Ok no excuses... I will finish this story so heres a couple of chapters to hopefully satisfy ya'll.

It felt like slow motion as the door knob was turned and the sound of footstep could be heard entering the room. Alicia had her back to the door, too scared to see the form which would be her son. The thoughts and questions that were going through her head were all negative; typical to the Lieutenant being the caution and always thinking of the worst possible situation. She couldn't run away or avoid this encounter unlike trying to avoid bullets being fired at her. That she could deal with, but this, this was something she'd never really been good at. Expressing her feelings and venting her emotions to someone had always been one of her few difficulties. She kept feelings for her Commander for years not just because her was her Commander but also because she was scared of having to actually telling him. This boy was going to tell her how much he hated her for leaving him and she wouldn't be able to tell him why. Why she couldn't deal with all of the trauma she's been through. Why she had to give him up and why she couldn't tell him that she'd regretted and missed him everyday day since she'd let him go. The footsteps were becoming increasingly closer and a familiar voice could be heard.

"Alicia?" the voice called. A puzzled look formed on the Lieutenants face as she slowly turned around.

"Mark. What are you doing here?" She asked calmly. Mark didn't reply so she continued. "Look now is not the time, if there's a problem please tell the Commander, I'm waiting for someone very important."

"I know you are Ma'am." He stated, arms crossing over his chest.

"Reynolds I swear to god if you don't tell me why your here!" She was losing her cool fast. Why did he choose this moment of all moments to come tell her something. But then it clicked, the look on Mark's face said everything. The fear and sadness in his eyes spoke volumes. Her legs started shaking, her eyes were as wide as they could possibly go without causing damage and her bottom lip started quivering. "Mark, who sent you here?" She asked quietly.

With tears in his eyes he replied "Dr Shannon."

"So your... your... but how... you cant be" and so it started, she couldn't form sentences, couldn't form words, couldn't express how she felt. She was beginning to feel light headed from all of the thoughts and emotions that were running through it. Mark saw this and indicated for the pair to take a seat.

"I know this is a shock. It was a shock to me! But we need to talk about everything and what we're going to do." Alicia stared at him while he spoke. This was her son. This was her son. That's all that was running through her mind. She took a deep breath to try and calm herself down. Calm yourself Alicia, she thought to herself. Pull yourself together, this is your son, you've been waiting for this moment for what feels like a lifetime. She looked down at her hand nervously fidgeting, she looked back up to see tears running down her finest soldiers face. Without thinking about it she leaned over and wiped them away slowly. After the tear tracks were cleared she cupped his face in her hands and leant her forehead on his and closed her eyes. She took in the scent of her son, not the soldier she had created but her son. Never again would he be just her soldier, he'd be her flesh and blood, he'd be her family. Her thoughts went back to thinking about her inability to express herself. Maybe her actions just now were instincts of a mother. A mother.

"Mark, I need to know what your thinking, I'm sure you have a lot of questions you want to ask me."

"I honestly don't know what to think. You've been my commanding officer for so long and now I find out that your my mother. I had a mother growing up, I don't know if I can see you in that way." There was a short pause, Alicia's heart was in her stomach. "But I'm willing to give it a go if you are?"

"Of course I am, I've wanted this day to happen since the day I left you. I've put you through so much pain and haven't given you an explanation. Just ask me anything."

"Ok. What happened to my father?" Mark asked out straight.

Alicia had asked him to ask her anything, but him asking about his father was not a question she wanted to answer. He was a waste of space, a violent aggressive man who shouldn't have been breathing the same air as everyone else. She knew that his disappearance was suspicious but she honestly didn't know what had happened to him, she wished she had killed him at the time but that would have meant that she wouldn't have served in the army and had all of those experiences with the Commander she had grown to love so. What happened to her ex partner had never really crossed her mind but the growth of her son had.

"I know it's hard to believe given the circumstances but I have no idea. After one of his aggressive outbursts I told him that I was leaving with you, I feared for your safety, he pushed me into the wall so I grabbed the nearest thing and hit him. I ran out of the building with you in my arms and never looked back. I thought he was going to kill me and then maybe you, so I did what I thought was best. I heard a report on the news a day later that I was missing with you and that there was blood on the floor in the living room. That's where I hit him, but the reporter said that there was no blood, they linked the blood back to your father and presumed that I'd killed him and run off with you. That's when I gave you up for adoption and when I joined the army. I had to change my appearance in order to keep a low profile but nobody in those days was interested in catching his potential murderer and without a body they couldn't prove anything." Alicia was glad that he knew what had happened but was sad with the fact that he had to know his real father was a monster.

"What was his name?" Mark asked quietly.

"Miles Lorenz" she replied quickly. "Your birth name was Kyle Joshua Lorenz" Alicia would tell that it was a lot for him to take in.

"And... you said that you were.. eerr... raped." he felt awful for asked but he needed to know if he was the result of her rape.

"Yeah, Miles raped me and I become pregnant with you." Reynolds hand covered his face and he turned away from Alicia. "But listen the one thing that Miles said that did turn out to be true was that the pregnancy was a blessing in disguise. You are the best thing that I have done, you may not think it but what I did was the right thing, giving you up I mean. I was in no right state of mind to take care of you." he turned back around to face her "I couldn't have brought you up right, we would have both gotten involved in crime and god knows what else."

"I don't doubt that. It's just the thought of being a product of a rape, its disgusting, I'm disgusting." again tears began running down his cheeks.

"No, No." she gripped his shoulders. "Don't you ever say that! You are a brilliant man, nothing like your father, you were brought up in the best possible way. I couldn't have hoped for better, it's just upsetting for you to have to find out at this age." Reynolds looked Alicia in the eyes and went in for a hug. The hug must have lasted for a good few minutes when there was a knock at the door. Both Alicia and Reynolds looked at each other and smiled, Mark finally spoke "This is going to be the start of a beautiful relationship" he paused and added "Mom."

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