This was originally going to be a two chapter story but I decided to make it three so here goes nothing. Let me know what you think, please?

Disclaimer: I do not own Big Time Rush and am not making any money out of this.

Katie closed her eyes, remembering the kiss that James had given her the night before. The way his lips had gently pressed against hers, it had been tender but full of feeling. At least, that's what she'd thought until a minute ago. She opened her eyes but the scene was still the same, James Diamond was kissing Annabella Simmons, Class-A actress. Clenching her fists, she imagined going up to their table and throwing water into his face, slapping him, swearing up a storm, punching him in the gut or so many other things but instead, she turned around and walked out of the restaurant. How could she have thought the kiss had actually meant something to him? Maybe it had been a spur of the moment kind of kiss, something that she had misinterpreted into something else. How could she have been so stupid? Katie was about to walk down the sidewalk but changing her mind, she pulled out her credit card, walked back into the restaurant and went up to the hostess.

James smiled at Annabella, she was beautiful. This was just what he needed, somebody his own age and somebody who's older brother wouldn't murder him when said brother found out he'd kissed his baby sister. He tried to pay attention to what Annabella was saying but his mind kept wondering back to the previous night, he'd kissed Katie and she'd kissed him back. He would be lying if he said it hadn't felt incredible, through one simple kiss, he'd felt so connected with her he hadn't wanted to pull away.

James Diamond had kissed many girls before, he'd slept with a lot of them too. James Diamond could have any girl he wanted but none of them had made him feel what Katie had. Katie had made him feel not only passion but love, she'd made him feel special, made him feel like the kiss was connecting them on a level he'd never been with anyone else. And that had been just one kiss! Nobody else would ever make him feel that way, that was something only Katie Knight could do to him. James held back a sigh, he wanted to kiss her again, he'd deal with Kendall somehow but he needed Katie.

"James, sweetie, are you alright?" James snapped out of his thoughts and looked at Annabella, she actually looked concerned which made him feel bad for asking her out when he would have rather been with Katie. He liked the blonde but his heart was already taken, what had he been thinking trying to force it to forget Katie?

"I'm sorry, I guess I'm still tired from the party." Annabella kindly smiled at him, making him hate himself for stringing her along.

"I bet, that party was completely insane." She laughed. "I was only there for a few hours but I immediately knocked out the second my head hit the pillow. You want to leave?" He nodded before calling the waiter and asking him for the check. He would have to tell her this would be their last date but he just didn't have the strength to deal with it at the moment.

"Your bill has already been paid, sir." He said as he put a dish in front of Annabella. James looked up at the waiter with a confused expression, a fan maybe? It had happened on several occasions before. "She also ordered an ice cream soufflé for the lady and said to tell you to consider it your real birthday present, that the previous one had been a mistake." James felt his heart stop, it couldn't be whom he was thinking.

"How sweet, she even knew my favorite dessert. Did she give her name?" Annabella asked, taking a bite of her soufflé.

"Katie, I believe the hostess said." James wanted to crawl into a hole and die, he'd hurt Katie. A lot if she'd thought last night had been a mistake. She probably hated him too and he couldn't blame her.

"Well, that was nice of her, right, James?" Annabella asked before noticing James' sad expression. "What's wrong?" The waiter took that as his cue and excused himself. James ran a hand down his face, he should have known something like this would happen, it always did.

"I'm sorry, Annabella." He stood up. "This was a mistake, I shouldn't have asked you out when I can't stop thinking about somebody else." He half expected her to throw the dish at him or something but she just smiled.

"I knew you asking me out for no reason was too good to be true."

"I'm really sorry." She shook her head before calling the waiter to their table again.

"Don't worry about it, at least I got a free lunch with James Diamond, right?"

"Yes, miss?"

"May you please prepare this to go?" The waiter took the dish to the back and Annabella stood up before walking next to James. She gave him a peck on the cheek. "You might want to do something extra special if you expect to gain her forgiveness." James smiled as she sat back down. "I'll even take care of the tip, that way this won't really be a date." He was about to protest but she just shook her head. "Good luck, Diamond." He thanked her then walked out, he'd need all the luck he could possibly get just so Katie would hear him out. Lucky for him, he knew just where she'd be.

Katie thanked the man for her ice cream and walked out of the shop, maybe some rocky road would help cheer her up, it usually helped. She didn't understand why she was so upset, it's not as if she and James were actually going out or anything. No, she had every reason to be upset, he had played with her feelings before tossing her aside for a beautiful blonde. After all the years she had waited for him, all the flirting he had thrown her way and it had all been for nothing! She crossed the street and walked into the city park, the weather was perfect and the ice cream was delicious, she should just try and forget about James.

"Katie." Without hesitation, she threw her ice cream cone at the person behind her. In her defense, he knew better than to sneak up on her. "Rocky road?" James smiled, picking up the cone and tossing it to a trash bin before wiping off some of the ice cream that had landed on him.

"I love rocky road." She pouted, so much for feeling better.

"I know, you've loved it since you were four." James took a step towards her but Katie backed away.

"Just consider lunch with Annabella your birthday gift, fair trade." She tried to cover the hurt and anger by giving him a small smile but James managed to see right through it.

"I told you last night, there's no way I would trade what you gave me for anything. And about what you saw in the restaurant, it-" Katie raised her hands, she really didn't want to hear him explain.

"You don't owe me an explanation, you're free to do whatever you want with whomever you want."

"You don't understand, it's not as simple as you think-"

"I don't care James, I really don't. All I care about is forgetting about that stupid kiss and moving on."

"You and I know that kiss wasn't stupid, we both know it meant something." He tried once again to get closer but she took another step back.

"Actually, I don't think it did. In fact..." Before James could react, Katie had grabbed the back of his head and brought their lips together. This kiss wasn't anything like their last one, this one was angry, hurt, something James didn't like. He pushed her away, not wanting to feel her emotions. He'd never experienced these kinds of kisses with anyone, the kind where he could feel the girl's emotions.

"Will you please just listen!" He hadn't meant to shout but he knew Katie wouldn't let him speak otherwise. He ignored the people that had turned around to look at them as he continued talking. He tried to hold her hands but Katie harshly pulled away. "Katie, last night was something I will never take back, it meant something. And I know you don't think it was stupid, I know you felt something too." She scoffed but he chose to ignore it. "I know you're angry, I could feel it in the kiss and I-"

"I'm sure Annabella's kisses felt much better so just go back to her." She tried walking past James but he grabbed her arm, not allowing her to leave.

"That was stupid, I shouldn't have done that but you won't let me explain! Katie, I lo-" Katie felt her insides clench, without a second thought, she slapped him hard across the face, ignoring the sting in her hand.

"You're a manwhore, James and you're never going to change. I don't think you have to explain anything else." She calmly stated, James froze on the spot, not sure of what to say. Katie pulled her arm away, looking at him with what he could only describe as loathing. "I know you've never cheated on a girl before and I know we weren't going out but thanks for making me feel like I was just one of the many girls you've ever kissed." With that said, she walked away, not bothering to look back.

James watched as Katie left him. As much as her words had hurt, he knew the hurt was nothing compared to what she was feeling, he'd made her feel like nothing, just another girl in the life of manwhore James. He'd really screwed up but he couldn't lose her, not now.

"He did what?" Katie backed away, raising her arms in a calming gesture. Maybe she should have come up with a lie to explain her crying, it would have saved her from what was sure to be a lecture but she'd needed to talk to someone. It had been almost two weeks since her encounter with James at the park and she knew the tension was obvious. At least, it had been to Logan which was why he'd decided to find out what was going on. She was tired of holding it in so when he'd asked, she told him everything without thinking things through. It could have been worse though, it could have been Kendall who'd asked her about it. She wasn't sure whether to be grateful or disappointed that her brother hadn't noticed there was something wrong with her.

"It's not his fault, Logan, it was mine for thinking it had meant something." Logan ran a hand through his hair, not sure of what to do about what he'd just found out. What would Kendall do? Logan scoffed, Kendall would kill James, plain and simple. "And I'm the one that insulted him, I was so awful to him and he's still trying to talk to me."

"Don't defend him, he knew what he was doing and he hurt you. And we all know he is a manwhore, that's just how he is. Katie, promise me it was nothing more than a kiss, please tell me it was just a kiss." Katie thought about telling him it had been more just so James would get a total beat down but knew that wasn't right, she would never want to see James get hurt no matter how much he'd hurt her. Logan, however, took the pause as confirmation. "He's dead, we're going to kill him!" Katie looked up at the angry tone, she'd never heard Logan so upset before.

"It was just a kiss, I promise. I know it seems like I'm making too much of a deal after we shared just one kiss but it's more than that." She hadn't told him about the second kiss, it was irrelevant at the moment. "I've always had a crush on him and somehow it developed into love." She smiled sadly as she sat down on the sofa, tossing her cellphone on the center table. "When we kissed, I broke down some of my barriers to let him in, I was willing to give him a chance with my heart; I thought my dream of being happy with James was finally going to come true. The next morning, all I could think off was how I was going to let him know but when I saw him kissing Annabella, all my hopes of going out with him, all the feelings I had allowed to surface crumbled. They crumbled, Logan, leaving me feeling like a failure and like someone who's not good enough. I've never felt like that before, it really hurts."

Logan studied her face, she'd grown up so much. He sighed when he realized she knew exactly what she was talking about, she truly was in love. Taking a seat across from her, he rested his head in his hands while resting his elbows on his knees; he'd always known Katie had a crush on James and knew his friend had developed some feelings towards her but he hadn't thought anything would ever happen.

"What are you going to do?"

"I don't know." Katie sighed. "I'll always love him, I know that much but there's no way I'm going to wait for him. Especially if he keeps going out with so many women, he's crazy if he thinks I'd put up with that." Logan grinned, this was more like Katie. "I wanted to punch him, Logan, you have no idea how bad I wanted to punch him. Then I figured it would be better if I paid for their lunch. How stupid is that..."

"I know you're hurting right now but you'll get better. It may not feel like it now but you will."

"Yea, too bad I can't just roll up this pain and toss it away." She whispered sadly. The kiss she'd shared with James had been beautiful, it had made her happy beyond what she'd thought was possible and then a kiss between him and Annabella had completely destroyed all of it.

"You're going to have to tell Kendall." Katie groaned, that was the last thing she wanted to do.

"Katie, open up!" On second thought, the last thing she wanted to do was face James Diamond. Katie quickly stood up and looked for a place to hide.

"Don't tell him I'm here, please. I can't face him right now." She pleaded with Logan before ducking behind the counter. "And please don't tell him you know, not yet at least." Logan watched his adoptive sister disappear behind the counter, she'd looked so worried, scared and such a total mess, he didn't have the heart to go against her.

"I don't want to use my key but I will. I need to talk to you." Logan took a deep breath, trying to calm himself before making his way to the door and opening it. To his surprise, James looked worse than Katie. His hair was messed up, his clothes were wrinkled and it looked as if he hadn't slept in days. That didn't soften Logan's heart though, not one bit.

"You missed her. I had just gotten here to talk Kendall into going fishing with me when she ran out of the apartment. She looked terrible but left before I could ask her what was wrong." He watched as James expression turned to that of someone who's puppy had just run away, total misery. James pulled out his phone, fumbling with the device. "Don't you think I thought of that?" Logan said a bit more harshly than he'd intended. "She left her phone." He pointed his head in the direction of said phone on top of the center table. James nodded, knowing he'd have to wait to talk to Katie.

"Okay, thanks Logan." He sounded so lost and pathetic that Logan couldn't help but want to hug him while kicking his ass at the same time.

"You alright?" James nodded once more, this was something he had to discuss with Katie before talking to anyone else.

"Yea, just a bad day. If you see her before I do, you think you can tell her to call me? I really need to talk to her, it's important." Logan nodded and James walked away, looking every bit dejected. Closing the door, he made his way back to Katie who had her knees against her chest and was quietly sobbing. He sat down next to her and wrapped his arm around her, breaking down the last of her defenses. She hugged him back and began to cry for her lost love, she truly believed that James would never look at her the way she looked at him, not knowing that James' heart was currently breaking as well.

Love can be such a pain sometimes. -sigh- It may seem like Katie's making a big deal of the kiss she shared with James but trust me, sometimes not even a kiss is necessary to break the heart. Anyway, I know this was kind of sad but the next one will be the complete opposite. Let me know what you think and I'll try to post the final chapter sooner than later. BYE!