November 12 2012
Dimitri,
Ive been sick lately. I havent been sleeping well, Ive barely been eating and anything I did eat would just come back up. I tried to hide it, but apparently I lost enough weight for it to be noticeable and as Lissa puts it ' I have monster bags' under my eyes.
She freaked when I told her Id been throwing up for the last 3 weeks. Forced me to go to see Dr O before we leave the academy for good.
She literally had to drag me to see her... But you know what... I kind of wish I had been more stubborn and not gone at all because I almost died when she told me...
She did tests on me, blood tests mostly... But she made me do one in particular that I had to argue about. She thought I was pregnant.
I scoffed in her face when she asked if I had been with anyone lately, theres no way I was pregnant.
I refuse to let anyone get as close to me as you did. You are the one and only person I had ever made love... Had sex with.
She ran a blood test though to check since I flat out refused the urine test.
It came back positive.
...
Yeah that was my reaction. I just sat there staring at her. She had to be wrong, it had to be a false positive, so I argued again and she redid the test.
When she came back the second time she explained that pregnancy blood tests are 99% accurate...
And It was positive. Twice.
So Dimitri, Comrade, Guardian Belikov... Youve got your wish... You are going to be a father...
And you may never know about it...because you left me ...and you probably wont believe me anyway...no one else does.
-Rose