AN: Yeah So far this hasn't been a very fluffy Auslly fic. Believe me we will get there. Eventually so please stay with me and continue giving me your wonderful feedback.

The lyrics of Not a Love Song were written by Ross Lynch and not owned by me what so ever

Rating T-Mild M due to mild sexual nature.

Chapter 5

Your Always on My Mind

I Think About You All the Time

Umm…

No

Let's not talk about it

Drama we can live without it

Catch a wave if we're bored

There's a clock we'll ignore

Find a way, around it

Hey Girl, I can tell there's something

Even when you say it's nothing

Like when you play with your hair, like you just don't care

It's a tell your bluffing

Now please don't take this the wrong way

I Love the things you do its how you do the things you love

But it's not a love song.

Not a love song

"So Trish Counting the days till Graduation?"

"Umm...Ally I've been counting the days since kindergarten. I mean duh you should know that by now." Trish smirks.

Yeah it is so good to talk with Trish. I can always count on her to make me smile. I just love that girl to death. She has always had my back. Times like this I wish she was
here and we would rule New York together. It would be a blast.

"So any plans on coming to New York anytime soon? I miss my best friend you know."

"Well you know that is a two Way Street Ally, I mean they also have flights to Miami ya know?"

Yeah Trish I knew that.

I've just been too busy at MUNY to really be able to go back for a visit.

Yep I keep telling myself that whenever I want to stop feeling guilty on not going back home. Trish being the pyschic that she is could pick up my sudden mood change tried to cheer me up.

"Ally I know your worried about running into you know who but don't worry I don't even think he is in Miami anymore. So you can come home."

Psh…Austin is not the reason I haven't been home in two years. I have my studies to keep me busy. Wait did Trish say…

"Not in Miami anymore he left?"

"Yeah ever since me and Dez quit for treating you like that, I haven't really kept up my friendship with him, but Dez tried for a while there and he let me know that Jimmy Starr wanted him in Los Angeles to be better accessible to the studio so he left."

Wow Team Austin is definitely no more.

Ugh Here I go again; it is funny what Austin's name will do to me. Okay Ally time to focus Austin is your past and you have a bright future ahead of you. You can focus even when talking about Austin. You Got This.

Yes you do.

"Hey Ally are you there?" Trish asks looking in her web camera. Suddenly bringing me out of my Austin induced thoughts. It is a good thing that I have Trish to help me snap out of it.

"Sorry about that, you were saying he's in Los Angeles now?"

"Yeah last I heard and then you know the tabloids also help keep track of what he is doing. Or I should say who."

"Really?"

"Yes, I swear between the rumors of drug abuse and all the sluts he has slept with I am not surprised that he isn't dead yet."

"Oh…"

"Ally…"

'Yeah..."

"Please tell me you don't care about what happens to Austin. I mean after everything that boy did to you..."

"I don't Trish."

And I am telling the truth I don't. I just miss the boy I use to know. That Austin I care about.

"Good. Because he isn't the same guy we use to know. He changed for the worse."

"Yeah I know, I just have to wonder if I didn't leave for MUNY if Austin wouldn't be where he is at right now."

And that is my greatest nightmare to date. As much as my ego would like to say that I am not solely responsible for what has become of Austin. I just have to wonder again if I made it happen. I know that is silly to think but I keep going back to that. There are days were I can be completely fine and say it is all Austin's doing. But something small like the memory of him sitting down eating pancakes while learning our songs would make me feel like what the hell did I do to that boy. The boy who was happy with just music and pancakes and his friends.

Life is such a bitch.

"Ally you are not responsible. You did not force Austin to become such a man whore by banging everything and everyone that moves. That is his own choice. Yes you left to chase your dream, how was that wrong? Would I prefer to know before you left yes, but you don't see me throwing my life away? Or Dez and Dez is a real dumbass."

I couldn't help but giggle at that.

When more things change, even more stay the same. As with Trish and Dez and their frenemy relationship. God I missed those two.

"Thank you Trish, I always can count on you."

"You know babe I always have your back."

"I know and that's why I love you. Hate to cut it short but I'm tired. It has been a long week and I have studying to do."

"I have to go too, I have to stop my parents from planning a graduation party, and you know how they are."

"I do, love you Trish let's Skype again soon." I wait until she logs off before I move from the computer. All of a sudden I feel very tired. I think for once I am going to put off studying and go straight to bed. I shouldn't be surprised whenever I talk about Austin it always wipes me out. Just because of the regrets that it brings. No matter how much better I've become on becoming stronger. Austin is the one regret that will never heal. I will always carry that with me. I can tell him to go to hell many times but at the end of the day, I can't help but want him to find peace and happiness. I don't like to hear about him struggling or doing things that can cause him great harm.

I guess you can say that when it comes to Austin, I will never truly give up no Matter how much my heart and head beg too. I just hope whatever Austin is doing right will not cause him any harm.

You could smell Sex coming from all the way down the hall. That and the smell of booze mixed with what smells like smoke. With every inch towards the room, you could hear the moans getting louder and it seems the bed is getting quite the workout.

I am afraid to even see what's going on. Which I should have listened. As I look there I see my best friend in middle of a three-way completely naked with one of the ladies riding him like he was a mechanical bull. I should feel embarrassed by catching him like this. But all I feel is disgust and shame. Shame at him and Disgusted on how he is now. This was not the Austin I grew up with. As I begin to knock on the door, I guess the act ends as both reach their climax as Austin thrust harder and the girl rolls her head back, both then completely spent collapse against each other. I could see the smug look of satisfaction on Austin's face as he pushes the girl off him.

"Well Dez if you wanted to join all you had to do was come join." Breaking me from my thoughts was my best Friend Austin. I didn't really know what to say right now. I mean who the hell is this guy? The guy who treats sex like it is just a casual sport to be done when and wherever he felt like it. I wondered if he even knew their names.

"Got nothing to say Dez?" Austin again asks while he gets out of bed not caring that I just caught him in full on sexual act and he is wearing absolutely nothing but a damn smirk.

"What is there to say? I mean what is there really to say when I catch my friend acting like a total whore. But I mean I shouldn't be surprised you have been one for a long time now."

Austin just stares, then he heads back to the bed, both his companions gather around him, Austin wrapping an arm around both. With just a self-entitled smug look on his face.

" Well I don't see any complaints. Do you ladies?"

They giggle and snuggle closer. Austin kissing them each once. Then turns around and looks at me once again. "See Dez I told you."

"Well of course they don't care; I mean they just got a piece of Austin Moon's Ass. I mean really Austin. Have some standards these two look like they live at the free clinic daily." As either ladies was about to start fighting back, I raised my hand.

"No Offence ladies but just dealing with reality. But it should make you feel better that Austin is worse than you two. I mean with as much as Austin has been getting some I am surprised we haven't had any STD's. Or do we Austin?"

That pissed him off.

"You don't know a damn thing Dez, I am clean, and I always use protection."

"Well I guess you aren't a complete dumbass after all."

"Dez…"

I cut him off "Just shut up Austin I actually came here because I have news to tell you." That silences him for a few seconds.

"Well what is it? I have to service this lady right here next to me, huh babe?" He smirks to the one on his left.

"Well lucky her, I will just say this then to her. You are lucky you know that right? Because you have been chosen by the Famous Austin Moon to fuck him. Isn't that grand. But before you do, I have a bit of news to share. You are about to ride a Non Record Label Artist Austin Moon. Yay for you."

"What the hell are you talking about Dez?"

"Just that since you were so busy making sex tapes, Austin and by the way it sure is lighting up the internet so good job buddy. Jimmy Starr got a hold of me and he wanted me to inform you that you have officially been dropped from Starr Records."