Authors Note: Song When the Stars go blue is by Tyler Hilton and Bethany Joy. I didn't write it, so I don't own it.

Chapter 10

Dancin' where the stars go blue

Dancin' where the evening fell

Dancin' in my wooden shoes

In a wedding gown

Dancin' out on seventh street

Dancin' through the underground

Dancin' little marionette

Are you Happy now. Yea

Where do you go when your lonely?

Where do you go when your blue?

Where do you go when your lonely?

I follow you

When the stars go blue

Could it be possible to break a heart when it is already broken? Ally has been asking her that question ever since she left Austin's room, and she couldn't figure out the answer. When she first walked out of the hospital, sobs had been consuming her, but since about an hour ago they have gone away. Lying down on the bed in her hotel room, Ally couldn't help but process about what happened in the room with Austin. She was relieved to see him open his eyes and at first it seemed that Austin was happy to see her as well, but as soon as he realized that it had been the first time in years the cold hard truth set in. The love and happiness that she first saw in his eyes quickly turned into something else.

Hate.

Austin did truly hate her. But why should that surprise her? Didn't she already know that all those years ago when he fired her from the team, and basically pushed her away from any credit due to her for her music? So why was it that seeing it in person brought it all back, and why did it hurt so much more son then when she didn't have to see it? She already knew about it, so why is she surprised and hurt about it now? Ally closes her eyes, trying anything that could shut these thoughts down. She didn't want to think about Austin and this situation anymore.

Good Luck with that sweetheart, the voice surprisingly sounds like Austin goes off in her head.

Ugh.

Just Shut up Ally cries out. Okay she has officially gone insane. Getting up to see if a bath will help her with her damaged psyche, Ally goes to the bathroom when her cell rings. Thinking it maybe Dez o Trish she goes to answer after all she does kind of feel bad for taking off without them , she looks at the caller id and realizes it's not either of them. It's Tony. Touching the screen pad she answers "Tony?"

"Well there you are cuz! I was wondering if you were alive! I have been looking all over the city for you, I couldn't find you at the dorm or library, where are you?"

Geez. She should feel bad about not letting anyone know where she was going, but she had to get to LA to see about Austin. She really couldn't think about anything else.

"Sorry Tony, I had an emergency that came up. I had to leave town for a bit."

"You Left New York?"

"Yeah I did…"

"Where are you?"

"LA"

"What are you doing out in la?"

"A friend of mine is in the hospital. I wasn't sure if he would make it so I had to come out and find out."

"Who's the friend?"

"Austin" I whisper, knowing that Tony doesn't like Austin, and I didn't want to get into a shouting match. Not right now

"I am sorry, I must be confused. Because I know you just did not say Austin. Not as in Austin "I am a Jackass" Moon? "

"Tony..." I warn, he cuts me off.

" No cuz! He is an ass! Why should you care about what happens to him? Huh? I mean after how he treated you? He treated you like crap all for the simple fact that you wanted to chase your dreams?"

"Tony I know what you are saying comes from a place of love, but this isn't really any of your business. It's between me and Austin. I know what he did, and I am not saying this to make excuses for him, but I hurt him when I left. So I am at fault too."

" Als please.."

"No Tony I am not sweeping anything under the rug. Austin needs to answer for what he did and honestly I think he has, He nearly died. His career is in shambles and he is broke. I wouldn't want to be the guy right now. I own him at least a better explanation on why I left the way I did. We need to discuss everything that is the only way for any of us to move on."

Silence

"Tony are you still there?"

"Yeah I am. I just think you are making a big mistake. Ally I mean if you give Austin another chance I just think that would make you pathetic."

That Hurt. Is that what he thought of me?

"You know what Tony? That is really an ass thing to say. You have no right to call me that, because first of all I am not going to get back together with Austin. I wasn't even with him to begin with. He was my friend, Best friend I may add."

" Als.."

"I am not finished so don't cut me off! You pissed me off Tony, You're my family and I love you, but I went years without seeing you and I have no problem doing it again. Lose My Number, We won't talk again." Ally shuts the phone off and throws it against the bed. She knows she was a bitch to Tony, and she will call and apologize. It was just when he was going off on Austin, the old instincts came back and she defended him.

Her life sucks right now. Could this day get any worse?

He really needs to get out of here. He needs to get away from all the time he has to reflect on what went wrong with him and Ally, and Austin isn't sure if he is ready to fully deal with it. After Ally left Dez came in the room asking what was wrong. I couldn't tell him, so I didn't.

Dez told me that all it would take is time, which Ally would get over my treatment of her. But honestly I don't see how. And as much of an ass I was to her, she isn't innocent either.

Ugh.

I really need to stop this. I need to get out of here. Damn doctors for keeping me here. Don't they know I am Austin Moon?

Guess not, because my ass is still here.

Having enough of the self-pity Austin tries to get out of the bed when the door opens.

"What the hell do you think you're doing?"

"Are you blind? What does it look like I am doing?" Austin sneers, having enough of this hospital bullshit. He really needed to find a way to get his life back. Music was really the only thing he had left, and he needs to find a way to save his career. And laying here in a hospital won't help him do that.

"It looks like you're a dumbass trying to hurt yourself even more! You do realize that you got hit by a freakin car right? Your body needs time to heal!" Trish sneers right back.

"Like you care?"

Trish closed her eyes trying to remember how she felt when she first saw him in that bed, and how bad she felt about how she treated him. It was very hard to keep calm when he has an attitude like that.

"Look Austin, we may not be close friends anymore, but I don't want you dead. And I am sorry to see you go through so much. But that said listen you asshat I came here to talk to you."

"About what?"

"About Ally! What else is there?"

"I don't want to talk about Ally, and especially with you."

Losing all sense of compassion that she had for him, Trish let loose "Well it is a good thing that I don't give a damn about what you want Austin Monica Moon! I am going to set you straight on some truths you prick."

"Trish I am not in the mood for your crap...'

"Austin what did I just say? I told you that I didn't care! You are going to listen to me. You are such an ass to treat Ally the way you do. She flew out all the way from New York to see if you were going to make it. And what do you do? You treat her like crap? That is unacceptable!"

"Oh yes, because Ally is ever so innocent in this mess! But it has always been like that, Ally the pure one while Austin is the evil one. I am so tired of being raked over the coals about my actions when Ally is always overlooked for hers!"

"You know why we do? Because yours is a whole lot worse! What was Ally's crime? Huh? Leaving to New York, to follow her dreams? I mean lets damn her to hell then."

"Trish! She didn't say goodbye to me in person! You know how much that fucking hurt?" Austin roared, having enough of Trish's attacks.

"Yes I do! I am her best friend Austin! A whole lot longer than your friendship with her. So don't sit there and play the victim, Ally left all three of us, plus her father! But did you see me and Dez throw our lives down the tube! No, we missed her but we understood why she left. Yes she left a note, but it was a goodbye so doesn't sit there and say she didn't say goodbye to you. Just because she did it her way and not Austin Moon's way doesn't mean what she did was wrong."

Austin shook his head, "I would never do what she did! I would have been man enough to say it to her face!"

"Austin what did I say that it isn't what you would have done! Ally thought she was doing what was best! God forbid that she was actually allowed to follow her dreams."

"You Know what Trish? You are so full of crap I am shocked your eyes aren't brown. I have no problem with Ally choosing her dreams! I wished she was honest that's all! What is so wrong about wanting honesty from friends?"

"There is nothing wrong with wanting that Austin! But what wasn't she honest about? She said in the letter she was going to MUNY and guess what that is what she did! How is that a lie?"

There was nothing more that Austin wanted to do at that moment then to tell Trish to fuck off and leave him the hell alone. But he is tired of always being persecuted for his actions, so if Trish wanted to know why he was angry at Ally then he would tell her.

"Because that wasn't the only thing she lied about! You know how I went to New York to try and see Ally? Well I found her!"

"You Did? You never said anything about seeing her when you got back?" Trish asked

"Because I was too hurt and pissed! But you want to know why I treated Ally the way I did? Because she fucking tore my heart out! I was going to tell her that I had feelings for her, and I would have done anything to support her dreams even if I had to stop my career. But you want to know what I saw? Ally didn't want just want to chase her dreams; she was there with some guy."

"What Guy?"

"I didn't stay around and find out, I was about to knock on her door, when it was cracked and I saw her in the arms of another guy. So I left. So your precious Ally isn't so precious after all huh Trish." Austin sneered.

"Okay, so you saw Ally in the arms of a guy, and you didn't bother to stick around and say something? To find out who he is?"

"I just said no I didn't?

"And why didn't you? I mean if you what you said was true and you had feelings for her, why not find out who the competition was? The Austin Moon I knew would have. And I am sorry to say this, actually I take that back, I am not. But you guys weren't together, so if she was there fucking this guy, you have no room to be mad at her. It wasn't like she cheated on you! There was no relationship between you guys except a friendship! So why did you get upset? I you really did want her, you would have fought for her, but no you ran liked a scared cat. Damn Austin you really are pathetic." Trish said her anger showing through her words. How could Austin be so freak in dumb?

What could he say to that?

Austin was about to say some smartass remark to hurt Trish, but he couldn't help but think about the words she said. As much as he would love to blame Ally for his heartbreak, he really didn't say anything to her before about his feelings.

No Austin. She was the one who left.

But she didn't know how you felt. So why should you be upset with her for finding some other guy?

"What cat got you tounge?"

"Trish..." Austin warned

"No Listen, I know it must have sucked to see the person you have feelings for with someone else. So I am sorry for you, but that doesn't excuse you for turning into a major ass, firing her from the team, taking the sole credit for the music she wrote for you, and just basically writing her off. It also doesn't warrant you to turn into a major slut Austin. The old Austin that I knew would be ashamed of the man that you became. I know I am. I will say this before I go, you need to man up and talk to Ally is honest about why you did what you did, and ask her about this so called other guy. But be honest. Be like the Austin and Ally that we first knew all those years ago in Sonic Boom."

"Trish…"

"Let me finish Austin and I will go. Aren't you tired of living this way? Feeling empty and shallow? No amount of Great Sex will make you feel what you want it to. You and Ally need to clear the air for you both. It has become beyond toxic and it is only dragging you guys down. I know I am a bitch to you Austin, and that sucks because we were best friends once, But Ally is like a sister to me, so she will always have me in her corner. I am not going to let you hurt anymore. You know she went back to the hospital room crying her eyes out? Ally has cried so many tears over you I lost count. So please, I beg of you when you get out of here, talk with Ally, explain both sides and take it from there. Maybe you guys can come to some sort of place, either back to Austin and Ally or maybe goodbye for good. But this has got to change. You both deserve to be happy. And with that I am out of here, you need your rest. I honestly hope the best for you Austin. Now will we be good of friends as before? Austin probably not, too much shady happened, but I do hope to be able to be in the same room with you and be civil. And if that is the same way for you and Ally then so be it, but anything will be better than this. Take care Austin and get some rest." Trish said as she turned and walked out the door.

Austin was glad that she left. He was tired. Trish was brutal to him, and as much as he hated being told of his actions, he couldn't help but admit that she forced him to see some truths about himself.

And he didn't like that. Maybe Trish was right, He and Ally need to sit down and hash everything out. And as much as it hurt to think about, Ally didn't really do anything wrong. Just because her goodbye was different from what he would have done, didn't mean it was wrong.

Damn Trish, here he was all set and satisfied to let Ally have all the blame for his heartbreak, she made him have doubts about that fact. Could it be that he is the only one responsible for the heartbreak that still haunts him three years later?

Shit.

Now see this is why he hated being here! Nothing but time to see things differently. Before he was too wrapped up in his own pain to realize that it all could have been avoided if he had was brave enough to knock on that door back in New York. Would it have changed things totally? Would he and Ally have gotten together? And what was the deal with that guy that he saw? In the years of their friendship he never saw Ally hide anything about a guy she was feeling for, look at her crush on Dallas that was painfully obvious. So wouldn't she have mentioned him before? Even in the letter?

Ugh. Austin hated feeling anything regarding what could be considered regret, but that is where he is at this moment. All this could have been so different if only he was honest to Ally about his feelings for her. Even if she politely turned down his affections at least he would know for sure and they could have salvaged their friendship. Because that right there was the root of his love for her. Their friendship was amazing; it was like they could have achieved anything that they set their mind too. Because they could have salvaged it if he was honest, that was a really big deal for Ally.

He wouldn't be here in a hospital right now after getting hit by a car. He wouldn't have hit rock bottom and lose everything all in one big swoop.

It was settled, He and Ally were going to talk. All cards on the table and maybe they can rebuild from the ruins that is Austin and Ally. And Like Trish said either a good way or going their separate ways permantly.