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The Bond
Chapter Four:
(Jasper's POV)
Holy. Fucking. Hell. Bella had some delicious looking tits on her. I just want to grab them and run my tongue over them and suck them slightly while massag-
'Okay, Whitlock. Get ahold of yourself. This is Bella we're talking about. Remember, Alice? You're wife?'
I tried to shake the vision of Bella's boobs out of my head, but I just couldn't do it.
They were so perfect. Seeing her in the bikini was so fuckin' sexy. I just wanted to run my hands up and down the smooth, silky skin of her stomach, to her legs. It's not just her body either, she's gorgeous all around. Her emotions are the purest and rawest I've ever felt from a human or vampire. Like right now, I've never felt so much embarrassment and humiliation come from a human or vampire before.
But good god, this girls going to be the death of me. I'm thankful Edwards not here to hear my thoughts, I'm sure he'd try to rip me a new one. Hell, my wife's gonna rip me a new one if she finds out about these thoughts I'm havin' about Bella. But, I can't find it in me to care and I don't know why.
I've always felt a slight pull towards Bella, since the first day Fuckward brought her home. I assumed it was from her blood but I'm not so sure now. Like that day Bella cut her finger on her birthday, I didn't feel any bloodlust, even as she cut her finger. Which amazed me, it wasn't until Edward and the others got a sniff and Edward almost seemed to throw his bloodlust on to me, directed it at me, and threw Bella back into those glass plates, and I snapped.
I've never felt so guilty in my life. I know she doesn't blame me for it, but I blame me. Well, doucheward mostly. However, I still feel guilty. I guess not as guilty as I feel when I look at Bella and have the urge to grab her face and kiss her senseless.
Her personality, these past few days of talking with her and chatting with her, I've come to find out is amazing. I can feel myself being drawn to her even more.
The sound of the bathroom door opening snapped me out of my thoughts. I looked up just in time to hear Bella let out a loud squeak and immediately shut the bathroom door again.
I chuckled, "Bella, darlin'. Please, come out, beautiful."
I received no response, but I heard her heart rate pick up at the sound of being called 'beautiful'.
"You have nothing to be embarrassed about. Quit feeling embarrassed, humiliated, self-doubtful and all that jazz. I've never laid eyes on a girl more beautiful than you. Not even Rosalie or Alice. I know you're embarrassed about me seeing your breasts, but you shouldn't be."
Her emotions started to flood with flattery and thankfulness.
The door creaked open and she came out. "You sure do know how to woo a girl don't you, cowboy?"
For some reason hearing her call me 'cowboy' went straight to my dick. I willed it away and winked at her in response. "I can hear your stomach growling, let's get you some food."
I grabbed her hand and led her down the stairs and into the kitchen. While she was fixing her food I decided to get to know her a little better. "You love to read, right Bella?"
"Yes, I love reading the classics, Romeo and Juliet, Wuthering Heights, books like that. What about you? Do you like reading?"
"Yes, I do. Although, I prefer reading history. Before you met us, what did you want to major in, in college?" I asked.
"Something to do with English. Maybe teaching, writing, becoming a journalist... I just know I want it revolved around writing."
From then on, we talked about anything and everything. We talked late into the afternoon, moving from the kitchen to the living room. I popped in a random movie and we continued talking.
I learned about her past with Renee, how she spent her childhood taking care of her mother instead of the other way around. From 7 years old she started cooking dinner for her mother, making sure she was up for the day, and at 12 she started paying her mother's bills for her.
Finally, at 4 in the morning, I sent her to bed.
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Two weeks had passed already.
I continued learning new things about Bella every day. It was amazing how much we had in common. Slowly, but surely, I found myself developing feelings for her and I could feel her developing feelings for me, as well.
We haven't found ourselves in any more embarrassing situations or almost kissing ever since that day. We've been enjoying every second spent with each other. The only times we didn't spend together were when I went hunting.
We never really heard from any of the Cullen's. Edward occasionally called Bella and the result was always Bella being pissed off and angered. I would pull her into my arms and soothe her until her anger calmed. Alice sent me a text here and there, but whenever Bella or I tried to contact them, they never answered.
Something just didn't feel right to me. It almost felt like they had abandoned us.
I found myself not caring, and Bella did, as well. We were enjoying each other's company. Currently, we were walking around the mall in Port Angeles. Normally, Bella hated shopping. But she said she wanted some new clothes, because hers were getting old and worn.
Shopping with her was nothing like it was with Alice. Bella went in a store here and there, not every single store like Alice did.
"Oh! Jasper, let's go in Macy's!" She pulled my hand in the direction of the store.
When we reached the teen's department, she went off in search of clothes. She had about 3 pairs of pants, 4 shirts, 4 tank tops, and 2 pairs of shorts by the time she was done. Nothing outrageous like Alice would.
Suddenly, her emotions started to get shy and nervous.
"What's up darlin'? What has you nervous?"
She bit her lip and looked around. I followed her line of sight.
Dresses.
I laughed, "Go look, sweetheart. I know it's not what you're used to. But maybe you'll find one that suits you, that you can feel comfortable wearing,"
She departed from me and looked for a while. I stood to the side, smiling at the sight of her.
She came back shortly with a couple dresses. We checked out and headed to the bookstore.
"Any types of books in particular you're looking for today, Jazz?" She looked up at me through her eyelashes.
"Yes, this new book just came out about the Civil War. I'm dying to see what they got wrong this time. It's apparently supposed to be the most realistic book about it." It irritated me just thinking about it. It always did.
The stories about the wars are believable to anyone who wouldn't know the difference, whoever, being I lived through the war and know what actually happened. It's fuckin' irritating to read a book and know it's completely wrong. It's like somebody writing a book about how the grass is purple and when you read it, you know it's wrong and the more you read it, the more it pisses you off but you can't help but continue reading.
Bella giggled, "Yes. I'm sure it's probably still completely wrong. You know, Jazz, you should write your own book under an alias. Write the war how it actually happened. Say you got the information from your ancestor's diaries or something."
My interest peaked as I thought about it. "That's not such a bad idea, Bella. I might just do that sometime."
We arrived at the bookstore and I picked out the history book that I was talking to her about. I saw a few more books that I've never read before and decided to go with those, also.
I wandered to where Bella was at and seen she had a few in her hand, as well. Alice in Wonderland, a Shakespeare works novel, and the Grimm Diaries series and prequels.
I grabbed the last book from her grasp, because I've never heard of it before. I skimmed the summary quickly and saw it was about Snow White becoming a vampire and it had other fairy tale characters that were of the supernatural.
I chuckled at the book and raised an eyebrow in question at Bella.
"What? It sounded interesting and I want to read about how they have vampires all wrong." She flashed me a grin and we headed for the checkout. I set my books up on the counter, grabbed hers from her, and set hers up as well.
"Jasper! You already bought me all those clothes that cost a fortune. You can't possibly buy me these, also!" She shrieked and reached to grab them back.
I blocked her from getting them, hurried, and paid before she could protest any further. "I want to. You deserve it." Without thinking, I kissed her on her forehead and pulled her into my arms. I felt her shock at first and was about to pull back when she wrapped her arms around me in response and I felt her contentedness and attraction.
After what felt like all too soon, I pulled back and kissed her nose.
She giggled at me. "Want to go see a movie now? There's a horror movie out that I've been just dying to see."
"Sure darlin'. Let's go put the bags in the car and we'll head over. I never would've pegged you for a horror movie person, Bella." I led her in the direction of the car.
"Normally, I'm not. It's called Mama. It's about two children who were raised by a ghost and they become to think of the ghost as their mother. It's supposed to be scary, also."
We set our bags in the back and I opened her door for her and then got in myself. Within minutes, we were at the theater.
I walked up to the ticket booth. "Two tickets for Mama at 6, please."
The woman behind the counter smiled seductively at me. "Of course." She handed me the ticket and I paid. "Is there anything else I can help you with handsome?"
I rolled my eyes, "No thanks." She handed me my receipt and as we were walking away I seen she wrote her number down on it.
Without hesitating, I threw it in the trash. I looked at Bella and noticed she was radiating jealousy, doubt, and worthlessness.
"No need to be jealous, Bella. You're the girl I've begun to have feelings for more and more lately, not her."
Her heart rate and breathing sped up. Admiration, lust, love, and guilt flooded her emotions. It was then that I realized I just admitted to Bella that I had feelings for her, while having a wife. Oh, shit.
"You do?" She breathed out.
Suddenly, I was the one who was nervous now. I hesitated. "Yes, Bella. Honestly, I do."
"What about Alice and Edward?" She asked.
I had no immediate response to that, "Bella. I have no clue. I just know that I've started falling for you and ever since then Alice has been on the back of my mind. I don't think I love her in the same way that I used to. You've taken that place. I've talked to her twice since she left and both of those times were a text here and there. I've obviously taken a place in the back of her mind too. Although, I do think something's up with them ignoring us."
Shock went through her, "I-I-I" She stuttered. I could tell she was so shocked that she couldn't even speak.
"Shh," I placed my finger over her lips. "You don't have to say anything, right now. Let's go see the movie."
Since she was still in shock, I took her hand in mine, led her into the theater and sat towards the back.
Not much was said after that. Bella still had shock running through her but it was starting to fade.
The movie turned out to be a decent ghost story, although most of the humans thought the ending sucked because the little girl dies in the end. By the end of the movie, her shock had faded and the movie had caught her interest.
Upon leaving the theater she frowned, "I don't get why they had to make the little girl jump off the cliff and die. It's so sad! She was just a little girl."
"It's not real, Bella. It's just a movie. She didn't actually die." I told her trying to soothe her.
"I know, but still. That was such a terrible ending to a good movie." She frowned and I chuckled at how cute it looked.
I followed her to the car and we drove back to Charlie's house. "I gotta drop the car off at my house and I'll run back and wait for you in your room, darlin'."
She nodded her head and we said our goodbyes.
I was speeding the whole way back to the house, worrying about something happening to her. I parked the car and changed my clothes real fast and ran as fast as I could back to her place. She all, but consumed my thoughts lately, but I couldn't help but worry about Alice and the rest of the family.
Slowing my pace to a jog, I called Alice. When I received no answer, I called Edward. Again, I got no answer.
Weird.
I finally called Carlisle and after 5 rings he finally picked up.
"Jasper?" He answered.
"Carlisle? How is everything? Why hasn't anybody contacted me or Bella lately? Alice and Edward haven't been answering their phones."
He was silent for a little bit. I figured he was just gathering his thoughts. "Things have been very hectic around here. More people are getting killed all throughout Alaska and Canada and it's definitely a vampire, but we can't seem to track him or her."
"If you need my help, you know I'll be there as fast as I can." I offered.
"No, it's all right. Bella needs protection and you need to stay there for her. And as for Edward and Alice, I don't know why they haven't been answering their phones. I'm sorry your mother and I haven't called you guys. I knew you'd be alright, but we were so worried about this vampire killings and what would happen if they spread into the US and hurt Bella." It all sounded right, but I couldn't help, but think of how suspicious it all sounded.
"Alright," I sighed in defeat. "I'll let you go, but please remember to call us once in a while. Bella has been worrying about you, Esme, and Emmett like crazy. I'll let her know you guys are safe."
I said my goodbyes to him, put my phone back into my pocket, and continued running to Bella.
I noticed she had her window open so I jumped up and laid down on her bed waiting for her. I listened throughout the house and heard her and Charlie downstairs eating.
"I'm going to be going on a fishing trip with Billy and Jake tomorrow and I'll be gone the next couple of days." Charlie told Bella.
"Great! Catch us something big and I'll cook it for us as soon as you get home." I heard her gathering their plates and starting the dishes.
I laid back and tried to let myself feel peacefulness, calm, and tranquility. It gets a vampire into the closest state they can get to sleeping. I shut all thoughts off and just let myself feel.
I'm not sure how long I laid there before Bella walked back into the room and startled me.
"Were you trying to sleep, Jasper?" I could feel her amusement.
"Trying to. But for some reason it just wasn't working."
She laughed and walked over to me and sat down next to me. Her hair was wet and I figured that I must have been out longer than I thought if she had time to take a shower.
"How was dinner with your dad?" I asked her.
"Good. He's leaving for a fishing trip for the next few days."
"Does that mean I get you all to myself?" I asked her and smiled.
She snuggled into my side. "Yes, you do, cowboy."
Once again, hearing her say that went straight to my dick. And hearing her quiet giggle told me that she knew that.
"Bella," I chastised in warning.
"What's wrong, Major?" I haven't been called 'major' since I left Maria. But hearing that word leave her lips left me groaning.
"You're asking for trouble." I rolled over onto my side and looked at her.
"I know," she whispered.
For a second, all I was aware of was her beauty. The way her big, brown eyes shined when she looked at me, the smile that graced her lips, and the contentedness mix of emotions that she always had around me, although her lust was creeping in, also.
I couldn't tell you who started it but the next thing I felt was the heat of her soft lips against mine. It was like sparks flew, fireworks going off, electricity going through us. Whatever you want to call it, it's all the same. I've never felt something so good in my entire lifetime.
She rolled on her side and pressed her body into my harder, I grabbed the back of her head, deepening the kiss and running my hands through her hair. She tossed her leg on top of mine and brought herself even closer than before.
I ran my tongue over her lips and she parted them for me. As we fought for dominance, both of our lust was rising higher and before I lost control of my emotions, I slowed our kiss down and broke apart. Kissing her lips again gently one more time.
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A/N: There you have it! They finally kissed like you've all been waiting for. What do you guys think is up with the Cullen's? Why is Edward and Alice avoiding Bella's and Jaspers phone calls? What do you think is gonna happen next? Review with your answers!