May 15

Dear Diary,

Summer vacation is quickly approaching and I'm a bit nervous. While I absolutely hate and can't stand school, it's a great excuse to see Jared every day. I'm as excited as hell to be finishing another year at that place because it means that I will only have one more year to go when we go back, but that does mean I won't see Jared as much. I know he understands because of the imprint thing, but will it seem needy if I ask him to spend time with me every day?

I suppose that's just another wonderful reason to have Zain; Jared usually always accompanies me on walks now – that's if he's not patrolling, or babysitting Nathan, although now he usually just brings him along too. I'm so smitten with Nathan. I want him to be my best friend. I think Jared gets a bit jealous because I went round the other night and spent the whole time playing with his younger brother.

I'd of absolutely loved a younger sibling. I'm the youngest in my family, cousins and all, so I was always the one who was poked and prodded. I never got a younger brother or sister to play with. I suppose there was always Jason to play with when we were growing up… but Jase and I aren't really the 'playing' type, we're more the 'poking each others eyes out' type. Although I know deep down we care for each other, we find it better when we're physically hurting the other. While Jared just bickers with his younger brother, we don't feel we've really 'won' an argument until the other one has cried. Jared was unfortunate enough to have to witness one of our many wrestling matches the other day. Admittedly, I started it. I jumped on his head and gave Jason a noogie and after much struggle he leant forward so I tipped over and he shoved me so I fell off, he then belly flopped onto me and pulled my arm back until I surrendered defeat.

To say Jared was horrified is an understatement. I don't think he knew what to do. I'm pretty sure if Jason weren't my brother he would have beaten him up if the look Jared was giving him was anything to go by.

I don't know what it is about Jason that brings out the violent side in me. I mean, I'm very nearly seventeen and he's nineteen. We really should have grown out of this by now, but for some reason I find it quite fun. I don't think I'm naturally that aggressive (which is why Jared seemed so horrified) and it's quite nice to get some of my anger out. Jason is just a great punch bag. It's obviously just a sibling thing. Jared bickers like a child and I give my brother noogies.

Oh, you gotta love sibling banter.

Momma Thail walked in on me and Jared lying on his bed today. We weren't doing anything – we were just lying there, talking, with my head on his chest and his arm around me. But we both blushed red and sprang apart, looking guilty when she entered. Whereas my mom doesn't even want us to go up into my room together alone (she doesn't know we usually spend all of our time in here because she's never around when he's been here so far), his mom seems to find it hilarious whenever she walks in on us. Apparently she thinks it's really cute and sweet. This is the second time in a month.

Paul and Embry weren't lying when they said that Jared tells his mom everything. He actually does. I think that's lovely – Jason doesn't even tell Mom if he's coming home for the night or not.

According to Jared, she thinks I'm as 'cute' as he does, which isn't good. It just means that she's also noticed how I constantly make a fool out of myself and now she too pities me.

I've had a few more tutoring sessions with Paul. They're slowly – very, very, very slowly – but surely getting better.

I'm still not sure whether he's laughing at me or with me, but we definitely talk more. I blurted out that I now call Jared's mom 'Momma Thail' and he thought it was hilarious. Which meant he was going to go tell Jared.

Yaaay.

And to top that off, as summer is approaching, so is my birthday.

Jared is insisting that he's going to find me the perfect present. I keep telling him not to get me anything but he doesn't listen. He keeps listing stupid extravagant presents just to annoy me.

"How about we get little Zainy an ickle brother?" he suggested in a cutesy voice as he ruffled Zain behind the ears after he flopped onto my bed.

"I seriously don't think he could stand the competition. He gets far too jealous," I said, smiling as I laid down next to Jared to stroke Zain.

Jared leaned into my side and tugged my hair with his teeth as he contemplated ideas. He's so weird sometimes.

"How about… a house. I'll buy you a house we can live in and then I won't have to sneak out of your bedroom window late at night."

I rolled my eyes and bumped him with my shoulder. "That was a one-off, mister. It is not going to become a regular occurrence. You're leaving in five minutes because it's getting late."

He turned his head and grinned that cheeky grin, wiggling his eyebrows.

It was definitely going to become a regular occurrence.

Mom and Scott went out and came back home rather late the other day. Jared and I had spent the day just in my room, talking and mucking around as usual, and we didn't realise what the time was. Then it was one in the morning and they were back and he was still here… time just flies when I'm with him. We weren't doing anything, but Mom would be pissed as hell if she knew he was even in my room, so when you add n ithat she wasn't in the house and it was now technically the morning she wouldn't listen to my calm reasoning that nothing happened. So a little while after they got back Jared jumped out my window. At first I wasn't going to let him because he could get hurt but he wanted to prove me wrong. He didn't want to leave at all but I think he wanted to show off a bit when I mentioned that I thought he'd injure himself.

He managed to jump out the window and land with such grace that I was truly astonished and impressed. I'd totally of broken my ankles. He turned around and gave me the cheekiest smile, the cheekiest wink, blew the cheekiest kiss and then strutted off as if it were an everyday occurrence. I was really worried what Momma Thail was gonna think when he went strolling in at about two in the morning but apparently she was used to it now because of his odd times for patrol. Also, he says he's quite good and jumping into window's, and heavily encouraged me to let him jump in mine late at night after he's finished his shift with patrolling and I'm still awake.

I have a feeling that he's probably going to get his way again.

"Okay, um… a calculator?" Jared mused. "You'll like that, won't you? It seems like the sort of thing you'd like."

I rolled onto my side so I faced him and repeatedly punched him in the arm. Ignore what I said about not being violent. Jared brings out strong emotions from me, on both ends of the spectrum.

"I hate you so much, stupid Jared Thail!"

Zain quickly skuttled off at my high pitched whining to find Jason, who has a soft spot for Zain. Everyone seems to have a soft spot for him. Even Paul! He came round for our study session the other day and spent most of it just playing with him. Zain loves Jared and Paul well loads. I told Paul it was just because they might have the same lineage because of the wolf gene thing and he wouldn't speak to me for the rest of the day after that. He's such an idiot.

Jared laughed and grabbed my arms, pushing them above my head, his chest over mine.

"I'm sorry! God, Kim, who knew you were secretly so aggressive?" he muttered, shaking his head. I narrowed my eyes at him and he laughed.

"Okay, I'll be serious. I'll get you…hmm, I dunno. You're difficult to buy for. I'm starting to think the calculator is a good idea."

I glared and he smiled the gorgeous smile that makes my heart flutter.

He let go of my arms so I could put them back down. He laid on his side, facing me, but kept one arm draped over my waist while he lent his head in his other hand.

"In some ways it would probably be romantic, you know, considering I imprinted on you in a Math classroom," he noted, staring at me with the eyes that make me blush. I do not like him to mention romance, imprinting or anything to do with love as I don't have a clue how to act. I like to just pretend everythings normal and I'm not harbouring this killer crush for him. At least until we've 'gotten to know each other' and can move on. Then of course I'll face it all.

"Please don't get me a calculator for my birthday," I begged and he smiled.

"I'm just kidding... I know!" he said euphorically. "I'll buy you a car so I don't have to put up with you so freaking much!"

I rolled over, turning my back on him.

"Get out of my room."

He laughed loudly and pulled me into him, somehow managing to get us into a 'spooning' position. It would be very difficult to explain if someone walked in. Especially my mom. Oh god, she'd go freaking crazy and kick Jared out. I still get nervous when he's so physically close.

He nuzzled my neck. "Please forgive me! I'm sorry!"

I shook my head but with the arm wrapped around my waist he pulled me closer.

"I know one thing you can do for me for my birthday," I said as he pushed my hair behind my head, out of the way.

"Oh yeah?" he asked eagerly.

"You can stop making fun of me. You and all your stupid friends." He laughed loudly because he knew that I didn't really mean it. "You lot never tire. It's relentless."

"You love it."

I shook my head and he kissed my bare shoulder. Even if it's freezing outside I've realised that I only need to wear vest tops or t-shirts when I'm spending time around Jared. He is very warm.

"The guys love you so much. They think you're hilarious."

I groaned and buried my face in the mattress.

"They don't think I'm hilarious, they just think it's hilarious when I embarrass myself," I grumbled.

He chuckled. "Yeah," he agreed jokingly – at least I hope he was joking. "That's probably it."

I elbowed him and he brushed my face lightly as he tucked a few strands of hair behind my ear gently. It was so tender and soft that I could barely feel it, apart from the fact that the touch of his skin on mine still makes my skin tingle.

He squeezed his arm around me and brushed another kiss to my bare shoulder and I relaxed into him, drifting off to the deep, soft and soothing rhythm of his breathing.

It's now about twelve o'clock and I just woke up, alone, because Jason wanted to borrow my ear phones, not realising what the time was and that he was waking me up when he barged in. He's so clueless.

I just swore at him and he huffed and left, not even closing the door properly on the way out.

As I flopped my head back down onto the pillow I heard something crinkle and as I moved my hand up, my fingers wrapped around a piece of paper. I got up and turned the light on to see that before Jared had tucked me into bed, turned the light out and presumably jumped out the window, he left a note.

A note that turned my blood cold.

'I now know what I'm buying you for your birthday: a massive roll of duct tape so that at night you can keep your mouth shut. Did you know you sleep talk? Not that I mind, I think it's quite cute when you say my name in your sleep.

Sweet dreams,

Jared

xxx'

How is it that I can embarrass myself even when I'm unconscious?

Please, if there is any god out there, you have to take pity on my pathetic excuse of a life and give me the ability to act cool. How much of a geek must I be if he thinks a calculator is a gift I'd find romantic? Lucy's boyfriend bought her condoms for her birthday.

Life isn't fair.

Kim Conweller

Please read: A couple of people have pointed out that they didn't get an alert for the 15th chapter, so if you haven't read about Kim meeting Jared's mom then you might wanna head back and read it, as some of the things that I talk about (like tutoring Paul) probably won't make sense.

Thanks again for everyone who's reading and those reviewing or favouriting, I really appreciate it. And it's my birthday today so I think I deserve a little review for posting ;)

Dancingonmytrainofthoughts - Your review made my day! Thank you so much, I'm glad you like it. I've been really conscious of making sure this has as little errors and mistakes as possible, as some of my previous ones have been absolutely littered with them, so I'm glad that you haven't noticed many. Thanks again! :)

Ashley C - Hehe, you're not the only one! This seems to have dragged out quite a bit but I promise it's coming very soon! Thanks for reading and reviewing :)