January 17 2014
Another year gone, another year youre not here.
*sigh*
Im really pathetic, I should be over you, I should be able to move on... But I cant.. I just cant.
Whats wrong with me?
...
Your sons doing well, he can stand on his own already, he tries to walk but ends up landing on his butt. Im glad hes a tough little monster because he barely cries anymore.
I read to him every night, do you know what his favourite story is?
Cowboy Billy and the cattle drive.
How crazy is that? He has your taste in books, I should have guessed. Ive given him the nickname 'cowboy,' and he loves it. Im sure his first word will be 'yippe ky yay' or 'howdy' or something ridiculous like that.
Lissa thinks something is wrong with me, she hasnt said anything directly to me, but I can see it. Sometimes when she thinks Im not paying attention I can see her studying me with a worried look on her face.
She has reason to be worried... Im not the same as I was, I will never be the same as I was.
X Rose