"It never dies (Neither will I)
There is no stopping me"
From " One way ticket to hell, by Natewantstobattle
I always dream I would do things differently if given the chance.
I dream I put a scarf over Emily's neck, and stop a tragedy before it can start.
I insist on having the group stick together, that I make sure Chris and Ashley don't wander off. I tell Emily to keep them together.
I would climb out of the mines with Josh and Mike. It's slow going, and my hands threaten frostbite, but it feels worth it.
When we go back to the lodge together, I try to dream that they never came from below, but I always fail. They find us.
But this is my dream. And so I do not go for the switch. Not right away. This time I make sure that no one dies in front of me.
I fear the monsters, but I fear myself more.
We all feel the flames outside of the lodge. Because we are together. We are outside alive, and not bodies burning in the flames.
Maybe I should go back further, to prevent the tragedy from happening in the first place. But I can't think of anything I could have done differently that night.
In contrast, this one is all I can think about.
I want to go back. I want to do better.
I'm going back to the mountains. Maybe I can't save them. But I won't be able to move on sitting at home hating myself.
I crash on the bus, as usual. When I wake up, it's like I have been transported back in time. Same bus, same driver, same outfit.
Maybe I've finally gone crazy. Full blown hallucinations instead of dreams. I don't actually care. I know what I came here to do.
Reality or not.
I'm going to save them.
Sam TT(?), turned out different then I thought when I first envisioned it. But I feel determinator suits.