HELLO!
Yes I know how long it has been. If anyone still follows this story I will be amazed, I had a lot going on in the last like year? and I lost all ability to write anything or even be inspired and then suddenly tonight BOOM! So here is one and I hope you guys still care enough to come read and review?

Life gets fucked sometimes. The saying is true. No one knows what they've got until it's gone.
& I literally now had lost everything.
My wife, My daughter & now the only person who ever really knew me.
Gone.

Its fucked and strage, but in a weird way kind of peaceful to know no one was depending one me.

At least that's what I told myself.

What was really strange was everything was normal. Nobody noticed, we just existed now. Not together, not apart just existed.

Just there.

Then there.

& now here.

John's home town.

I groaned to myself as I pushed open the locker room door.

"Something getting you down Champ?" I looked over to see Cody,

"Nah nothing much son" I smiled at him and he smiled back.

"Vince asked me to tell you that you've to go over your match with Cena and let him know what's going down" I sighed and nodded,

"Thanks Codes"

"No problem" He finished lacing his boots before heading out.

I put down my stuff and started to change, knowing I had a spot at the start of the show and had to be ready. I pulled off my t-shirt then my jeans.

"Do you really need to stand in front of the door doing that?" I turned to see Cena holding the door wide open.

"Yes?" I shrugged as he let the door fall shut.

"Slut" I closed my eyes letting the comment pass over my head, not willing myself to give a reaction.

I sighed lightly knowing today was gonna be just another day. Once I was in gear I turned to John who was just finishing tying his trainers.

"So, we doing tonight?" His head shot up quicker than I had seen in weeks, his eyes wide with fear and I knew what he thought I was implying "You know our match" he visibly relaxed anyone could see it and I had to think of the irony of the fact we finished because he was scared of us getting caught and here he was acting like this.

"Oh" he took a deep breath, a sad look passing over his face, "Well you've to cheat to win and Vince wants ted & Cody involved so I was thinking they could come out cause a distraction or something and you win because of it"

"Yay me" I stated bluntly and he snorted.

"I guess I'll go tell Vince and everybody else?" He nodded and I swiftly left ignoring the pity looks from the other side of the locker room from hunter.

I smirked to the boo's my arm hanging over Cody and Ted bending over panting, my free arm holding my title over my head. Looking towards the ring I seen John lying down, a swift chair to the head knocking him out apparently, his chest raising and falling rapidly, so much so it made my groin tighten.

We walked behind the curtain, my arms falling to my sides and I shook my head. I had to get laid.

"Hey Randal" My head turned to the side and i smiled to her, John's mother.

"Miss C, how are you" she smiled at me and then over my shoulder & I already knew John was back.

"Baby boy" she muttered before hugging into him, only half the size of him, arms around his waist like a child, the sight comical.

"I hope you've been looking after him Randal" I chuckled,

"Don't I always?" Flashing my ever charming smile.

"Well of course you do, wouldn't trust my baby with anyone else" John looked me dead in the eye and I felt the all knowing pain creep into my chest, finding it hard to breathe.

"I don't know about that" John laughed shakily.

"Nonsense John, Randal's always been nice to you – great in fact – I hope you've returned the favour with everything he's been going though!" She scolded.

"Of course he has" I covered for the guilty look on his face, "Whenever I need someone – Johns there" She smiled at her son,

"Now you boys go get changed you must be freezing" We smiled at her before departing.

"Thanks for that" John said softly and I nodded as we rounded the corridor.

"It's nothing-" He grabbed my arm pulling me to a stop.

"No really" He looked me dead in the eye, "You didn't have to even be nice to her and you where, for my sake" he took a deep breath, "God knows with these last few months I don't deserve it, so really – Thank you" I could hardly breath looking at him, so I just nodded turning to walk away.

"Randy" I bearly heard it, but I did, half turning I looked at him. Standing in nothing but his jorts, covered in sweat he looked amazing, but what really stunned me about him was the look on his face, he looked utterly broken – ready to cry – and I've never seen him look more beautiful.

"I didn't want this" he whispered.

"I know" I shrugged, I tried to turn again, but he stopped me.
"No really" he pulled me in and I started to shake slightly, "I hate this I..."

"It has to be this way John I get it" I took a shallow breath, "Please don't make it harder than it has to be, you made your choice" I pulled back for the final time, pushing open the locker room finally coming face to face with the pitting look in Hunters face one more.

I really need to get laid.

I almost felt sorry for her, pounding into her, taking all my hurt and frustrations out on her. The more I looked over her the more I got angry! Where are the finally cut pecks I was used to? Where was the hard sculpted abs? That breathy moan? His adams apple?

I groaned once more and redoubled my efforts – she was screaming, anyone within twenty miles would have heard her, if not her then the bed hitting off the wall. She was by far the best pickings of the ring rats in the bar that night, she was simply stunning and yet here I am asking why she isn't him?

I felt that coil in my stomach and I pushed a little deeper, surprised her legs would stretch that far.
With the smallest of groans I emptied into the condom, pulling out of her.

"Wow" was all she muttered. I stood pulling off the condom tying it and throwing it into the bin.

"I guess this is the part where I leave?" she smiled at me and I nodded not even going to pretend, "You know, whoever you where trying to forget, if it takes that much effort while fucking someone as hot as me, then you should probably try to work it out with them" she smiled.

She knew the whole time I was thinking of someone else, yet she wasn't even pissed?

"Why aren't you pissed?"

"I wanted to fuck you, I got to do that" she shrugged laughing lightly. I chuckled to myself.

"Am I that obvious?"

"You kept screwing your eyes up, only time guys do that is when they don't see what they want to"

"I'm sorry" I tried and she shook her head.

"Don't be" She finished getting her things together and stood, "Call her though, nobody should be missing out on a fucking like that"

She opened the door and closed it behind her and I groaned flopping back onto the bed, disgusted and annoyed knowing that regardless of the exercise I just had I wasn't tired and I certainly wasn't getting to sleep tonight.

If you are still reading this - review so I know to continue or not? I already have another Chapter wrote up and i want to continue.