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10 Reasons Why I Hate Working Here:

A List by Roxas Strife

pay is just awful.

2. Said pay is allowed to be awful because it is the family business and considered "allowance".

3. I get the pain of seeing my siblings all day. Every day. Work and home. Enough said.

4. I have to act friendly to the customers. *Shivers*

5. Axel is here.

6. Axel is stalking me.

7. Axel stalks me at the coffee shop I work at.

8. Stalking isn't an excuse for taking sick leave. Unfortunately.

9. I don't have enough money to pay him to leave because the pay here is just awful.

10. … Enough said.

It had been one week.

One week since Roxas had been asked on a date by Axel.

One week since Cloud had been on a date with Sephiroth.

One week since Leon had stormed from The Strife Coffee House in a rage.

One week since Selphi had to make do with a bad coffee order.

Roxas was going to kill himself.

"Is he still looking?" Roxas asked as he ducked to fix the coffee filter on the hot chocolate machine. His twin brother, Sora, handed a lady her change before stifling a laugh and shaking his head down at his brother.

"He's been staring since he walked into the shop. I don't think he's going to stop anytime soon." Sora rolled his eyes and pulled his brother up, patting him on the back as he let out a low groan of dismay. Sure enough, he was seated in his usual spot, laptop opened and eyes flickering from the page to meet with a very dismayed Roxas. Smirking he looked back down at his laptop, tapping away at his keys like he wasn't driving anyone nuts by his presence.

"Sora," Roxas hissed, ducking slightly when Axel looked back up, "he's been coming in here every single day I've been in here!" Sora looked unapologetic as he laughed, but his face changed to mock horror as his brother gave him a withering glare. Roxas could be very, very scary sometimes.

"Well we can't do anything about it; Cloud says as long as he buys coffee we can't get angry." Sora began cleaning the counter out of boredom, waiting for his boyfriend, Riku, to text him back. Roxas sighed dejectedly and idly doodled on a napkin, trying not to feel eyes burning into his skull.

It wasn't that Axel had been coming into the coffee house every day for the past seven days. No, Roxas could easily ignore regulars who had a tendency to be a bit too addicted to the special ingredients that went into The Strife Coffee House coffee. No, no, no… what bothered him was that Axel show up and then stay seated in one spot the entire time, either staring at Roxas with barely concealed lust or tapping away at his keyboard, shit-eating grin dominating his face.

He would leave at random times, sometimes meeting someone at the coffee house and sometimes just sitting alone. He would wait twenty minutes one day or wait until Roxas's shift was over another day before leaving. He never spoke to Roxas other than to say, "Medium straight black coffee, keep the change." But his eyes showed all too clearly what he wanted.

Roxas.

Groaning, he pressed his palms into his eyes and wearily dozed for a moment, half tempted to abandon Sora and leave just so that he didn't have to see the crazy red head. Why was he following him around for anyway?! Wasn't stalking illegal…?

Maybe it wouldn't be so bad if he was verbally attacking him with offers that his eyes suggested. What Roxas couldn't stand was the silence that came with the stare, and it made him want to stick a fork in the nearest person's neck. Since it was Sora, he figured it was illegal to stab his own twin, so he resisted.

Oh, and because it was very, very wrong to stab people.

But the stare… oh, how awkward it was. Roxas shivered in his white shirt and apron combo as he felt the prickling on the back of his neck that let him know Axel was still watching. Never talking, just watching.

The silence was unnerving.

"Good Lord, would someone please say something!?" Roxas groaned and laid his head on his arm, dejected.

"Hey, Riku! What are you doing here?" Sora's happy, over eager voice carried across the room as he ran past his brother and jumped over the counter and into his boyfriend's arms. Roxas gave a half-hearted wave as Riku nodded in his direction and then ducked as Axel looked back up and raised an eyebrow.

"Not what I had in mind… but whatever…" Roxas muttered to himself.

"I got off of work early so I thought I'd stop by and see how you were holding down the fort." Riku pushed his silvery bangs back and nodded to where Roxas was currently hiding. "Is Roxas eating on the floor again?" He asked as Roxas peeked over the counter top and glowered at him.

"Your jokes are far from comical." Roxas informed him before letting out an undignified eep! and ducking again.

"I thought it was funny." Sora said brightly, leaning in a pecking Riku's cheek with a kiss before ducking his head and hugging him tightly. Smiling tenderly, Riku kept his arms firmly wrapped around Sora and let the conversation drop. Riku was never one for too much talking; he let Sora fill in that department.

A soft bell rang and then the aforementioned silence shattered with a shriek.

"AXEL!" A flash of red swept across the room before the stalker behind the computer was tackled from his chair and onto the just swept floor. Roxas took his chance to peek up and see the spectacle.

"Where the hell have you been?! I've been looking all over town for you!" The girl was sprawled across the emaciated teen with hardly any shame, her face dangerously close to his. "You were supposed to meet me after school so that I could run through the play script, but nooo, you have to hang out here at this little coffee shop ogling cute little uke-child over there!" Roxas felt all of the color drain from his face when she pointed to him and Riku followed her wildly gesturing finger.

"I've been working on my mid-term, Kairi." Axel let out a great big sigh before pushing her off of him and picking himself up off of the floor. "And as for the cute little uke-child, you cannot deny it." Grabbing her arm he hauled her up and shook his head, ruffling her hair. Riku stared, eyes wide.

"Are they… talking about Roxas?" Riku stage-whispered, sending the pale faced worker a sympathetic look. Sora nodded gravely but it was obvious he was hiding a smile beneath the hand covering his mouth.

"Yeah, he's cute. If you like blondes." Kairi shrugged and leaned over Axel's shoulder to peer at his laptop, not noticing Roxas as he promptly let his head smack the plastic countertop in dismay.

"And do I like blondes." Axel replied, sending Roxas a wink and making Riku burst into a fit of laughter that brought both him and Sora tumbling down on top of each other. Letting out a groan of mortification Roxas sunk back onto the floor and pretended that Kairi had never stepped foot into his shop. And he was ignoring the fact that he could see that Sora and Riku hadn't risen from their spot on the floor.

"Will you two get a room?!" He snapped as he heard Sora's giggle sound a little more hysterical that before.

"Sure thing, little uke-child." Riku mocked as he picked Sora up bridal style and started towards the back room. Burning red with mortification, Roxas hid his head and imagined sharp, pointy objects.

"So you actually were working on your mid-term? Huh, fancy that!" Kairi laughed brightly and there was the sound of keys typing.

"I'm hardly a deceitful person." Axel objected and a bell rang brightly, signaling a customer. Pulling himself to his feet with a muted groan, Roxas forced on a painful smile as Leon and Zexion made their way to the counter, faces similarly pasted with melancholy expressions. Well wasn't everyone just popping in today! Roxas ground his teeth together.

"Decaf latte, Rox." Leon said coolly, running his hand through his hair and looking around with concealed curiosity. Obviously looking for Cloud.

"He pulled an early shift today, Leon." Roxas informed him as his eyes met with said Leon's for a moment as he set the drink down in front of him. Leon shrugged nonchalantly and pretended to not care, but the way his lips were pursed told Roxas that it jealousy wasn't a good color for him.

"I'd like a chai latte… something to focus with." Zexion pushed his own unruly hair from his face and passed his munny over next to Leon's both of them silently agreeing not to pay for each other. They were brothers just in similarity of standoffish attitude and silent demeanors. Nothing more, nothing less. They didn't look alike, nor did they sound alike. Zexion just rode to town with him when it was necessary.

"I don't care where he is, or who he's with." Leon muttered to himself as he grabbed his drink and stomped back towards his motorbike. Zexion took his a little more silently before making his way to a table in the corner with a book pulled out of the air. How did he do that? Roxas had no idea. His brother Demyx said that Zexion would be an amazing magician if he could pull bunnies out of hats like he pulled books from nowhere. He said that Zexion preferred peace and quiet and listened to classical and acoustic music though he looked like he'd favor Hawthorn Heights and Taking Back Sunday. Either way, Zexion always came to the shop for peace and quiet, and Roxas tried to help him with that since he wanted the same thing. Demyx said that deep down Zexion was a party animal, but Demyx also said that Zexion's name should be changed to Sexion, so…

Sighing, Roxas checked the clock, relieved to see that his brother, Demyx, would be showing up to help with the upcoming rush hour. He was spazzy enough that it would be easy to deal with.

Hopefully.

Looking up, Roxas caught Axel staring at him again, and by reflex he ducked, ignoring the way that his ears burned with mortification when he heard both demonic red heads laughing at him.

"Damn them…" He cursed, glowering at the floor.

Axel Flurry wasn't meek. He wasn't someone that was called a "humble" man and he was proud of that fact. If anything, he was happy to say that there was no way in hell he'd be caught dead pulling the modesty card. He was the terror of his neighborhood and he was what the town bitties gossiped about when they met up for afternoon lemonade and biscuits. Little kids were warned away from him and any out of the closet gay men drooled after him.

And he was damn proud to be labeled as the town nuisance.

"Week two…" Axel sighed and walked down the sidewalk with no real drive to get to his new favorite coffee shop anytime soon. Sure, he'd get there when he got there, but he wanted to make sure that Roxas was on edge when he arrived. If Axel showed up later that usual, Roxas would be shifty and jumpy, a comical sight when you had a bad day. Ah, the cute coffee shop worker really made him smile.

"So I finally get to see the object of your obsession?" One of his closest friends, Zack, sidled up to him with his girlfriend, Aerith, in tow. Zack ran a hand through his dark ebony hair and shook his head as Axel smirked and nodded.

"Not obsession really… just temptation. Too hot for his own good." Axel shrugged and passed a stick of gum to Zack who grabbed it as he rolled his eye.

"You know, I don't get you. You could hook up with Kadaj or one of his brothers, but you choose to go after the one kid that can't stand the sight of you. Hell, even Marley would jump at the chance to get you." Zack shook his head as Aerith smiled and smacked his arm lightly.

"You do realize that Marley is my cousin?" Axel said with horror written all over his face. There was an awkward silence as this statement was processed and Zack tried to save himself the trouble of being the cause of an awkward turtle. Or another gay baby.

Zack had seen too many of those. Axel as an example.

"That's just how hot you are." He finally replied brightly, earning a smug nod from Axel and a soft sigh from Aerith.

"Does he know that you like him?" Aerith asked curiously.

"I don't like him." Axel muttered defensively. "I just want to-"

"Jump his bones?" Zack offered as they reached the coffee shop entrance. Axel nodded roguishly and pushed the door open, the familiar bell ringing brightly. The only difference was the heat wave that came rushing over to them, dousing them in a slight sheen of sweat.

"Is it always this hot in here?" Zack asked as he wiped his hand across his head and took off his jacket.

"Only when he's here." Axel licked his lips when he saw the flash of blonde cross the back room window of the shop.

"Lame." Zack shook his head at his friend's idiocy. As they made their way towards the counter, Axel felt the same pull he always felt when he saw Roxas walk from the back room with the look of a condemned prisoner. His blonde hair was tousled and messy, and his pouty lips stuck out childishly. As he saw them Roxas's face turned from depressed to downright miserable, and it made Axel almost want to leave the room so that he'd smile for once.

Almost.

"Medium straight black coffee, keep the change." Axel ordered instantly, leaning on the counter and winking at the boy with the slightly rumpled apron. Roxas backed up slowly, eyes that of a cornered animal before he filled out the order quickly, sleeves pushed up in the heat of the café.

"Why's it so hot in here?" Zack complained as he fell against the counter, miming sweating to death.

"Air conditioner broke." Roxas barked, setting the coffee in front of Axel and waiting for them to order.

"Iced caramel coffee, the largest size you got." Zack fanned himself. They jumped as a loud BANG! Echoed behind them, Cloud stomping into the area, making the door slam loudly and the bells clang noisily before falling onto the ground.

"Of course. Just another thing gone wrong." Cloud snarled, grabbing the bells and throwing them viciously into the trashcan. Roxas watched impassively, Zack with confusion, Axel with amusement, and Aerith with understanding and concern.

"I'll fix it, Cloud." Roxas called out to him, unfazed by his anger. Looking back to the group, he gave Aerith a pointed look and she nodded, abashed.

"Good because hell knows I can't seem to do anything right." Cloud spat, storming past them and giving Axel a venomous look. "And Good Lord, stop stalking my brother!" Axel stared back innocently, but he couldn't help the tell-tale smile from starting to form. What could he say? He was good at riling people up.

"Can I help it if I'm addicted to-"

"I swear to God if you finish that sentence-" Roxas warned.

"-the coffee here?" Axel finished cheekily, winking at Roxas and making his scowl return with full force.

"Stop bothering him. I'll be in my office, Roxas." Cloud stomped towards the door before kicking it open and slamming it behind him, an awkward silence ensuing. Roxas scratched his head and shifted from foot to foot, sending another troubled glance to Aerith before grabbing the drink for Zack and setting it down in front of him, giving another shifty glance to Aerith.

"Vanilla hot chocolate, if that's not too troublesome." Aerith requested. Roxas glanced at her for a moment before a small, slightly genuine smile graced his face and he nodded, a little mollified. Axel glanced between the two of them to see that Aerith had a small smile on her face too. Did they know each other? If so, for how long? Axel decided that he didn't like they way that Roxas was looking at Aerith, and after nudging Zack, Zack decided that he didn't like it either. Grabbing Aerith he pulled her closer and gave Roxas a dirty look, making Roxas turn red and start to splutter an explanation.

All Axel could think of what that Roxas would look good with no clothes on. Just saying.

"Yeah, that's cool, kid, just know she isn't your type." Zack said coolly, pulling her back as she smothered a grin and winked at Roxas. Why was she winking?! Axel leaned in, suspicious. What did they know that he didn't? Axel hated being out of the loop. It made him feel like he didn't know what was going on.

"I know she's not." Roxas agreed pulling out a cup to get her order filled. Zack's jaw promptly dropped.

"What do you mean, she's not your type?! Aerith is anyone's type!" Zack snapped, looking at Axel for help. Axel was too busy though, watching Roxas's pulse pound on his neck, anger right underneath the surface. What would happen when he finally snapped? Would he finally give in? Axel sure hoped so. He wanted to see that blonde kid naked, dammit!

"Zack, it's ok." Aerith said, detangling herself from her boyfriend. Zack merely scowled, not liking the way she kindly smiled at a very angry blondie.

"How is it ok? That's just rude, if he doesn't like how you look than-"

"It's not like that." Roxas snapped, handing Aerith her drink.

"Then what's it like?" Axel asked curiously, already knowing the answer. He just liked stirring things up… it made him smug. Take that for keeping him out of the loop!

"Yeah, what's it like, kid?" Zack asked, leaning in.

"I'm not a kid!" Roxas snarled. Aerith leaned back, just a little annoyed, deep down. Zack could be easily jealous and temperamental.

"You're not a kid?" Zack asked sarcastically.

"He's not a kid!" Axel snapped. If he was a kid, Axel was a pedophile. He didn't want to be a pedophile. No, that had almost happened once, and he wasn't going back to prison for any other misconceptions! He was a clean, good guy, dammit!

"He' not?" Zack asked, confused.

"I'm not!" Roxas confirmed.

"No, but he's gay." Aerith cut in smoothly, Roxas looking like he was about to pass out when she spoke.

"He's gay?" Zack asked, baffled.

"He's gay." Axel agreed jovially. Of course his little uke-child was gay. If he wasn't, life would be decidedly more difficult. Not only would he have to get into his pants when there was a lock and key on the zipper, but he'd also have to convince him that it was better if you were with a guy instead of a girl. Or he'd have to use a lot of alcohol. Either way worked.

But the alcohol was easier.

"Now, if you'd kindly leave me to my job." Roxas snapped, giving Zack a withering glare before stomping to the back room, ears a bright red. Laughing, Axel brought them over to his usual seat, pulling out his laptop and smirking at the slightly confused look on Zack's face. Axel liked smirking, in general. It made him look confidant and hot.

"So… he's gay." Zack said dazedly. Axel hmm'ed and nodded as Aerith smothered her laughter with a hand.

"And he wasn't giving you 'the look'?" He asked Aerith who shook her head, still laughing.

"No, he wasn't." She confirmed.

"So why were you two all secretly smiling and what not?!" Zack demanded, things not yet clicking.

"We know why Cloud is upset." Axel wasn't paying attention to their conversation, eyes looking up to see the older sister-Larxene?-stomp out of the back door with a magazine in her clutches, blue eyes murderous. Giving the few customers there a child-murdering glare, she stormed towards a free seat near the counter, dropping onto the chair and putting her feet up in the one across it.

"Why's he upset?" Zack asked, interested like any good small town child would be. Axel snorted and loaded up his mid-term paper, glancing up to do a routine check to see if his favorite blonde was done being upset yet. Nope. Not yet. No matter, Axel was known for his patience. He'd waited two weeks so far, he could wait a little more.

"Because Leon's being difficult." Aerith said softly.

"How? Are they going out or something?" Axel snorted again, glancing over at his best friend.

"You're behind in the gossip around town. They were going out, they broke up, Leon was insensitive, Cloud was sad, Sephiroth was horny, Cloud was vulnerable, Leon was jealous, Sephiroth was calculative, Cloud was angry, Leon was desperate, and now they can't seem to fix things because Cloud is not comfortable with showing emotions for Leon anymore and Leon is a total fu-"

"Being difficult." Aerith sent warning glance to Axel as she cut him off. "He's not good with emotions either, Axel. And it's hard for him to be a romantic. He really does care for Cloud, but in his own way. Cloud is hurt because Leon can't admit it." Axel shrugged, also feeling insensitive to the matter. He'd chosen Cloud's side since Roxas was related to him. All Axel had to do was somehow let it slip that he sided with Cloud, and Roxas would realize that he wanted Axel too! And then, he'd totally be susceptible to whatever came to Axel's mind, and he'd score major uke-love! All because of Cloud and Leon's love-hate thing.

Yes, that makes perfect sense.

"Ah… right." Zack was already bored with the situation, blowing bubbles into his drink. Axel turned back to his laptop as Aerith read what he wrote, every now and then pointing out a grammatical error for him.

The door opened behind them, admitting Olette, Pence, and Hayner, the town nerd-squad. Axel couldn't remember if they were juniors or seniors or whatever, but he didn't like them too much. The girl was rumored to be having a threesome with both the chubby boy and the banana looking boy, and that idea made Axel infuriated.

Why should the nerd-squad get some when he couldn't?

They walked to the counter, the banana boy leaning over the counter and scowling to himself as he saw that no one was there.

"Uh, hello? Is anyone going to serve us?" He called out. Olette shushed him and Pence stared greedily at the cookies and other small deserts served with the coffee if a person so wished an edible accessory for their drink. That's what they were called, you see. Edible accessories. Axel licked his lips. Maybe tomorrow he'd ask Roxas to be his edible accessory? It was a good line, if he did say so himself.

"Man, the service here sucks." Hayner snapped, kicking the counter in front of him. Nearby, Larxene snorted and turned a page in her magazine, shaking her head.

"You can say that again." She agreed, eyes scanning the page. Her apron was still on with the curly script showing her name, and the nerd-squad glanced at each other with confusion.

"So no one's going to serve us?" Pence asked dejectedly, staring longingly at the edible accessories.

"'Course not, there is zero percent chance of getting a decent helper around here… none of the workers are ever really doing their job." Larxene sighed and turned the page of her magazine. "Nope, the service here is just God awful."

"Don't you work here?" Olette asked. Larxene raised an eyebrow and let out another sigh.

"Does that really matter?" She asked off-handedly. Hayner spat on the ground before he grabbed his friend's shoulders and began steering them towards the door.

"We'll get our stuff elsewhere." He grumbled as Roxas made his way out of the back room, wiping his hands on a dishrag. Axel watched, fascinated with the situation as Roxas looked up to take in the three angry teenagers, his motionless sister, and the avid crowd. His face transmogrified into something truly fearsome as he dropped his dishrag, turning towards Larxene with a demonic glint that turned Axel on like a 40-watt bulb.

"What the hell is your problem, Larxene!? Didn't you see the customers right there, waiting on your lazy ass to MOVE?" He demanded, hands on his hips. His sister turned another page in her magazine.

"Yeah, I saw 'em." She agreed without batting an eyelash. Axel watched eagerly as Roxas fumed silently to himself for a moment before he clenched his fists at the ties to his apron, wrenching the fabric away from his body as he threw the article of clothing onto the counter.

"I QUIT!" He yelled, grabbing his hair and tugging angrily at it, working his way around the counter to stomp out of the door. Axel watched with amusement, smirking as usual. Zack was in the middle of drinking his coffee, the straw dangling uselessly in his mouth as he watched with an open mouth.

"Here we go again." Larxene ho-hummed and turned another page.

"I'm through with working here! I can't take it anymore!" Roxas stomped past her, cheeks lightly stained red with anger as he made his way to the door and kicked it open, sending the poor, defenseless object flying in his royally pissed off wake.

"Don't let the door hit you on the way out, squirt." Larxene called back, absentmindedly pulling her mascara off of her eyelash with her index finger and thumb.

A dead silence descended on the coffee shop in the aftermath of Roxas's rage, disrupted by the sound of a coffee cup dropping to the floor and spilling, Zack not making any motion to catch it. Alas, the poor guy was frozen in shock, eyes wide and on the door that Roxas just abused. Aerith quietly moved around Axel and fixed a sentence he'd just messed up, his grin widening as Zack turned to face him, closing his mouth as Axel tapped his jaw.

"You're catching flies." He joked, winking. Zack dumbly looked down where his coffee was leaking over the linoleum floor, and his mouth moved, forming silent words but no noise coming out.

"Is someone going to clean that up?" Larxene asked, looking up from her magazine to see the coffee spreading everywhere.

"Isn't that a job for the people who work here?" Zack asked incredulously.

"Yeah… no. The service here sucks." Larxene raised an eyebrow and pulled the magazine back up, popping her gum loudly. Axel grinned.

"Isn't this place great?!" He asked brightly. Aerith smiled to herself and nodded, looking back to where Roxas could be seen through the window, stomping down the street, presumably towards his home, A.K.A "The Burrow," named after the Weasley family home in one of Luxord's favorite books.

"That's the uke-child you want all for yourself?" Zack asked in disbelief.

"Yeah, isn't he great? He's so... intense. I love it." Axel grinned a little wider and pretended not to notice the way that Zack was staring at him.

"He's insane. Did you not see that?!" Zack gestured towards the door and the still spilled coffee.

"Oh, that? He does that all the time. He comes back the next day though, always." Axel shrugged, unaffected with the seemingly strange and slightly scary encounter.

Besides, it was the crazy ones that were great in bed. Or so Axel had heard.

Leon paced the confines of his bedroom, hands clasped behind his back. To any passerby, it looked as if he were deeply troubled by something, his brow furrowed and his bottom lip captured by his teeth. A caring person would stop and ask what the matter was, and would suggest he talk about it. If they were really, really nice, they'd fold him up in their arms and kiss him softly, telling him it was alright. If they were truly close to him, they'd help him make cookies and they'd watch old black and white romance flicks late into the night.

Leon had no such person.

"All my fault though." He muttered to himself, running his hands through his hair. "If I hadn't been such a dip-shit, we'd still be together." Letting out a painful groan, he fell onto his bed and grabbed his cellphone, dialing the only number he had on speed-dial.

"Come on, come on…" He begged softly as the dial tone rang, buzzing annoyingly in his ear. He was so close… so close…

"Cloud here." His voice, so calm and soothing made Leon's heart jump erratically in his chest.

"Hey, Cloud, don't hang up, please, it's Leon and-"

"I'm busy and unable to come to my phone, so if you'd please leave a message…"

"Dammit!" Leon tossed the phone angrily to the floor, burying his face in his hands as he stared up at the number and the picture of them on the screen, Cloud kissing him on the cheek as he scowled at the camera.

"… or your name and number, I'll get back to you…"

"Why can't I fix this?" Leon moaned into his hands. It was his fault, really. Maybe if he'd been a bit more caring, a little less emotionless in public… maybe Cloud wouldn't feel the need to have a more touchy feely boy-toy like Sephiroth? Hell, they held hands on their first date. Leon felt comfortable with his arm around Cloud's when the movie started and the lights were out so that no one would see him being gay. When the lights were on, he was back to his original position, hands in the popcorn bag.

"Or if you'd like to get a hold of me, I can be reached either at the burrow or The Strife Coffee House…"

How was Leon supposed to know that Cloud liked a publicly supportive boyfriend? It wasn't like he broadcasted to the world that he was a romantic that liked those things. Leon's coming out hadn't been all roses and party favors like Cloud's had been. No, it just made him the black sheep of the family until Zexion piped up a few months later, proclaiming that he didn't mind girls or boys, as long as they were quiet.

His parents said, "At least Leon has made up his mind to go against God. Zexion just wants to toy around with doing what's right and doing what's wrong." And then Leon was back in their good graces, their arms stretched as far as they could so that they could hug him at a distance. God, he just wanted Cloud's arms around him. One more time. At least. There, he admitted it; he missed him. Terribly.

"Unless this is Leon calling, then I'd really rather you not try to reach me. At all."

Leon stared at the screen as the phone gave a forlorn beep, but he clicked it shut before he could leave a message, eyes shut like he was almost in physical pain as he fell back onto his bed and pretended that he wasn't about to cry. He couldn't cry. Tough guys didn't cry, they held it all in. He was put together, self assured. He was strong, he didn't cry. Besides he was fine. Perfectly fine. Everything under control.

Which was why he was wiping tears away from his cheeks.

Five Reasons Why I'm a Terrible Person:

A list by Leon Heart

1. I hurt the one man I've ever truly loved, and I can't get him back.

2. I have to watch Sephiroth make his move and I'm too lost to do the smart thing and let Cloud just be happy without me, the way he wants it to be.

3. I made out with Marluxia in front of Cloud to make him jealous.

4. I'm happy that Cloud is hurt because it means he cares about me, at least in some tiny, insignificant way. At least a little bit. Almost the way I care about him. But not quite because I love him, and he can't love me anymore.

5. And the worst part is? I'm bad at list making.

Had to end it on a sad note :( Sorry. Leon and Cloud have to be angsty and sad though, just for a little bit...

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