AN: Wow Thank You to all of you who reviews, it truly means a lot to me to know people are enjoying this. I have been a fan of A&A since the pilot but this is my first time writing fiction, so having people review it means a lot.

Love Shipper

queenc1

Maya Grace

Justme

This is an Auslly story so there will be moments in the story, but I am and Ally fan first and I just wanted a way for her to become a more independent version of herself. So please I beg review review review. And if you notice anything wrong I welcome constructive criticism. This chapter is kind of a direct continuation of the last one. The Drama will pick up soon. So on with the story

Chapter 2

Okay.

Maybe I was mistaken on this whole follow my dream thing. I mean who needs to have their dreams realized? I mean surely not me. Nope not at all. Because that would mean I have to follow through with the plan I so brilliantly came up with, and that would mean I would have to leave.

Leave Austin.

And am I really sure that I want to? Ugh god I sometimes hate being a seventeen year old girl. Why can I just make a decision without second guessing myself? Austin would have no problem with this. He has been following his dream with such force it sometimes takes my breath away.

Damn it Ally Shut up your doing this wheither you want to or not. Aren't you tired of sitting on the sidelines while others are shining? I mean Yes Austin makes a point of sharing credit with the songs, but let's be real. They consider Austin more of the songwriter since he performs them. I am just the backup shall you say.

I am doing this. I have too, not just so I can be in the spotlight or get famous. That really isn't why I want this. I am just tired of dying a little every time the music plays and Austin sings my words.

There has to be more to life then this right?

I am going to Miss Miami and my friends so much. What am I going to do without Trish and her job of the day? Or Dez and his….Dezness?

Okay I'm just repeating myself. It's time to go. My dad understands why I'm leaving and shocking enough he was really supportive of it. As long as I am happy that is all that matters to him.

I really am hoping that my friends will understand why I am doing this. I left them all notes explaining why I need to go. I am not even quitting being Austin's songwriter; I just will have to email him the songs instead of handing them over in person. I have already got a few ones that I finished for him so he won't be without material while I get settled in. On one hand I hope they aren't too upset with me, but if they were truly my friends they will understand. I mean I have to live for me and not for others.

Wow.

Ally that was the first time you actually am putting yourself first. See this won't be so bad. Change is what life is all about.

Ally closes the book having had enough journal time. It felt weird writing in a brand new book, but she left her old one back in Sonic Boom. It felt symbolic that way, It was a way of saying goodbye to the old Ally the one who was shy and was afraid of what others would say. She wanted to start fresh as she makes her way to her new starting point. There was no need to bring old baggage when she wants to start over. That is what she tells herself as she doesn't want to turn back now.

But the plane is in midair so it wasn't like she could go anywhere soon, so no changing her mind anytime soon. Ally turns and looks out the window and sees the clouds and blue sky and in a way feels that maybe she is finally going to become who she always wanted to be. It won't be easy as she still aches for Austin and wonders how he is going to react when he finds out she is gone. Just the thought that she is going to bring him pain of any kind almost makes her wish she can turn around and beg for his forgiveness. For ever considering living her life when he won't be a part of it every day.

It brings a smile to Ally's face on how she thinks about how the blonde hair boy who played corn dogs on the drum set in Sonic Boom became so much to her. Life is funny that way she guesses. But she wouldn't trade any of it for nothing. He sometimes maybe frustrating when he gets distracted by anything and everything, but she doesn't mind. Well except maybe when it comes to other girls.

But that is another story all together.

She will surely miss him the most. Ally keeps trying to tell herself that it won't be a permanent goodbye; they will see each other again. After all She is just going away to get stronger and become someone that they could be proud of. But those nasty doubts start to seek into her saying did she really believe that? And for that matter would any of them want to see her again after she abandoned the group. Even though she still planned on being the songwriter would they necessarily want her too? Because no one likes a traitor. Time and distance surely will affect the dynamic of the team, anyone who doesn't believe that surely is foolish.

Ally closes her eyes trying to find sleep so these doubts can go away, but no luck as she wakes up sighing. She in her heart knows she made the right choice. If there ever is a chance for her and Austin then she has to be completely fulfilled as a person herself. She could take it if she started to resent the fact that he got her dreams while hers just lay there dying. It wouldn't be fair for either of them. So she is in a way doing this for both of them. It is time for Austin and Ally to shine and not just Austin. Ally really hopes that her friends and her dad will be proud of her and be happy that she finally is going after what she wants.

Because she is. A smile creeps on her face as Ally realizes that she is finally letting any doubt stop her. Because she wants this, more than anything. And in a way she wants it more then she wants Austin. And she is starting to be okay with that. Because that doesn't mean she doesn't love him, it just means she is loving herself more then she use to and that will be the person that hopefully Austin will find just as appealing he found this Ally as a friend.

*ding*

Well the plane is making its way towards the runway; this is it no turning back Ally Dawson. It is time to find what you are made off. It is time for you to become happy with yourself and achieve what you want. As she feels the wheels touching down, her palms sweat a little but that's good right? She shouldn't expect change to be not nerve wracking otherwise it wouldn't really be change at all. Ally grabs her bags from the overhead department she heads towards the exit of the plane.

This is it.

No turning back now.

Ally Dawson welcome to MUNY.