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Warning: Mentions of Depression. Self Harm. Slight Trigger Warning
"Are you sure we can go in here" Kurt asks Blaine as Sebastian leads them to the front door of Scandals.
"Oh Ya, we do it all the time, they don't even care as long as you have a fake I.D." Blaine explains, jumping ahead of them to link his arm with Sebastian. Sebastian looks up at Kurt and smirks.
"You don't have to come if you are scared. Just a warning though, Blaine did it, without fright, his first time, and if he can do it, anybody can." Sebastian explains, leaning over to kiss Blaine.
"What is that supposed to mean, Sebastian?" Blaine asks, kissing back for only a second, then backing away and lifting an eyebrow. "Hmm?"
"It means you took a risk of getting in trouble, and you are a goody two-shoes." Sebastian smiles.
"Mean" Blaine mutters and goes back to walk with Kurt, linking their arms together instead. "Sebastian is mean, Kurt" Blaine explains.
"I never said I wasn't coming" Kurt said, ignoring Blaine's last comment.
Once they got in, Sebastian got himself and Blaine a drink, asking Kurt if he wants one. "Oh no, I don't like alcohol and somebody needs to drive back" he explains.
"Oh look, a person even better with rules than Blaine" Sebastian says, and Blaine slightly pushes him. Sebastian mock-glared at Blaine "Drink, Killer. You are more fun that way" he joked. Blaine agreed and soon he finished 3 drinks.
Even though it was only 3 drinks, Blaine was wasted. Totally, horribly wasted. He was currently dancing with Sebastian, hands around his neck, drunkenly stumbling around and laughing as loud as he can.
So Blaine is a happy drunk Kurt noticed. Should have guessed
Blaine and Sebastian come over to the bar where Kurt is sitting, smiling at each other.
"Hi, Kurt!" Blaine laughs and waves at him. Kurt smiles and waves back, saying hello. "Sebastian and I were dancing!" he yells happily. "I want to dance with Kurt!" he says to Sebastian.
"Then dance with him" Sebastian smiles at Blaine, gesturing for Kurt to go with Blaine.
"Really?" Kurt asks, looking at Sebastian. He nods. "Okay, c'mon Blaine, lets dance" and takes Blaine's hand, dragging him to the dance floor as Blaine cheers.
Sebastian sits at the bar, watching the love of his life dance with the person he hates. Sebastian doesn't even know why he hates Kurt so much. Blaine has told him many times that he only loves him. Why am I so jealous? He asks himself. Kurt will never get Blaine. Yet still, Sebastian feels if he isn't with Blaine all the time, he will leave him.
Blaine looks up from his dancing to stare straight into Sebastian eyes. He smiles very silly and then tells Kurt something. Kurt laughs and lightly whacks Blaine's arm. Blaine reaches his hand in Sebastian's direction, pulling Kurt to Sebastian.
"Sebby!" Blaine yells, throwing his arms around Sebastian. "Sebby, do you think that Kurtie is too pres- prestigi- prestigious" Blaine says slowly.
"Of course I do. Im glad you have figured it out." Sebastian laughs. Kurt glares at him. Blaine is about to run away, but Sebastian catches him around the waist and rocks him gently. "You ready to go Killer?" he asks. "You will get tired pretty soon, I know your alcohol stages." He says.
Blaine sticks his tongue out at Sebastian, but lets him lead the three boys out of the bar. As Sebastian puts Blaine in the car, he hears a faint "Sebastian" from behind him. He stills so much he could hear his own heartbeat. He turns to Kurt "Make sure Blaine doesn't run off, I will be right back" Kurt nods and sits beside Blaine.
Sebastian walks over to the man. "What do you want, Brian?" he asks emotionlessly.
"Do you have yourself a boyfriend? I thought you didn't believe in that stuff" Brain said to him mockingly.
"I didn't. Then I met him, and he changed me" Sebastian says.
"Ya, I can see that. You're boring, dude. You used to be so fun." Brian says, running his hand down Sebastian's side, ignoring that the younger boy stiffened.
"I used to be a slut." Sebastian says. "I don't like that life anymore"
"Shame, that is. You were the best one here. Oh well, enjoy ruining the boys life." He says.
"What is that supposed to mean?" Sebastian says.
"Im just saying, If I was that boy I would rather have the other guy he was with, nicer, more caring" Brain says.
"Ya, well you don't know anything. So fuck you, and have a nice life." Sebastian says walking back to his car.
When he gets back, he looks at Kurt who is currently holding Blaine in place, whispering to him and says "You drive, I have alcohol in me", sliding beside Blaine. As soon as he gets down, Blaine shuffles from his seat into Sebastian's lap.
"Where were you?" Blaine cries.
"I was talking to an old friend" Sebastian says apathetically. Blaine pouts.
"Did he make you sad?" Blaine asks innocently. Sebastian nods. Blaine pouts even larger. 'I don't want my Sebby sad" he whines, shoving his face into Sebastian's neck. Sebastian doesn't hold Blaine. He doesn't even touch him. Blaine doesn't make him, just sits there silently, occasionally humming.
"Who was that you were talking to?" Kurt asks from the driver's seat.
"Just some guy I knew before I met Blaine" he says, and Blaine looks up at his name like an obedient puppy. His wide golden eyes make Sebastian think over Brian's words.
"I love you Sebby" Blaine says, sleepy from the alcohol.
"I love you too, Blaine" Sebastian says, adding words forever, even when you don't love me in his head.
TJ TJ
That morning, Sebastian woke up alone. He wanted Blaine there. But then he remembered that Blaine would be with Kurt, because Sebastian was being a jerk the night before, not talking to Blaine after the I love you's. He made Kurt take Blaine up to his room and deal with a hung-over Blaine. He doesn't get hung-over anymore. That's what he tells himself anyway. It was Saturday. He had nothing to do but sit there and wait.
But that is when he got a text from Nick.
Who did you talk to last night? ~Nick
Sebastian was confused, he never told anybody he talked to Brian last night. Unless Blaine or Kurt did. Blaine wouldn't do that, so Kurt must have. Blaine probably didn't even remember it.
He didn't go downstairs all day, just stayed in his room getting text after text.
Hey, what did you do at Scandals last night?~ Jeff
A little birdie told me you cheated ;p ~ Dylan
Dude, did you cheat on Blaine with someone? ~ Trent
Where are you? ~Blaine
Please tell me it's not true! ~ Wes
I won't believe it. I can't believe it ~ David
SEB! Where are you?! ~ Blaine
I don't believe it, Seb. Stop hiding ~ Blaine
At around 9pm, Blaine walks into his room. "Seb? Are you okay?" he asks him.
"Oh Ya, I just got multiple texts, telling me I cheated on my boyfriend. I am fine." I yell.
"I texted you, I don't believe it, Sebastian" Blaine tries to explain.
"Who told them, Blaine?! Was it Hummel? I am going to kill him!" Sebastian screams.
"No! Kurt just asked them if you had a friend there, saying you went off with him for a bit" he explains.
"Ya? And what did you do?" he questions, clearly not in the mood to calm down any time soon.
"They all asked me if it was true. I was drunk, Seb, I barley remember what happened, all I remember was you leaving Kurt and I." Blaine says.
"So you technically told them I cheated!" Sebastian screams. "Did it not occur to you I was barley gone 6 minutes?!" he yells, moving closer to Blaine.
"I was drunk! It wouldn't have mattered if you were gone for 30 seconds! It still would have felt like forever!" Blaine tries to reason with the taller boy. "You know what im like when I am drunk…" he says slowly.
"Ya I do. That's not the point. You went off and told the whole school I was off with some stranger for a long time, Blaine!" he yells. Blaine tries to cut him off, to deny it, but he yells even louder. "you are just like Kurt! You cant keep your fucking mouth shut, Blaine! You need to go telling everybody what happened, or you are unsatisfied! I hate Hummel; you think I want you to be just like him?! You are such an idiot, Blaine!
" I yell, breathing heavily.
"Sebastian, stop, im sorry! I didn't mean to make you upset, I just was so confused about everything and"-
WHACK.
The room goes silent. Sebastian just stand where he is, hand still slightly raised, staring at Blaine with wide eyes. The smaller boy has his head whipped to the side, eyes clenched shut, slowly shaking. As Blaine comes to the realization of what happened, he starts to breathe heavily.
Sebastian just hit his boyfriend.
Sebastian just hit Blaine, the boy who had to leave his school due to violence. The boy whose father hates him, and who has been suffering through depression for years. Fucking lovely.
"Blaine…" Sebastian whispers. Blaine clenches his jaw, shakes his head as fast as he can, and with a choked sob, runs as fast as he can out of the door, Sebastian calling his name behind him.
"What did I just do" Sebastian whispers as he collapses to the ground.
Total Jealousy :)
Kurt is sitting at his desk, reading a boring textbook, when there is a knock at his door. He sighs, getting up to answer it and gasps when he sees who is there.
Blaine is standing at his door, tears flowing down his cheeks, hair ruined, curls sticking up everywhere. And worse of all, a red mark in the shape of a hand across his cheek.
Just as Kurt opens his mouth to say something, Blaine lets out a huge sob, falling into Kurt's arms, wrapping his arms around his neck. Kurt holds onto his back, leading him over to the bed, where he sits him down, whispering comforts into his ear.
"Shh, its okay Blaine, im here, let it out, Shh" Blaine continues to sob violently.
Kurt loses the track of time, but it has to be at least an hour, because his arms hurts from rubbing Blaine back and stroking his hair, but Blaine eventually calms down enough to talk.
"Kurt..," Blaine whispers. "He… he just h-hit" the small soloist sobs again.
"Shh, Blaine, calm down." Kurt calms him.
"Don't tell anyone, Kurt. Please don't." Blaine whispers.
"Blaine, id Sebastian hit you" Blaine sobs again, and Kurt wraps his arms around him tighter. "If he hit you, we have to tell somebody." Kurt explains.
"N-no. I don't want him in trouble. My fault." Blaine whispers.
"Blaine, it isn't your fault" Kurt says.
"Please, Kurt, just leave it. For me?" Blaine stares into Kurt's eyes, and Kurt can't help but melt in the presence of Blaine's golden eyes, full with sorrow. Kurt nods.
"Can I stay here tonight?" Blaine asks. Kurt looks confused. "I-I just… I can get… sad, I guess? You are the only other one to know about my… suicidal thoughts, and I just… I can't be alone…" Blaine trails off.
Kurt nods in understanding "Of course you can stay here, Blaine, just hop up into the bed and we can crash early" Kurt explains. Blaine nods, and goes on the bed, sniffling.
Total Jealously :)
"You're such a faggot!" they scream as they punch and kick him. "You don't deserve to be on this planet!" punch, kick, hit, kick, punch. Constant terrorizing. Nothing Blaine hasn't been through.
Suddenly the scene changes to his father, staring down at him, bruised and bloody on the ground. "No son of mine is a faggot" he says as he kick him in the face. Blaine whimpers. Still, nothing he hasn't seen before.
Until the scene shifts, and suddenly his dad turns into Sebastian, looking down at him with pure hate in his eyes, "You're an idiot, Blaine. You think I would love you. Ha! You are just a worthless piece of shit that annoys everybody, getting into their business! Go to hell, Blaine." He says, as he slaps the boy right in the face, exactly where he hit him before.
Blaine wakes up with a start. He hates nightmares. They make him feel sick. You should be sick a voice tells him. You're a worthless little fag; your dreams are reality settling in
Blaine feels his wrist itching. He looks down and slightly scratches. It feels so good, and he would kill to run a blade across it, to feel the sweet feeling of his blood leaving his body. Blaine glances up at Kurt, sleeping soundly with his arm around him. He looks into Kurt's bathroom, silently making his decision. He pulls Kurt's arm off of him, tip-toeing to the bathroom.
When Blaine gets there, he sees a razor on Kurt's shelf. He picks it up and instantly cuts with wrist. The great pleasure that he gets from it stays for a about five minutes, until it slowly fades and Blaine sits there wondering why he is so sad. Then he remembers that Sebastian had this conversation with him about 8 months back, during a relapse Blaine was going through.
"Blaine, nothing will get better if you do that" Sebastian scolded.
"It feels amazing, Sebastian" Blaine sobbed, "It makes me feel happy"
"For how long Blaine?" he asked "How long until you just want to do it again, and again, until you lose too much blood?" he says a little too loudly. Blaine flinches and Sebastian wraps his arms around Blaine. "Look, im not mad or anything, I just wouldn't live with myself if you died, so please don't. Please?" Sebastian looks right into Blaine's eyes, looking into his soul.
"Okay" Blaine whispers.
"Now lets get you cleaned up" Sebastian says, reaching for Blaine's arm.
"Blaine!" A voice breaks into Blaine's thoughts. He looks up to see a blurry Kurt, leaning over him.
"Kurt?" Blaine whispers. "What are you doing?" he hiccups.
"Blaine, you were crying. I could hear you from in the other room." Kurt says, gently taking Blaine's arm. "Why did you do this?" he asks gently.
"Sebastian… he was the only one who cared, Kurt!" Blaine yelled. Kurt jumped slightly, startled from Blaine's outburst. "The only one who cared!" hiccup. "Then he just hit me, make me realize that I am as worthless as I feel."
"Don't say that, Blaine. You are not worthless. I care about you a lot and It would kill me if something happened to you" Kurt says.
I just wouldn't live with myself if you died, so please don't. Please?
Blaine sobs. "I miss Sebastian!" he cries. "I loved him, and then he hurt me!" Blaine said. "I want to be m-mad! I just can't!"
"I know, Blaine, Shh, calm down, I know," Kurt wraps his arms around Blaine. "Just stay strong, okay?"
"Okay" Blaine says. "I'll try"
"Good. Now I'm going to clean your arm" Kurt says, washing the blood away.
Now let's get you cleaned up" Sebastian says, reaching for Blaine's arm.
Blaine sobs once more, silently wishing he could re-wind the events of the day.
So… That was chapter 7. Im getting somewhere!
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I could see Sebastian hitting Blaine, if he ever got back together.
So, what will happen? Will Kurt help Blaine? Will Sebastian be forgiven?
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