Pain, Love & Ohana

Ch 4 - "Danny"

a/n: now, I don't know how on the mark I am with this, but I think Steve would be more comfortable around psychiatrists than Danny 'cause can you image how many psyche tests they have to take in the military...esp, to get in and stay in all these specialized units...and while Steve is not a 'caring & sharing' personality type, he is a "take the bull by the horns and face/fix the problem...or at least share enough to satisfy the doc so he could get back to his unit /whereas/ ol' Danny wouldn't trust anyone poking around in his head...and would probably be uncomfortable after, I image, having gone through 911 and the aftermath/mandatory counseling.

…..Hawaii 5-0...

Surprisingly it was less than a week later that Chin found himself back in Dr. Palmer's office...this time with Danny, who was decidedly more uncomfortable than Steve had been in the presence of the psychiatrist.

"I'm sure you have seen departmental psychiatrists before in your time with the police department, Detective Williams..." Dr. Palmer commented.

"Yeah, been in the shrink's office a few times in Jersey..." Danny commented as he squirmed slightly in his seat, his eyes darting around the room.

Chin couldn't help but smile, "She's harmless Danny..."

Danny just snorted and shook his head.

"Steve survived...I'm sure you will too," Chin teased gently, giving a quick look towards the doctor.

"Survived...I'm sure Super-SEAL swooped in like it was some kind of tactical raid...tossed a few grenades and called it a day..." Danny snarked.

Chin just rolled his eyes and snorted at Danny's mini-rant while the doctor shot her patient a quick, raised eye-brow look, commenting carefully to the detective, "Commander McGarrett was very cooperative and understanding during our session."

"Uh, doc, don't even try to understand the dynamic of the Danno-McGarrett partnership-we just accept that it works and move on..." Chin commented with a slight chuckle, "and since they haven't killed each other yet..."

"Not for lack of trying on that crazy SEALS part...man got me shot the first day I knew him and he's been trying to get me killed ever since..." Danny continued to rant.

"Maybe I don't have the right pair in this office..." the doctor commented hesitantly.

"No, doc, I understand McGarrett just fine-the man's a lunatic..." Danny said with a wave of his hands.

"Okay then...can we get back to why we're here today..." Dr. Palmer asked.

Danny straightened up in his seat and cleared his throat, suddenly reticent, "yeah...sure..."

When neither man made a move to speak, Dr. Palmer prodded, "So...anything anyone wants to say...maybe, why any of us feel like we need to be here...?"

Never one to mince his words or turn down the invitation to extoll his opinions, Danny fixed his gaze on his co-worker, "yeah, like why someone who claims we're a team...this 'ohana'... doesn't seem to trust us..."

With a sigh, Chin said quietly, "Danny, I do trust you..."

"Yeah, you got a hell of a way of showing it..." Danny snapped back, suddenly angry, he jumped from his seat and began pacing the room, "we didn't know...you almost died, Chin, and we didn't know! That text Delano sent—we bought it...we believed you when you said you were fine all these months...accepted the Chin Ho Kelley school of 'fine': which ranks right up there, apparently, with the Steven McGarrett one...and you damn near died..."

Danny's rant had reached a pinnacle and the detective had to take a deep breath to calm down.

Seeing his friend's anger for what it was...fear; Chin lowered his head in shame, knowing he put his friends through hell that day as they tried to piece together his disappearance and later his rescue from Halawa.

Seeing Chin's head lower, Danny's anger deflated and he sighed heavily, his voice cracking with emotion as he continued more calmly, "Chin. Buddy...you scared the hell out of us. When we found out what Delano had done...we didn't know if you were dead...wouldn't have known there was even a problem if it hadn't been for the doc here...even Kono didn't suspect anything..."

"I'm sorry Danny, I really am," Chin said earnestly, "I just...I was my problem...I just thought..."

"Thought what, that we wouldn't care..." Danny asked, then added, "...that because you needed more time to grieve we somehow would see you as weak...I have to ask you buddy...do you really see me as weak?"

Chin looked at Danny, uncertainty clear in his expression, "Weak? Why would you ask that Danny...I don't see you as weak...surely your not comparing yourself to what Steve is capable...he makes us all look like girl scouts..."

Danny snorted an shook his head, "Doesn't have anything to do with our resident crazy SEAL...I'm talking about me...I'm not Mr. Reticent...I've been know to be upset...scared out of my mind a time or two...and not particularly afraid to let anyone know it..."

Chin nodded, "you've been going through so much yourself the last few months...with the custody hearings and all...and I just didn't think you needed anything more to add to it..."

"And my friends have been with me all way..." Danny countered, "you think because of my custody issues or Steve's issues with his mom or anything else that might he going on, that it somehow makes your issues—your grief, any less important...you're wrong! Chin, you're always there for anyone when they need it...didn't you learn anything from all that drama last year with your uncle and the money...you can't keep puttin' everyone else's needs before your own. It's not healthy...right doc...?" Danny asked, turning towards Dr. Palmer.

"Very true...there has to be a balance..." the woman replied.

"...and no matter what is going on with anyone on the team, you can always come to us...with anything..." Danny said earnestly.

Chin nodded slowly, heartened by the words and silently amused at how Danny's words so nearly echoed the sentiments spoken by Steve less than a week prior. Sending a look towards the doctor, he noted from her equally amused expression that she was perhaps thinking along similar lines.

Clasping Danny's shoulder, Chin said, "I'm sorry Danny, I really am...I never intended to cause anyone to worry...put anyone through that..."

Patting the hand resting on his shoulder, Danny gave a smirk, "family never does...but we put up with them anyway...bad habits and all..." Danny then gave a heavy sigh and added with a much put upon tone, "...which I'm sure you'll run right out and change about as quick as our crazy leader will..."

Grinning, Chin removed his hand from Danny's shoulder only to give a slap to the back, as he looked over towards the doctor, "...yeah, probably about as quickly as Jersey here drops all of his..."

"What...wait...what bad habits..." Danny sputtered, "I don't have any bad habits..."

"Sure, brah...whatever you say," Chin said, giving Danny another back slap as he gave the doctor a quick wink, "how 'bout some malsada's...my treat..."

…..HAWAII 5-0...

a/n: not quite as 'emotional as the chin/steve chapter...but they had different issues...& I can't remember the name/spelling of that desert they are always going on about...how do you spell it ?