Author's Note :: Hello everyone! Sorry I didn't update yesterday, but I went out with my friends and let's just say I wasn't in a fit state of mind to write at the time ;D lol I really enjoyed writing that last chapter. I think it was my favorite so far. This is a KAMES drama chapter, but I will keep the POV from either Carlos or Logan. Probably... I'd like to mention that all the chapters have been revised to..re read them lol :D
Chapter 8 :: Lillium's Lullaby
Logan (POV) ::
RIEEE! RIEE! RIEEE! RIEE! RIEE! RIEE! RIEE!... SMACK!..
fuck...my...unbelievable...life... I can't believe I forgot to turn off my alarm last night.
It was 6:30 in the god damn morning and there was no school for the rest of the week. Son of a mother fuckin quail... I accidentally woke Carlos up after slamming my hand down on the alarm. We rubbed our eyes and I looked at his pretty little face.
"Goodmorning starshine..." I said.
"Goodmorning earthshine..." he said back...
I laughed at that... I dropped my head back to my pillow and let it sit there while I groaned.
"I'm so sorry babe... I forgot to turn the alarm off last night."
"It's okay Logie. In all fairness you were somewhat distracted last night." Carlos said slyly.
"pffff...That was... Something else... Can we do that again today?" I asked excited.
"Has many times as you want." he indulged me.
"You spoil me." I said as a grabbed his chin and pecked him on the lips. \
"Nonsense! Do you see what I have? I get to hit your fine piece of ass every night. That alone makes me spoiled." Carlos said, he was already ready for round 3... "THEN, there's just the radiating glow that is your love that I get to feed off constantly. You keep me content and happy Logie. But more than that you make me feel.. Safe and I don't have to worry about anything." he said while nuzzling my chest.
"That's funny actually.." i said quietly while playing with his ear.
"What is?" he asked.
"What you just said. All of it.. It's just funny because I was gonna say the exact same thing to you" i finished, I could feel my cheeks slightly getting warm.
"Come here..." and he pulled me down for a nice make out. Slow and loving. I could tell Carlos didn't mean for it to be sexual, he was just saying how much he loves me. And I was telling him I loved him back. We stopped kissing and he put his hand on my face and brushed my cheek back and forth with his thumb.
"You're so beautiful.." Carlos said lovingly
Chuckling at his comment "Shut uuup" I smiled.
"I mean it", Carlos insisted... we stayed like this for a good while before we slipped into a nice slumber.
I awoke to Carlos kissing my neck. It was a nice way to wake up in the morning. I slid my hands down the comforter and squeezed both his buff, perfectly sculpted butt cheeks. They were so plump, firm and juicy. I loved them, It turned me on and the bulge was up and ready. Good thing we're already naked I thought. Carlos climbed on top of me and leaned up, causing the covers to slide off him and expose his massive cock. He drug his hands down my chest and played with my nipples a bit. I arched my back to get a bit more comfortable and rubbed his thighs a bit. He leaned back down to kiss me and got up to look at me, smiling his goofy smile. We just stared at each other, enjoying the moment. I never wanted this to end... but nature called...
"I have to pee." I said laughing..
"Good" jumping off the bed, landing on the floor and stretching. "Me too."
"You can go first then" I said.
"Why don't we go together?" Carlos asked, walking up to me and grabbing me down there. I tried to wiggle away.
"You are just a carnal thing aren't you?" I said with a grin. "Are you using me for the sex young sir?"
Carlos grabbed my hand and looked extremely upset. Oops...
"Please don't say that Logie..." he said calmy. His expression went from upset to sadness...
"I-...i'm sorry baaabe... did... did I do something wrong?" I asked concerned.
"No, not really... I just.. don't like to hear that kinda stuff... It hurts my feelings..." Carlos explained.
"I'm sorry babe... I didn't know...Well lets pee first then I'm gonna ask you something."
"Mkay, well you should go first. I'm gonna get something out of my bag."
"Okay" I kissed him on the forehead and went off to the bathroom. I closed the door behind me and lifted up the toiled seat and stood there poised and relaxed. Since I was already naked it's not like I needed to pull anything down and it started to flow out. What could be the reason for his sensitivity to my comment? I thought.. Well, based on general reasoning, it must have something to do with his past, otherwise he wouldn't be against it (I guess you could say...). Maybe something happened to him? I noticed the silence in the bathroom and realized I had finished peeing and flushed the toilet and washed my hands. I opened the door and turned to my right to find a puffy eyed Carlos leaning on the wall waiting for me. "You can go ahead now." I said quietly.
"Thanks Logie." he said touching my arm and walking into the bathroom closing the door behind him. There was nothing he needed from his bag. He just didn't want me to see him cry... Damnitt Logan! I slumped on the bed wiping my face with my hands thinking about how much of an idiot I was... I gave a heavy exhale and scratched my scalp. Carlos came out of the bathroom and walked over to the bed and lied down next to me with his eyes closed. Fuuuuck... I hurt him that bad?
"Carlos please don't be mad... I'm so sorry Carlos, really. I-i was only joking, and I didn't mean to hurt you're feelings. Promise." I pleaded. Carlos turned over to face and laid his head on my arm and went for a hug. I hugged him back hoping he had forgiven me.
"I was never mad Logie. Honest. It just made me sad a bit is all." Carlos said. He sat up and took my hand and kissed it. "Do you remember last nights conversation about coming out to everyone?" he asked.
"Yeah, of course I do. Why?"
"Well remember when I was talking about coming out to my parents, I had only said my Mom and not my dad?"
"Yyyeah... I do... but how is tha-" I cut myself off realizing what he meant. I looked up and saw water drop from his chin and saw that Carlos was looking away.
"Carlos... What happened to your dad?" I asked... He turned his head and wiped his face with his forearm. And spoke.
"When I was 6 I think.. Maybe 7, I woke up one night because I heard my mom and dad screaming. Well my mom was doing most of the screaming and my dad yelled back only a few times. I got up to see what they were fighting about. I walked down the stairs a bit and peeked around the railing.. I saw my mom and dad in the living room. And my dad was sitting down on the couch with his jacket on and suit cases around him. I realized that my mom hadn't been screaming, but crying and yelling at my dad, asking why he was leaving.
'STOP STOP' my dad said. Carlos was starting to get lost into the story. And was almost acting everything out in his head.
"She was begging him to not leave and said she would do anything." 'You HAVE nothing for me Maria', Carlos imitated.
'Mi amor, te pido que no me egañes, por favor, porque te amo y no quiero perdante!' 'I don't love you Maria. You knew what this relationship was. The only reason I stayed as long as I did was because of my son.' 'Then stay! Stay for him, por favor!' 'I CAN'T! I found someone new and Carlos will be fine with you. I was never around much anyway.' 'DAMNITT CABRON! HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO OUR FAMILY! She screamed'"
Carlos was gasping for air at this point. Shutting his eyes not wanting to remember that night.
"My dad picked up his suitcases, walked towards the front door, opened it and said...
'You were never my family.'
AND THEN HE JUST LEFT!" Carlos started hysterically crying out with his hands to his face. Wailing and sobbing out. Trying to repress the memory, ultimately failing and weeping at the hate and sadness he felt for what his father had done. I couldn't help, but cry a little. I just watched him sit there and bawling, gasping for air at times... I sat up and hugged him. Squeezing him very tightly trying to bear his pain, hoping it would be easier on him. I understood why what I said hurt him so... His dad left and had stayed with his mom for the sex and after he got tired of her, he found someone else and left, only staying for as long as he did on Carlos' behalf...
"Carlos i'm sooooo sorry bear..." I started rocking side to side a bit. "I'm so sorry..." I moved to face him, grabbed his hands pulled them from his face. He looked at me and just grabbed me. Hugging me tightly. I could feel his chest tremble and convulse when he was gasping for air.
"shhhhhhhh, shh, shh, shh, shhhhhhhh.. It's okay... I'm here." I hushed. All I could do was try to alleviate what he felt...
"I'm not going anywhere...Carlos I WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU. Okay sweetheart? What he did was.. Unforgivable.." I could start to feel the anger seethe in my chest, and noticed that I started crying with him..
"I WILL NEVER HURT YOU OKAY? I sobbed.. "I PROMISE THAT IF I HAVE TO DIE IN ORDER FOR ME TO KEEP MY PROMISE. Then I will gladly give it up" I whispered...Carlos had stopped crying hysterically, but he was still sniffling and convulsing slightly so I started to rock him a bit... I started humming Lilliums lullaby and started petting his head. "Come here" I said. I picked him up and slid him under the covers, lied down and let him lay on top of me. I let him cry it out for however long he needed. I drug my fingers up and down his spine and hugged him after a bit. I played with his ear and ran my fingers through his hair. Hoping it would distract him a bit. Gradually, he started to slow down, and eventually slipped into a quiet slumber. I let him lie down and started thinking... Eventually I too fell asleep...
I awoke about an hour later and found Carlos still asleep on top of me... He's such a sweetheart...How could his dad do that to him?... Carlos didn't/DOESN'T deserve a father like that... All this time I felt sorry for myself when Carlos was holding this down the whole time. My father may be gone a lot of the time working, but at least he was around when he could be, and at least I still had him... Carlos didn't have a father. And I felt like the worst boyfriend ever for hurting him... I really need to get better at this, I laughed inside... Who knew Carlos had gone through so much as a kid... He turned out to be an amazing person. The most amazing in my opinion... I started thinking and eventually decided what I was gonna do...
I was gonna find that bastard...
Author's Note :: I know I know! I told you guys that this was gonna be a KAMES chapter, but I started writing this and got the idea and HAD to roll with it. BTW on chapter...4? I think it was, I had been asked what song was used, Well the chapter was called "River Flows In You" and that was the song that Logan had played for Carlos on the Piano, It is by Yiruma. His favorite composer ;D Once again I apologize for not updating till now, but I plan to update a lot today so, thank you again for putting up with the wait and for just reading... ummm I was going through my e-mail and saw that a bunch of you had favorited the story and Me as well and I cannot tell you how thankful I am how honored I am for you guys to do that. So I give my gratitude. Once again, thanks for the support and love. I love you all as well! HONESTLY! Bye bye for now...
-Much love, BSR