AN: Ok so this author's not is IMPORTANT! PLEASE READ SO YOU DON'T GET MAD LATER!. SO first off this chapter was published without a Beta reader. Second I will be away for the first two weeks of july. Thridly my Beta reader will be away for ALL of july. So you can expect either a few crap updates or none at all. Thank you for your support and I will make my Beta edit like crazy upon their return! I hope you enjoy this story. It's based of of Christina Aguilera's You Lost me.

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I stood there striating up from my crouch. My batarang exploding on impact. I looked over and saw the startled and confused looks of Dick Grayson and Zantana Zatara. They looked over when the smoke cleared to see a random deadbeat with a pistol.

"Try to be more careful next time." I said with venom in voice. I turned around and walked into the shadows of the night. I felt tears prickling at the back of my eyes. I straitened up. This is not me. I don't cry. I hold my head up high for all to see.

I climbed through my bedroom window and pulled off my cowl stripping out of my costume. I put them in their secret compartment then flopped down on my bed. I stared at my ceiling for a while. So many thoughts were running through my head. He had really moved on. We weren't really dating, but there was something there. I new it. He did too.

I turned on my side to see a picture of us on my nightstand. I sighed at the happy smiles on our faces. I put the photo face down on my nightstand. I didn't want to think of what was gone.

I got up to go into the shower. I stripped off my underwear and stepped into the steamy water. I let the water flow around me. I stood under the flow of water letting it wash over my red hair and face. I remember what they had been doing just a moment before I came. They were making out in some random alley. You think he would have been smarter then that. She must be great. I mean she managed to win his heart...Make him lose his better judgment with just a kiss.

I sighed working the shampoo into my hair. I thought about Dick and my relationship recently. We had been drifting apart before but when he...kissed her... I sighed again letting the steam over come me. It still hurt to think about that. He ditched my New Years party. Well not exactly ditch, he didn't show up. Didn't call either. When he came back after winter break, he ignored me, almost completely. I had to ask Wally what got into him... He was so sad when he told me. He was the only one who knew about how I felt. Dick and I used to play pranks on people all the time. We are protégés of Batman after

all. So that makes us perfect for it. We don't do that anymore. We don't really do anything anymore...

I felt tears threatening to come again. I would not cry. He isn't worth it. I don't care if he never loved me like I love him. I don't care if he found someone else. I don't care if we aren't friends anymore. I don't care. I don't. I don't.

I kept replaying these thoughts in my head. I still felt one lone tear roll down my face. But it could have been water from the shower...

I feel like we used to have something special. We had magical moments. But all magic is, are quick tricks, fog machines, and lies.

I walked out of the shower my towel wrapped tightly around my body. I walked back into my room and looked at all of the pictures of Dick and I. I honestly thought he cared about me. But he just couldn't keep his hands to himself. typical. He is Bruce's ward after all.

I switched on the TV as I got dressed. It was some random news channel. I looked through my drawers and came across and old t-shirt of Dick's I had took. I looked at it for a while. I was brought out of my trance by the new caster saying something about young justice. They were everywhere you turned now a days.

I angrily switched off my TV. I really hated him sometimes. He acted like everything was perfect all that time. He acted like I wouldn't care he never showed up or called me back. He probably thought "Oh its just Babs. She'll understand. I don't have to call her to let her know I'm not coming. I can let her wait for two hours. She won't care. It doesn't matter." Well it did and still does matter, to me at least. He didn't even care how neglected he was making me feel. He just stopped caring about me.

I lied down on my bed starring off into the darkness. When had things become so different. My dad says we are just growing apart. I'm starting to think that's a big part of if. I guess our futures just weren't meant to be intertwined. Our lives are just so different now. But I guess things and people just...change.

I felt my eye lids get heavy, signaling sleep coming on. The last thing I thought of till I drifted off to dreamland was how Dick had just lost a damn good friend.

I stood in front of him as he fiddled with his clothing nervously. He wanted to talk to me. You hear that HE wanted to talk to ME. I guess I should feel honored right. I mean he has never had time for me before.

"Look Babs, I know things haven't been great between us lately. But you're still one of my best friends. And I really don't want to lose that." He said looking me in the eye. I looked at him trying to figure it out. But mostly I focused on how he didn't want to lose my FRIENDSHIP. He didn't say he didn't want to lose ME.

I looked at Dick sadly. I didn't even really know him anymore. We had grown. Become completely different people in such a short time. And we had done it alone. I don't think we know anything about each other anymore. I feel like we lost our partnership and became independent. Without one another.

"Do you really want to make this work Dick?" I asked him skeptically.

"Of course I do! Why would you even thi-"

"Dick. We I this." I took a deep breath trying to find the words I needed to say. "I wish, I really really wish. But be real about it." I said sadly.

He looked at me confused and slightly hurt. He was about to argue when I continued talking.

"Dick. I don't know you anymore. And you, you don't know me either. Our friendship is too far gone to salvage now. We've both grown up a lot. And we did it without each other. We aren't, we can't be what we used to be. I really really wish that we could be friends again, but the fact is, we can't. And even by some chance we could, I I couldn't go through losing you again. It's gone Dick. We just have to deal with it." I looked at him eyes slightly watery. He looked hurt and sad. I walked up to him and gave him one last hug. I rested my head on his should for a minuet.

"We've lost our fight Richard. I'll miss you." I whispered in his ear. I pulled away and gave him one last smile. I turned and started to walk away.

I still get upset whenever I see kiddy magic kits. It reminds me of her, which reminds me of them, which reminds me of him, which in turn, reminds me of us. I can block it out most times, but sometimes all the memories come back to me. It's like a hurricane. All the good, and the bad, and all of the heartbreak I felt. It feels like too much sometimes.

I stood in a corner at the cave. It was their five-year anniversary. I tried to be happy for them, I really did. It just hurt too much to see them so happy. To see him so happy without me.

They played that stupid video for them. It was their first kiss. The one they shared on New Years. The one that started their relationship. That ended ours. That ruined everything. That made me cry so many times. I slipped out unnoticed by anyone else. But who would notice me? I'm just another brokenhearted girl. I'm a dime a dozen I guess.

I heard footsteps coming up behind me. I couldn't help but hope a little that they were his. I'm ashamed to say I was disappointed when Wally wrapped me up in a hug. I should of known it was Wally. He doesn't care about me anymore.

"It's been over four years. You need to talk to him." Wally murmured into my hair. It was true. We had had that talk four years ago. I hadn't talked to him since. But he hadn't made an effort to either.

"You can tell him, if he really wants to talk to me, to meet me on my fire escape. And if not, then I never want to see him again." I said sternly. I felt Wally nod and get up. He gave me a look that held so many emotions I didn't think it was possible. I nodded my head and he turned and walked away. I turned back over to the ocean. I watched the moon dace across its surface, the light creating little dances. I dug my toes into the sand one last time before I turned around and walked back to the Zeta tubes.

I heard a tapping at my window and my heart stopped. I didn't really expect him to come. I took a deep breath and opened my window. I climbed out of it and was soon face to face with him. I looked at him. I really looked. Because, in my heart, I knew, I just knew, that this might be the last time I will ever see him.

"Babs, look I know I messed up. I messed up really bad. But I miss my best friend. I miss all the things we used to do. I miss us." He said looking endearing. It was sweet but it was just like last time. He never said he missed me. Just things about me. I looked up at him. His bright blue eyes looking into mine. All of a suddenly I felt like I was fourteen again. Sick on puppy love. Daringly optimistic that we'd fall in love and be together forever.

"You never told me." I said quietly. "I thought you trusted me. But I found out from Wally. I was so sad. You chose her and didn't even let me know." I said not looking at him.

"Look Babs I know it was stupid I didn't tell you. I wish I had. But I can't change the past." He said lifting my head up to look at him. I could feel more tears threatening to fall. I wouldn't cry in front of him. I wouldn't show him what he put me through.

"It's to late. It's too damn late Dick! It's been four fucking years!" I said. I looked down, a single tear falling down my cheek.

"Please." I whispered. "Please just tell me. That night, when we were thirteen, on the roof. Did you mean it? Did you ever even care about me?"

He sighed and looked at me. I must look pathetic.

"Of course I meant it. I still mean it. I love you Babs. I always have! and I always will."

"Liar." I said sternly yet shakily. "Why do you expect me to believe you? You say you love me? That's bullshit! If you loved me you would actually give a damn about me!" I said shouting slightly.

"Babs, Please just trust me-"

"Trust you? TRUST YOU! After everything you put me through you expect me to trust you." I asked astonished.

"Do you know what it's like? Seeing the man you love with someone else? I could never get away from it. You and you're little team were EVERYWHERE! I always saw thing about you and her! It was like everyone was trying to rub it in my face! I love you Dick! Are you happy now. I love you! I have since we were thirteen." I screamed not caring that I just confessed my love for hm.

"But I didn't matter to you then. I guess I don't now either. Do you have any idea what you put me through! You were supposed to be my best friend Dick! But you-you just left one day. And you never came back. This person claiming to be you did. But he wasn't you! He didn't care about me. At all. He just ignored me. I felt so alone." I said angrily. He looked at me pity and sympathy in his eyes.

I looked him up and down. I started to chuckle softly. He looked at me like I was on some of joker's gas.

"It's funny. We used to be so close. We knew everything about each other. We were inseparable. And now, this is the first time we've talked in years." I said looking at him.

"You should go now." I said looking at the floor of the fire escape.

"Babs you know you were my best friend. And that no one could ever replace you right?"

"Good-bye Richard. I miss you." I said turning and climbing back into my window. Before I went inside fully I turned and looked at him. Memorizing every detail about him.

"I'll never forget you." I whispered before going inside fully and shutting my window. No matter how much I hate to admit it, it's the truth. I'll never be able to forget him. No matter how hard I try. I heard him leave the escape and leap into the night. That's when I finally fell to my knees cried. I sobbed holding my knees up to my chest and rocking slightly.

I had left Gotham within a week. I had left everything that had to do with batgirl or Dick behind. I packed up my car, with the help of Wally, and left. Wally was the only person I told I was leaving.

He still visits me. I looked at the one picture of Dick I had. It was us when we were thirteen, ten years sure feels like a lifetime, he was pushing me on a swing and I was laughing. All of the memories of him have gotten kinda fuzzy. In the past ten years I had only talked to him once. It was that night on the fire escape. I tried not to think of it. I left my old life behind a long time ago. I'm not Barbara Gordon any more. I'm not batgirl. I'm Angela Delvinge now. I died my hair brown and wear my glasses all the time now. I work at the local library and love to read. I don't date that much. As much as I hate to admit it, I never fully got over Dick. I made a new mantle. I'm still a crime fighter, but I go as Oracle now. I still swing through the night protecting the citizens of Seattle. I try to stay as far away from the justice league as possible. I'm happy now, and I don't want seeing Dick to fuck everything up again. He had already done that to me once. And there was no way in hell it's gonna happen again.

I had always thought I was the one who lost Dick. But maybe he was the one who lost me...

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