December 12 2012

Dimitri,

I went to the mall in Missoula with Lissa today, you remember the one? It was a bittersweet moment when I pulled up in the van, I parked in the exact same spot we did back during my first 'field experience' training, that time we went with Victor *shudder*. Im glad hes still locked up.

We were going for two reasones, one was shopping for Lissa, she was invited to a fancy ball for some rich, snobby royals in California next week... I cant even remember which Royal family is hosting it, but theyre all bound to be there. And you know Lissa, she cant turn down a reason to get dressed up.

I have no choice but to go with her, being her main guardian and all...

Theres something Ive wanted to ask you...

Are you proud of me?

You said you left because you distracted me... Well I graduated, I was made Lissas full time main guardian...

I have everything I ever wanted...

Can you hear my sarcasm? Its there, its always there these days. Im even surpassing Christian in sarky attitude, and he was the king of it.

So...

Why am I even still writting these you may ask? Well Its alot like a diary... It helps ease the pressure inside me. Sometimes I feel as if my heart is going to explode but not in a good way...

Anyway, The second reason we were at Missoula is because I wanted to see a doctor that wasnt from court... Everyone there believes I slept with a moroi, not just any loroi, oh no, they are believe its Adrian of all people... And I couldnt stand hearing the rumours or the whispers so anything baby related was sorted outside of court.

I was scheduled for my second ultrasound. This one was going to show the baby...

I lay on the bed staring at the ceiling. I was alone, I sent Liss off with her Other guardian.

When the doctor came in she was moroi, she was nice. She didnt ask me about you which I was greatful for, nobody believes I only slept with a dhampir so Id rather not tell them...

Our baby is healthy, his hearts beating strong and hes growing at a fast rate, though Im not surprised, she said he was probably going to be a big boy if his father was 6'7.

I dont actually know if its a boy or girl yet, I guess I just really want a boy... Would he have your eyes? Your hair? Your smile?

Im only 4 months along but I cant wait to meet him.

Lissa says Ill have to go on maternity leave once it starts to show that Im pregnant...

I miss you...

-Rose.