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Rating: T

And as always I don't own Austin and Ally.

Chapter 7

She never imagined that the first time she would be out in LA; she would be sitting in a small cramped part of ICU in a hospital. There is Magic Mountain, Venice Beach, The Hollywood sign. Not some stale cold hospital. Just sitting there in the hard uncomfortable chair sends shivers down her spine. It wasn't supposed to come down to this. Ally leaned her head against the wall trying to find some way to get comfortable. She couldn't help but loot at her friends. Dez looks completely wrecked; in all the years she has known him she couldn't recall anything but a smile on his face. Trish, she couldn't describe what Trish was thinking. She had a look made of stone on her face.

I think she is just here because of me, and I love her for it.

I have been in LA for three days and I still haven't seen Austin, one thing is he has been unconscious and the second I was scared. How can I face him after everything that has happened? I mean the hurt feelings, the betrayal. It was just too much it seemed. At least when I was in New York it made it easier to press down these feelings. I didn't have to be around the person that caused me to be so torn up inside.

Ally you really need to stop this.

At this point should the only thing you be worried about is Austin and hoping he makes a full recovery. Not try and go through and contemplate about what all went wrong. There would be time for that later. As Ally was fighting the voices in her head Dez shook her arm

"Ally you want to see him now?"

What. See Austin Didn't he know I was trying to avoid that for three days now? Not to mention the three years that have gone by since I really seen him. Damn Dez he should know better. As I was about to answer, Trish sensing my doubt about seeing him answered him

"Isn't it good enough that she showed up here? Why are you trying to make her see that ungrateful ass when she doesn't want to?" She shouted. I go to answer to try and defend Dez, but he replied back

"I wasn't forcing her Trish, I simply asked. And she should go see him, Austin has been our friend for years and he almost died! Hell for all we know he still could, I'm just trying to make sure that he knows that we still love him." Dez sounded horse.

"Bullshit, why should we? After all that he has done to Ally? Hell even to us Dez! He turned into the biggest man-whore on this planet not to mention a selfish ass to boot. And what All because Ally finally had the courage to go after her dream?" Trish sneered.

"Believe me you don't have to remind me what my best friend turned into. And I hated it just as much as you if not more. He is my fucking best friend Trish, since we were kids like you and Ally. I can't turn my back on him anymore then I already had. I just fucking can't..." Dez said as tears were flowing again. This was killing him inside, the guilt for cutting Austin out of his life after what went down between him and Ally. Dez couldn't help but to think that he was responsible for what happened to Austin.

"Dez..."

"No Trish, I mean it I know what Austin did was cold and mean and very selfish. But he was hurting because Ally left without saying goodbye to him in person, he found out by a fucking note. I mean I remember how you reacted to that and you weren't that pleasant to be around either." Dez huffed

Okay if the Guilt wasn't making me suffocate before, it was killing me now. I just look at Trish with sorrow in my eyes, she just shook her head

"It's alright Ally, I was upset at first but then as a Real Best friend would do I took time to realize that it was about damn time you did something for yourself. You were always butting Austin and his dream ahead of you. Hell you even did that for me and this jackass right here too. So as much as I was sad about you being gone, I understood it. I was proud of you." Then turning to stare Dez down she finished

"And I didn't turn to screwing anyone and anything like Austin has. I mean let's go ask the doctors right now what kind of STD he has, herpes, ghonerria, or worse."

The quietness after she said that was kind of scary, I never have seen Dez look so pissed and so sad at the same time. The anger was rolling off him in waves. Almost knocking me back against the wall. I got up about to say something to break this awful silence. Only I was beaten to it by an alarm going off. Going off in Austin's room.

It felt like we were in some hellish nightmare were no one would or could say anything but watch the doctors and nurses run in slow motion into Austin's room.

Oh God

We really couldn't be losing Austin for good could we? I turn and look at Dez, the look of heartbreak and devastation on him was hard to watch. Even Trish's stone wall as cracking. I just whimper as I fall back into my chair hands shaking. Was this how it was going to end?

Had it only been 5 years ago that I first meet Austin? And for three of those years I wasn't even talking to him. So how can really a 2 year friendship affect me this much. The feelings I had for Austin turned into Ash a long time ago, so how can I be so upset and not wanting to face it that I could lose Austin without telling him what he means to me. That despite the hurts and lies that he was still the boy I loved with my whole heart. I mean I haven't had a relationship ever since I left him. I just couldn't even bother. Why try and find someone when your heart was already taken?

Made no sense. But it is the truth. My body starts to tremble even worse as I realize this that Austin is on the other side of that door dying. I mean that's what was going in there. He was dying and I had no way to make it up to him. To tell him how sorry that I was, that hurting him was not my intention at all. I just wanted to be happy with my dreams coming true. That the reason I did it was so I could come back to him, to show him how much I loved him by finally getting rid of my stage fright. I did it so we could sing together on that stage. I was finally going to admit to him how much it hurt me to see him singing with Jessie, that it should have been me. It killed me to sit there and watch that video of them together acting all flirty in that video. It should have been me damn it.

But it wasn't, and that is what led me to finally force myself to go after my dreams. I wanted to go and show to the world that Austin Moon meant more to me more than my stage fright. That I did it because I wanted him more, that I was willing to face my biggest fear for him.

Have you ever cried so much that eventually that the tears run dry. I can't even cry anymore, I just sit there shaking and praying for m more tears would fall, so I could at least feel something. I don't even remember how we got there but Dez, Trish and I were all holding onto each other waiting on word what is happening to our friend.