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Three Weeks Later…

My eyes are beginning to ache to point when I can't blink without it stinging, I haven't slept in days. I can't; every time I close my eyes I'm there again reliving it. Waking up in a cold sweat with the same gut wrenching guilt and remorse, thinking about all the things I should have done or said to him and I didn't. I can hear my mother and Neha in the other room talking about me; my mother comes in every morning asking Neha the same questions about me. How's she doing today? Has she eaten or slept yet? I know they're concerned about me but I just want to be alone sitting here by the window; as the days blur together until I lose track of time.

Anita:" Natara?"

I turn slowly to see my mother stood in the doorway. She looks everywhere in the room to avoid looking directly at me; it seems like she doesn't know how to act around me anymore. But I don't blame her, everyone else is the same. They stutter in fear of saying the wrong thing, or eye anything else in the room so they don't have to look at me with that pity they know I don't want. She takes a step further into the room and flashes a small smile.

Anita:" I need to run some errands and I was wondering if you wanted to come with me. The change of scenery might do you good sweetie."

Glancing at my mother, I could see the hope in her eyes that I'd finally show interest in getting out of this place for the first time in three weeks. Although I didn't want to go, I slowly nodded in agreement to settle my mother's worries.

Waiting in the traffic as we sat in the car, it was excruciating. Looking out to the people walking along the sidewalk, I found myself fascinated. Watching each person as they passed, I couldn't help myself as my eyes instinctively started to search the crowd for a familiar face. I caught myself and realized how foolish I was being. Turning back and resting my head against the seat; my mother then glanced at me and let out a deep sigh.

Anita:" I was thinking we could go out to dinner tonight? You, me and Neha."

Natara:" I'd rather not mom. Can we just order in?"

Anita:" If that's what you want. Chinese okay?"

Natara:" No!"

The car instantly fell silent as my mom quickly looked back at the road. I felt terrible for snapping at her but I couldn't find the words to apologize.

Natara:" Mom I-"

Anita:" I know sweetheart, I understand."

I was grateful that we said no more about it as she fell silent again. When we finally made our way out of the traffic, I spent the rest of the afternoon following as my mother finished her errands; the whole time wishing I was somewhere else. I was more than relieved when we came to our last store before we headed home again. I decided to wait outside as my mother disappeared into the post office.

Standing alone, I found myself watching the crowds again but this time something caught my eye. As I felt my whole body tense, my heart almost jumping from my chest. My head told me to be rational but everything else in me defied, as I raced after the familiar stranger with the same brown hair and blue eyes as he moved through the sea of people. Desperately pushing my through to get to him, I didn't care what people thought or said to me. Feeling my heart beating in my ears; my heavy breathes echoing around me, I didn't slow my pace not even for a second. I ran like my life depended on it and in a way I guess it did. Finally being washed up from the crowds to an empty sidewalk, I stopped as I searched fiercely; my head turning in every direction only to realize that I was stood there alone.

My stomach dropped as I felt my legs go weak from the pain that crept up inside my heart, just to feel it ache again was almost too much. I heard distant footsteps behind me and swiftly turned to find my mother looking at me with confusion and concern.

Anita:" Natara why did you take off like that? What is it?"

I could feel the tears as they pricked up in my eyes and knew if I told her, I'd burst the flood gates. Taking a short shaken breathe, I rubbed my arms to fight the slight chill in the air and glanced back at my mother.

Natara:" It's nothing."

I knew my mother wasn't convinced by this awful lie, but thankfully she didn't push any further as she smiled warmly and took my hand.

Anita:" Come on, let's go home."

Finally arriving home, I felt a sudden wave of exhaustion wash over me. I didn't want to think about what had happened today; I just wanted to sleep just to escape reality for at least a few hours. As I walked through the hall about to go upstairs hopefully unnoticed; Neha appeared from the kitchen.

Neha:" Hey you're back! Natara while you were out, some guy came by and delivered some flowers for you. They're in the kitchen."

More flowers; to be honest I was getting sick of seeing them. The same sad bouquet of flowers with the same card that always said the same thing. I hated the sight of them; looking at them just made it hurt more. Making my way into the kitchen, there they were sat on the counter. Beautiful white lilies in a tall white vase. I carefully picked them up and couldn't help but admire their beauty; hesitantly I picked up the card and read it. As I did I felt my flood gates burst, my heart shatter as my legs gave way and my arms felt weak as I let the vase of flowers fall and smash on the tile floor.

My mother and Neha came rushing in with looks of worry and concern set deep into their faces.

Neha:" Natara we heard a crash what-"

They both paused as they looked at me; shaking uncontrollably with tears rolling down my face. My mother raced to my side as she pulled me close into a tight hug.

Anita:" Shhh it's okay sweetheart."

I watched as Neha made her way through the shards of broken glass and carefully picked up the card; her face screwing up in disgust as she read it.

Neha:" Is this some kind of sick joke, who the hell would do something like that?!"

Anita:" Why, what does it say?"

Neha wordlessly handed my mother the card as she glanced down to read it; I felt my stomach drop again as I read it a second time.

All my love – Mal x

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