A little from John's point of view! With some Fun Shunter :D
Enjoy.
I looked up from my seat on the plane and watched as Randy climbed into a window seat by himself, headphones still blaring, not looking at anyone. I knew that look - I often wore it.
It's a look of pain, mixed with lack of sleep with a dose of longing.
I sighed deeply, closing my eyes. I left someone plop down beisde me, I opened my eyes and seen Hunter bright smile looking at me.
"Good morning kind sir" I looked around and seen Shawn in the seat in front, having the same goofy look in his face, "How be you this fine day"
"You guys creep me out - I hope you know that?" They both laughed and I envied them so much. How their life worked and clicked to perfectly, I mentally chuckled at the irony of my own joke.
"D'aw Johnny - don't be mean!" Shawn pouted.
"I'm not" I growled, "Just leave me alone for five minutes"
"Hey!" Hunter said, "We are only trying to help - Randy looks like a tired lost puppy and you look like someone just kicked said dog? What happend"
A mental flash of Randy calling me master while I took him started and I found it hard to pull myself back from that memory.
"Uh nothing"
"Uhuh?" Shawn tried again, "Then why has someone kicked your puppy?"
"Stop saying that no - one kicked any puppy - we've just spoken a lot lately and it's been hard!" They exchanged a look of grief, they have been so good to me, I should really be more grateful.
"I defiently think someone kicked your puppy" Shawn shrugged and I growled at him.
"What Shawn is trying to say" Paul smirked, "Is you have kicked Randy while he's been down" Another wave of guilt took over me and I sighed, " I mean he literally hasn't spoken to anyone today except if it has been like you know a legal requirement to get through customs?" Shawn nodded.
"Do you two just watch us? Like? How do you even know half of these things"
"Trust me John, if we where aloud to watch you two-" Shawn started sleazly and Paul slapped him upside the head.
"Shawn turn around face the front and think about what you've done" Paul smirked as Shawn done as he was told, smirking all the way. I shook my head at them.
"Plus don't you two usually try double act us?" I asked him.
"Does he look like he wants any company?" I glanced over at him once more, his eyes closed lost in the music, shaking my head no gulping, "Do I look like I want a black eye?" I shook my head once again chuckling.
"So I'm the lucky one today"
"By the look on your face yeah?" I titlted my head ovbiously confused.
"You just smiled" Hunter shrugged glancing at him again. I sighed seeing his point Randy hadn't smiled all day. I would know, I stare a lot, watch how the lines on his face move with each expression, watch as he bobs his head along with the music. It's gotten to the point I know what song he's listening to via the look on his face.
The plane took off quickly and I sat most of the hour ride in deep thought. The more I thought of Randy the more I wanted him, the more I needed him. It was always this way. I just couldn't comprehend how I could get it.
"Hey H?" He looked down at me from his book, "How do you two do it?" I didn't have to explain he knew what I meant.
"Because we have to - staying apart isn't an option for us" He shrugged as though it was the simplest thing in the world.
"But how do you get away with it? I mean I don't know about you two but we aren't exactly quiet when we - you know"
Shawns head popped up smirking "Stick one in him? Go at it? Pull the plug hole?" I blushed and he laughed harder causing some people to look in our direction.
"Shawn!" I warned as people went back to their own business and he continued to cackle.
"Thats how" Paul chuckled, "You take the whole thing so seriously, it doesn't have to be complicated" He shrugged again, "You and Randy are so intense ALL the time - when was the last time you two just had a coffee? Spoke about bad bumps and shit story lines?"
"I don't even know" I sighed sadly wanting the plane aject my seat and put me out of my misery.
"People already see you as this couple - like a work force - a team! Brothers! No one questioned how much time you spent together before and they aren't going to start now!" Shawn smiled, "You putting extra enphisis on everything - the only people stopping you to from being together is you guys"
"But if someone found out -"
"You guys have been at it for almost a year now, on and off yeah, and no one is any the wiser" Paul tried to reason with me, "Trust us the first year is the hardest, working out how when and why"
"But once thats worked out" Shawn smiled at Paul, "It's like heaven" I looked away from them feeling like I was introuding on a personal moment, before realising we where on a plane full of co - workers. People walking by every second, taking them in looking at each other like this all the time. And brushing it off as a bit of brotherly love.
"If you want to make it work, I know you guys can"
"Of course I want to make it work" I snapped darkly,
"I wasn't questioning it" Paul smirked.
"Sorry - I just envy you both so much"
"Don't" Shawn shook his head, "We still have so much to over come, telling our kids for a start" Both of them tore away from each other, scared, "You and Randy could have it all without complications - we envy how easy you two could have it if you just!" Shawn trailed off and i bowed my head in shame because as always he was right. He had done from the very begining.
"I just don't want to us to lose our careers over this"
"Hello" Paul waved his hand, "CEO of the company" He winked, "Not gonna happen - I've looked out for Randy for a long time and Shawn for you - because we knew before you two did - we wouldn't let that happend"
"Ever" They both smiled at me.
I glanced over at Randy who was still ovbilous to the world, and I let it all sink in.
"It could really work?"
"YES! FOR CRYING OUT LOUD" Shawn shouted and once again attracted everyones attention, "Uh - Hi" he waved at the other pasengers. Paul glared at him once more, "I'll just turn around and think about what I've done" I chuckled to the back of his head sliding down the chair.
"If it's only your career you are worried about John, then go for it, I promise you here and now. It won't affect you - I mean you know how much Vince loves you - if it came out he would just add it to the list of things he could use that make you the perfect face of the company"
"No - I know that" I shook my head, "But Randy? He's got a hell of a history with the company and -"
"And I take care of that - always!" He said firmly.
"We always will" Shawn whispered through the crack in the two seats in front and I shook my head laughing.
"What did you put in his coffee this morning?" I laughed.
"You know all of this, so really Cena whats bothering you? What are you really scared of?"
I took a deep breath, this talk had been good for me but should I go on? "He can do so much better. I want him to do better"
"That's it?" Paul scoffed, "You don't feel good enough for him?"
"Well yeah?" I put my head down ashamed.
"John do you remember how he reacted when you told him Cody lied about sleeping with him?" I closed my eyes and nodded trying to forget that night, the pain and the horror of thinking he had been with someone else.
"Do you remember how I reacted?"
"Yes, lots of tears, drink and self hatred! - but that's it John. that's part of being IN love, you think the sun shines out their arse so much that you do think they could do better, and of course you want them best for them, but think about it John, he doesn't want anyone else! If he did he would have had them by now - surely if this proves anything it proves that? Proves that after all of this fuckery he would rather have fucking nightmares than be with someone else! He walked up to Cody's room that day and if he wanted he could have shown Cody how in denial he was, he could have had Evan if he wanted him who is constantly throwing himself at Randy - and Randy doesn't even notice - and lets not even comment on the ring rats! But with you fuck you can't even bend over to tie your show laces without him piratically burning you a new arsehole!" he took a breath from his semi - rant and I took a deep breath also letting it sink in.
"Randy Orton could have any other person on this planet he wanted" I confirmed.
"Except the only one he wants" Shawn concluded sadly. I glanced between the two of them.
"Just think what we've said over John. It's make or break time" Paul pleaded.
"We are just sick of seeing you both so sad" Shawn pouted.
It is now 05.11 in the Uk and I am very sleepy - please forgive any mistakes and review?
p.s I really like this chapter. Smut soon I promise my lovely's!