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"So," I started, lying in my bed with Seth, facing each other, "That red head vampire started an army of newborn vampires?" I asked.

Seth nodded.

"And newborns are really strong and fast but easy to kill if you know how?" I continued.

Seth nodded.

"And you all have to fight them at save Bella Swan's life because they're all after her?"

Nod.

"And on top of it all Brady Fuller, your second cousin, and Collin Littlesea, my baby cousin, both phased for the first time last night?" I finished.

Seth kissed my forehead before nodding again. I sighed, snuggling closer to him until our bodies were practically flushed together. "But you're not fighting, right?"

Seth sighed, looking almost disappointed. "Nah, Sam's putting me on watch duty, Brady and Collin too. I'm looking out around Edward and Bella's campsite in the mountains, Brady and Collin are switching back and forth between patrolling the whole reservation and just Emily's house, where you imprints will be."

I rolled my eyes; "I wish I could go with you, since it'll be so safe." I said, with a biting sarcastic edge.

"Safe for me. And Edward, I guess. I don't even understand why he'd bring Bella up there but it's not my business." Seth corrected.

"Why are you and Edward so special?" I asked, already knowing perfectly well what made them so special.

"Um, well I turn into a giant wolf and Edward's made of granite. You and Bella are too fragile and easily broken." Seth said, lacy our fingers together carefully.

"You talk about me like I'm glass." I stated, annoyed.

He rolled his eyes, using his free hand to trace delicate patterns over my hip, "Because, to a newborn, you'd probably snap just as easy."

My eyebrows knit together and I looked down, playing with my necklace. "You're staying over tonight."

I wasn't asking him, I was telling. If I had to let the one person I love more then anything go off to battle, I was going to spend every second before with him. Seth kissed my forehead, "Of course."

"I don't like this." I admitting, shaking my head.

"I know, but I'm a decent fighter and I'm on the side lines anyway." Seth said, moving his hand so that he could rub my back, softly. His arms wound around me and I shifted to lean into his chest.

"If you got hurt…" I trailed off, swallowing hard, "I don't know what I'd do."

"'Rin, this is my job. I was literally born to do this." He reassured, touching his forehead to mine, "I'll be fine."

I rolled my eyes, biting my lip, "I love you so much. Losing you is not a possibility."

"It's the same with me. When I'm out there tomorrow, it won't be to protect Bella Swan, it'll be to protect you, no matter the cost." Seth kissed my forehead again, "That's how it'll always be."

I ran my fingers over his cheek, almost giggling at the fact he had stubble now. Tears pooled in my eyes but I blinked a couple times, crying wasn't an option right now. I needed my strength. "I know that, I don't have to like it."

Seth kissed me, full on the mouth. I put a hand on his chest, feeling his heartbeat through his shirt. He still had both arms wrapped around me, holding me close. When he broke away, all too soon, we were both breathless, "Fair enough."

I set my head against his chest, playing with my necklace again, absentmindedly.

Seth will be fine, I told myself, repeating it over and over like a prayer. I liked Bella and all, but in that moment, I didn't think I could ever hate anyone more. This was her fault. She just had to date a vampire and draw attention to herself. Now, she and her new bloodsucking family are asking me to give up my brothers, both blood and not, and the boy I love more than anything so that they can help them? I was suppose to just let them go, not beg them to stay or say pretty please?

They were asking Emily to hand over her fiancée and though Sam and I didn't always get along, I knew he didn't deserve to put his life on the line for a girl he barely knew. And Kim was giving up the boy she'd been in love with for nine years after barely having half a year with him, of being the center of his attention, the love of his life. Tiffany Call didn't even realize where her baby boy would be tomorrow, she's just assume he'd be with his 'friends' like always. I hoped her and Embry's delicate relationship wasn't currently on the outs. If anything were to happen and they weren't getting along, Tiffany would never forgive herself; her son was all she had.

Billy was letting his only son go, knowingly left to just hope for the best. It didn't help that Jacob had been so moody and distant lately either, he and Billy hardly spoke without Jake snapping, let along banter the way they had before. Sue Clearwater would be left without anything if her children didn't come home, a risk she was willing to take for the greater good. As an Elder, she was expected to accept Seth and Leah's fates without question, without complaint. Quil's mom, Joy, had already lost her husband and could lose her son too if he made one wrong move tomorrow.

My aunt Connie, the miracle baby she'd spent months and hundreds of dollar on trying to bring into the world, Collin was going to just walk away tomorrow and possibly never coming home. Jasmine Fuller would kiss for her child goodbye and wave him off not having a freaking clue of the danger he would possibly have to put himself in. Hell, even Paul had people who needed him, depended on him. With five little sisters and a single mother at home, he was the 'man of the house'.

It was all just so completely unfair. So unfair I wanted to scream, to kick, to hurt something so it could share my pain and frustration.

I remembered this feeling from months before. Before I'd known, when I was just an naive 15-year-old, watching home movies alone on the couch, praying my cousin would come home.

Now, just a few short months later, I was well on my way to 16 but felt like I was going on 30 with all I've had to put up with. I looked into Seth's eyes and kissed him, short and quick. "I love you, good night."

"Night."

I fell asleep, praying to god he'd be able to say that to me more in the future.