'I always knew I never deserved him' she thought with tears streaming down her face. She sat alone in the dark with a barrier up.
She had no self-esteem not even when Sesshomaru chose her. She always told him he could better but the answer was always the same. He wanted her but now he regrets it and is now trapped with her.
She was never good when it came to men. No one in her time wanted her, except Hojo but she didn't want him. No one in the past wanted her because they all thought she was some corrupt whore because she traveled, care for and loved demons even though she was a priestess.
Her first love only wanted her because she looked like his true love and even that wasn't enough and even now she can't satisfy the one male that made all the pain worth it. Even he compared her to Kikiyuo and he hated her like no other.
"I guess I will forever be cursed to live a lonely life living in her shadow" she said softly in a sad tone.
I drove for miles
Just to find
You and find myself
All these screams
All these voices
In my head
You gave me strength
Gave me hope
For a lifetime
For the first time she believed that she was lucky enough to find the one who loves for her and only her. Sesshomaru made her feel loved and he cherished her. He would punish anyone who disrespected her. Any and every time they made love he would always say 'I Love You Kagome' and made her feel like she was walking on air. No matter how many times she would tell him he could take his time he would always rush through his work with efficiency and accuracy just to be with her. Never once did he ever make her feel unworthy in the least.
I never was satisfied
She didn't know why she was acting the way she was. She was always angry and confused after she got pregnant and began pushing him away. She had no control over her emotions. She didn't mean to and now she blames herself because she lost the best thing that could ever have happened to her.
This time won't you save me
This time won't you save me
Baby I can feel myself giving up
This time wont you save me
This time wont you save me
Baby I can feel myself giving up
Its not your fault
I'm a bitch
I'm a monster
Yes I'm a beast
And I feast
When I conquer
But I'm alone
On my throne
She was now doomed to live a life in solitude and regrets for the rest of her life. He no longer wanted her and was sure he didn't want anything to do with her especially their un born pup. She will love and care for this pup with her life and make sure it lived a life full of love and happiness. Something she was denied since turning 15.
All these riches
I came this way
All this way
Just to say hey
This time won't you save me
This time won't you save me
Baby I can feel myself giving up
This time won't you save me
This time won't you save me
Baby I can feel myself giving up
I'm giving up baby
I'm giving up baby
She got up and went to the room she and Sesshomaru shared together to pack her things. She didn't want to punish him any longer than necessary. She won't force him to love her just because she has his pup.
I'm giving up baby
'Be free Sesshomaru'
She would find a way to rid herself of this mark so he could be free and happy with whomever he wanted.
'Good bye Sesshomaru'
She didn't make it two steps without falling over in pain.
"AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH" she screamed in agony holding her stomach.
The last thing she remembered was seeing the concern faces of the servants crowding over her.
"SOMEONE CALL LORD SESSHOMARU AT ONCE" Jaken commanded before rushing to Kagome.
'No' was her last thought before fading to a world of blackness.