Chapter 7: I can't save us my Atlantis
Summary:
Three Flashbacks POVS surrounding Harry and Atlantis
Next Chapter will be back to the actual plot.
Notes:
TW: Racism from Walburga Balck. Child Abuse and Self-Harm.
BIG TW: This Chapter is what shows what happened to Atlantis so if you think that'll be too much for you to read considering it'll be heavy you can feel free to skip Regulus' POV.
There will be TWO James POVS.
Chapter Text
James
February 1977
James was late to the room of requirement today. He had spent extra time with Sirius. Sirius had just about had it with James since the start of this school year. All this sneaking around all this time away from the marauders. James couldn't help but want to spend every moment he could with Sirius' brother Regulus though, something Sirius was completely clueless to. Every moment he spent stealing kisses in the astronomy tower or stealing more in the room of requirement was worth every bit of lecturing he got from Sirius about not spending enough time with his friends. He did however miss Sirius, Sirius was his platonic twin flame and dearest friend, which is why he decided to keep Regulus on this particular evening.
James walked in, they designed the room in so many various ways he didn't always know what to expect but today was their treehouse. He looked up at it with a grin and began climbing the ladder up. Inside the wooden house he found Regulus curled up without him watching 'Carrie' he barely looked up from the tv for a second before returning to it. James slid in the bed beside him and wrapped his arms around him placing a kiss on his hair. Regulus hummed happily.
"Good Choice Reg," he said pulling him a little closer,
"I want to use the killing curse on everyone who treats that girl badly," Regulus muttered, his voice breaking. He had been crying. James planted kisses on his cheek,
"I know baby," James whispered, rubbing his hand up and down Regulus' arm. Regulus seemed to be watching for a while as it wasn't long before the prom scene happened. James was more watching Regulus than the actual movie; it was easy for him to get lost in the stars.
"Aww Merlin, she looks beautiful and those cunts are going to ruin it," Regulus growled. James squeezed his arm. Regulus sighed when Carrie was crowned prom queen knowing they'd ruin it for her. He watched intentently from the blood bucket to Sue to the teacher, "Is she going to warn her? No it will never be that simple, I saw the cover of the what did you call it v age z, I know how this is going to go down," he choked as Carrie and her prom date kissed.
"VHS, Reg," James chuckled lightly. They watched as Sue noticed the hand gripped on the rope waiting to pull to let the blood bucket fall James and Regulus both winced.
"No! No! No! now the teacher is dragging the girl out who is trying to help!" Regulus jerked as the teacher took Sue out as soon as the food closed the blood bucket was spilled all over Carrie. Regulus groaned. "Fucking bitch," Regulus breathed as the first girl started laughing. Regulus shed a few tears as the whole room started laughing at Carrie. James kissed his cheek and wiped them from his face. "Yes girl, use your magic on them," Regulus perked up as the doors started closing. Regulus seemed to really enjoy the aftermath of Carrie going rogue on the prom. "They all deserve it,"
"I know baby," James agreed softly. He enjoyed everything else about the movie until Carrie died then he cried very hard. James pulled him onto his lap and let him bury himself in the
crook of his neck. Regulus had cried at movies before such as the shark dying in jaws but not like this. Regulus, James had noticed, had been a little sensitive lately crying easily the past week at least. "Shhh, it's okay baby, shhh." He whispered into Regulus' ear as he cried. Regulus had to be stressed with his O.W.Ls. James knew how much pressure Walburga Black was putting on her son to get all O's he was sure that's why Regulus has been looking sick and crying a lot easier than usual. "Are you Okay, Reg?" James asked, wanting to give his boyfriend the opportunity to talk about it.
"Yeah, sorry about this," Regulus murmured into his neck,
"No you are alright, is it-is it just the movie or is something bothering you?" James asked gently, bringing his boyfriend's face to be in line with his own.
"Remember last month when you climaxed so hard everything went black for you?" Regulus asked with a slight laugh. James went red.
"Mmm," James hummed to indicate to Regulus he remembered.
"I think you accidentally finished inside," Regulus breathed, he pushed his forehead against James' and sucked in a breath. James sort of felt like he was floating at this,
"Wait, do you think you're?" James asked grinning nudging his nose against Regulus' as their foreheads remained together,
"Yeah well,"
"That's ah- That's amazing Reggie, we should probably ask Madam Pomfrey for a test though to be sure," James couldn't keep the excitement out of his voice. A baby with Regulus? The love of his life having his baby? I mean Sirius would kill but he'd die happily. He'd deal with Sirius because this was the best possible news he ever heard.
"Yeah, well about that. I didn't want Walburga to find out about this via owl from the school,"
"Yeah, sorry what was I thinking, hey you good at potions, the best really. Why don't you brew one?" A baby? A baby with Regulus! Regulus and him getting up through the night for late night feeds scratch that Regulus could sleep and James would feed the baby with a bottle and let his darling sleep. Figuring out how to bathe a baby together, how to change nappies, picking out a name that's perfect for her, or maybe him?
"Already brewed one," Regulus breathed. James' eyes lit up,
"Can you activate it now? I'll look away, you did bring it didn't you? Oh my god this is so exciting," James hiccuped. His heart was beating so loud he could hear it in his ears he placed a kiss on Regulus' lips.
"I already did," Regulus groaned, "Sorry,"
"So you're saying you are then or," James tried to steady his breathing.
"The little blue bubbles told me we are going to be dads," Regulus croaked. James yelled a happy yell and pulled Regulus close, kissing him all over. Blue bubbles a baby boy! He always wanted a daughter but he was having a son, blue bubbles and a baby boy. Heck they could always try for a girl in a couple years then she would have a big brother to protect her, Yeah it was more perfect this way. A boy, their boy, their son. He was going to be a dad, Regulus was going to Make him a dad!
"I love you Regulus Black," James cried, kissing Regulus on the mouth before moving to his stomach, "And I love you baby Potter," he planted a light kiss on Regulus' stomach.
"Here I was afraid you'd leave," Regulus mused, "And baby Potter?"
"I would never leave you," James said seriously kissing his boyfriend's hand, "And yeah well he's got to have my name doesn't he? I mean your going to take it when we get married,"
"Ok slow down lover boy we are a long way off marriage yet," Regulus choked.
"Ok but years from now when we get married, you'll take my name?" James asked shly.
"We've only been together five months, Potter, well officially three and you are already thinking seriously about who should take whose name?"
"Well you're already Pregnant," James shrugged, "Ahh! You're pregnant!!" James screamed happily, nudging his nose into Regulus' belly.
"Mother isn't going to like this," Regulus whispered
"Ah fuck her, we aren't going to let her ruin today!" James said happily resting his head on Regulus's stomach planting kisses every so often. Regulus ran his slender fingers through James' messy hair as he rested.
"You know I thought we were moving too fast when we kissed on our first date, here we are five months later and I'm about a month pregnant," Regulus groaned.
"Look it doesn't matter what pace we do things at. I honestly don't care, if you had of ended up getting pregnant that first night I'd of still been happy. I love you Regulus and yes this isn't ideal and it's also kind of terrifying I might end up having a heart attack before you give birth or during," James laughed, "But I don't know it feels right! I love you, did I tell you I love you? I love you, you're so lovely," Regulus went back to stroking James' hair and when James looked up Regulus was smiling down at him.
Regulus
31st July 1977
Regulus returned home for the summer holidays with his stomach sticking out. Walburga Black was most disgusted by this. Regulus had always been good at keeping his figure slender but James had gotten him pregnant. He had planned to tell Walburga the night he
arrived home to break the news gently and beg her forgiveness for the way he had disgraced the family. The way he had been treated by his mother when she just thought it had gained weight made him too scared to tell her he was in fact pregnant.
Through the weeks he had been back home Walburga had put him on a strict diet. Which she cut down more and more with each passing week for as she measured Regulus' stomach at the end of the week she had found it had somehow grown bigger he was six months pregnant now and his stomach properly rounded out. Walburga had made him bare his stomach on the 28th of July and measured it. She struck Regulus round the side of the face,
"Maman Please," he gasped. Her eyes fixed on him hard,
"Regulus Black you never speak when receiving your punishments, I am very shocked at this behaviour. This is not like you! You are not like that disgraced half-wit brother you once had, Why now this defiant behaviour," she said, eying his bared stomach. Walburga grabbed her son by the hair and pulled him close, "Either you have been eating when you aren't supposed to or you've been a little whore. I hope it is the first one because if you have disgraced yourself in such a way after telling me you are a boy, after me kindly allowing you to transition. Do you know what people will say if I tell them I have a pregnant son," her grip hardened. Regulus knew he was allowed to transition as the back up son only. His job would be to take the potion to give him a fully functional penis and he would then be married off to a pureblood woman.
"Sorry maman, I have been sneaking food," It had only been somewhat a lie. He had extra food via Kreacher the house elf but not too much and that was not the reason for the swelling of his stomach.
"Did Kreacher assist you," She tightened her grip on his hair,
"No maman!" He lied frantically. She threw Regulus to the ground,
"Lying little bitch," she kicked his side and then pulled him up by his hair and dragged him to his room. He didn't struggle at all on the way. "You are to stay here until further notice, no food at all, I'll allow you to the toilet at set times and I will deal with Kreacher!" Regulus dissolved into tears when she left. He hated anything bad ever happening to Kreacher, Kreacher was the one who raised him with love, He loved his mother but he didn't think she loved him very much.
So Regulus stayed in his room with no food, no water, rubbing his belly praying nothing would happen to James and his little baby boy, 'Atlantis' they had named him one afternoon. Regulus smiled fondly at the memory. Regulus was obedient, leaving only when his mother came twice a day to let him use the toilet. Then on the 30th he heard a commotion.
"GET OUT," he heard his mother bellow. He slipped soundlessly out of his room and leaned over the bannister
"Not without Regulus," James said sternly. 'Oh god no James what are you doing here,' he panicked. And began running down the stairs James and Sirius were down the stairs with
their wands pointing at Regulus' mother and aunt Bellatrix. Before Regulus knew it he was running down the stairs,
"Sirius, James what are you doing here? Get the fuck out!" Regulus sobbed. Sirius eyes fell to Regulus' stomach, so James managed to have told him then.
"Shouldn't of left without you in the first place, come on let's go," Sirius coraked
"Regulus! Back up stairs now, how dare you leave your room," Walburga commanded.
"Keeping him up there are you, tell me are you feeding him? Sirius rasped,
"Regulus leave now come on, you are coming to live with me," James pleaded
"Crucio," Bellatrix bellowed in James' direction while his guard was down but it just missed him.
"James leave, I can't you know I can't just leave!"
"I'm not leaving without you," James cried.
"Reggie, I am not playing about lets get the fuck out of here," Sirius gritted his teeth as he spoke. Bellatrix and Walburga cast two spells which binded Sirius and James with ropes.
"No Mother please they are leaving, I will never leave you mother! I am not like him, Just let them go please," Regulus cried. James looked heartbroken; he couldn't keep his eyes off Regulus.
"Please," He mouthed.
"Sirius leave this house at once! And you stay away from my son!" Came the voice of Orion Black. Orion had been feeling very unwell so when he entered the room he entered it hobbling he raised his wand,
"Wait, can I just talk to him? Can I just make sure he never comes back? we'll go outside and I'll come straight back in," Regulus asked stupidly he just wanted five minutes with James or even five seconds. He wasn't going to leave with him he wouldn't risk James' life like that. James looked over at him and smiled Regulus returned it weakly. Orion cast a spell and sent them both flying out.
"You'll have to change the wards so they don't let that dog in anymore either," Bellatrix spat
"Regulus, get up to your room! I have no idea what has gotten into you this summer." His mother roared, "You may come down for breakfast tomorrow, I want to have a little 'parler', don't be late."
So that brings us to July 31st. Regulus wore clothes that disguised his growing stomach as best as he could in order to please his mother. He arrived exactly at the time she liked to
have her breakfast so that she would not have to wait on him. He looked hungrily at the food and water,
"You must be thirsty my son, please drink," he did so obidentally,
"Thank you mother!" He said he wanted to say 'You are so kind mother' but it wouldn't come out.
"Regulus, have you been overeating like a pig or is your belly swollen due to you being a slut?"
"Well I am not overeating," Regulus said simply then covered his mouth.
"Whose baby is it?" her eyes flashed dangerously. Regulus kept his hands over his mouth,
"Is the baby pureblood?"
"Yes," he said involuntarily. There had been veritaserum in the water; he knows that now.
"Tell me Regulus, Tell me that the father is not that horrible brown boy the Potter boy?" Regulus started crying,
"I can't say he's not the father," because that would be a lie and at the moment Regulus Black was unable to lie. A single tear left Walburga Blacks eye. He hated the fact that his mother was a racist. That always made him sick, he at one point played into the pureblood mania but he could never even pretend to share her racist views. Bellatrix had married Rodolophius Lestrange who was a black man and mother never said anything to her face about it she was happy he was atleast pureblood but behind her back she thought herself to be the superior side of the family because she'd married a white pureblood and bred white pureblood children. Regulus felt sick thinking of it.
"Well we can't have that we can't have you spoiling everything," she shook her head, "Here my darling son drink this," she pulled out a purple vial. Regulus shook his head,
"I don't want that mother," he begged, "Please Maman, I'll be good, I'll make it up to you, I'll do anything, anything at all," She had to have known him to be telling the truth he was under veritaserum.
"Regulus stop this nonsense and drink that the potion," she removed the crystal topper and held it to his mouth. He shook his head violently. "Imperio," she cast, "Regulus take the potion," he opened his mouth and she poured it in and he swallowed. "Regulus go to your room," he walked to his room and she followed, "Regulus give me your wand," he did so. She looked around the room. "I'm going to lock the door, If you call Kreacher I'll kill him and send Bellatrix to the Potter household to have a little play time with that boy," she closed the door behind her and Regulus heard the door lock.
"Fuck," He breathed out his stomach was starting to hurt. "Maman, please don't leave me in here, I am sorry, please give me an antidote," He cried. He started to kick the door. "Mother, don't please, please," he slammed his fists into the door, "Ow," he started clutching his stomach.
He threw his side into the door, "Mother! Mother! I am sorry, please don't do this, please help me save him," the pain started to build quickly. Regulus didn't know to apparate he wouldn't start his sixth year till september. Anyway you needed a wand. With all that was inside Regulus with every fibre of his magic he tried to apparate wandless to st mungos for help. It didn't work.
Regulus howled out in pain clutching at himself as he felt blood seep through his trousers, "No! No! No!" he called out, "Please Atlantis don't die," he begged. Regulus dropped to the ground feeling the most intense pain he ever felt, surely thinking it rivalled the cruciatus curse. He started kicking the door with his legs as he lay screaming on his back. The door broke off the hinges. He tried to crawl out but whatever magic his mother had cast stopped him from leaving the room. "Maman please! Please help me! Please forgive me, I'll be better please don't let him die," he wailed. Squirming from the pain, Regulus tried to take deep breaths, "I can't save us my Atlantis," he cried softly rubbing his tummy that felt like it was on fire.
Eventually he had to remove his trousers. He felt something moving. After an hour and half of screaming soaked in his own blood Regulus Black gave birth to a very small baby boy born sleeping. His lips black because of the potion, head full of black messy hair, brown skin and stormy grey eyes frozen open. He cuddled him close,
"Hello," he cried to the stone baby, "I'm your papa," he croaked, "And I'm very sorry I failed you," tears streamed down his face. "Your daddy and I love you so much," he cooed to the baby that wouldn't move. "Your daddy would be talking about how handsome you are if he could see you." Regulus breathed. He scooted over to his drawer and got out his camera and took a few pictures, some of just Atlantis, a few of him holding him and one of him kissing the baby's cheek," he hid the photos in the drawer straight away his mother would confiscate them if she saw them. "You know your daddy couldn't wait to meet you, he talked about every single day. He drove me a bit round the bend with all the baby talk to be honest," Regulus laughed. "He told me we could take you to meet Mickey Mouse in America, I don't understand how you can meet a cartoon mouse but apparently we were going to take you there to meet him," he croaked.
Regulus sat for a while telling Atlantis all the stuff he and James wanted to do with him and he closed the baby's eyes over and just held him
"If you want to bury it you can take the dark mark. If not you can watch it rot, I'll keep you locked in the room with it" came the voice of his mother. Being locked in a room with his son would be great but he didn't want to watch as his son decayed.
"Yes maman I'll take the mark," he said numbly. He was going to make sure his son had the very best burial.
James
July 31st 1980
James arrived at Regulus' door. A bag of treats in hands. Ice-cream, chocolate (because chocolate could help with anything), juice and a bunch of flowers. Regulus opened the door with his eyes bright red and puffy from crying. James pulled him in close and held him tight, Regulus began sobbing softly into James shoulder, which set James off into a silent cry himself. Once the two pulled away, Regulus led James into the living room. The blinds remained closed and it seemed like Regulus had made himself a small bed on the sofa, a glass of wine on the side table. James sat down beside Regulus. Neither of them spoke for a few minutes as James sighed.
"I can't believe it's his anniversary," James sighed, "This is never going to get any easier is it?" He asked and Regulus softly shook his head.
"Our Atlantis… he should be here.." Regulus answered, his voice cracking as he spoke.
"I know baby," James whispered and pulled Regulus to lay on his chest.
"I hate this… I hate this with every fibre of my body," Regulus said in a quiet voice.
"So do I," James replied, giving Regulus a small kiss on the top of his head. James wanted nothing more than to make all this pain go away for Regulus, if he could go back in time and change what had happened. They would never have to deal with this. They would be raising their little boy together now if this had not happened.
"Let me get my wine, would you like a glass?" Regulus sniffed and James nodded, moving to get a glass, "No need to get, I already have a glass for you to here and the wine beside the sofa is red ok?" Regulus asked, James could see the tears streaming down his face silently.
"Yeah of course," James replied and settled back into the sofa as Regulus leaned over and poured more wine into his own glass and some into a glass for James.
"I wish things could have been different," Regulus sighed, handing the glass to James.
"I wish we had run away," James answered. Neither of them are trying to hide their pain.
"We would have given him the perfect life… I would never have let him ever feel unloved," Regulus breathed and took a drink.
"You would have been the perfect father…" James trailed off, giving Regulus' hand a little squeeze.
"You would have too…" Regulus said to James, giving him a small smile. James' heart sank into the pit of his stomach. The last thing on earth he ever wanted was Regulus' eyes to have to empty tears of sadness on his perfect porcelain skin.
"At least you get a second chance," Regulus spat now, his pain echoing in James' ears. The words had felt like a knife to James' heart as he just stared down at Regulus.
"Regulus no… please don't think like that…" James trailed off and sat forwards, turning to face him, "Atlanis will Always be my first born… my first son," James stated, placed his wine on the floor below him, "Nothing will ever change that…. No matter how many babies are to be born he will always be my first child," James continued and Regulus gave a small smile.
Regulus opened his mouth to speak but James could tell the tears were creeping back to his eyes as they began to glass over. James pulled Regulus back close again. Tighter than he thought he had ever held someone before in his life. He made a vow to himself that he would never allow another sad tear to come from Regulus' eyes. He was going to give everything to Regulus. His life, his soul, everything. Regulus sobbed into James' chest again as James began crying as well. The both of them just held one another as they allowed the grief to envelope them, mould them into one person filled with sadness and loss.
"Did you hear that?" Regulus asked, pulling away and wiping his eyes. The tears just replaced the ones he had wiped away. James looked at him confused.
"What?" James asked and then he heard it, a small knocking sound on the window. James got up and walked towards it, pulling the curtains back and there sat Sirius' owl. A letter addressed to James on its leg. James opened the window and Owl held out it's leg for James to take the letter. James did so and gave the owl a small cracker that sat on the table, before closing the window and making his way back over to Regulus on the sofa as he opened the letter, "Have you eaten yet?" He asked looking at Regulus who shook his head.
"No appetite," He replied and gulped down his wine.
"We could order Chinese food?" James questioned as he looked down at the letter. His eyes scanning the words on the letter before him.
" James,
Lily is in labour. Sirius and I will meet you at the hospital.
Lupin,"
It read, James scanned the page again.
"Or we could order italian I guess I could eat," Regulus mumbled but stopped as he saw James face. James looked up at him. His face pale white as he stared into Regulus' eyes, "What's wrong?" Regulus asked concerned.
"Lily's in labour, I have to go," James said in a breathless voice, "Sirius and Lupin will meet me at the hospital but I have to go now," James said quickly. Regulus jumped up and grabbed James by the arm.
"Don't leave me here alone James please!" Regulus pleaded. James' heart ached with the choice he had to make, "Stay James this is a very important date you can't leave me with this alone," Regulus cried. His eyes screamed for James to sit back down.
"Regulus I can't not go… I have to go… Lily is about to give birth," James breathed and threw the letter on the table.
"JAMES POTTER THIS IS THE ANNIVERSARY OF OUR CHILD AND YOUR GOING TO LEAVE ME TO SPEND TIME WITH ANOTHER WOMEN!" Regulus screamed and James looked at him shocked.
"Regulus this is my child too," James pleaded and Regulus lifted the wine glass and threw it at James who moved out of the way just in time as it smashed on the wall behind him.
"I KNEW I WAS ALWAYS SECOND TO HER …. AND OUR CHILD WILL TAKE SECOND TO THAT THING SHE POPS OUT FROM BETWEEN HER LEGS," Regulus screamed again. James looked at him scared as Regulus began smashing anything he could get his hands on, on the floor. James moved towards him, "DON'T FUCKING COME NEAR ME," Regulus spat. James didn't listen as he moved again. Inches from Regulus who was breathing heavily as he did so.
"Regulus… please,' James whispered as he reached out and grabbed Regulus' wrist. Regulus flinched but didn't move.
"James I can't be alone," Regulus whispered back.
"Don't be alone come with me… and once the baby is born, we'll come back here and we can just be us yeah?" James said gently. Regulus shook his head, "Please Regulus," James said again as their eyes met.
It had taken some convincing but after a while Regulus agreed to come with James and wait in the waiting room with Sirius. James was in the delivery room with Lily. She was covered in sweat and breathing heavily, trying to regulate her breathing. The healers rushed round the room settling up towels and potions at the other side of the room as James stood with his hand on Lily's Shoulder.
"You're doing great Lily, just keep breathing," James soothed her and she grunted at him.
"Easy for you to say…" She said angrily as she breathed deeply. James knew the pain must have been getting to her.
"It'll be all worth it in the end," James smiled and Lily rolled her eyes.
"If it's so fucking easy then you give birth to the baby," Lily said and James laughed.
"Lily, if that had been an option I would most certainly have helped you out," He laughed gently and Lily scolded him.
"AHHHHHHHH!" She screamed and James looked at the healers concerned. The healers looked at each other and then one looked between Lily's legs to examine her.
"The baby is making his way out," She sang happily and Lily screamed again. Lilys' screams half deafening James in the tiny white room. Lily really was a champ for having to go through this. James' thoughts then darkened as he thought of Regulus alone, losing Atlantis and how James hadn't been there for either of them. His heart sank and he could feel the tears coming again, but he had to push the thought away he had to be here for Lily and the baby coming. James shook his head as Lily grabbed him by the arm tightly and squeezed it so hard James through his arm might break.
"Alright a few pushes and baby should be here. The little one seems just as excited to meet mum and dad as you are to him," The healer smiled again as she sat at the end of the bed. Lily screamed again.
"Give a push Lily you're doing great," James soothed as he patted her head.
"Fuck you James Potter for doing this to me… Fuck you for making me have to be in this situation… you fucking asshole," Lily said throught gritted teeth as she began to push.
After a few pushes, Lily lay breathing heavily as the healer handed her a small bundle of blue blankets. James looked down at the mop of dark hair on the top of the baby's head and smiled, born with a head of hair just like his dad. James felt filled with overwhelming happiness and a rush of love for the small boy in Lily's arms. Nothing could take this away from him. Lily's breathing began to settle as she smiled down at the silent baby who just stared up at her. James' heart felt it might burst with happiness as the baby gave little noises in Lily's arms.
"He's here," Lily smiled up at James, she looked exhausted but happy.
"After all those months and all that pain now he's here our little boy," James whispered leaning over to look at his son, his eyes as green and bright as his mothers.
"Our Harry," She whispered and placed her finger into the small baby's hand, Harry seemed to grip her finger immediately.
"I'm going to tell the others he's born," James smiled and rubbed Lily's hair, "Thank you for bringing him to me… you did amazing," James whispered and she just continued to look down at Harry as he left the room.
James entered the waiting room and Sirius, Lupin and Regulus stood up in anticipation. James was beaming from ear to ear. Lupin matched his smile and Sirius patted him on the back.
"Well??" Sirius asked with a smile.
"Baby Harry is here and is healthy and happy and with mum," James said excitedly. His eyes flashed briefly to Regulus who didn't look at him.
"And mum?" Lupin asked.
"Lily is doing good as well, tired of course but that's to be expected," James laughed, "She did a great job, only called me an asshole once," James laughed again.
"Well only called you an asshole once today…" Sirius trailed off a glint of playfulness in his eyes and James shrugged.
"I suppose you'll be wanting to play happy families now.." Regulus spat and James' head snapped up to meet his gaze. There was something in his eyes that James couldn't read.
"Come Reg don't be like that…" Sirius trailed off and tried to put his hand on Regulus' shoulder but he shrugged it off.
"It's always the way once a baby comes along," Regulus muttered, reaching into his pocket and pulling out his wand. Sirius and Lupin jumped back and pulled out their own.
"Come on Regulus, put the wand down…" Lupin said softly.
"Once you have a baby then life is perfect and you all get to live happily ever after with a new little bundle of joy," Regulus laughed. It sent a chill down James' spine. It was cold and empty.
The next thing James saw was Regulus turning his wand to face himself. All the sound left the room as Regulus' lips moved. James had no idea what spell he had cast but the next thing James saw was the blood running down both arms. James ran to Regulus as his body went limp. Everything seemed to be in slow motion as Sirius appeared beside him.
"James…" He could hear in a muffled tone, "JAMES," His hearing had come back now and it was Lupin calling his name. His face pale white as he looked down at Regulus.
"WHAT THE FUCK??" REG! REG!" Sirius screamed and James just needed him to stop. James needed to think.
"Si..Sirius go.. The two of you go get the healers quick," James said hurriedly as he stumbled over his words.
"WHY THE FUCK WOULD HE DO THAT?" Sirius screamed again.
"SIRIUS GO AND GET THE FUCKING HEALERS!" James screamed and saw out of the corner of his eyes as Lupin pulled at Sirius.
"We'll be back, just try and wake him back up," Lupin muttered as he dragged a screaming Sirius out of the waiting room for a healer.
"What did you do baby?" James muttered crying as he held Regulus tight. The tears streamed down his face.