CHAPTER 15 of "Smutty Shorts"
Title: "Mello's Gun"
Author: Sashocirrione
Spoilers: Spoilers for up to about the middle of the second half of the series.
Warnings: NO UNDERAGE READERS. Sexual activities. Violence. Nonhuman sex.
Summary: Sidoh is sexually fascinated with violence, and with his inability to feel pain.
Pairing: MelloxSidoh
Additional Notes: All canon events previous to the beginning of this fic have happened as normal.
Disclaimer: I do not own Death Note, and I do not make any money from these writings.
The one they called Mello wasn't the leader. The one they called Rod Ross was the leader, but Mello was the scariest one.
Mello was fascinatingly aggressive. Sidoh watched him, often drifting closer despite the tingles of fear that ran up and down his spine. For his trouble, he usually got an outburst: scary shouting in his face, followed closely afterwards by another bar of delicious chocolate thrust into his hands. It was terrifying, but worth it, for both aspects of the experience.
Mello's gun often drew his attention, that smooth length of metal that Mello was so fond of caressing and of waving in various faces whenever he got excited. Sidoh often stared at it and wondered: would he get shot again? It had tickled delightfully as the humans had all shot him, and then there had been a surge of pleasure as the bullet holes healed shut. It was frightening, but it didn't hurt in the slightest.
He hoped Mello might do it again, but he was too timid to provoke him, simply drifting along behind Mello, hoping and unable to give voice to his crush.
It was a crush; Sidoh knew that much. He'd heard others talk about it sometimes: the strange fascination with another being that led to hopeless yearning and a wish for physical pleasure. It had something to do with certain shriveled and degenerated body parts that only a few shinigami possessed, and that all shinigami were forbidden to use. Without those parts, however, pleasure in any part of the body could fill a similar purpose, and that wasn't forbidden, as long as you didn't go too far with it.
At night, as Mello slept in his bed, often with one hand clutching the gun under his pillow, Sidoh liked to drift very near, nearer than he dared to when Mello was awake. It was at these times that his imagination took over. He thought of his body tangled up with Mello's, Mello holding him down, snapping his thin, brittle arms and then shooting him in the face over and over again.
While these types of thoughts ran through Sidoh's mind, he would carefully, carefully break his own fingers, snapping them as quietly as possible and then holding in the gasp that threatened to escape with the surging pleasure of healing. More and more he would do it, faster and faster, until the healing waves of pleasure began to reach a certain peak and then he would linger there, shuddering and twitching, yearning for Mello's touch, and then gradually coming down from his height of bliss with a satisfied glowing feeling all throughout his body.
Mello never woke up during these sessions, and Sidoh was too shy to be loud enough to wake him, but Sidoh wished, he wished so hard, that Mello would just once wake up and give him an angry glare just as he reached that peak.
A/N (Author's Note):
This is a fill for a request on the Death Note kink meme. The request reads:
"Shinigami masturbation (probably Ryuk, but any shinigami could work, including a human character turned shinigami after their death). Want to see the shinigami make use of their immunity to pain and damage, by doing things such as masturbating with a blowtorch.
It could be absolutely solo activity, or it could be unrequited love, as the shinigami masturbates while watching a human they are attracted to."
If you've been following my AO3 account, then you'll have seen this chapter was uploaded there a while ago. That was because of the deletion spree that started on fanfiction dot net during June of 2012, with mods deleting all sorts of fanfics on technicalities, including some that don't even technically break the rules (for example, they deleted one of my fanfics for "wrong category" when it was most certainly a Death Note fanfic, and wasn't even a crossover). For a time it was so bad that the total number of Death Note fanfics listed as being on fanfiction dot net was lower each day than the day before.
I stopped most of my updates here and retreated to AO3 and other places, but it seems like the deletion spree has seriously slowed in recent months, and perhaps it's even back to normal, so I'm dipping my toes into the water and seeing what happens.
I've got one more chapter to upload on Smutty Shorts (expect chapter 16 soon) and then this ficlet collection is complete. I know I said before that Smutty Shorts would never be complete, but that was before it got so many chapters on so many subjects that it's seriously straining AO3's tag system.
I've tagged all the content appropriately on AO3 so that people interested in, for example, featherplay can find what they're interested in. The tags worked beautifully when there were only a few ficlets, but now there's a huge wall of tags that takes up enormous amounts of room and simply looks embarrassing.
Furthermore, many of these tags only apply to one chapter, and there's no way to tag chapters individually, so the tags aren't really so helpful to readers anymore because they might have to search through all the ficlets to find the content they wanted.
These are the reasons why Smutty Shorts will be declared complete at 16 chapters. This does not mean I'm done writing little ficlets that don't stand very well alone. If I produce more of these (and I expect I will), then I'll probably start another ficlet collection, Smutty Shorts II.