5. Friends
I was walking back and forth in front of Troy's door when I finally found the courage to knock. His mom opened and gave me a smile. "Hey Gabriella."
"Hi Mrs. Bolton is Troy home?"
"How many times have I told you to call me Lucille? And yes he is home. He is in his room."
"Thanks Lucille." I said and gave her a smile, before walking up to his room. I knocked.
"Go away!"
I slowly opned the door.
"I thought I told you to go away."
"Troy listen.." I said and he jumped. Apparently he had thought it was his mom.
He looked me straight in the eyes. He was pissed I could tell. "Do you love him?"
"Yes but.."
"Just go away Brie."
"Not until you here what I have to say. Yes I love him, but as a friend."
"Brie I don't want to hear it."
I was getting annoyed. "I hate to break it to you, but you are really acting like a girl right now."
"So what! I don't want to see you." He snapped.
His words hurt, which made my eyes wet. "Sam is like a brother to me. We grew up together. We are best friends. Nothing more!"
"But Jake said.."
"What did he say?"
"That he hadn't seen Sam since…"
"Since what?"
"I don't know, but I assume it was since you two had been dating."
"We never dated! God Troy, please don't make this something that it isn't. What Jake meant was that they hadn't seen each other since we moved here. I love Sam yes. But as a friend, well even like a brother. But nothing more. It's not like that between us. I love you. But if you can't accept Sam being in my life, then I'm sorry we can't be together." I went for the door, but Troy stopped me. He looked in to my eyes and it was almost like I was afraid of what he was going to do. He just kept starring and then he said. "You love me?"
I nodded. Tears were falling from my eyes. "I don't want us to fight, I really don't but I just need you to accept Sam…" I was cut off by his lips.
"I love you too." he said after he had pulled back. "And I'm sorry. I shouldn't have acted that way."
"You're right you shouldn't have." I said playing offended.
"Hey what was I suppoed to believe. You two looked pretty in love and you…"
Now it was my turn to cut him off with my lips. "Just shut up already. Apology accepted."
He smiled and lifted me. He leaned in and things turned in to a big make out sescion.
"So you and Sam are best friends?" He suddenly asked.
i nodded. "Yes we know everything about each other." I said apparently I didn't realise how wrong that came out until Troy spoke.
"And we don't?" He asked, giving me a confused look.
I shook my head. "Where is this coming from? Of course we do. Don't we?" I asked faking a smile. I didn't think I sounded convincing.
"You tell me!" He said and pulled back. "Cause it seems like you're hiding something. You like Sam don't you? As more than a friend."
"Troy we've alredy gone through this. No I don't like Sam, this has nothing to do with him."
"Then what it is? Cause it sure is something."
Damn it. I thought to myself. I couldn't tell him what had happened to Sam, and that I had even had another brother, and I couldn't tell him about Ophie either. I had promised Jake. It wasn't my place to tell him. but what did I do now? Cause Troy sure wouldn't just leave me alone now. "Well me and Sam was each others first kiss."
"I knew it." He said and let go of me.
"But Troy I love you. I love you."
"And you love him too."
"I know." I knew what I had to do to get him think of something else. I walked over to him and pushed him down on his bed. "But I want you."
"I don't believe you."
"Would I do this to him?" I said and kissed his ear. "Or this?" I asked kissing his neck. "Or what about this?" I asked and kissed him on the mouth letting my tongue in to his.
"Well I hope not." Troy told me and I laughed. "I wouldn't." I told him and leaned in again. Yes I thought to myself mission accomplished.
That night when I got home. I was met by two blue eyes. "So how did it turn out?"
"Good we made up."
"I'm glad. You deserve to be happy. Are you happy?" He asked giving me a concerned look.
"I thought for a moment. "I guess."
He shook his head and walked over to me. "No you're not. You know you can't lie to me. I know you too well." He told me and smiled at him.
"I don't know how to be happy. Not without Sam."
"Does Troy know?"
I shook my head.
"You should tell him Bella."
"I can't. He will never look at me the same."
"Yes he will. You jsut gotta trust him."
"I can't. He won't. he won't" I said again in almost a whisper.
"He will. Just tell him."
"I can't."
"Yes you can."
I got mad and sad at the same time feeling helpless. "I KILLED SAM." I shrieked. "It was all my fault." I said bursting out in tears.
He walked over and wrapped his arms around me, as I cried in to his chest. "Only the truth can set you free. You won't be able to move on, until you face your past." I cried harder, I knew he was right. But it wasn't just that easy.
"I've missed you Sam."
"I've missed you too Bella." He told me and looked in to my eyes. "Now don't let any more of your tears fall."
"How did you turn out to be this nobel man?"
"I learned from the best." he said and winked his right eye.
"Please tell me you are going to stay here for good. I don't think I can lose you again. Not this time. I need you." I told him and sobbed.
"You don't need me. But if you think me being here will help then I guess I could stay for a while."
"Thank you." I kissed his cheek. "I really do need you to move on, I just don't know how to do it without your help."