Emma Umbra-Carter (Formally Litterll) 11/22/11

Em: OMG I'm sorry for Zoe, her name is so much longer and mine barely fit on the prompter.

R: laughs So I hear that your daughter Amelia just got her child back after sending him away in the first place

Em: voice grows deadly Yes? What about him?

R: Why did she give him away?

Em: She was thinking of everyone but herself.

R: meaning?

Em: Meaning she was focusing on on taking care of me Zoe and Divi when we left, she stopped thinking about herself first. It hurt all of us and she pretended that he pain was manageable or didn't exist so she could put us first. She gave up the love of her life, Llew and her son, Caden. I'll never be more shameful for anything than the fact that I let her make my mistakes and then some. I will never forgive myself for that, decision to take advantage of her.

R: So your admitting your a horrible mother?

Em: Are you saying that you thought I was from the beginning? Possibly before you met me?

R: pretty much, she took care of you, that's the definition of a mom. You weren't her mom she was yours.

Em: That is very true, I won't deny that. She really is too much like her dad. I resent that and cherish that at the same time.

R: So because of the heartache of being take out of Brian's bed you've abandoned your duties as her mom?

Em: No! I would never take out my feelings for Brian on my daughter! They're two separate people.

R: But you just said you resent her being too much like her dad.

E,: Yes! Not because of her father. She's too nice, to caring, she's gonna get herself killed trying to safe somebody else voice frantic

R: You mean...

Em: voice thick I mean that I am a lost cause. I was from the beginning. Amelia and Brian wasted their time trying to change me for the better. I apologize to them for making them think that they could change me sobs it's not like I will ever be a mom, should be a mom,because I suck at it. The first time I try, I ruin her life. I am why she has all those scars on her wrist, I'm the one who made her, the reason she lost months with her baby. I'm a monster. muffled sobs I'm so sorry

R: She cuts herself?

Zo: growls slamming the door shut Emma your interviews over

R: I still have five minutes crashing sound, scared voice OK OK Emma we're done Voice squeaks Next up we have Zoe Carter Umbra (formally Zoe Carter) right after these messages