Warnings: yaoi, OOC, cursing.

Disclamier: I don't own anything but the plot, Zhane, the kids, and Monica's family.

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I Don't Hate You, But I Don't Love You Either

I think I pretty much slept for the whole day only getting up to go to the bathroom and eat something, and then heading back upstairs. I had just gone to the bathroom and was getting ready to fall back asleep when Wesker came into the room and then promptly locked the door behind him. I give him a weird stare that he doesn't respond too, though I can still see his eyes, he hasn't gotten new glasses yet.

" Wesker what are you do-ngh?"

As you can probably guess, he had kissed me. Better yet he had me pinned to the bed and I could tell that he Wesker wasn't actually in right at the moment. I had managed to get one of my hands free from his grasp and was pushing him away, quite incessantly.

" Christopher. Stop." He pulls back to look me in the eyes and tell me this.

I give him a what the frick look and resume pushing him away. He lets out a growl and then starts to bite my neck and I stop half-heartedly pushing him off, now he is climbing on to the bed with me.

" Wesker... Come on. I'm tired and I don't feel well."

He doesn't pull all the way away but he does stop marking my neck long enough to let out a deep rumble from his throat.

"Chris you started this yesterday and now I'm going to finish it. I've been a patient man for five years and yesterday was the last straw." He is smirking at me and then leans down placing kisses along my jaw and neck.

"So.. So basically y-y-you .... Oh fuck,are going to... ra-rape me?" I manage between gasps and moans. He just laughs and captures my mouth with his and his tongue stops any other protest that I may have uttered.

He makes a sound of approval when I start to respond to him and his touches, he breaks the kiss momentarily to remove his shirt and I sit up so I can remove mine. He smirks and I pull him down for another kiss. My fingers wind through his hair while the both of his hands are right beside my head holding him up. He rubs our erections together and I let out a moan of approval and I can hear him laugh lightly and for some reason I growl at him which seems to shut him up but the mirth is still there. His hands wander down to my pants and he he pulls down the zipper and starts to pull down my pants and I stop him. I shoot out a hand and place it over his, his eyes roll and he sighs.

" What now Christopher?"

" Do you have a condom?"

His eyes flash briefly and he slowly shakes his head, "... No."

I make a noise close to a snort, " Then this isn't going any farther." Since he is shocked now I am able to push him off.

I get up off the bed re-zip my pants and pull on a shirt.

" Why do we need a condom!?"

I give him an ' Are you serious?' look. " Your answer is right down stairs and they are twins."

" The boys?"

I nod my head.

" You think that you would get pregnant again?"

" It is a possibility that I am not willing to risk at the present time."

" What if I wanted more kids?"

I shrug my shoulders and pick out some new clothing I walk to the door for the bathroom, " Then I guess we can adopt. It shouldn't be that hard to find find a kid."

I open the door and I hear him let out an annoyed growl, " What if I told you I loved you?" I can hear the smirk and the fact that he thinks this will get me to sleep with him is very evident in his voice.

" Well for starters this isn't really Wesker, just his pent up sexual frustration coming to the surface. With that being said it wouldn't count because every guy will say that to a girl or who ever if it means sex." I close the door and lock it just to be safe. I can hear him grumbling as he exits our shared room, I laugh lightly.

I start the shower and take a nice long relaxing one as I scrub off all the evidence of the prior three days. When I am done I get dressed to go down stairs and eat some food. Then a thought hits me 'Is it today or tomorrow for that Monica girl's party?'

When I get down the stairs and into the kitchen my boys are sitting at the table chess... when did we get chess?

"Hey dad!" Dimitri says excitedly as he hops off the stool and rushes over to me to give me a hug.

Dominik seeing me also gets down runs towards me giving me another huge hug. I pick them up and kiss the tops of their heads setting them back down when I return the bear hug. Wesker isn't around so I have the feeling that he is off 'taking care' of his problem or he has left. It must have been the first option because the basement door opens and I can tell that he is back to himself. He looks at me as he passes the kitchen and for a minute it looks like he wants to say something but he just looks at the boys, smiles, and heads up the stairs.

" Did you guys finish your school work?" I ask them when they sit back on the stools and continue their game. I have no idea how it works in order to figure out who is winning.

" Yes we have, we are all caught up." Dominik answers deep in thought looking at the board.

I nod my head and open the fridge to get an apple, I run it under the sink to clean it and dry it off in my shirt. I take a bite as I sit down at the island and watch them play. After a few more minutes and Dominik has moved a piece I voice my curiosity.

" Who is winning?"

" No one at this point." Dimitri says, airly as if he isn't really paying attention to me and that is most likely true at the present.

I nod again and take another bite, the crunching doesn't disturb them apparently or maybe they don't want to say anything.

" Is Monica's party today?"

Dominik looks up after Dimitri has moved a horse looking piece, I think that is a knight if I recall correctly.

" No I beleive it is tomorrow at noon."

" OK just checking." I stand up and ruffle their hair and head out to the living room.

Once again Polar Bear has taken the couch. He wags his tail as I get near and lifts his rear and front legs as I lean down to rub his stomach. I look outside and see that it must be late after noon or early evening. I take the chair and turn on the TV with the remote, and I flip through the channels settling on that CSI show that I had watched when I was pregnant. Wesker comes down the stairs and I look over my shoulder to see that he has found some new glasses and his shirt is a deep blue color, at least it is a different color.

I smirk at him and he raises an eyebrow, " What?" He doesn't demand it or ask with snark.

I shrug, " You have color on, albeit a dark color but one none the less."

"Yes, is that a bad thing?"

I purse my lips and shake my head , " Naw."

He walks over to the couch and lifts his hand and snaps telling P.B. to get up off the couch which he does. He sits down and watches the show with me.

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When the show ends the boys have finished their game with Dominik winning. I asked who taught them how to play and they said father somewhat but the directions weren't that hard to understand. I nod my head at them and they head upstairs to their room carrying the box under his arm. I look at Wesker who lazily turns his head in my direction.

" You taught them how to play chess?" I ask genuinly curious.

" A little bit, I was busy at the time when they had asked me but I showed them a site on the laptop telling them what to do."

" Oh." I glance back at the TV before I look back at him. " What are you, if anything, going to do about Birkin?"

He looks at me and then up the stairs where the boys have just gone up and then back to me, " I don't know. I could go after him and kill but he would be expecting that, and the fact that we used, a long time ago, work together. He was my friend Chris, like Forest and the others you have."

I nod my head, " But I know you too, and you aren't going to just sit here and do nothing. That isn't you at all."

" You don't know if you are going to be assigned to go after him yourself. And besides I need to lay low, even if they promise not to tell the whole truth they might say something."

" And what now you are worried about getting caught?"

He sighs, " No. I just don't want to be put in a compromising position."

I look at him and I can almost tell that there is something hiding under those words, and then a slow smile creeps over my face. " Is that why you won't show your endearment to me? Because if you do then something bad is going to happen to me or the kids. I bet that that is it."

He doesn't say anything just turns to look at the television but I know I'm right. That has to be it or I am going to feel like an idiot.

"Wesker?"

"Redfield." He sort of snaps my name like he is annoyed and doesn't want anything to do with this topic.

I let out a laugh. He only uses my last name when he is an a uncomfortable position or he doesn't know how to respond. I stand up from my chair and stretch my muscles. I head to the kitchen and let P.B. out who takes off running around the yard and then he goes to the bathroom. I look around the kitchen and note that we need to go to the grocery store to refill the shelves and fridge. P.B. runs up to the door and starts to jump so I let him back inside and he heads upstairs which he doesn't go up all the time.

" If you are going to drink out of the toilet bowl you better not." I yell up the steps.

I see the end of his tail disappear into the boys room and then they emit sounds of excitement upon seeing him. Wesker had been passing by when I had yelled up to the dog.

" Do you really think he understands you?"

I shrug " Maybe, maybe not. But he does no when I tell him 'No' or ' Get out'."

He walks up the stairs and heads into our room a minute later he comes back down carrying a laptop case. Come to think of that is my laptop case.

" Albert! What are you doing with that?"

He looks down at the bag in his hands. " I had to see if someone was checking up on you and I also needed to know what you were doing on it." He says it like its a normal thing.

" You didn't break the bookcase did you?"

He lets out a quite sigh and his shoulders tense the tiniest bit. " No Christopher, and in fact it was your son who picked the lock open to get it for me."

I place my hands on my hips and give him a hard stare. " I'm surprised you didn't take credit for that stunt and say that he was your son, since you are the criminal in the family."

"What about Zhane?"

" He is not family."

" He is dating your sister."

" Right and if he were family right now then that would be wrong."

He rubs the bridge of his nose and heads to the living to replace the computer and it's case. I follow him into the living room and watch him place the laptop in the still one-piece bookcase. He locks it back up and spreads his arms out in a ' Are you happy now?' fashion and I just give him a 'What do you think?' look. He doesn't say anything once more and heads out of the living room and down the stairs. I have always been curious as to what it is exactly that he does down there. I deiced to follow him down, I mean it is my house too and I have every right to see what it is he does.

I creep down the steps and it looks the same as before, the few times that I have come down. No dust, and the place isn't packed with junk but it does have an office/school feel to it. I find him sitting behind a desk with his hands folded and staring at me ( he has removed his glasses.) I don't think I have ever really looked at him without those things in the way.

" I just wanted to know what you found so fascinating about this place that you spend most of you time down here. Even when you aren't teaching. Or at your secret lab creating who knows what. You better not be experimenting on people, I'll guilt trip right now about how that is what happened to me and that is not right."

He just blinks slowly, " No Chris, not humans."

" ...So then animals?"

" Yes."

"..."

He tilts his head to the side, " Is there a problem?"

" Well that isn't any better."

" Chris I'm a scientist that is what I do."

" Well you also kill people and a whole bunch of other things."

" Is there a point to this conversation?"

" No. Not really like I said I just wanted to see what was so time consuming about this place."

The corners of his lips twitch, "Are you jealous Chris?"

"About this room?" I shake my head. " I might have been if there were posters around and stuff." I tell him jokingly.

He just nods his head slowly. I start laughing as a strange and nothing to with this current topic of thought hits me. He just gives that questioning stare and through his eyes voices his question. 'Care to Share?'

" It is completly random but if we were to get married and I decided to just go with your last name I would be Christopher Wesker, and that sounds really... Weird. It doesn't exactly roll off the tongue know what I mean?"

He blinks again and his mouth opens just a tiny fraction. " Redfield do you have... A.D.D?"

I place my hands in my pockets, " No. Look I told you it was random and from out of left field." I laugh again. " Imagine if you took my last name. Albert Redfield. It doesn't sound any better."

" How hard did you hit your head? Are you still suffering from that stupid serum?" I can tell he is serious and that he thinks something is really wrong with me. I might have been flatered if he wasn't insulting me in the same instance.

So I just roll my eyes and sigh at him, " No honey I am perfectly fine."

" Well then shut up about this whole last name topic." He doesn't look at me but directs his attention to his own laptop and starts hitting the keys.

I walk closer and sit on one of the boys desks and just stare at him until he sighs and looks up at me. " What are going to babble about now?"

" Why is this such a touchy subject for you?"

" Christopher it is not. I just do not see the humor or the reason to indulge in that little fantasy of yours." He says matter of fact.

A smirk crosses my face, " So... technically what you are saying is that you are interested in my other fantasies." I raise both eye brows and shrug in 'I'm not saying I'm just saying' motion.

He rubs his eyes and takes in a deep breath. " What exactly do you want from me? Are you trying to be cute and ... I don't know?"

I purse my lips and give him a thoughtful look, "Sexy, dashing oh how about seducing?"

"Sure one of those."

" I don't know... Is it working?"

He runs his tongue along the inside of his jaw, I know this because I see the bump moving.

" I believe I have already tried earlier and I seem to recall that you were the one that stopped all advances."

I knit my brows together, " I thought you didn't remember when you went like that?"

He lets out a brief laugh that I can tell has ' Are you serious? and Don't be so naive' written under it. " I lied. And you would know that if you let go more and let the virus take ahold of you. But you never have until recently and therefore I was never caught."

" You are a bastard." I glare at him and go to stand up and leave him alone in the basement.

As I am walking up the steps I realize that he remembers what I said to him about the whole ' saying I love you thing'. And I stop on the steps and turn slowly to face him. He is still smirking and gives me look.

" Say it."

" Say what?"

" The same thing I told you."

He takes in a breath, " You have said alot of things. How exactly am I to know which one you want me to repeat?"

" Back at that lab when we were walking away. I told that I lo-... those words. Repeat to me."

His smirk slips off his face, " You can't even repeat them now, which goes to prove my point that you said those things to spite me."

" We have lived together for five years Albert. Not once have we ever had a normal conversation or done anything together. With Jill I got that admiration and respect. I knew she wanted me, and not just because she had to work with me."

He is silent for a bit but I know he is contemplating my words. " Do you want me to lie to you Chris, make you swell with pride and false words of endearment?"

I release a dry laugh. " No."

" Alright than. Christopher Redfield I do not love you as of yet- if ever- but I will tell you that for some unknown reason, I can not have you dead And it is not just for the boys. That is the best you are going to get from me."

My mood is lifted slightly and I nod my head, " Fine, I shall take that."

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Later that night when the boys have had dinner and taken a bath. I help get them ready for bed and read them a story (usually it is the other way around) and tuck them in. I tell them 'goodnight and that I love them' they return the sentiments and Wesker comes in to tell them the same thing. And for a minute I get jealous because with them he can admit that he loves them and cares deeply for them, but with me it is a simple ' I don't want you dead.' But what ever I suppose beggars can't be choosers.

I strip down to my boxers not bothering to get any other artical of clothing on, it is rather hot inside, and slip under the covers. He removes his shirt and pants as well and before he replaces them with pajama bottoms I see that his boxers are not black surprisingly but a subtle red color. And then he is pulling on black sweats and settling into bed, with me still staring at him.

" Chris I hope you aren't just daydreaming because you have been doing this alot today and I don't think I can handle you for very long if that is the case."

" No Wesker I was simply admiring your underwear. It has color."

He gives me a thoughtful look, " So anytime I wear color you are going to get quite for long peridos of time?"

" I don't know."

"hm."

" What are you planning to use that against me now?"

" Most likely."

" Well than might I suggest you wear a bright yellow shirt. I would be speechless for a week maybe more."

" You just want to see that."

" Yes I do. And I am not lying I would be flabbergasted." I give him look that says ' Beat that.'

" Am I suppsused to be impressed with your usage of big words?"

" No..." I tell him a little put off because for some reason, yes he was supposed to be impressed that I could be as smart as him and the kids. Man do I sound like a girl, trying to become something I am not all for some prick of a guy who can't even see what is right in front of him.

" It doesn't suit you, so don't do it for me." He leans over and gives me a chaste kiss on the lips.

And I try to stop it I really do but the small smile starts to get bigger and I have to turn away before it becomes huge and annoying just from one small kiss that he gave to me on his own accord. He turns off the light and we are both engulfed in darkness. When he settles down he doesn't go to the far side of the bed, in fact he settles for the middle almost and when I lay down I notice that every once in awhile I can feel his breath waft across my neck and, I am going to sound completely cliche-ish, but it gives me slight electric shocks that are not unpleasant and I hear a slight rumble from behind me and I have a feeling that he knows what he is doing to me.

I turn around slowly to face him and the slight light that I get from the moon helps me but I have advanced eye sight any way, but the moon light gives his eyes a slight crazy look at night.

I tell him so, " Wesker you look like a lunatic."

" Yes well your eyes aren't a freakish color like mine, but they don't make you look any more sane when they flash to that color."

" How come your eyes are constantly that color yet mine only change that when I let loose?"

He looks at me, " I think it might have something to due with the fact that you still have your humanity, and I.S. or whatever was able to lock it away. Like another personality." His voice doesn't non emotional and cold, but honest and a little warm. Like he is human and just some scientist who thinks everything is lower than him.

I just nod my head, and go the turn back around. " You can remain this way if you so choose." There it is again that blank tone. It isn't mean or anything but it isn't all that friendly either.

I fix myself so that I am still facing him and I close my eyes falling asleep within a few seconds.

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This is the end of this chapter, I hope you guys like it and I am sorry that it isn't as long as the others but I don't have all that much time to write this.

The next chapter should be longer.

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