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Shock Value

Chapter 3 – Conversations.

No One's POV

After several minutes of sobbing in the guys bathroom Tori somewhat composed herself and left. Walking down the hallway she felt on the left side of her face where Jade had slapped her. Of all the things done and said by Jade, the slap hurt Tori the most. She went to her locker, collected her things and left the school. She texted Trina that she was feeling ill and would take the bus home.

As she sat in the rear of the bus, her head hung low, she pondered the wisdom of her decision. She knew it wouldn't change anything. In fact she knew it might make things worse. At the end of the bus ride she couldn't decide whether she had made the correct decision.

"What good is a heart?" Tori muttered to herself as she exited the bus.

Tori arrived home right about the time lunch at Hollywood Arts would have started. Not that she was hungry anyway. She felt depressed, rejected and to point, emotionally drained. Upon getting home, she told her mother she felt sick and went to bed.

The curtains Tori had drawn eliminated most of the afternoon light, which normally was allowed to invade her room. She just wanted cut everything off. Sitting on the edge of her bed, Tori felt the tears come again.

"Why do I have to be in love with you" She said aloud in a rather depressed tone of Voice.

Her phone buzzed as she sat there. Glancing at her phone she saw it was a call from Cat. Tori figured it was Cat, inquiring where she was and perhaps some words of encouragement.

Cat always meant well but Tori just didn't want to deal. She turned her phone off, put it on the charger and crawled into bed. She lay there waiting for sleep to come, ignoring the small wet spots her tears left on the pillow. Sleep finally came but it was restless and fitful.

She woke 3 hours later feeling no more rested than when she went to sleep. Tori, already in a crying mood decided to take refuge in an old movie. Her favorite movie in fact, Casablanca. So she put the dvd in, sat on her bed and concerned herself with the problems of Rick and Ilsa.

Around 5:30 Trina opened the door and walked in.

"Don't you ever knock?" Tori said annoyed.

"I hear you dropped the bomb today, 3 of them in fact." Said Trina, with some amusement as she plopped down next to Tori on the bed.

Tori nodded but didn't look away from her movie.

Trina put a hand on Tori's shoulder "I can't imagine it was easy sis, I don't say this often but I'm proud of you."

Tori shrugged. "I suppose you want my shoes, once Jade kills me. She yelled at me and told me that she fucking hated me. "

"Only the blue pumps, the rest of them are too ugly." Trina said with a smirk.

Tori simply frowned and paused her movie.

Trina punched Tori in the shoulder. Causing the younger Vega to say "OWW"

Trina got off the bed and stood up, putting her hands on her hips. "Stop moping around. I'm guessing you had it out with Jade and now you're all "Jade doesn't love me" my life is over."

Tori breathed loudly out of her nose and looked at her older sister.

"No wonder she won't even consider dating you, You're too dam pathetic. Sitting around here won't get you laid by Jade or anyone else for that matter. You know what, life sucks. We all have people we fall for who don't love us. Justin Timberlake never answered any of my letters, so I moved on. Justin was left to settle for Jessica Biel."

"That's not quite the same.." Tori started to speak.

"No difference Tori. Jade or Justin Timberlake, we fell for both and neither loved us back."

"I knew nothing was going to change. It just depresses me to know I'm right."

Trina seemed to think for a moment. "Well you must have done something. Jade and Beck sat at a table far away from everyone else. They argued through the entire lunch hour. "

Tori's attention finally was perked. "Not the first time tha'ts happened. About what?"

Trina threw her hands up in the air. "How in the hell do I know? I don't like Jade and Beck avoids me. I think he thinks I'm too much woman for him."

Tori couldn't help but laugh at her sisters sometimes large ego.

"What eventually happened?"

Trina paced back and forth to remember. "Jade spent a lot of time yelling at Beck. It looked like she was taking out her frustrations on him. Eventually he stormed off, leaving Jade alone. She spent most of the rest of the afternoon muttering to herself in the hallways between classes."

Tori sighed. "I never should have done this in class like that. I dragged Beck into it and embarrassed him. I need to apologize to him. I didn't set out to break them up."

Trina laughed. "Of course you set to break them up. Otherwise you never would have kissed her in front of him. Stop fooling yourself. You knew that would cause problems between them. That's the oldest dam trick in the book. "

"Maybe I did." Tori said sullenly.

"Look Tori, I have no clue if you have a shot in hell with Jade or not. But sitting moping around here watching ancient movies isn't going to help you. Ok, you said how you feel and you got burned."

"Slapped actually." Said Tori, correcting her.

"Ok..Slapped. Just get back up and keep going. Being the 2nd prettiest Vega girl you still have a chance. Besides, if you show some attention to someone else. Maybe Jade will get jealous. She pretends she doesn't like attention. Don't let that fool you. She craves it. I see through her little act and so should you. If you feel bad about burning Beck than apologize to him and give him my number. "

"OK" Tori said unenthusiastically.

"NO, Tori. You're a Vega don't forget that. Stop being a boob and get yourself some boob or I mean boobs and other lady parts attached. You know what I mean."

Tori started to laugh. "You are something else. Thanks Trina."

Trina flipped her hair back in an exaggerated fashion. "Dam right I am. Now stop being a pathetic loser, you're making me look bad."

Trina walked to the door and paused. "Jade's a fool" Then she left.

Though still somewhat depressed, Tori knew Trina was right. "I love Jade but I can't let the fact that she doesn't love me, destroy me. "

Tori finished watching her movie and decided to go out. She knew she needed to do some damage control.

She came downstairs to where her mom and sister were watching Celebrities under water.

"Are you feeling better Tori?" Said Her mom.

"Yes, I'm feeling better. " Tori said.

"Trina said you told that Jade girl you liked her. I guessed that is why you came home."

"Yeah I did and I embarrassed a friend in the process. I need to apologize to him." Tori noted, her voice dropping off.

"Probably a good idea. What did Jade say?"

Tori paused for a moment, a sober look on her face. "That she fucking hated me." She said, not letting any emotion into her voice.

"I'm sorry. You will find someone. You're father, sister and I support you."

Tori smiled. "Thanks. Hey Trina can you give me a ride to Becks."

Trina sprung off the couch. "OK"

A look of surprise registered on Tori's face. "I didn't expect you to be so accommodating."

Trina grabbed her purse and keys. "It's Beck, I can be very accommodating." But she suddenly had a thought. "What about Jade? She could be there."

Tori bit her lip and thought for a moment. "Oooh. I have an idea."

Pulling out her phone she called Cat.

After one ring the bubbly headed red haired girl answered.

"OH Hi Tori. We missed you. Robbie put a balloon with a face on Rex's body, since Jade smashed it. The balloon keeps looking at me, it's kind of creepy." Cat said quickly.

"Hey Cat, I really need to apologize to Beck. But I want to do with Jade not there. Can you find out where she is? I need to know if Beck is alone."

"I got you. I'll call her and find out." Cat said then hung up.

About 2 minutes later Cat called back.

"Jade said she was at home studying and told me to fuck off. Do you really love Jade?"

"Not that it matters Cat, but yes." Tori said with a hint of sadness.

"I'm Sorry Tori. I'll bet you could make her less grumpy."

"Thanks Cat. I'll you later."

20 minutes later Tori and Trina were at Beck's trailer.

"I need to talk to him alone." Tori said before exiting the car.

"I can't see him." Trina whined.

"No. Not right away. You can knock on the door in a bit to remind me that you're waiting."

"Fine Tori. You have 20 minutes."

Tori got out of the car and knocked on the door. She found herself to be very nervous. Even more so when she kissed Jade. She wanted to try and make things right.

A moment later Beck opened the door. His mood seemed rather subdued; his face seemed to show little emotion. The only one showing was a trace of sadness. After a moment of awkward silence, Tori spoke.

"Can we talk?"

He nodded and moved to the side, from the door. At that moment Trina beeped her horn and waived.

"HI Beck."

Tori briefly flushed with embarrassment. "Sorry. She was my only ride."

"No worries." Beck said as he sat down on the edge of his bed.

Tori sat in an old brown chair. "Look Beck. I've come here to apologize. I don't regret what I said to Jade or kissing her. But I do regret embarrassing you and bringing you into it, in front of everyone. You have every right to hate me. Lord knows Jade does. I just wanted to say I was sorry. "

Beck remained silent, as if he was thinking. After a moment Tori got up. "I'll leave now."

As Tori got to the door she heard Beck say. "You're right."

Tori stopped and turned. "Right about what?" She said, confused.

"Her lips, they are soft and wonderful." He said with a look of sadness.

Tori nodded.

Beck glanced at picture of Jade on his wall. "I love her, Tori."

"I don't doubt it."

Beck ran his hand through his hair. "Yet you love her and you envy me."

"Should I not?" Said Tori, as she tried to read the expression on Becks face. It was unreadable.

"I'm not going to say I'm not upset or mad about this. I understand why you did it. But that doesn't mean I have to like it. I will fight for Jade you know."

"I never said you had to like it. It's all irrelevant anyway, nothing is going to change. I never expected it to."

Becks phone buzzed at this point. He picked it up and read the new text.

"Jade will be here in less than 10 minutes. It would be a good idea, for you not to be here. "

"OK" Tori said as she opened the door. "I am sorry for bringing you into this."

Beck slowly nodded. "I know you are." He said softly.

Tori left and walked to the car.

"Can't I go in and see Beck?" Trina asked.

"No, Jade's coming. We need to leave." Tori said as she got in the car.

Trina grumbled and started the car. "You owe me"

Tori smiled and hugged her sister. "Yes I do."

As they were driving away, Tori related the story of the conversation with Beck. When Tori mentioned the part where Beck said he'd fight for Jade, Trina jammed on the brakes. A moment later she pulled over to the curb.

"He said he would fight for Jade?" Trina asked with some amazement.

"Why did you stop? He did say that but so what."

"Don't you get it Tori? Hello McFly, anybody home" Trina said knocking on Tori's head.

"What?" Said an exasperated Tori.

"Beck shouldn't have to fight for Jade at all. They are supposed to be Boyfriend/Girlfriend and that's that. Beck saying he'll fight for her, implies that that's not quite the case anymore. They're having major problems and possibly not caused by you."

"My god you're right." Tori said with amazement.

Trina put the car in drive and pulled away from the curb.

"And they say I'm the stupid one." She muttered.

5 minutes after Tori left Jade walked into Beck's Trailer. He was lying on bed reading an old mystery novel.

"Come on Let's go. We're going to be late for the movies." Jade barked, looking still very pissed off from earlier events. "Get your shoes on."

As Beck began to put on his shoes, Jade asked. "So what you've been doing?"

"Nothing, other than reading this old book."

So with some helpful advice from Trina, Tori is working her way back up. It appears that Jade and Beck are having major problems of some sort.

Again, thanks for all the nice reviews.