympics room number ironically 400 not sure if that's intentional or what but for once in a long time it puts a small smile on my face. Know I've been standing here dripping water on the carpet for the last twenty minutes, scared to even move a muscle. I don't want to go running away after coming so close, heck I don't even know if she's home maybe she's out. Unfortunately I left my watch at the cottage and I really haven't gotten so involved with technology so i don't have a phone plus who would I even call?
Looking around I see a clock at the end of the hall by a closed window, actually it's one of those upgraded ones where it's digital instead of having hands. Shit if the times right than it's almost midnight about 15 till, I didn't realize it was that late. Stupid storm slowed us down by a few hours I was supposed to be in NY around 8, but know realizing I came here a little after 11 at night there's no way she could be awake. Plus now that I think about it I'm shocked that the clerk let me in this late.
Walking back to the door I grab my suitcase with one hand the other I have in a tight fist. Trying to control my shaking now that I realized it me being in wet clothes for this long isn't such a good idea, not just because it'll get me sick but it may send me back into a panic and I can't afford that right now. Fuck it right now I'll deal with the disappointment later tonight I just need my big sister to hold me, to reassure me that the ice can't hurt me.
I start blinking the tears as I let out a soft knock followed by three more louder knocks. Waiting for a few seconds I put my ear to the door trying to see if I can hear anything maybe someone's footsteps. Holding my breath I so I won't mishear anything I'm greeted by silence. Absolute silence just like that night after everyone succumbed to the icy water and was silent.
I feel my resolve starting to crumble this time I try again knocking a little louder. P-please be here I-need you dear sister please ,and yet I still hear the Erie silence mocking me wanting to drag me into it's icy depth. Olympic p-please open the door I need you I can't handle being alone anymore please sister. Just letting my head hit the door I fall to my knees. Olympic couldn't make it the first time I desperately needed her, why would now be any different?
Why did I have to be brought back ever since I was reborn all I've ever felt was sadness and loneliness. Before I can let the dark thoughts continue to consume my thoughts I hear gentle footsteps coming from inside. Could could it actually be Olympic could she actually come to save me this time?
Hearing The sound of metal clicking from the inside of the door I back up a little, it's been years since I've seen Olympic and I actually don't know what her human side looks like. Being her twin we should look the same but with over a hundred years between us anything's possible. The door opens up revealing a young looking women, instantly her bright green eyes and my red magenta eyes lock into each other.
Ma'am are you ok are you looking for someone are you hurt? Bending down she placed she lays her hands my shoulders, the moment she touches me it's like a course of electricity going through me. She must have felt it to letting go of me instantly.
Who are you looking for I haven't seen you before but you seem familiar to me? Shaking head no I know we haven't met before but that's not what's important to me right now I need Olympic. M-my sister have you seen her?
Sister are you sure she would be here in the first place? Yes please I I need her p-please can you help me find her, for a moment I was able to control the shivering but now it's back with a vengeance my wet cold clothes are starting to suffocate me.
Hey Mrs. calm down for a moment how about this you come in get out of those wet clothes and than you can tell me exactly what happened is that ok? Nn-o please I need her I need my big sister I can't not without her anymore PleASE have you seen her?
Hey shsss it's going to be ok that's fine, grabbing a blanket from somewhere this mysterious women wraps it around me. There now tell me some details about her so I can see if I know her but I really do need you to come in, don't want anyone else seeing you kneeling on our doorstep. Shaking my head yes I grab her hand instantly feeling her warmth spread through me already clearing my head a bit, we are both from white star built in Harland & Wolff ship yard.
Wow really I was built there as well, still holding my hand with her left hand she pulls me in pushing my suit case in with her foot. Closing the door she guides me to the bathroom pushing me on the toilet she starts unbuttoning my jacket. Ok that's good so she's from white stair and made from Harland & Wolff in Ireland right?
Shaking my head yes I notice her hands even though it's late and my clothes are soaking wet she doesn't even stumble with her movements, she poops each button off with a calm demeanor like she's done this before. Alright how many sisters do you guys have? Oh by the way I'm Britney but back than I was Britannic what's your name? T-erra my name's terra.
Ok terra nice to meet you alright I got your jacket unbuttoned I'm going to take it off but leave the blanket wrapped around your neck, than I'm going to start with your shirt is that alright with you? Y-es yes that's fine, also there's three of our class I'm the middle sister my younger sister I never met before before I- I. Hey terra it's ok you don't have to say it I understand, it's not easy explaining about how you died bloody I was like that as well but my with my sister and amazing girlfriend and close friends I was able to come to terms.
Now you said three ships which class are you and your sister in cause I know almost all the white stair fleet but a few? Quietly almost like a mouse I whisper The Olympic class, suddenly she stops moving her hands on the button below my cleavage she just stays there eyes wide mouth gaping like a fish out of water. D did you say the Olympic class white stair liners RMS Olympic, RMS Titanic, and HMHS Britannic that exact class?
Yes that very class my sister she's Olympic please have you seen her I'm sorry to barge in this late but I need her? Britney let's go of my shirt her hands going to her mouth, it can't be you can't be titanic I- I it's impossible.
Closing my eyes I slowly lift my sleeve up showing her my hull number, after a ship is reborn on her new body there hull numbers followed by the initials of the company's that they served are tattooed on us somewhere, for me it was my arm. Olympic is 400 just like your room number and my number is 401. That should be enough proof now please tell me where is my sister at, I need her.
This woman Britney stares at my arm eyes firmly locked on the numbers on my arm like I'm lying about my identity. Looking at me we stare at each other for a moment even though to me it felt like hours. Suddenly like a switch was turned on she lunges for me wrapping me in a bear hug burying her face into my neck squeezing me to the point something pops in my back. Ok getting hugged by a stranger wasn't what I had planned but her whole body is like a giant radiator, I can't help but just go slack into her embrace even though she's starting to choke me slowly.
I feel my neck getting wet this time by tears why is Britney crying for did I do something wrong? B-Britney is everything alright I didn't mean to make you cry, Y-you didn't do anything wrong its (sniff) I cant believe your actually here my long lost sister. Did you just say sister but your not Olympic you cant be related to me. trying to pry myself loose but she has an iron grip on me like if she would let go that ill just disappear or fade away just who exactly is this Britney person and why hasn't she shown me where Olympic is at?
Look lady I just really need to see Olympic alright no one else can you please just take me to her, I didn't mean to sound harsh with her I see the hurt look in her eyes as she pulls away, freaking I can feel my mind slip away again and having some stranger hug me and call me sister isn't helping me.
That's all who you want to see just Olympic nobody else no other friends or especially family? I call you sister and yet you doubt me why you said it yourself that there was th-
LOOK BRITNEY I HAVENT SEEN OLYMPIC IN OVER 100 FUCKING BLOODY YEARS I DONT HAVE OTHER FRIENDS AND FAMILY I ALWAYS HAD OLYMPIC SHES MY ONLY SISTER THAT I KNOW NO ONE ELSE SO PLEASE, TELL ME WHERE CAN I FIND HER I-I NEED HER I CANT DO THIS ANYMORE. I just want my big sister back even if she hates me I just need to see her. I didn't mean to yell at the poor las especially with her only trying to help me. The hurt look in her green eyes its like kicking a lost puppy dog if I was in a clear state of mind i would have apologized for such rash behavior, but the side of me that's close to having another breakdown all I can do is push her away and crawl myself into a ball. I really wish id just never came here all I'm doing is just being rude and disrespectful while acting like a 5 year old sailboat with a messed up mind set. That's why I put myself into self exile the moment I got the chance so I couldn't hurt anyone anymore and yet what do I do I come running all the way here unannounced late at night dripping wet yelling at this nice lady whos trying to help me. Why am I so weak so pathetic?
BRITNEY! who's at the door this late at night you better not have brought in another homeless person I swear ill-, snapping my head up to the sound of that voice its a little more gruff last I remember but there's no denying it. As Olympic steps into the door frame her golden honey eyes meet me, the first thing I see is her scar I heard a few straggler's say Olympic got a scar during the first WW, the scar starts from the top of her left eye running to the bottom of her jaw thankfully her left eye didn't get cut up as well. B-Britney whos this perso-
Olympics eyes trail to my arm where my hall number still shows, her eyes go wide we both just stare at each other taken in each other. besides her scar she seems to have a regular human body as well standing at over 6ft she has the same shade of blonde hair as me her hair stops at her shoulders where the end tips of her hair have a mix of black and red juts like me, dressed in loose sweet pants and a white star hoodie her feet bare. Even though we both have different bodies now I can still tell its her finally I found her over hundred years later I cant believe it, but now that we are reunited would she even want me back in her life? It seems she's doing good for herself bloody she even has a girlfriend if that's what Britney is? Titanic c-can it really be your actually here this isn't some kind of dream?
Its her Olivia ou- I mean your sister is back she was looking for you I'm not sure what's exactly happing but she said she really needed to see only you no one else, you may wanna get her clothes off she's dripping wet and may have a fear of the cold. Ill go get her something warm to wear. Standing up Britney lets in Olympic or Olivia as she goes by and walks out, not waiting another moment we both go crashing into each arms wrapping around each other I bury my face into her neck the aroma of mangos fills my nose, Olivia wraps one arm around my waste her other hand running her fingers through my hair. I'm not sure how long we stayed like that for could have been minutes days months, I don't care all that matters is I have my sister back that's all I truly wanted. Picking me up she sits me back on the toilet bowl not letting go. I'm not leaving you little sis but I need to get these wet clothes off of you before you catch a cold. All I can do is nod not trusting myself to saw anything yet with my emotions running high.
Quickly she continues where Britney left of making quick work of my shirt following with my shoes socks pants, even my garments are wet so off they go. Using a towel Olivia dry's me off before wrapping the towel around my waist ,taking her hoodie own hoodie off she slips it on me one arm at a time so i wont have to let go of her. After making sure I was as dried off she brings me back into her embrace, since I'm wearing her hoodie the only thing she has on is a basic red bra on. I cant help but blush slightly I really haven't had physical contact with anyone with this new body especially with someone with little clothes on. Olivia giving me a small smirk, its all right sis to blush I was the same way when I first got my new body as well it'll take time I'm guessing you haven't had any kind of physical contact with anyone?
Shaking my head no I close my eyes I'm still shivering but I feel safe now I still feel the cold icy grips trying to drag me down, but they cant not anymore not while Olympic or Olivia is here. The second time today I let out another smile this time a little bigger than the last. Titanic i want you to know later when your a little more stable and have gotten some sleep I want to know everything is that ok with you?
T-that's fine just please d-don't let go of me I don't want to be alone again please sister I I just cant.
Hey hey I'm not letting go someone will have to drag you out of my hands to do that, I let you go once and I lost you but now you came back to us I'm not taking this for granted. I'm sorry I wasn't there for you little sis I tried to get to you I tried so hard but I wasn't fast enough, can you ever forgive me for failing you? Olympic you didn't fail me if anything I failed you I couldn't do my job I ruined white stair and I killed all those innocent people who was on board me, I'm so sorry Olympic for being such a disp-
DONT you even finish that sentence you are not and never have been a disappointment understand we both have our regrets but we can worry about all of that later together all three of us, and also your not a murder you couldn't place that iceberg in your path plus it was late at night. The fault doesn't lie with you if anything its fucking Ismay he was the one who ordered EJ to have you go full steam ahead straight into an ice field. We lost so much time together dear sister lets just enjoy your return and also the first time all three of us are together.
Big sis can I ask why do you keep saying the three of us is Britney the 3rd person your talking about? A soft knock on the door frame opening my eyes I see its Britney with some clothes in her hands, Yeah she means the three of us but I already know you just want Olympic after all. Tossing the clothes to Olympic I can see the hurt and anger all over her face, my words echoing through my head I really messed up my impression with her great. Just want you to know all I was trying to do was help you terra but don't worry you made the message clear to me I wont bother your "family" reunion.
What the brit what are you talking about titanic probably doesn't know who you are you were still in your beginning phase when she left, what happened before I came? Olympic I kind of yelled at her I was getting frustrated ever since well 'that night" I've had so many mental break downs i feel the icy cold water trying to drag me back down, I have good days and bad ones usually cold things trigger one of my "episodes" with me being out in the rain my clothes started to get cold and I started to loose it. Even still that's no excuse for my actions Mrs. Britney I'm sorry my earlier actions it was uncalled for, especially with you only trying to help me. If you accept my apology I promise I wont yell at you especially in your own home, I know Olympic loves you very much and I'm glad she has a great girlfriend whos so caring for others.
The moment I said girlfriend both Olympic and Britney went wide eye not having a disgusting face but more of a what the fuck did you get that idea from look. Ok before anyone says another word lets bring this conversation to living room alright brit titanic? We both nod our heads brit turning around walking to said destination, Olympic still holding me picks me up higher carrying me into the room. I cant help the feeling of me getting something mixed up if they aren't dating than who is she? Stepping inside its a basic living room a medium tv in the right corner followed by two small couches, a few picture frames that line up the walls. Britney sitting down on the farthest couch from us Olympic carries me to the other couch ,laying me down she hands me the sweat pants Britney had brought me earlier. Slipping them on all three of just sit there in uncomfortable silence the only sound is the ticking of the clock somewhere near by.
Alright so I'm going to explain a few things try to clarify everything up, wait until I'm done speaking so we don't have any more confusion alright you two? We both shake our heads yes in understanding letting Olympic explain and hopefully settle my confusion.
Ok so first titanic I heard Britney call you terra I'm guessing that's your human name, everyone here goes by our new names for me I'm Olivia and that's Britney. Now terra you are right and wrong I do have a girlfriend but its not Britney its RMS Mauritania or Maurey as she goes by now. Ill go into the details later but yeah me and Maury are together and yes the same one from Cunard. Next terra I want you to meet Britney formerly know as HMHS Britannic the third sister of white stairs Olympics class liners, yes that means she's our baby sister. Turning to Britney she gives me a sad nod know i understand why they reacted the way they did, ugh first I yell at my own baby sister than I accuse her of sleeping with our oldest sister I'm defiantly not getting worlds greatest sister award anytime soon. Bloody Fucking hell, laying my face into my hands I take it in.
Yeah that's why we reacted like that don't I cant blame you for getting confused you two never properly met, now next up we aren't going to go into details until tomorrow its late and all of us are tired its already after midnight. Is there anything you two would like to say?
Britney I honestly forgot about there being three of us but I'm glad to have you I'm sorry I wasn't in your life but I wanna be there for you now I'm a bit messed up in the head but-oofff, apparently I didn't need to say anything else cause Britney jumped straight into me burying herself into me just like in the bathroom. This time i hug her back my baby sister I love it, I'm a older sister doesn't matter if we just met already I wanna protect her from anyone and anything. Laying my chin on her head I start to nuzzle her as we both sit here Olivia picks us both up and lays us on top of her, finally over a hundred years have gone by the OLYMPIAN SISTERS are finally reunited together. Closing my eyes I focus on Olivia's heartbeat and Britney's slow breathing.
In the morning I wake up Britney still in my arms Olivia already making some kind of breakfast for all three of us, later they introduce me to the base and all the other ship girls. Thankfully both Olivia and Britney were able to get some time off from there busy schedules, meeting Oceanic again she pulled me into a bone crushing hug. After walking around the base Olivia had to go fill out some kind of paperwork for me so that left me and Britney some time to enjoy ourselves, I found out its not only Olivia whos dating someone from Cunard ironically Britney's dating RMS Lusitania or as she goes by Lucy now. She tells me they also have a third sister who was made two years later after my sinking RMS Aquitania or as she goes by aqua. She showed me there pictures on her phone of them and started making fun when she saw me blush the moment I saw aqua's pic. Didn't help the fact I asked brit if aqua was single, Olivia was even worse giving me a wink and giving me advice on how to win her over. Ugh back one day and already there making fun of me but I'm glad I came back. I may never get over my guilt and trauma but i have two wonderful sisters who will always be there for me without a second thought, plus possible a future girlfriend I'm not sure yet but I do look forward to seeing those two greyhounds again and properly meeting aqua. It'll be a long road but its way better than living how I was sad, alone, miserable, all three of us had our talk shed our tears and cried for the past. Tomorrow we made a promise we wont let the past come between us anymore we will move forward on our journey to heal.
This is my little story for the 111th anniversary of the sinking of the RMS Titanic after colliding with an iceberg April 15th,1912. may her crew and passenger's rest for all eternity never to be forgotten.
SECTOR Z 05/01/2023