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Ring Ring... Ring Ring... Ring Ri-
"What?" I groaned.
"Good Afternoon to you too Mr. Orton" Hunters sarcatic voice rang down the phone.
"Yes fantastic - now what do you want?"
"I'm worried about you" It was simple, and honest. I pulled myself up to sitting position sighing, "But I'm more worried about John" I took an intake just at the mention of his voice.
"Why?"
"Go to your Window" I stood confused pulling back the curtains of my hotel window. Sure enough sitting facing the water was John, just throwing some rocks and existing, "Its 1pm why isn't he in the gym?"
"Maybe it's his day off?"
"John hasn't had a day off in the gym in months" I knew what his point was.
"He's not twenty anymore, he'd need one"
"Randy" he groaned, "This isn't healthy - for either of you"
"H" I tried not to choke "It was his choice. He isn't ready"
"So he's scared! So where you when I first fucked you! Now everyone thinks knows your Bi - well everyone relevant!"
"Yeah but you helped-"
"Yeah maybe I did, now it's your turn - go help him" I sighed.
"I can't take that again H - He said not now - I have to respect that!"
"Since when did you respect anything anyone said - please just trust me!" I sighed once more admitting defeat fine.
I took a few moments to get ready and then headed out the door. I found myself down the the waterside where John was just staring ovbiously in deep thought.
"Hey" I called, he turned and smiled though said nothing. I sat down beside him, "Sup?"
"I..." he took a deep breath, "I hurt. A lot" He turned to me and he still looked just as broken, just as sad, "It never eases, never gives up. It just hurts constantly & I need it to stop"
"It doesn't - no matter what you do" I shrugged.
"I know" He almost whispered, "Why are you always so nice?" he asked.
"Me? Nice?" I scoffed.
"Yes, nice. With my mum, with me - after all this you are so damn nice to me. Its horrible"
I laughed, "How can it possibly be horrible?"
"You should be angry, or sad, but here you sit asking me whats wrong" He rubbed his hands over his face.
"I am hurt and sad, hell I'm even angry sometimes - but I can't be mad at you, you aren't ready. I just need to acept that"
"For now?" He asked. He looked scared, like he believed I'd given up.
"For now it will have to do"
"Why are you waiting?"
"I've always been waiting, I was always waiting on something - took me a while but I eventually realised it was you. I love you John, always have and most likely always will"
"What if someone else shows intrest"
"I'll decline respectfully"
"What if they are good for you"
"Your good for me" He smiled, "Your also paranoid"
"I seen her last night" The smile vanished, his head bowed.
"It's been tough lately, I needed to get laid"
"She was beautiful" He sounded so broken.
"Would you rather I picked the ugly ones?" I joked, not fully seeing his point.
"Yes!" He snapped, "I sat all last night playing both your lives out in my head - together. The wedding, having children, taking her home to the family, growing old, the ring, the honeymoon. Everything" He looked me dead in the eye, "You where happy, had that smile on I love..." he sighed, "You never look happy anymore"
"I never am happy anymore" it was a simple honest statement, but he sounded shocked at it, "What do I have to be happy for John, I've lost everything"
"No!"
"Yes I have, now if you come back I will be very lucky, but right now I have lost everything and have nothing to be happy for"
"I'm sorry"
"I know but it doesn't change anything John. We're still wrestlers, and that means in your book we can't be together"
"I never thought it would hurt like this"
"Well it does" I stated bitterly. "And I wish you wouldn't make me feel guilty about trying to ease my way to the end of my career! I shouldn't have to worry about what you think of who I'm sleeping with" I snapped,
"No. You shouldn't - but I still get scared"
"I'm waiting for you what do you have to be scared of?" I was whispering harshly.
"That you'll get sick of waiting?" He shrugged, "That someone who won't be scared to show their true colours, someone who won't potentially ruin your career, will show up and won't ask you to wait, and you'll be happy with them living the life you deserve"
"I'm not that lucky" I scoffed.
He looked outraged, "So you'd walk away given the chance?" I shook my head no.
"No, because there is no one who can stand next to the great John Cena and even compair in my eyes. Even if the chance was there I wouldn't recognise it. Because theires always you"
"You'll get bored of waiting"
"I'm not waiting for the amusement of it - it's not about being bored!"
"I didn't mean that" he shook his head.
"Then please tell me what you do mean because I am trying to work out what I've done to make you think I'm going to run away with the nearest ring rat!"
"Not ring rat" he gulped.
"Then who!"
"Cody"
I stopped dead. I had no idea what he was talking about, "Cody?"
"Oh come off it I've seen you around him, roumers are flying everywhere!"
"You cannot be serious" I laughed bitterly, "Runnles? You think I'm fucking Runnles?! You think I'm fucking Runnles and somehow this means I don't want to be with you anymore - that I'm not waiting around and slowly but surely mentally destroying myself daily?"
His head bowed, his eyes sad, his shoulders slumped, he nodded yes.
"Thats nice Cena" He looked up slightly confussed, "It's nice to know how seriously you take my feelings towards you" My jaw set I stood ready to leave but he pulled me back down.
"I know you love me now, but I don't know that you will continue to and I know damn well I don't deserve you to wait around on me, more so if you can trade me in for the younger model" The look in his eye told me he was just as insane, just as needy, and just as hurt by all this than I was.
"John, I love you. Just as much as I did last month, or last year. Nothing - not even Runnels will change that. God I know how hard this is on you, I know how scary it is. I won't let you down John" He closed his eyes nodding.
"Why did you sleep with him? Just out of curiosity?"
"I didn't?"
"Randy please, he's told DiBaise all about it!" He looked angry.
"WHAT?"
"Oh thats nice fuck the kid and then deny it"
"John I've never slept with Cody!" I looked straight in his eyes, "Ever. Fuck I didn't even know he was gay"
"Randy he was out with everyone last week and told Ted all about it. I was sitting in the booth behind with Hunter - ask him! We heard every last detail! I mean I didn't know you where into handcuffs but hey-"
"John" I grabbed his jaw making him look me square in the eye. "I. Have. Never. Slept. With. Cody. Runnels!"
A confused look spread over his face, "but?"
"I'll see you later" I stood,
"Where are you going" He asked.
"To find Runnels" I called back. Ignoring his shouts of protests.
I entered the front of the hotel and seen a small framed blonde. I walked up slowly, arranging my face to my charming smile and leanded on the desk slightly, she looked up, eyed me quickly, blushed and then stumbled over her words "H-How may I help you?"
"Hi, I'm looking for my Friend Cody Runnels, I was wondering if you could tell me what room he was staying in"
"Oh" she looked disapointed, "I'm not supposed to give wrestlers hotel numbers out"
"If your a fan" she nodded, "Then I'm assuming you know who I am"
"Of course Mr. Orton"
"And you'll know we are friends" She nodded again, "So it's not like I'm some deranged fan, it's just he's really lazy and is ignoring his phone and I know if he doesn't get up just now then he'll miss his flight and won't make it to the pay per view!"
"Oh god I can't have that" I shook my head.
She put his name into the system and then turned to me "Room 221" I smiled
"Thank you beautiful" she blushed once more, and I rounded on the lifts.
I rappidly knocked on the door once more, Dibaise opened it.
"Randy?" he looked confused.
"Where is Cody?" I barked, Cody appered behind him.
"Oh hey Randy"
"Dibaise would you mind if I have a private word?"
He blushed ovbiously thinking the worst, "No just let me grab some things" He done so quickly and left.
Cody and flung himself onto the bed streching like a cat, "So, What can I do for you?"
"You can explain why there is a fucking story goign about that I fucked you last week?" His face paled.
"Um?"
"Cody Runnels don't play dumb with me I have your fathers number in my phone!"
"It was stupid. Ted kept teasing me because I've never been with a guy, so it got to much and I told him I had, I never gave him a name or anything, and so he kept guessing who it was. He kept thinking it was you, because of how much time we spend together training and stuff. Then the other night in the bar we where drunk and I made up a really stupid story about how we had done it - god I never would have said you if I thought he would tell!" I groaned.
"He didn't Hunter and Cena over head you - Don't worry I've put them in their place"
"I'm really sorry Randy" He bowed his head. "He just kept going on!"
"Why I thought he was straight - fuck I thouhgt you where"
"Well thats his point - If i've never been with a guy how do I know I don't like them - and he is straight" I smirked at the irony of this. It all looked so ovbious to me.
They where both gay, both liked each other, but where scared to admit it. They reminded me so much of John and myself, and of course Shawn and Hunter.
It reminded me of how jelous John got thinking of me and Hunter together. How much it hurt him. How great sex was that night.
Maybe DiBiase thinking I was with Cody wasn't a bad idea.
"Well if it shuts him up let him belive that" I smiled at him, "Just be careful where you talk about it okay?" He looked up hopeful, and I could see why John was threatend by him. Cody had started to fill out as of late, but still had that boyish charm about him.
"Really?"
"Yeah most people think I'm a slut anyway whats one more to that list?" He laughed, "Stand" He did so confused. I pulled the sheet off the bed and pushed a pillow off the side, and rolled the cover up and put in on/off the corner, "Take your trousers and shirt off" He looked alarmed.
"So he thinks we've had sex again" He visably relaxed, pulling off his clothes throwing them at the bottom of the bed. I messed up his hair. "Okay I'm gonna leave now and I know he'll be in the lobby, curious as hell because it's Ted. I need you to Jog or something untill your lightly sweaty and then just laze on the bed - okay?"
"Okay" He laughed starting to jog.
"Laters Codes"
"Later Randy"
I done as I said I was gonna do. I seen Ted and made straight to him, "DiBiase" I barked and he growled at me,
"What?"
"You know nothing? Understand?"
"And what if I do"
"Then my career and Cody's goes down the drain and trust me I'll drag yours with me"
"I don't like how yours using him" I chuckled evily.
"Why cause you wanna do it instead?"
"I -" he stopped.
"What? Care about him?" His jaw hardend, "Then go tell him, before I decide to keep him"
"Fuck you!" He growled. walking away.
I shook my head when I heard "You're mean" in my ear.
"Auck I helped them and you know it" I smiled at Hunter.
"True, what state is Cody in?"
"I never slept with him, he lied to get Ted's attention" Hunter laughed out loud.
"Oh he is a bitch! What better way to get his attention than to prentend to sleep with your mentor"
"I don't think Cody's there yet, in terms of knowing. I think he's still at the best friend stage"
"Ahh, poor kid"
"I know right?"
"Talking of friends" I groaned knowing.
"John seems to think I'm gonna trade him in for the younger model, Cody"
"He just wants to feel safe Randy, only you can do that"
"I don't know how to H, I really don't"
"You'll figure it out" I sighed, nodding.
"I hope so"
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