AN: Wow! Hey guys I'm so sorry that I took so long. Who knew AP classes meant a ton of homework :( But I'm back this chapter wasn't so good but I'll update this weekend and it will be better! 3 reviews?

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Next time I'll be braver
I'll be my own savior
Standing on my own two feet

A tense silence hung in the air as Blaine and I sat in the examination room at my doctor's office. He was feverishly texting someone who I assumed to be Kurt. My mom was filling out paper work. I slipped off the table and walked over to him after I wiped the gel off my stomach from my ultrasound. I hugged him tightly.

"Blaine?"

His hazel eyes barley looked at me. "What Kelsey?" his voice was tense.

"I'm sorry Blaine, I shouldn't have made you tell him I'm sorry."

"I needed to tell him." He said sadly as the door opened.

"Sweetie I filled out your paper work." My mom said handing me some papers.

I sat back up on the table. "Thanks."

"Sorry, I got held up with my last patient." My doctor said coming in.

I looked up. "Hey Dr. Carter."

"Kelsey how are you feeling?" She asked sitting on a stool.

I rubbed my stomach. "Sick but it's getting a little better."

She nodded and scribbled on a pad. "That's normal, you're nine weeks, that's the 3 weeks until end of the your first trimester."

"Oh, at Planned Parenthood they said I would start showing soon." I noted as I looked at Blaine who looked heartbroken.

"That's right. Has your waist thickened at all?"

My hands ran over my stomach. "A little bit."

She nodded. "Have you've been prescribed anything yet?"

I shook my head. "Not yet."

Dr. Carter flipped her prescription pad open and jotted something down and Blaine gave me a weak smile. "Get this filled out and refill it."

"You can just give it to my mom." I whispered.

My mom took the slip of paper and put it in her purse. "Kelsey swims competitively is she going to be affected by the baby?"

"How long does she swim?"

I counted in my head. "15 to 17 hours a week."

"You're going to have to stop. That kind of physical stress is bad for both of you."

My chest tightened. "But I have scholarships I need to rank this year."

"We'll figure out Kelsey don't worry." My mom said rubbing my back.

I slipped off the table. "Thanks Dr. carter see you next month."

Blaine grabbed my hand as I quickly left the room. The minute we were in the hallway I let the tears fall down my face. "Blaine my sc-scholarship. If I can't swim this year I'm going to loose everything. I've done this since 7th grade."

He sat down on the floor next to me. "You'll still into college Kelsey."

"No I won't! Even if I get in how can I go with a baby full time?"

He cringed slightly as my yelling. "It's going to be okay."

I stood up and groaned with exasperation. "How can you keep saying that Kurt left you, you're dad doesn't want anything to do with you, you're ditching the Warblers and I'm loosing everything I worked for."

He frowned at me. "You don't think I k-know that?" His voice was thick with tears. "You don't think I know that this baby is screwing everything up for the two of us? Yeah I know but I'm trying to make it better."

"By lying to me and yourself." I snapped

Blaine pushed himself up off the floor. "Well I don't see you doing anything to make this work."

I stood next to him. "I'm the one who's pregnant."

"Don't you see that I'm the one doing everything?" He hissed at me as he brushed past me and slipped into the driver seat of my car.

I crossed my arms. "And what exactly are you doing that I'm not?"

"Oh I don't know starting next week I'm working five hours at the mall to actually try and make some money for this kid, I'm constantly making sure you're okay and not upset and I'm dealing with my own father, Kurt breaking up with me."

I ran my hand threw my hair. "I never asked you to get a job!"

His hands gripped the wheel tightly. "Someone has to Kelsey. By the way have you ever even thought about how I feel?"

I looked down he was right I hadn't asked him how he felt.

"Let me answer that for you." He said between his teeth. "No you haven't you've been to busy your own damn feelings to ask how I feel."

I pushed my bangs from my eyes. "Blaine." I pleaded as I followed him through the house.

The boy walked into my bedroom and sat on my bed. "Do you know why I tell you it's going to be okay over and over again?"

"Why?" My voice was thin.

Blaine's eyes met mine for the first time. They were bloodshot and teary. "It's the only way I can deal with even thinking about having a baby without breaking down and crying."

His voice was so light and raspy it didn't even sound like him. "What do you mean?"

"Kelsey every time I look at you I feel so guilty. It's eating me alive, I ruined everything for both of us. If I hadn't been such a girl I could've taken my dad and never would've had to use you. I feel like a jerk, I can't even be man enough to deal with my dad, how the hell am I supposed to take care of a baby and you? I'm trying so hard Kelsey but I don't know what to do."

A ball of guilt formed in my stomach. "Blaine I no idea. You did what you had to you wanted to be safe, I agreed to sleep with you, and your dad Blaine, your dad's an asshole. You're amazing you're more of man than he is I promise. I'm sorry I've been such a bitch I'm just dealing with this too. But it's going to be okay you're right."

Blaine's lips pressed against my forehead. "God I hope so Kelsey."

"It will be."

Blaine and I both wiped our face dry and sighed. "Have you talked to Kurt?"

"Yeah he says he loves me but he can't be with me if he can't trust me."

I grabbed his hand. "Blaine I'm sorry I never-."

"Kelsey don't you're amazing and now that Kurt's gone I'm going to dedicate all my time to you and that baby?"

I felt myself melt. "You are?"

"Of course. I just don't want to be like my dad. I want to braver and a better father. I want to take care of myself."

I hugged him. "You are I promise."

"Next time Kelsey, I'm not going to use you." He whispered as he ran his finger though his dark hair.

I nodded and felt his other hand brush across my stomach. "I know. It's going to be okay."

"I'm going to be a better father than him, I promise." Blaine mumbled into my ear. "I'm going to be different."

AN: So Kelsey loosing her scholarships, Blaine terrified to be a dad and wants to be better than his. What do you think of Blaine being scared? Would you want to see Kurt's thought about Blaine? Let me know! If I get at least 4 reviews I'll definitely update this weekend! :D

PS: GLEE WAS AMZING LATS NIGHT! #Teamhummelberry