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Chapter 11 :: Breaking

Carlos (POV) ::

We all held our breath as James got up from the couch. My stomach started to ache a bit from being nervous. I felt someone squeeze my hand and looked down to see it was Logan's hand. He hugged and kissed me and said everything would be all right. 'just have faith' he said... I said thank you and we both turned our heads to watch James make his way to the door. James reached the entryway, stopped. Exhaled, and fixed his hair one last time before opening up the door and greeting Kendall.
"Sup?" Kendall said smiling.

"Hey man." James replied giving him a hug. "Come on in." Kendall walked in and took off his shoes and unwrapped his scarf. "Hey guys!" Kendall greeted to Logan and I. "Sup Logan? Good to see you again."

"You too Kendall" Logan said back smiling.

"Hey bro" I said giving Kendall a hug. Kendall sat down right next to James. A little too close for a friend... Logan and I looked at each other and looked back at the others.
"So... What are we doing?" Kendall asked curiously. James looked at Logan and he knew exactly how to respond. "Well Kendall, I would like to start off by telling you about Carlos and I. It would seem that we have fallen in love with each other in a matter of 2 days. Carlos makes me very happy, the happiest i've ever felt actually."
"And Logan is everything to me at this point." I said looking at Logan and laying my head on his and kissed his lips. "Kendall, Logan is the perfect guy for me and he treats me right. He's good to me and I've never like this about anyone. I don't know how you would take it, but it true. James already knows and is fine with it. But if you aren't then I'm sorry that I choose Logan if it has to c-"

"Carlos" Kendall interrupted. Raising a hand up. "It's cool bro. I'm quite happy for you two and I'm happy to see you both happy. I was already expecting this though. It's no surprise to me." Kendall said smiling.
"How did you know?" I asked.

"The way you guys would look at each other during lunch. It's kinda obvious." Logan turned his signature tomato red upon hearing this. I just laughed and hugged Logan tightly. He turned around and hugged me back. He let go and gave me look that was trying to say 'back to the matter at hand'. I cleared my throat and straightened up. Logan looked back and started talking again.
"There is also something we... thought was necessary to discuss." Logan said cooly. Oh god here it comes.. I could see the fear in James' eyes. His hands shaking. Logan continued...

"We are aware of You and James." he tried to say calmly. Kendall looked at James and gave a heavy sigh. "Why did you do that James?..." James just kept looking away not answering him.

"You know why I can't do this. At least not right now..."Kendall said.
"THEN WHEN?" James said, clearly upset. "HMM? WHEN CAN YOU DO THIS?... WHY CAN'T YOU JUST ACCEPT THE FACT ABOUT WHO YOU ARE AND HOW YOU FEEL? IS EVERYTHING YOU TOLD ME AND EVERYTHING WE'VE GONE THROUGH FOR NOTHING?" I've never seen him so upset. Kendall got up from the couch and pointed his finger at James...

"I ALREADY TOLD YOU WHAT'S AT STAKE HERE! IF WE TELL EVERYONE, WHO KNOWS WHAT WILL HAPPEN! WE ARE THE MOST POPULAR PEOPLE IN SCHOOL! PEOPLE ENVY US! I AM THE CAPTAIN OF THE HOCKEY TEAM AND I HAVE A POPULAR GIRLFRIEND!..." Kendall calmed down a bit. "My life is great right now and I don't want anything to ruin that." He finished. James stared at him with disbelief... and then the tears fell from the eyes that stung from Kendall's words...
"So this is it then?..."James said. He threw up his arms and shook his head. "After everything that has happened... You're gonna let all those FUCKIN PEOPLE, drag US down, and control you? WHO GIVES A FUCK ABOUT THEM! THEY WON'T BE IN OUR LIVES FOREVER! IT'LL BE JUST US CAUSE THAT'S ALL I WANT! But fine. Just go and throw it all away. Enjoy you're temporary social status Kendall, they won't last forever, but I will... And if you want something as plastic over reality, then I can't make you. But I hope you can live with yourself. Cause it's gonna be hell trying to pretend to be someone you're not." James finished... Anger seething from his eyes, but mostly sadness. Kendall just stood there staring at James with his mouth slightly open, and then he finally spoke up... A different Kendall. With a higher pitched voice and a face streaming with tears.. This time, there was hurt and sadness from his eyes.
"You don't think this is hard for me?..."Kendall asked... "You don't think I don't care about you the way you do for me?"
"IF YOU DID THEN WHY ARE YOU GOING TO DO THIS! I'D GIVE ANYTHING UP FOR YOU! I DON'T CARE WHAT THEY THINK!" James screamed, while pointing at the invisible group of people he was referring to.
"BECAUSE JAMES! THIS IS MY LIFE TOO YOU KNOW! I LIKE HOW THIS IS GOING FOR ME AND I DON'T WANT ANYTHING TO CHANGE! I'M HAPPY!" Kendall shot back.
"REALLY?" James questioned. "Then I hope you can stay happy and go live your life the way you want to." James said savagely.

"James I'm sorry..." Kendall said begging, reaching out for James. James backed away and put his arms up in front of him. "Don't Kendall. You don't deserve what you don't want." James said coldly while looking away. Tears still falling from his face. Kendall bit his lip and dropped his arms down, defeated and crushed. "fine.." he said.. hurt caked his throat and you could hear it. He started to make his way for the door. "I'm sorry you had to see that Logan." apologizing and giving me a hug. "I'll see you around bro." hugging Carlos. And then he slipped his shoes on and walked out of the house, quietly closing the door behind him. Right before the door shut, I swear I heard Kendall cry out loudly. And I watched out the window as Kendall walked back home with his head down low and hands in his pockets... "James." Logan said. James just slumped on the couch and began bawling... I got up and sat next to him and hugged him and let him cry It our. Logan came and sat down on the other side and put his down on his shoulder. And we silently listened to James' sobbing and sat there wondering how this could have happened...

A few hours later we arrived back at Logan's house. James' wouldn't hadn't stopped crying when we left and asked us if he could be alone. We said okay and gave him our wishes to feel better. We were watching Pocahontas in the living-room. 'Logan's favorite'.. Right after his favorite part ended. He finished singing "Colors of the Wind"...

"I can't believe he did that." I said breaking the immediate silence...

"I understand where he's coming from.." Logan commented. I looked at him with disbelief.

"How can you say that Logan? He broke James' heart and look at what James has been reduced to. And he just walked out like he had no choice or something. Well he did and it was the wrong one." I shot, angry with his response.

"I'm not agreeing with him bear... okay? I just understand what he's saying. Who are we to decide what's best for them or even assume... We're not them. And I'm glad we're not." Logan said. I looked at him and saw him smiling. "I don't know what I would do without you.. to be honest I would probably commit suicide." He grabbed my hand and interlocked our fingers and kissed my hand setting it down it down on his lap. " I love you Carlos. I don't want what we just witnessed to happen to us." Logan gushed. A tear falling from his eye.

"It won't Logie, I'm not a jerk like Kendall. And I actually love you." I said back and hugged his arm.
"Kendall isn't a jerk, he loves James, but he just made the different decision. A very poor one, I must say, but it's his nonetheless. All we can do is be there for him or abandon him. I'm saying right now that I have no intention of doing that and I'm hoping you don't either." he said looking at me... That was what I was going to do, but Logan's probably right that would be wrong to choose sides like that. "Noooooo..." I responded... annoyed.."But I'm still on James' side." I said crossing my arms. Logan laughed and said,

"I am too, but I'm not gonna outcast Kendall.. He will need someone to help with what just happened. Just like James'. He's hurting too." Logan was so just and equal with everything he ever did. I loved that about him. He'll make a good father to our kids someday... I smiled at the thought...
"I want to adopt." I blurted out. He looked at me and smiled his one-sided grin.

"I'm glad you said that, cause I want kids someday too. In fact I already have some names picked out." Logan said slightly turning red after divulging such information. I smiled so wide that I thought my cheeks would rip.
"OH MY GOD LOGAN!" I screeched and kissed him on the cheek and neck. "You made me so happy right now!" I said, still smiling.

"You make me happy too Bear. I would be happy to have children with you. You are my love and always will be. I love you." Logan said.

"I love you too." smiling. Suddenly my phone vibrated and I looked to see that James had sent me a text asking if we wanted to go to a party in a few min.
"James just asked if we wanted to come to a party with him." I relayed back to Logie.

"I'm down." Logan said.

"Are you gonna drink?" I asked, hoping he would say no.

"Nah, I don't touch the stuff. But I don't mind if you do." He said kissing me on the lips.
"I might have a little, but not a lot, I don't want to come home drunk and you have your way with me." I said jokingly.

"Oh I'm pretty sure i'll have my way with you later on tonight, drunk or not." he said confidently.

"Maybe" I said teasingly. Rubbing his leg, then dragging my hand down and grabbed his package. He just snickered, cupped my face and started kissing me. I could feel the bulge in his pants grow right in my hands. "Wait!" I said, replying to James text and asking when. I set the phone down and returned where I left off. But Logan was already shirtless and started crawling on top of me. What a horn dog... I laid down and kissed him while he planked down on top of me and gripped my sides. I put my hands on his chest and dragged them down making sure to touch every bump of his six-pack. My phone vibrated again and stopped to check the message. Logan lightly nudged my face to the side while he started sucking on my neck. I moaned at the pleasure and found it difficult to concentrate on the phone. I replied back and set the phone back down.
"He wants to leave in 20min since it's already 11." I said.

"Well then. We better make this quick." He said smiling and removing his pants. I took off my shirt in response and let him do what he wanted to do...

Author's Note :: Sad chapter... Stupid Kendall. I'm gonna start writing the next chapter right now and this is gonna be GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD. I promise :D Hope you enjoyed the Chapter!

P.s :: The song wasn't featured in the story, but I wanted you to imagine listening to it right after Kendall left. It's called "Breaking" by "Anberlin" and it is one of my favorite songs ever. It's a song about somebody breaking their heart and it feeling like that that person has done that before; so many times to other people. It's one of my favorite and if you do choose to check it out on youtube, try to find the acoustic version, cause it's better than the original in my opinion, if not then listen to the original. It's still freakin awesome. ENJOY!