Who ever said that anything could be achieved if it was for love was a lying bastard. I was working two jobs and doing stupid mommy, DADDY lessons and I thought I was going to die from exhaustion! But I refused to give up even if Ino nagged me while I worked at the flower shop or had to do ridiculous jobs with stupid animals that were out to get me! I swear if I have to catch another weasel I was gonna shoot it and do everyone a favor. Not to mention that the lessons were an absolute fail. On my first day I thought Tsunade would tell me I wasn't allowed to keep my child, but luckily she didn't.

"Ok Naruto you need to hold it." She said a bit frustrated.

"But it's a damn doll!" I shouted.

"Just do it!" I snorted and grabbed the doll by the tips of its fingers which then fell to the floor due to no support. I jumped back when the damn thing started to cry.

"What the hell is it?"

"Naruto!" Tsunade scolded as she scooped up the doll.

"The doll is made to cry, eat, and do things that a normal baby would do. If you can't even care for a piece of plastic how are you going to care for a real human being?" Tsunade yelled. I felt my cheeks go hot as if I had been slapped. Grumbling I took the baby and tried to hold it, tried being the key word, in which it began to start wailing.

"Damn it will you shut up!" I demanded while shaking the stupid piece of plastic.

"Naruto!" After that the baby proceeded to throw up on me, in turn I practically threw the baby across the room, and freaking peed in my FACE! When the lesson was finally over Tsunade came over and patted my shoulder.

"It will get better." She said encouragingly and walked away.

Of course Tsunade was right and I did get better but it didn't mean that I was amazing at it either. To make matters worse I was already stressed out from working two jobs and Ino wouldn't stop bitching about the god damn wedding which was what I was trying not to focus on! As if I didn't know that the wedding was in six months two days fourteen hours and twenty minutes! Not that I was counting…

"I don't understand, if you have enough time to be working here than you must have enough time to plan Sasuke's party and help out with the wedding!"

"Ino…why do people work?" She seemed to be taken aback by the question.

"To get money." She stated like I was dumb.

"That's right. To earn money. So Ino did it ever occur to you that I am in a finical situation that calls for me to get two jobs?" She opened her mouth but I cut her off.

"Did it ever occur to you that maybe I have a lot more problems than worrying about someone else's stupid wedding? Because even though you may not I do!" I was tired of her nagging which made me feel bad about myself and was making me slightly depressed. I felt like the world was against me and I was drowning. I hadn't been feeling well and I couldn't tell whether I was awake or not anymore. The world constantly felt like it was spinning and I couldn't make it stop. Whatever Ino said to my comment I didn't know because I had walked away forgetting I had said something in the first place. I couldn't stop the spinning and the dreaming. Where was I again? With Tsunade? I had to be dreaming because I was in my room and Sasuke was next to me brushing the bangs out of my face. Funny how lately he was all I could think about and yet I was the one avoiding him. I wondered if Sasuke would really want me to tell him about our child. Would he have even believed me? He was going to kiss me the other night right? That meant he might feel the same way. My mid was a mess of jumbled thoughts of what I should do. As I heard my name calling me out of the darkness I decided that yes I was going to tell Sasuke.

"It's perfectly natural to have dizzy spells while you're pregnant however due to the stress you have been putting on your body the spells become worse and more frequent. You have to be careful Naruto, you have a baby inside of your stomach and falling could seriously harm the child. Not to mention the chance of you even having a healthy kid is very small. I-" I perked up at the new information presented in front of me.

"What?" Tsunade stopped in her lecture and looked at me with confusion until what she said came back. Her eyes widened a little but she quickly recovered and folded her hands.

"Naruto…"

"What do you mean there is a small possibility that my child will be healthy?" I asked while my worry boiled to rage. She looked at me for a minute before sighing heavily.

"I was going to wait to tell you so you wouldn't worry. Yes the chances of you having a healthy child are slim to none. We can't see what the Kyubbi is doing to the child and how much it truly is caring for the baby. The Kyubbi only wants you to give birth and have you go into labor in order to escape. However the child's well being is not the Kyubbi concern at all. There is a high chance that the baby will be still born."

"How high?" I demanded.

"About a seventy percent chance of the child being still born and about an eighty percent chance that it will be mentally challenged if it does live. Less than one percent that it will even be able to use the sharingun if it was somehow born healthy." I was completely shocked at the over-powering probability that my child would not be healthy. I panicked about telling Sasuke about my pregnancy if our child was going to die. Oh god what if it died! What if it was challenged? I didn't know how to take care of someone like that. I looked at Tsunade who must have read my panic.

"If it does still live and you are sure that you want to take on the responsibility of a mentally challenged baby than I will teach you all you need to know about taking care of it. It's going to be alright Naruto." I felt my shoulders slump in relief. It was going to be ok, It was going to be ok, It was going to be ok. I just had to keep telling myself that and move forward. That was all I could do.

A terrible thought hit me at that exact moment.

"Wait what about me?" Tsunade just looked at me with a look of confusion.

"What do mean I just told you I would tea-"

"Not about that! What about my…you know…" The look on her face clearly stated that no, no she did not know.

"Will I always be… like this?" I said while gesturing to my stomach. The look didn't suddenly light up with understanding.

"Will I always be able to get pregnant?" I yelled while my face burned with embarrassment. The light that I was looking for finally dawned on Tsunade and she smirked.

"Why Naruto? Beginning to realize what all of us women have to through isn't as easy as you thought?" I wanted smack the look from her face but somehow I remained where I was clenching my fists.

"Shut up and just answer the question stupid old lady!" I demanded.

"Don't call me that you stupid brat!" Urg! It was so hard to get anywhere with these people!

"Don't call me a brat! No I'm not stupid so just answer me!" She glared at me for a minute longer before finally sighing and closing her eyes.

"No, it's impossible to permanently change the human body no matter how much chakra you put into the subject, if you stop feeding it chakra that subject will go back to what it was before. You are the same. Once the Kyubbi stops putting his chakra into making it so that you can deliver a child you will go back to normal."

"Then how come it produced life within me? What will my baby disappear?"

"No but it is the reason why your baby has such high chances of dying or being disabled. The subject in this case was your sperm being transformed into an egg. Once your 'egg' was fertilized it no longer needed the Kyubbi's chakra to keep it the way it was because it transformed into a whole new subject. However this is just a theory, so we really don't know if that will be the case for the little one or not, but we can always hope." She explained and I realized how truly wise Tsunade was. Without her I wouldn't have even known where to begin.

"It seems too risky doesn't it? I mean telling me I was pregnant wasn't beneficial to him at all. Now that we know, it will be easy to hold him back."

"Don't be so naive. It will take everything I have to keep the Kyubbi at bay while Shizune delivers the child. That's if everything goes smoothly and nothing happens. If something where to happen you would either lose your life and the Kyubbi would have to be sealed once more into another object. I wouldn't have the chakra to handle that and he would escape. Or if instead I come to your aid I would have to stop the seal I would be performing on the Kyubbi to keep him at bay within you and he would escape. All in all the favors are in the Kyubbi's hands and there's really nothing else that we can do to help. Telling anymore people runs the risk of information leaking, which would ultimately lead to everyone's death and the destruction of the village." I opened my mouth to tell her she was wrong and there was no way we would ever be defeated! The more I pondered on the notion however, the more I realized that she was right and that I couldn't risk the life of the village. I looked up and nodded my head, showing that I understood what she was saying.

"I'm glad you understand. Now we need to be careful alright Naruto? We have to keep this top secret, or else the village could be in grave danger." She warned and I understood completely. My father gave up his life just to seal the Kyubbi inside of me and my mother died trying after giving birth to me. It would be a miracle if we survived this at all. I knew all of this but still.

"I won't give up and I'm not running away, that is my way of being a ninja!"

"Yes…" She said with a found smile to my answer my confidant one.

"Naruto!" I turned in the busy street to find the owner of the voice and soon found Sakura waving at me from a small restaurant. I raised my hand and walked over to say hi when I noticed that indeed Sasuke was sitting next to her. I paused in my step and heart leaped into my throat. Good God! I swear I was acting more and more like a love struck girl! Furious at myself I continued forward and sat at the extra seat.

"Naruto! Oh gosh it's been way too long since we have seen each other? How are you? The last time we met you were acting so strange." Sakura asked while I blushed remembering how I had run out of the house. Trying to gain composer I laughed while lightly scratching the back of my head.

"Yeah I can only handle being alone with the damn teme before I start losing my mind."

"Hn. What mind?" Sasuke stated coolly while smirking.

"You better get that damn smirk off your face before I smack it off!" Fighting. Yes fighting was good when it came to the bastard and me. When we fought we could forget all our other problems and solve everything mutually with our fists.

"Boys! If you don't sit down in one second I will not be happy." My face went pale and though the bastard tried not to look affected but he sat down eventually too.

Sakura and I continued our conversation, picking a much easier topic to talk about. As we talked and reminisced about old times I was reminded just why I had fallen for the pink haired girl. She was extremely pretty and, when she wasn't angry, nice and gentle. I forgot all of my troubles when Sakura grabbed Sasuke's hand. I felt a stab in my heart and it got a little harder to breathe but nothing I couldn't suffer through. I had forgot that he was hers and as I watched Sakura smile at Sasuke and Sasuke watch her with his placid face I knew there was no room for me. Maybe there never was? I felt my heart begin to go back to that place, the one it sometimes went to when I would awake alone in the morning aching for Sasuke to be there with me.

Gah listen to me! The stupid fucker is slowly but surely trying to make into a girl! First he makes me fall in love with him, which is just crossing too many boundaries as is, than gets me knocked up, and now here I am talking about how I missed him in the god damn mornings. Urg I really needed to man up! Sometime during my internal rant Sakura excused herself to the bathroom leaving Sasuke and I alone. It was awkward at first, neither of us willing to break the ice when I remembered our conversation at my house. Sasuke said he would want to know if someone was having his baby right? Steeling my nerves I looked right at Sasuke.

"Hey uh…we need to talk…about what happened the other day…"

"Hn. What happened?" I felt my mouth drop at the carelessness tone he used. There was no way he could have forgotten an almost kiss with his best GUY friend.

"You know what I'm talking about you bastard! You almost kissed me!" I said in a hushed voice which caused Sasuke to quickly glare at me.

"Dobe nothing happened." What?

"What do you mean nothing happened! It sure as hell looked like something to me!"

"Dobe you're blowing it out of proportion."

"Oh really? Than what was it Sasuke? Why don't you bluntly tell me so I won't get confused."

"It was a mistake." I felt my heart throb painfully in my chest and wondered if I was still breathing.

"I got caught up in the mood and things went a little far. Nothing happened dobe so stop freaking out about it." He said, ending our conversation. He was rejecting me. He was saying that I wouldn't make him happy and that I was his mistake. He cared nothing of our child and wanted nothing to do with it if knew. That was what those words had meant to me. I wanted to cry, I wanted to punch him or do anything to show him how heartbroken I was. I was so tired though. Tired of trying to be strong only to end up being alone. Why was I always the one to end up alone? So instead I smiled and nodded.

When Sakura came back we talked a little while longer before I made up an excuse and walked away. I walked back to my empty apartment and laid in my empty bed. This was how my life was going to be. I placed my hand on my stomach and remembered the precious life inside of me. No I was finally going to not be alone. Though the tears where rolling down my face I found that I truly wasn't as sad as before.

I had gotten distracted from raising my child and now that I was back into gear I was going to give my all into making my child happy and healthy.

THE END! Just kidding! What would you guys do if this was the end...I wonder...hm...nah! But whew another chapter up and still so many to go! I really hope that you guys enjoyed this chapter and that you guys are sticking with me till the end! Please keep reviewing and telling me what you think...But if I could make a request please don't say anything that hasn't happened yet/ your predictions because it ruins the story for others even though this person had all wrong predictions it still ruins it by you putting it out there...But I really appreciate their review and I totally welcome criticism! Just don't spoil what you think might happen! Thank you! Well anyway I hope I hear from you guys!