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Shock Value

Chapter 15 – Heartbreak

No one's pov.

Jade quickly sat down, as her leg's seemed to turn to rubber.

"I'm fucking pregnant. God Dam, I'm fucking pregnant." She suddenly raged.

"FUCK!" Jade screamed as she pounded her fists on the desk in front of her. A second later Jade stood up and swept her arm across her desk, sending everything on it flying.

Jade simply couldn't believe it, for once in her life she really felt like things were looking up. She genuinely felt happy for once in her life; found someone that really cared about her and this happens. It was like someone had suddenly pulled the rug out from under her.

She stood there for a few seconds, glaring at the objects that once populated the top of her desk as they sat scattered and broken on the floor. Jade suddenly realized it very much reminded her of her life, or what it soon would be. Her future felt smashed and broken.

The first tear started to flow at this point; leaving a wet trail down her cheek. It was quickly followed by a stream of others. Jade just sank to the floor and began to sob. Jade was terrified. She suddenly had a very real fear of Tori dumping her.

Somewhere in her mind she could hear Tori's voice. "Jade, if you think I want to raise Beck's child you're wrong." It was a very real fear and a paralyzing one at that.

Jade felt like her life was coming apart. Then a second thought ripped through her fear paralyzed brain. The fact that having a pregnant girlfriend would hinder Tori's career. Jade did some rough math and figured she would be due right around the time of the Instant Star tour. If Tori went to the finals, and Jade was sure she would, she would go on that tour. Even if Tori didn't dump her cause she was pregnant, Jade knew that Tori wouldn't leave her side to go on tour.

Jade didn't consider getting rid of the baby. She didn't care what others did with their pregnancies, figuring it was their bodies and not hers. She had no intention of telling anyone else what they could or couldn't do with their body. But, Jade had a slightly different view point as far as her body goes. It was the fact that Jade knew she was adopted. Jade knew next to nothing about her real mother and nothing about her real father. She only knew that her real mother was too young to have the baby and may have had had substance abuse problems.

She figured that if she didn't want the baby, she'd give it up. Jade was sure her parents would help arrange an adoption if she asked them to. In the end she concluded, someone did her a favor and it would only be fair to do the same to another.

Jade needed to find out for sure. She quickly wiped the tears, even thought they kept coming. Then she threw some sweats on, grabbed her keys and ran out of the house. She drove to the drug store and picked up 2 home pregnancy detection kits. Just looking at the one of the boxes, showing a happy woman holding a baby made her stomach churn.

Jade took the tests to the counter to pay for them. The clerk was a middle aged woman with short blond hair. The clerk looked at tests and then at Jade's puffy tear covered face. After a moment she tried to give Jade a sympathetic smile.

"It's not the end of the world you know. It does get better." The clerk said as she rang them up.

"What would you know about it?" Jade snapped.

The clerk seemed unfazed by Jade's outburst. "I was 16 when I gave birth. That will be 21.45 please."

Jade said nothing. Even though the clerk had once gone through a similar experience, Jade very much felt alone. Jade just handed the clerk 25 dollars. After being handed her change, Jade left and went home.

Jade couldn't see anything getting better. As she took both tests, she quietly prayed. For 10 agonizing minutes she waited, hoping that this was just upset stomach.

Finally the waiting period ended and she looked at the tests.

They were both positive.

Jade dropped them to the floor, where they landed amongst the broken and scattering things that were once on her desk. For the second time today, she just sank to the floor and cried.

"It's all ruined" she sobbed.

"If he finds out, Beck will never leave me alone. I'll be stuck dealing with that fuck for years.. That abusive asshole doesn't deserve a child." Jade thought.

For the rest of the morning, Jade remained in her room. She ran a rollercoaster ride of emotions, running from severe depression, anger and sorrow. Just after 12 noon, Jade's phone rang. Her heart sank to see it was Tori. She reached for the phone, but her hand started to shake.

Jade had no idea what to say, if anything, so she let it go to voice mail. After a minute, her phone indicated a voice mail had been left. Jade sighed and played the voice mail.

The sound of Tori's voice was normally soothing to Jade. But this time, it was painful and hard to listen to the excited Latina speak.

"Jade, I made it. I'm going to the finals. I can't believe it. I have a real good chance at a great record deal. Myself and 12 others will perform in the finals in a few weeks. Either way I get to go out on tour with the other finalists. I'll be away for a little bit, but you can travel with me on the tour dates around here. You can be my personal assistant. Thank you ever so much for supporting me. Call me later."

Jade suddenly felt worse, a thousand times worse. A part of her was really afraid of being dumped by Tori as soon as she told her. Another part of her was afraid of dragging Tori down and hurting her career. Jade knew it was Tori's dream to be a pop star. It was what she had wanted to be ever since she was a little girl.

Jade didn't want to stand in the way of Tori's dream, the thing that she wanted most. At that moment Jade made a heartbreaking decision.

Doing some figuring Jade knew wouldn't show before the end of the semester in December, but would start to show in January. Jade's plan was to break up with Tori and change schools at the end of the semester. Nobody would ever know she was pregnant. She would give the baby up for adoption and try to put the pieces of her shattered life back together.

"Tori where I'm going you can't follow and where you're going I would only be a burden. You deserve to shine, but you won't if I'm around." Jade said, as her tears returned once again.

Jade didn't care about Beck or what he would think. That fucker would never know he had a child. After what he did to Tori, Jade didn't think he deserved it. She was afraid of his dark side and didn't want her child to ever see that.

Jade decided to break up with Tori the next day, at school. Just thinking about telling Tori she couldn't didn't want to see her, made Jade sick. They weren't even officially girlfriend and girlfriend but it tore Jade up inside.

Not sure if she could bear to hear Tori's voice, Jade sent a text.

To Tori: That is very good news, congratulations. Can't do anything today as I have a project to do and will be busy the rest of the day.

Tori responded a few minutes later. "I couldn't have done it without you. Good luck on your project. See you tomorrow at school."

Jade arrived the next day at school, with a feel of utter dread in her stomach. As she opened her locker she glanced over and saw Tori excitedly telling Cat and Andre about her going to the semi finals. The thought that she would never be with that beautiful woman again, caused a painful tremor to go through her heart, cracking it in half.

Jade was absorbed in her thoughts, when she suddenly heard Tori's cheerful voice.

"Hi Jade." Tori said as she gave her a kiss on the check.

Tori noticed that Jade didn't seem to react to the kiss. The Goth just looked at her with a serious look.

"What's wrong?" Tori said with a worried look, as she tried to put her hand on Jade's shoulder. Jade quickly stepped back to avoid Tori touching her. Inside Jade was dying, having Tori touch her would shatter the cold persona she was now wearing.

Jade hadn't planned on telling Tori until after school but realized she wouldn't be able to hold out. Jade knew she needed to strike the painful blow, before she broke down.

Tori's face quickly grew sad as Jade seemed to recoil from her touch. "Jade..I.." Tori began to speak but her voice trailed off. She suddenly had a very bad feeling.

"I can't see you anymore." Jade said coldly.

Tori's lips parted slightly but froze, as a look of pain quickly gathered in her eyes. It took every ounce of Jade's acting skill to not break down and cry on the spot.

"Why?" was all her voice could squeak out.

"There's nothing there, I don't feel anything. To be honest, I only went out with you because I felt bad that Beck hurt you. That and I just wanted to see how the other half lived. I can't pretend anymore. It was getting boring. . I never felt anything for you." Jade said, letting not one trace of emotion seep into her words.

"But I love you…" Tori said as the first tear escaped her eye.

"You're wasting your time and mine. You need to get over your stupid crush and grow up. Now go be a pop star and leave me the fuck alone." Jade said with cruel look in her eyes, as she slammed her locker shut.

As Jade hoped Tori, now uncontrollably upset, ran off in tears. Jade hoped that Tori would leave, because she knew her facade was beginning to crack.

Jade wanted to run herself, leave school and spend the rest of the day sobbing, but she knew she couldn't. She had cast herself in the part of cold, uncaring Jade west. It was a part she had to maintain and she couldn't escape it. She had to maintain her cold persona, regardless of the fact that her heart was even more broken than Tori's.

Jade calmly walked off, a look of cruelty in her eyes. As she walked, she glanced at Beck who had just witnessed the scene. A hopeful look in his eyes appeared for a moment, but a cold stare from Jade ended it quickly.

Pregnant, alone and heartbroken, Jade walked past him without saying a word.

As she got further down the hallway and was alone, Jade whispered under her breath.

"I love you Tori."

Please don't hate me. This is NOT the end of the story; we've just hit a very sad part of it. Please keep reading. Jade has broken up with Tori, for what she thinks is Tori's own good. She's also deathly afraid of being dumped by Tori for being pregnant.

Put simply, Jade is acting stupidly. I'll even admit that.