9. Dreaming

"Brie.." He walked closer to me.

"What Troy? You forgive Jake but can't find it in your heart to forgive me! Why? Am I really that much worse than him?"

"No." He took my hand. More tears fell from my eyes. "It's because I love you. And getting hurt by someone you love hurts a whole lot more."

"But you love Jake too!"

"Maybe so. But not as I love you. You are the only one who can make me feel like this. You make get me act crazy. I can't control my emotions when I'm with you. It's not like that with Jake. I have completely different feelings for you than I have for him."

I shake my head. He should still have forgiven me. "Again I'm sorry for not changing you as the person to call in case of emergency. She shouldn't have called you. She should have called my mom."

"It's okay Gabby."

"No it's not. You cut me out of your life, and I shouldn't just walk right back in to it. Especially not like this."

"Don't leave." He told me.

"Why?" I asked him.

"Because it's the middle of the night and you can't drive atm. and it's too far to walk."

"Fine!" I told him and went back to his bed and laid down. I felt him laying down beside me and I got to my right side so he couldn't see me crying.

"Don't cry Brie." He told me.

"Stop telling me what to do. You have no right to do that. Especially not now."

He didn't say another word but he laid an arm around me. I couldn't stop thinking that I should pull it away, but a part of me want him to do it. The other part though was furious at him. He still hadn't apologized or forgiven me, which was tearing me more apart. Am I really the only one that has to make the first move?

I turned around and looked in to his eyes and he removed his arm. "Stop it. Don't give me orders and don't touch me. You are not my boyfriend anymore remember. So you don't get to do those things anymore."

"But I'm worried for you."

"Really? Then maybe you shouldn't have broken up with me. Because that made me a bigger mess than I already was. I needed you and you cut me out because of it."

"You know why I did it. You promised me no more lies."

"And I'm sorry for that. See it's not that hard to apology. But I did this for Jake! I had promised him. And I made that promise long before I made my promise to you."

"A promise is a promise Gabby, and then you should never have made a promise to me. You broke that promise."

I shake my head.

"What?"

"I really thought you would forgive me after everything and maybe even apology for leaving like you did. But here we are fighting once again. You know what Troy I'm tired of it. If you can't tell me the words I want to hear, then please say nothing at all." And so he said no more and I fell asleep.

I opened my eyes and looked around. This wasn't Troy's room. This was my old room. From the place we used to live. I confusedly stood up and walked downstairs in only a big t-shirt that went down to my thighs. I found Sam in the kitchen and gave him a weird look.

"Hey you. You look confused."

"I am. You… Where's Ophie?" I then asked.

"Ophie?" He laughed. "Who's that?"

Jake then walked in.

"Where's Elena?" I asked him and he shook his head. "What are you talking about Brie, who's Elena?"

Then it got to me this was my old life and there wasn't any Troy, or Ophie or Elena. Everything was a dream. I hugged Sam.

"Brie what's going on why are you acting this way?"

"You died in my dream Sam and it seemed so real. It really did. And Jake you were a father and I'm just glad you're still here Sam."

"I'm not going anywhere sis. I promise."

"What's happening?" mom asked, coming in to the kitchen.

"Brie just had a weird dream." Sam said. "Apparently I died."

"Don't say such thing." Mom told him.

I'm still really confused. Everything seemed so real. Troy, Elena, Ophie. Were they all just my imagination?

Later that day Sam, Jake and I decided to go out to watch a movie. We were goofing around and laughing the whole night. Lena had wanted to go, but were at a friends house tonight. We were almost home and then it happened. I remember metting Lena's eyes who are at the corner of the street and then the next thing I know I'm covered in sweat and screaming for Sam. I woke because Troy said my name.

"Gabriella."

I quickly got up and looked confused around. It wasn't a dream. Sam was dead, Troy and I had broken up and Jake really was a father. I had tears falling from my cheeks. It felt like I was loosing Sam all over again. I finally had him and now he was gone once again. Troy had his eyes frozen on my right arm. I looked at it as well and I saw blood running. Apparently I had hit myself on Troy's nightstand with out even noticing and it had made one of my old scars cut open."I gotta go Troy. This isn't right." I placed my hand on the open cut and ran downstairs not caring what time it was. I could hear footsteps following but I didn't turn back to look at him. I just wanted everything to go away. The pain, the hurt the broken heart. It hurt too much. I felt the blood between my fingers and then foolish as I was I looked at it. I've never been good with blood and the next thing I know everything turned dark.