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3am and standing on the sidewalk, I couldn't help but feel apprehensive as I stood looking up at the building that sat in front of me. After watching the clock for hours as it slowly drove me insane; I had to get out of the house. So now here I was, as I made my way up the stairs and slowly slid the key into the lock; I paused. Exhaling deeply, I quickly unlocked the door and pushed it open as I quietly took a step inside. Everything was just as Mal had left it, looking around at the empty apartment I half expected him to walk into the living room with that same warm smile on his face.

Pacing around, I felt like I was walking on ice that was about to break apart at any given second. It felt so surreal, the last three weeks had passed as fast as I had blinked and now looking at Mal things, I knew at some point that I would have to box everything up and take it all away. But the thought of packing Mal's whole life up into cardboard boxes like that tore me apart. Part of me knew it would eventually have to be done but the other half didn't want to face it.

As I took a step into the bedroom, I glanced down to see his jacket thrown in a heap on the floor. I couldn't help but laughed in spite of myself; Mal never was very tidy. I slowly bent down and picked it up; holding it close, it still smelt of him. I knew my being here wasn't helping in any way but it made me feel close to him and as I pulled the jacket around me, I felt that warmth that I'd missed for the last three weeks. It was the little piece of Mal I had left.

Walking back into the living room, I took a seat on the couch. Finally feeling like I could breathe again; I let out a deep sigh as I sank into the comfort of the couch. Exhaustion pulling me under, my eyelids slowly slid shut and I let the darkness take me as I fell asleep.

The next morning, as the sun burst through the open blinds; I slowly stirred awake, stretching out and suppressing a yawn; momentarily forgetting where I was as I sat up. Glancing around I felt a heavy weight on my chest after realizing that I was alone. It felt strange awaking up here alone, after all those mornings awaking up in Mal's arms. Glancing at the clock, it stated that the time was only 6am. Managing three hours of sleep was actually an achievement, considering the fact that it was most sleep I'd had in the last three weeks. Standing to my feet, I slipped Mal's jacket off and carefully placed it on the back of the couch. As I slowly approached the window; I watched as the rain fell silently as it glistened in the sun's rays reflecting against the clear water, creating a small source of coloured light that danced along the wooden floor at my feet.

Looking back toward the front door, I must have been staring at it for a whole ten minutes if not more. I had been so used to seeing him walk through that door, apologizing for being late or with takeout boxes in his hands complaining about how he wouldn't have taken so long if he hadn't had to wait for my damn mongolian beef! Glancing back at my reflection in the window, I realized for the first time in weeks, I had a real genuine smile on face.

Pulling away from the window, I slid my shoes back onto my feet and headed for the door. And after taking one last glance at the place, I left. Walking passed the door that I knew led to the roof, I stopped in my tracks. Taking a deep breath, I went up the stairs and stepped outside. Walking towards the edge, I stood silently looking out at the view. As a warm breeze calmly blew around me along with the rain gently pouring from the sky; kissing my skin with every drop. I felt at peace as I closed my eyes, taking it all in.

"I knew I'd find you up here…"

My eyes instantly snapped open, my heart dropping in my chest. I raised a shaking hand to my mouth as I froze in pure shock. Hearing the words of a ghost, I hesitantly turned around to see that my ears hadn't deceived me. As my whole body trembled, I let my hand slide away from my mouth letting out a short shaken breath.

Natara:" Mal…"

I hope you enjoyed this chapter, please review! Jade xx