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Shock Value,

Chapter 2 – Confrontation

Tori's POV

By Popular demand I continued the story. This one is a bit more serious and sad but it furthers the story.

There are 3 actresses that I think are staggeringly beautiful. So beautiful it almost hurts. The first is Ingrid Bergman. The end scene in Casablanca always reduces me to tears. She's so beautiful in that scene. She knows she'll probably never see him again, that look on her face. It's haunting. It tears my heart in half every time.

The second on my list is Grace Kelly. From To Catch a Thief to High Noon, she was beautiful and brilliant. There is a scene near the beginning of Rear Window which is one of my all time favorites. Jimmy Stewart is napping and Grace Kelly goes to kiss him. For a moment you see from his perspective as Grace Kelly slowly leans in for the Kiss. Like for a moment she's going to kiss you. That one pounds my heart every time. That kiss is considered one of the sexist film kisses of all time.

The third, not as well known yet, is Jade West. A student at Hollywood Art's High and current classmate of mine. In my humble opinion, no less beautiful or talented than the two mentioned above. I have been in love with her since the first moment I saw her. Her green eyes pierce my soul every time she so much as glances at me. In fact when she looks at me is the only time I truly feel alive. The rest of the time, I'm only a shadow. I've seen every thing she's put on, read everything she's written. She's beautiful, talented, sexy, forceful. She's Jade. Sadly she not only hates me, she's in love with Beck.

But today, for one brief instant, one sliver of time. She was mine. When our lips touched I felt like I was going to explode with Joy. Her lips felt like the heat of a thousand suns. Put simply, it was fucking amazing. Completely worth the horrible, I will soon face.

I did flee the classroom as Sikowtiz suggested. Of course part of me wanted to stay. That part of me, always wants to stay by Jade. But my more logical side took over. Knowing how unpredictable Jade can be when upset, and she's very upset, I fled. She just had to taunt me, daring me to shock her. I figured I had nothing to lose.

Well I shocked her. I not only kissed her in front of the class, I confessed my love to her and came out as a lesbian. Any one of those would have been sufficient to shock the class, but I went for the trifecta.

Shortly after leaving class, I heard a loud bone chilling scream coming from behind me. My heart sank, when I heard that. The last thing you want to hear when you confess love for someone is them to scream in terror. Sadly, my heart is used to disappointment when it comes to Jade. I've built a wall around my heart when it comes to Jade, though she has no problem getting past it.

I knew there would eventually be a confrontation; there was nothing I could do to avoid it. So I resigned myself to my fate and went on to my next class. Which was Math. It was one Jade was not in.

I had sat down and was lost in thought, thinking about Jade of course, when Andre sat next to me.

He looked at me and smiled. I just blushed and said HI.

"No foolin?" He asked.

"No foolin, Andre."

He patted me on the back. "I admire your courage."

I laughed. "I'm sure they'll put that on my tombstone. She had courage."

Andre turned serious, "I could talk to her, calm her down. She was pretty mad."

I shook my head. "Thanks Andre. But I'll deal with Jade when the time comes."

I should have been terrified, but I was oddly calm. Resigned to my fate, like a prisoner awaiting execution. I said what I wanted to say and stole a kiss. Thinking about it, I regret nothing.

In the hallway after class, I saw Beck across the hall. I suddenly felt bad, for him at least. He's a great guy and a good friend. I embarrassed him, there is no way getting around it. We looked at each other for a moment. It was very awkward moment. He looked morose and a little embarrassed. I tried to give him a sympathetic look, but he sadly turned and walked away. Even if he hadn't I would have no Idea what to say. Other than I'm sorry.

A few seconds later when I was by my locker I suddenly heard echoing down the hallway.

"Click, click, click, click" The fast paced walk of someone wearing boots. I could tell by the walk the wearer was angry.

The angry clicking sound came ever closer. I briefly looked to the door and the parking lot beyond. But I stayed put, waiting for my executioner. One that I was hopelessly in love with.

A few seconds later I heard the noise come up behind me and suddenly stop. I was still standing at my open locker. Just knowing Jade was behind me, my heart started to pound. Betraying my calm, cool exterior.

Suddenly a hand shot out and closed my locker. Jade grabbed my wrist and dragged me towards the Janitors closet. She was ahead of me and I couldn't see her face. We opened the door to a more noxious smell than normal, in the Janitors closet. Inside was the Janitor, mixing up some cleaning solutions.

"Would you mind. I actually have some work to do here." He said only giving us half a look.

I heard Jade grunt as she wordlessly took me down the hall and pushed me in the first room we came across.

The guys bathroom.

Inside was a freshman, with brown hair just about to pee

"OUT!" Jade barked

"But I have to pee." He meekly protested.

Jade just gave him a withering glare, causing him to flee the bathroom.

It was a second later Jade turned her attention to me. Turning to me I could see her face for the first time since I kissed it.

Her eyes were burning fires of hatred, her mouth and face tensed up. I doubt I had ever seen her, this angry. I was quickly shoved against a wall.

My calm exterior quickly melted away, as I began to tremble.

"WHAT IN THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU VEGA!" she screamed at me.

I opened my mouth, but she cut me off.

Her voice lowered slightly, but she was still furious. "Have a good laugh Vega? You think its so fucking funny humiliating me and Beck in front of everyone? Why, to get back at me for the coffee over your head or some other incident."

I suddenly realized what she meant.

A look of surprise came to my face.

"Jade, you think I'm kidding, that this is some kind of Joke?" Regardless of anything, my feelings were real.

She backed away and angrily, pacing back and forth. Finally she pulled out her scissors. "No Vega, you're the fucking Joke.

She stopped and backed me against the wall again. Though still somewhat scared, I was incensed that Jade thought this was some prank.

I huffed. "God Jade, you're so cynical and Jaded that you can't even believe it when someone confesses their love to you." As I continued to speak my voice started to rise. As I hit some untapped reserve of courage.

"Regardless how I said it Jade, I meant every dam word I said. Don't get me wrong, I may be a hopeless romantic but I'm enough of a realest to know that it wouldn't change a thing. But here it is Jade West, in Black and white. I for reasons I'll never fathom have fallen in love with you. I only feel alive when you're around me. My heart beats faster, the closer you get. All I ever want it to be near you."

I paused for a moment to gauge her reaction. The look of fury on her face hadn't dissipated. It just seemed to be frozen in place.

I looked onto her eyes, and sighed. "My heart is yours Jade. I can't help it. It has been since the second I met you and will be so until the day I die. You..You'll eventually forget me. Remembering me as that annoying girl, whose name I can't remember. I won't ever forget you Jade. I can't."

Jade seemed to sneer. "You're heart."

"Yes Jade, you own my heart, It's yours to have, abandon or." Seizing on a thought, I grabbed the scissors in her hand and moved them up so she was pointing them straight at my heart. I even move them in so they were pushing in, about to break the skin.

"Destroy. You're furious at me, you don't want my heart. Than destroy it. Destroy me."

I had started to get emotional and it was then I noticed the tears starting to fall from my eyes.

"Stab me in the heart Jade. Do it. You hate me anyway. Every time I see you with him, it feels just like it. Like I'm being stabbed in the heart. You're heart belongs to him, mine belongs to you. I hate this existence. I can't help who I love and I love you. Not that you ever would or could love me in the same way."

For an instant her eyes changed. Just the briefest of instants. They seemed to soften. Perhaps it was just pity, I don't know but it passed.

It passed because the door opened and as luck would have it, or bad luck. Beck walked in.

He stood there in the doorway. Jade had me backed against the wall. Both of our hands on the scissors which was poked into my chest right above my heart. If I were him I wouldn't know what to think.

For the second time today, there was a moment of stunned silence.

Then he just turned and walked back out, not saying a word. There was rather hurt look on his face. I wasn't sure what he thought.

Jade seemed to fume. "I didn't ask for it and I don't want your fucking heart. I fucking hate you" She bellowed.

"Dam you" She cursed before slapping me in the face. An instant later she stormed out, presumably to go after Beck.

It was the slap that finally broke me. My courage and reserves of strength vanished. I got exactly what I expected from telling Jade. Nothing but contempt and hatred. I couldn't help but think.

"What good is a heart, if you can't give it to someone who loves you?"

I just sank to my knees and began to cry.

I'll have the next chapter out as soon as I can. My weekend is rather busy so I can't make any promises. There will be another chapter. I'll never leave a story unfinished.

Last chapter was lots of humor, this one is more drama and heartache.

Thanks for all the nice reviews.