Hi ^^ just wanted to say, that I love you all :3

Ooh and I know that "you can't call it 'By the riverside' It's a lake"... yeah... I don't care... it just sounded better I guess ^^

Chapter 2 – By the riverside

Remus wrapped his scarred arms around his knees and stared into The Black Lake. Even though it was still a beautiful day it was freezing and he quivered slightly.

The water looked as cold, dark and uninviting as ever and Remus couldn't help but bitterly think that whatever foul creatures the lake hid, they couldn't be half as horrible as himself, who once a month turned into a monster, not knowing what he was doing, capable of killing even his closest friends without a second thought, he shook the thought off, only to drown in another one.

Why had Sirius kissed him? He didn't understand it. It was something Sirius would do, he had to admit, kissing a person because he was bored, but one of his closest friends? Remus had known Sirius for more than six years and he couldn't imagine him doing such a thing out of boredom. On the other hand Sirius had always been careless, never thinking of how his unconsidered actions affected anybody else.

Sirius had had so many girlfriends, that even Remus had given up counting, but none of his relationships had lasted long, only 'till he got bored and found another girl. His longest relationship had lasted for about 3 weeks and even then he hadn't been in love with the poor girl.

Remus had never had a girlfriend. Both his parents and friends were beginning to worry. Remus kept telling himself that he just hadn't found the right girl yet, that he was only 16, he had plenty of time, but he had a nagging suspicion that that wasn't the case. He had never, ever, been even remotely interested in anyone. That wasn't entirely true, though, Remus thought as he felt his cheeks grow warm.

Suddenly a terrible thought hit Remus, what if he knew? What if Sirius knew how Remus felt about him, what if he was mocking him? Now, that was something Sirius would do.

Remus almost jumped by shock when a hand gently touched his shoulder "You're going to catch a cold, you know" a voice said, from behind. He whipped around and saw Lily standing behind him, her long red hair flowing around her shoulders and her green eyes gleaming as always. "Evans, god, you gave me a fright, I thought you were…" Remus said, but interrupted himself, before he could utter the word Sirius "What do you want" he asked instead as he returned to staring blankly into the air. Lily sat beside him "You bumped into me on your way out. What's wrong?"

Remus and Lily were both prefects and spend a lot of time together, but Remus didn't feel like confiding to her. "Nothing" he mumbled, pulling up some brown grass from the ground. Lily looked at him "It's all right, you can tell me" she said, gently pushing him to confide, "It's that awful Black boy, Isn't it?" Remus' head shoot up and he stared shocked at her the words almost escaping his lips: How did you know? Instead he replied: "What do you mean?" "He's always hurting people, never giving a damn about how he makes them feel. He's so selfish. You know he used to date Amy Brown. Yesterday he broke up with her, she's locked herself in the bathroom, been crying ever since. She wouldn't even come out for diner, and do you think he even cares? Besides you know how he's treating poor Severus, I know he can be… annoying… at times, but that doesn't give Black the right to torment him"

If only she knew. Last year Sirius had pulled a terrible prank on Snape. He'd told him, or more accurate made sure he overheard Sirius chatting to James, that if he came to the Shrieking Shack he'd find out what the four boys were doing every month. Remus quivered at the thought of what could've happened if Sirius hadn't had second thoughts and stopped Snape.

He became aware that Lily was still talking "He's even worse than Potter" suddenly she bit her lip "I'm sorry Remus, I didn't mean to insult your best mates" "It's all right" Remus smiled reassuringly at her. "You never answered, though. Is it Black?" Lily asked looking straight at him "Nah… not the way you think… I don't know… Lily, he… he…" Remus stammered unsure whether he should tell her or not "He kissed me" Lily's eyes grew wide in surprise "he…?" "Yeah…" "Well, he's a prat, no wonder Potter likes him. Do you want to go inside for dinner?" she got to her feet and reached a hand towards him. Remus smiled and grabbed it.

This probably wasn't the most exciting chapter ever, I just felt that Remus needed to think a bit ^^ this is actually my very first chapter fanfiction O.O please review, it's very much appreciated ^^