Chapter 15 – Snape's friends
The cold floor felt even colder against Remus' bare feet.
Remus had tossed and turned for a while before giving up upon the thought of sleeping in a near future.
The events of the night had been too much for his poor little heart; it was beating like crazy, skipping every second beat. Remus really wanted to be with Sirius, but he knew that he couldn't.
He had disappointed his parents enough already and he was abnormal enough as it was. The last thing Remus needed was to be gay.
Remus wasn't gay, he wasn't, couldn't be. Remus kept sticking to these thoughts in the hope of, that if you keep thinking it, it becomes true. It didn't work very well.
Remus had always been very good at controlling himself, but when Sirius was involved, his mind stopped. Remus tried to kick it, but it didn't help at all, his mind just made a tiny noise of displeasure, a bit like when you wake someone in the middle of the night, and went black once more. It was pathetic.
His gayness had almost been controllable when he thought that Sirius didn't like him. It was a lot harder now, Remus thought with a sigh.
Remus sat in a deep windowsill and looked out on the moon, it was almost full. Remus' transformation would happen within days. The transformations had been better since his friends had become animagi. Remus still couldn't believe that they'd become illegal animagi for him, it was a warm fluffy feeling mixed with guilt. It had helped, it was like he didn't loose his mind in the same way anymore. Before that he'd been all alone in The Shrieking Shack, scratching himself, he still had the scars. The terrible sounds he'd made had started the legend, that The Shrieking Shack was haunted. When his friends had joined him it became better and soon they were exploring the grounds instead of staying in the, said to be, haunted house.
This was where the guilt came from. Dumbledore had taken him in, just as Remus had given up all hope about going to a wizarding school. Remus knew that he was betraying the headmasters' trust and shuddered at the thought of what would happen if Dumbledore ever found out.
A cold drawling voice made Remus whip around "Lupin, out for a little walk in the moonlight, are we? I thought you were a prefect" it was Severus Snape.
"Yeah, I couldn't sleep," Remus said, as always trying to be pleasant. At first Remus had been terrified when Snape used that kind of greetings, but it soon became clear that he didn't know about Remus, he had merely noticed how little Remus liked the moon.
It suddenly became clear that Snape wasn't alone. His friends Avery and Mulcriber were right behind him. Remus shuddered slightly, wondering where the rest of the slytheringang were. The group included the three slytherins present, Bellatrix Black, Rodolphus Lestrange, Evan Rosier and Wilkes.
Remus started to get frightened. Mulcriber and Avery had a very twisted, almost sadistic, sense of humour. They had, like Snape, a very prominent hate to The Marauders especially Sirius and they'd been fighting lots of times.
Remus reached for his wand, but then he realised that he wasn't carrying it. A memory of leaving it on his bedside table came to him. This wasn't good at all. Remus was alone and unarmed against three slytherins who didn't seem very friendly.
"What are you three doing out here?" Remus asked in a casual tone, trying to hide the panic.
"That's a funny story actually," Mulcriber said in a very unpleasant silky tone "Avery and myself were just heading to the kitchens, when we stumbled across our friend Snape," Remus started to get a bad feeling about this. Mulcriber continued, his voice silkier than ever "It seems that he'd just had a disagreement with your friends, do you know what state we found Snape in?"
Snape interrupted: "I think he gets it, Mulcriber" he was blushing slightly, which made Remus think that James had used the levicorpus-spell. A spell that hoisted your opponent into the air by the ankle.
Remus knew what was about to happen before Snape fired the spell.
Suddenly Remus was lifted into the air. Mulcriber and Avery grinned a very unpleasant laughter.
Remus grew cold with fear. How was he going to get out of this? He instantly made up his mind; no matter what they did to him, he wouldn't plea. Most people didn't know, but Remus' pain threshold was very high, he could stand an amount of pain that most people would faint by. People usually considered Remus a wimp.
Remus felt something making a deep cut in his cheek. He knew instantly that it was one of Snape's spells.
"Have you heard about Mary Macdonald?" Mulcriber whispered in Remus' ear. Remus stiffened a bit, he had indeed heard about the incident where Mulcriber and Avery had tried to use dark magic on the girl.
Remus clasped his eyes tightly together, preparing for the pain. But the pain never came.
"Get away from him" a harsh voice said.
The three slytherins turned on the spot and looked at Sirius.
"You heard me," Sirius said, pointing his wand against Snape, "Move".
"Shit, we can't touch him. He's a Black" Mulcriber mumbled, slowly backing away from Remus.
"Of course we can. No one in his family likes him anyway," Snape spat.
A light flashed and Snape fell to the floor, clutching his stomach.
"Get. Away. From. Him" Sirius said through gritted teeth.
Mulcriber and Avery sped up the backing.
"You better hope your friend is around the next time, too" Mulcriber snarled at Remus, before he turned and walked away followed by Avery and Snape, who was still clutching his stomach.
Sirius slowly lowered Remus to the floor, then offered his hand to assist Remus getting up.
"Are you allright?" Sirius asked concerned, sending evil glares to the dark corridor the slytherins had disappeared down.
"Yeah, I'm fine" Remus said with a small laugh, all of a sudden very interested in some dust on his sleeve.
Sirius slowly reached for Remus' chin. Suddenly he stopped and pulled back with a jerk "Good" he said in a hash tone and turned his back at Remus and started to walk.
It took Remus about a second to make up his mind.
"Sirius" he called after the tall, dark figure.
Sirius slowly turned "Yes?"
"Let's try" Remus said in a whisper.
"Try what?" Sirius said in a cold voice that couldn't disguise the short flash of pure happiness on his face. He moved closer to Remus.
"Let's try if we can get it to work" Sirius gave in to the happiness and looked at Remus with a wide grin.
Remus hesitated and bit his lower lip, "But can we please keep it to ourselves for a while?" Remus said pleadingly, some of the happiness had gone from Sirius' face "Just for a while. I'm not sure that I'm ready to tell the whole world yet".
The smile returned to Sirius' handsome face, though not as wide as before "Allright" then he leaned in to give Remus the kiss he yearned for. It was just a light touch, but it made Remus' heart speed up. When Sirius pulled away, Remus felt like he'd lost something precious and grabbed for Sirius again.
Remus wrapped his arms tightly around Sirius' neck and looked into his grey eyes.
"How did you know that I were in trouble?" Remus asked softly, playing with the soft hairs on the base of Sirius' hairline.
"James and Peter returned with the map," Sirius said in a slightly distracted voice, as he wrapped his arms around Remus' waist, "Do you have any idea how good you look in that?" Sirius whispered.
Remus' cheeks grew warm. He was wearing his pyjama pants and a slim black T-shirt. He didn't usually wear a T-shirt when he slept, but he'd put it on before he went out of the dorm.
Sirius slid his hand up Remus' back under his T-shirt.
"Sirius…" Remus started, "A teacher can appear any second".
Sirius sighed, kissed Remus' forehead and pulled back.
Remus immediately wanted Sirius' arms back, but knew it was a bad idea, if someone saw them the entire school would soon know and Remus would have to tell his parents.
"Are you coming?" Sirius said, reaching for Remus' hand.
Remus put his hand in Sirius' and together they walked back to the gryffindor tower.
I actually feel kind of bad for Sirius o.o or not *evil laughter*
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