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Chapter 21 :: Stolen

How?... How could I even think like this?...Carlos asked himself...

The replayed over and over in his head like a cynical broken record that teased him.

Carlos was crying the horrific nightmare he had just endured, but what him more was that he had hurt Logan...

Logan sat there in shock, but knew that right now Carlos needed him and decided to ask questions later. After Carlos had calmed down...So Logan spun the smaller boy around and cradled him in his embrace, gently rocking themselves side-to-side. He even whispered gentle words and thought into his ear and eventually he calmed down enough to finally say something...

"Do... Do you" but the rest was unintelligible..

"What? I didn't hear you love?" Logan asked.

"I said, do you hate me?" he muttered. He bit his lip and shut his eyes and braced for Logan's answer.

"Haaaate you?" Logan said with a critical tone. Just then Carlos' vision blurred as Logan spun the smaller boy around and faced him. Logan looked pissed, but... Mostly hurt.

"If anything I should hate myself..." Logan replied. Carlos wore a confused look on his face and it was true.. He was confused. How could Logan not be mad at him, but instead at himself?

"I should hate myself, because it seems... that you don't trust me. It's because of that night isn't it? The party at Drew's?" Logan asked quietly as he looked down. Tears rolling down his cheeks and dropped down into his lap. Carlos reached out, but stopped and looked away. It was true, that night hurt him deeply. But he knew that it wasn't Logan's fault. He had to let Logan know what was going on.

"I'm not gonna lie." He answered back.

Logan's sucked in a quick breath upon hearing that and clenched his fists.

"That night really hurt me... But! But it's not what it seems... Logan you remember about my Dad... It's not that I don't trust you. I do.. I just-" Carlos stopped mid-sentence and took a deep breath and fought the memories in his head which pulled tears from his eyes and continued. "It's... I just don't want to be... HURT, like that again. It was too much then and it's too much now. I'm just... I'm just scared that you'll do the same. Not because I think you will, but because you'll realize that i'm worthless.."

Upon hearing this, Logan stopped crying and shot his head up towards his fiance. This time Carlos' head was down and rolling with his own streams of tears. Logan bit his bottom lip... Stupid! How could I be so selfish? Immediately he hugged the tanned boys body, pulled him closer and squeezed him tightly.

"I'm so sorry Carlos..." He reconciled. Carlos hugged him back and sniffled in silence. His body convulsed every time he sniffled and Logan imagined an adorable smaller version of Carlos in zip-up pajamas sniffling and convulsing, crying himself to sleep in a motherly pair of arms. He laughed quietly to himself.

"What?" curious at his chuckles

"I'm a terrible boy-friend.." Logan said shaking his head, while combing through Carlos' hair with his pale fingers. "It's one thing to make them cry over something like 'forgetting to call' or 'ditching them', but you're crying because of a stupid mistake I made. And i'm sorry. I really need to work on this." he explained, and laughed a little more.

Carlos felt guilty at what he made Logan feel.

"It's not your fault!" Carlos argued as he looked up at Logan.

"It wasn't and I know that. I'm just letting my past and my insecurities affect me and now it's affecting us. If anything I should hate MYSELF. I should never have had such a dumb dream. I do trust you okay?" he reassured him as he gave a light kiss to his lover.

"I really do. I just need to work on my daddy issues. As for the dream, just please forget about it. It was a nightmare and it wasn't real. I know you wouldn't do anything to hurt me like that..." He gave Logan another kissed and kept his eyes closed as he rubbed his thumb over Logan's cheek.

Logan reached up and held the hand that caressed his cheek and sighed. Relieved that this obstacle in their relationship had been averted. Logan took the initiative to say something this time.

"I love you. I really do. I'm gonna try harder from now on and show you that I really mean it."

"You don't need to Logie..." He said and rested his forehead against his as he nuzzled closer him. " I know you do. I just need help to resolve these issues... Will you help me Logie?"

"How could I say no? Especially when you call me Logie." Logan replied with a smile. Carlos laughed and kissed him on the lips. Logan kissed him back, which started a light make out session that was all about love.

"BOYS! TIME FOR DINNER!" Logan's mother called. They both stopped and laughed at that.
"She sure is loud for us to able to hear her from your room." Carlos said. He kept kissing Logan, which didn't seem to mind at all.
"Yeah, well she's had practice over the years with me playing the piano in the room. It makes it harder to hear her so she got louder." Logan explained, laughing. "Let's get ready." he suggested.

"Sounds good. I'm st-" but was interrupted with his stomach's own thoughts.
"Yes I can tell" Logan teased and dragged his fingers upwards and back down Carlos' tummy; Carlos was kneeling over him and affectionately kissed his neck. Logan pushed him off and rolled over him and did the same.
"Alright alright I get it. Let's go eat Logie." Carlos whined then made a pouty face.

"You don't need to make that face. I'd give you anything anyway without it." he declared, amused at his attempt to persuade Logan. He jumped off the bed and pulled Carlos over to him slowly, kissing his tummy as he slid closer to him. Carlos got up from the bed and hugged Logan tightly. Taking deep breaths to savor the moment, still thankful that the alternate reality he had lived not 30min ago was a illusion.

"Let's get dressed... you wanna borrow some clothes?" The pale boy asked his lover.

"Just some sweats." Carlos answered. They got dressed in matching black and white Puma sweats and tight black tank-tops. They started getting intimate again and slowly lay on the floor of Logan's closet, making out. Tuckered out from their last intimate moment, they settled for just laying down on the floor and cuddling.

"We have to go back down some time" Carlos pointed out.

"Yes I realize that unfortunately." He complained, not wanting to move from their spot.
"Come on lover boy." Carlos said, getting up and pulling Logan to his feet.
They held each other and just snuggled, Basking in each other's presence.

"Shall we go then?" Logan asked…
'mhm' Carlos responded.

So they penguin walked out of the closet, out of Logan's room and down to the hall; ready to have their first dinner together with Logan's family, before Carlos stopped and touched his head.

"Woah..."
"What's wrong Bear?" Logan asked, concerned and a little worried..
"Nothing, just a little Deja Vu" He just said, and kissed the other boy's lips before continuing to penguin walk to dinner...

Author's Note :: Okay so I hope you guys like the chapter.

Again I just wanna apologize.

p.s :: Stolen by Dashboard Confessional